Males: Jacob Black & Leah Clearwater
Series: Twilight
Kagome sighed as she walked along the shore of First Beach. She smiled as the water lapped at her feet and erased her footprints in the sand. It was early, maybe five or six in the morning, far too early for normal people to be up and about. Then again she was anything but normal. She smirked at thought, it wasn't a cocky smirk but one that was laced with sadness and a touch of anger. It was…she mused….Leah's smirk.
She smiled at that thought; Leah was no doubt her soul sister. They got along famously, much to everyone's surprise. They all called her the bitter harpy of La Push. She frowned at that thought, it pissed her off. Then again they were all guys, morons to be exact, yes she loved them but kami. They would never understand Leah's pain, her pain. None of them. Well…Jake did, he was just much better at hiding it then Leah, and she, herself, was the master of hiding it well, she used to be.
She paused in her stride, her white ankle length halter summer dress twisted around her slim forum as the wind caressed her making her back length black hair whip around her face. She moved it behind her ear with her pale slim hand. A small sad smile on her face as her eyes darkened with emotions, far to many to name.
She smiled very sadly as she lost herself in her thoughts and in turn her memoires. She was so good at hiding her sadness, her anger, and her hurt because she had a life time of practice doing it. She after all was a half breed, half Japanese and half American. Her mother had met her father, who was married at the time then again it didn't matter to him, while she was studying abroad. Bada bing bada boom her mother left American two months pregnant.
From what her mother had told her and form what she heard from her older half brother Sam, her father was no good. He knew her mother was pregnant, he had even offered to pay for the abortion if she kept their affair under wraps. Of course her mother refused and she was born seven months later to her mother and her husband, Souta's father.
He was a nice man, he really was but like most men in that predicament couldn't handle it all that well. As soon as his own son, no his child, was born she was shoved to the side it was understandable. Souta was not only his first son but his actual blood child. Even so she had been hurt, very badly, and full of anger yet she quickly learned how to hide it. It was almost like a prequel to the rest of her life. She shook her head sadly as she walked back up the beach, away from the crashing waves and sat down on the sandy beach.
Why she had gone down this road, memory lane, she did not know but she was far to lost on it to shove it to the back of her mind. She pulled her knees to her chest and rested her head on them. In all honesty she deserved a pity party every once and a while. For one could only hide behind a mask for so long before it cracked, so she had to take it off every once in a while to patch it up before putting it back on.
So, she was going to do her patching up while no one was around, this she knew as a fact because when she had moved to La Push she had been given a rundown of everything. Them being shifters, the pack dynamics, everything, so of course she knew who was patrolling where and when. It was five thirty so, ironically, Leah was patrolling along with Seth, both of whom usually stayed in the forest. So she was fine to 'repair' her mask.
She flopped back and landed on the sandy ground, not caring that it would get her white dress dirty, if anything it was what she deserved. She should know better than to wear all white, she snorted, she was not worthy to wear the pure color because she was anything but pure. She was tainted, Kmai knew that. Fighting for five years in the feudal era changed a person a lot.
She was no longer that pure innocent happy go lucky school girl she used to be. No she was a seasoned warrior, she was tempered steel. She had gone through a lot of shit and it had indeed made her stronger but it had also tainted her. But it was worth it, she was fighting to save the world, to fix her mistake, and for her happily ever after.
She scoffed at that thought, happily ever after, they only existed in fairy tales, and yes when she was younger she was living one. She was the heroine fighting alongside her comrades, her friends, her family to save the world form the evil half demon. In all actuality it was a fairytale. Her love was supposed to cross time and space, it was a love that was talked about in ancient stories, it was all bullshit.
Yes, they defeated Naraku, restored the jewel to its former glory, the little bauble was once again resting in her side, all was well. Sango and Miroku had settled down, Shippo had finally started his kitsune training and she and Inu Yasha had tried to live out their happily ever after. She had gone so far as to leave her time and her family behind for him and in the beginning it was perfect, everything was so perfect…but then…things changed.
Kikyo, who they thought was gone for good, came back, how no one knew, but she had returned and with her came all the love triangle angst and drama. Inu Yasha was once again torn even though they were married. It wasn't long before tensions began rising, it was plain to see her happily ever after was just no meant to be. By the two month mark of Kikyo's return he had chosen Kikyo again.
It shattered her, she was angry, hurt, pissed, sad, everything that one person could ever feel in a life time she felt in a matter of hours. She wanted to hate them, hate her. Kami knew she did but she couldn't. After the anger and hurt cleared she realized….that they weren't at fault. They were living out their happily ever after and yes, she was the one who suffered because of it but she did not, no she could not blame them, could not hate them.
So she left of civil terms, it hurt her deeply to do so but staying there and trying to vainly fight for what she knew was never hers to begin with would only hurt more. She said her peace though, you can believe that much. Tears were shed, words flung, voices raised, and feeling hurt but by the end of it she felt a bit better and she knew that her place was not there. She returned home.
