Joe walked into Mary's room determined. Determined not to cry. Determined to be a strong Reagan. Determined to be like Danny. Mary opened her eyes, and smiled at her boy standing in front of her. "Jojo, come sit "she said quietly patting the bed next to her side. The use of his old nickname that only his mom called him brought instant tears to his eyes. He shook his head as he sat, as if to shake the tears away. "Jojo," whispered Mary, "it's ok to be upset." There was nothing more he could do, all his determination left his body, and the tears flowed.
"Mama, how are we going to live without you here?" He asked pleading for an answer.
"You'll move on my boy, it will hurt, but you'll move on. Just look back on the past 17 years and remember us. Our family. Read." She instructed handing him a letter. Joe took the letter, wiped the tears from his eyes, and began to read.
Dearest Jojo,
You were my baby boy for 6 years, and I loved every minute of it. My baby you will always be. Every since you were able to talk, you were my peacekeeper. You always hated when people fight and argue. You make me so proud. You never cease to amaze me in the way you are with your brothers and sister. I know you are going to do great things. You'll follow your blood with being a cop. I worry but I know you will be a great one. You have the sense in you to do the right thing. Always stay safe. Keep your siblings in line Jojo. Don't let Danny harp on Erin and Jamie too much. And when they are arguing, make sure they always make up before nightfall. Keep being Jamie's friend. He is going to need you so much over the next few years. Help your pop. Be a good boy. I love you so much my Jojo.
I will always be with you,
Mama
Joe's voice cracked on the last words, and he looked at his mother lying in her bed, eyes closed but the tears streaming down her cheeks. He knew she was weak, but she still opened her arms and let him fall onto her chest sobbing. "I meant it Joe, Ill always be with you."
Twenty minutes later, Joe knew he had to let his sister in to see their mother. So he gently kissed her cheek, and whispered goodnight mama. Ill see you in the morning.