Of course she had burnt the bridge between her and her family when she had left so of course she was greeted not with open arms but cold looks and harsh words, out of anger mind you, even so she knew she was not welcome there, not yet. So she contacted her older half brother Sam, who had more than enough right to just hang up on her, yet he did not. No, he welcomed her with wide arms, he confessed to her weeks later that he knew something was wrong with her that he could tell by her voice he said it sounded dull broken even, all she knew was that she owed him big time.
She quickly moved to La Push, no longer the sweet young innocent girl who used to visit him every summer, minus her four year stint in the feudal era, many things had changed, on both ends. Though when she heard about the pack and everything going on at the moment she only smiled. It really did prove they were related because weird shit like this could only happen her, her family, and people they loved and cared about, seriously, this shit never happened to anyone else that she knew of.
She blinked when she heard heavy footsteps approach her she rolled over onto her stomach to look at the line of the forest and smiled when she saw who it was. There were two larger than normal wolves. Her eyes shined with amusement. "Hello Leah." Leah nodded at her and padded over to her, Seth not too far behind, and laid down next to her offering her silent comfort. Seth followed his sisters example and before she knew it she was flanked by both Seth and Leah. She smiled sadly as she rolled over so she was on her back again.
"Sorry guys, I'm just taking a break…repairing my mask I guess you could say." She laughed lightly but it came out as a wretched high pitch sound. Leah rolled her eyes and touched her nose to Kagome's cheek, a sign of affection. Kagome smiled and purred, as much as a human could, and let out a huge sigh. Out of everyone here at La Push only Leah and Jacob really got her, they knew her pain. She also got along very well with Seth, he reminded her very much of Souta, who as of this minute was no longer on civil terms with her.
She often wished it was Leah Sam was in love with, well technically he still loved Leah, it just wasn't enough to break the imprint, which she had pointed out was nothing more than a male finding the female that would bear him the strongest pups. Or in this case the female with the weakest genes so that his wolf genes would completely over power hers and ensure that their offspring would be born mostly wolf. How she had learned this was simple, Kouga. While her brother their pack were not wolf demons they were still very wolf orientated and she had a running theory that her pack was some how descended from Kouga or another part of his pack.
Either way she really disliked imprinting because there was no one more then Leah that she would love to have as a sister, though they were anyway. Yes, she liked Emily but in all honestly the girl wasn't that well of a match for her brother, she was too timid, to…breakable. Plus, she really hated the fact that her brother had done pretty much the same thing Inu Yasha had done to her to Leah. Yes, it wasn't all his fault but still, it irked her.
She subconsciously ran a hand through Leah's fur, her other hand was resting on Seth's oversized paw. She just really hated the thought that her brother was hurting Leah this way. Though she did admire Leah, she had the…balls, no that wasn't the right word, no Leah had the courage , the will, and the pride to stay instead of run, like she herself did. Even though it hurt Leah like hell to see them together every day she still stayed, she toughed it out because she was Leah.
In all honesty Kagome admired Leah, she only wished she could be half the woman she was, but she wasn't no she was a coward. She ran from her heartache, she fled like a coward in the night. Yes, she tried to justify it, it was for the best. It made things easier for everyone, blaah blaaah blaaah. Her gaze darkened as she thought of what she could have done. She could have fought harder, she was married to Inu Yasha for Kami's sake. She could have fought tooth and nail for her husband instead she folded under everything. The pressure, the pain, the anger, everything. She folded and cut her losses.
She blinked as Seth whined low in his throat and she turned to him offering him a small smile. She knew he was worried about her, he always was when she was like this, it wasn't often mind you, even so she had tried to shield him from it but he was a nosey little shit and found out a few months ago, ever since then he was by her side when she 'took a break'.
"I'm fine…just being emo is all." She nuzzled his shoulder, his fur tickling her nose, and rumbled soothingly to him. Lean scooted closer to her and crooned lightly. It never ceased to amaze her how much Leah cared about her. Leah, kick ass Leah, the bitter harpy of La Push was comforting her like she was a small pup and it only made her feel worse. Why couldn't she be like Jake? Jake was so well at holding it in, in the time she had been there, five months, she had only seen him lose his cool three times. The last two was when it was just her and him and it was….awkward to say the least.
He was so good at acting, at pretending that everything was fine, that he was fine, that it was odd to see even a small crack in his perfected mask. Even so she was there for him like he had been for her when her own mask cracked. It was one of the main reasons they had grown so close over such a short amount of time. In fact he was her best friend, like Leah and Seth, but at the same time he was so much more. She didn't really know what to call him, or their relationship.
They both had so much baggage with them, they all did her, Leah, and him, yet…they helped each other carry their load. On more than one occasion Seth had joked around calling them the three musketeers, Paul and Jared, of course, took it the wrong way and soon they were known as the threesome of La Push, oh those two deserved what they got, that was for sure. She smiled lightly at that thought, oh boy was her brother pissed at them for starting that rumor. Yet it was Leah who did the most damage.
She blinked when someone sat down behind her and pulled them to their chest, She stiffened for a second causing the person who held her to chuckle lightly. "Calm down Kagome it's just me." She blushed lightly and relaxed in his hold, knowing exactly who was holding her. She smiled when Seth and Leah moved closer to her, in all actuality it was these three that kept her sane now a days, yes Sam tired his hardest to help her but it was never quite enough. Even so she felt gustily for acting like this, and the worst part was that it was happening more often, why she did not know but her mask was cracking piece by piece and it was getting harder and harder to fix.
She hung her head lightly feeling a huge and sudden rush of guilt and embarrassment. "I'm sorry guys." She got two snorts and a huff in return. "Kagome you don't have to apologize. We've been over this before." He was right, they had been over this before. Even so it didn't change things, she still felt bad...she was so damn weak. She was a nothing more than a hollowed out shell of who she used to be…plus she had a fear that she was cracking mentally as well now a days.
Jacob sighed, as if sensing her inner thoughts and hugged her closer to him, he met Leah's gaze as she shifted closer to both Kagome and him, a silent understanding passed between them. Something that only they understood. Believe it or not they both loved Kagome, and not just BFF love, oh no what they felt for her was a mixture of that love and something more.
It wasn't just physical either, because believe you him Leah was straight as an arrow, it was…something deeper…something that you had to feel to understand. But if he had to describe it he would call categorize it as love in its purest if not rawest form. He loved both Kagome and Leah equally and he knew Leah felt the same and he had an inkling that Kagome did as well but she was too scared to truly let herself fall. It was understandable.
Even so he needed to comfort her, it was almost primal, he needed to comfort her and make her feel better, to let her know she was loved and he knew Leah and Seth, to a lesser extent, felt it was well. He rested his head on her shoulder and let his mouth rest by her ear. He spoke softly, his voice was barely above a whisper even so they all heard him clear as day. "Kagome…we're here for you and we always will be." He paused to let it sink in.
Once he was sure it had he spoke again. "We're here for you because we want to be. We love you Kagome and that's all there is to it." He knew he had make it clear that they wanted to be there for her, she had many issues, as many if not more than him and Leah so he knew she had to be reassured that they were there for her because they wanted to be, not because they had to be.
Kagome hiccupped as tears welled in her eyes. She knew what he said was true, he never lied to her, hell neither did Leah, Seth did but only when it came to little things like who ate my so and so. Even so she knew he loved her, not like Jacob and Leah did but like an older sister and it pained her for him to see her like this. For any of them to see her like this.
Seth laid his head down by her legs and whined lightly. He hated it when Kagome got like this, he hated it as much as when his sister got like this as well. In his eyes she was his older sister just like Leah and because of that it hurt him and pissed him off to see her in any kind of pain, especially this kind.
Jacob spoke again. "When you're sad we're sad and we know that when we're sad you're sad. It's just how things are with us." He paused as if trying to organize his thoughts. Once he thought he had them in order he opened his mouth to speak again. "We love you Kagome and we will always be there for you just like we know you will be for us, so whenever you need to let lose, to let you mask down and just vent come to us, let us help you, let us love you." He blinked as Leah flickered her tail at him, he shot her a mock glare, yeah he knew that was sappy but what could he say? When it came to Kagome and Leah, and to a lesser extent Seth, he found himself acting out of character, it was just how things were.
Kagome let his words sink in and it warmed her heart yet at the same time she felt doubt creep up on her. Inu Yasha had promised her the world, forever and a day and yet here she was a broken mess. Even so she knew that when Jacob made a promise he kept it, Leah and Seth did as well so she had no reason to doubt his words, it was just her being cautious. Yet, as she thought these things she already knew it was to late, these three were her world, her brother and the rest of the pack were as well but without these three she would crumble into thousands of little pieces.
She sighed as she felt the cool wind of the beach caress her and smelt the scent of wet sand and salt and smiled as she let her head roll back to look at the brightening sky. She let the warm rays caress her face as she got up and turned to face all three of her saviors. All three had some kind of forlorn look on their faces. She smiled brightly at them and turned to look out at the water. "Now enough of that, let's get back to town, we don't need Paul and Jared spreading nasty rumors again, let alone ones involving Seth. Then again it was pretty amusing to watch the fall out." She smiled at all of them, her mask firmly in place as she faced them her arms behind her back as she rocked lightly on her the balls of her feet.
Leah and Seth stood up and shook themselves out, trying to get rid of the sand that had taken root in their fur coats. Once they were finished they trotted over to Kagome and stood by her, both of them towered over her making her look insanely small. Jacob smiled as he got up, his own goofy mask back in place as he walked over to Kagome and picked her up bridal style, shooting Leah a small smile, he quickly began a brisk pace back towards the village with Leah and Seth keeping pace.
Kagome huffed as she sat in his arms yet made no move to fix the problem instead she laid her head against his shoulder and sighed happily. In all honesty if one day her mask did shatter and everyone saw the real her she knew that she would always have these three by her side and it really did lift her spirits. Yes, she had lost her happily ever after with her first love but she had found something much more important than a silly fairytale ending and she wouldn't trade it for the world.