A/N: Enjoy!

Chapter 14

Chris laid in his bed thinking about the kiss he shared with Josh in the bathroom. It played over and over in his head. He closed his eyes, what had he done? Why did Josh do that? He was with Sam. This incident did not help with him with the thoughts he has been having lately.

"I-I have to tell Mike…." Chris told himself, he couldn't lie to Mike. After the kiss happened Josh had left leaving Chris in the bathroom giving him time to recover. He had gone back to Mike acting as if nothing had happened.

Josh sighed rolling on to his back resting his arms behind his head thinking about what he had done. He closed his eyes remembering everything perfectly. He missed those soft lips. Why did he do that? He was with Sam, he liked her. But his heart belonged to a different blonde. Guess you could say he acted out in impulse. They had a shared a long deep kiss. He missed him, that much was shown in the kiss they shared and Chris did too. The way he pulled him in. Josh wasn't the only one missing the others company.

Chris stood outside of Mike's apartment he was feeling all kinds of nerves. Mike had invited him over nothing out of the usual. The door opened Chris stood with a weak smile trying his hardest not to let his guilt show.

"Hey!" Mike greeted letting him.

"H-hey." Chris replied. Once in Mike pulled him into a kiss. It was sweet, caring and loving. Chris felt the guilt grow inside. Mike pulled away frowning.

"What's wrong?" Mike asked.

"Heh. N-Nothing." Chris lied walking passed him. Mike stood watching, something was wrong. Did it have to do with Josh? Chris hadn't been himself since last night. Was he still processing the fact that Josh had moved on? Should Mike ask? No, why bring him up? He had Chris. Those doubts he had of Chris could fly out the window now. Mike had nothing to worry about, only thing he was concerned about was keeping Chris happy.

"So I was thinking maybe we could go to the beach sometime." Mike spoke. Chris looked back at him. Again that forced smiled.

"Y-yeah sounds good…" Chris replied lowering his gaze. Mike bite his lower lip. Something was wrong. But what could it be?

"Chris, look I'm sorry things didn't work out between Josh and you." Mike finally spoke. Chris looked up at Mike wide eye.

"I can tell by the way you're acting that you're hurting, but please…. Let me try." Mike pleaded looking at Chris. Chris felt his guilt pile up quick by each word Mike spilled from his lips. Mike, he was really trying and it wasn't fair to keep the kiss a secret, how would he react? Would he still want to be with Chris?

"Josh kissed me." Chris finally confessed. Wait. Just Josh? Nooo, it wasn't just Josh Chris played a part in that kiss as well. What the hell was he doing? Was he that scared to tell the truth? Mike stood still processing the information.

"Josh? H-he kissed you?" Mike rephrased. Chris lowered his gaze nodding.

"I-I…." Chris strutted trying to think of what to say next. Should he confess that he liked it? Maybe tell the whole truth and confess he kissed him back? That he still loved Josh even though he was with someone else. No it was too last. Chris was too scared to even look up at Mike. He heard the door slam he looked up to see him gone, and that effect of lying hit him hard.

"Michael!" Chris yelled chasing after him.

Mike pushed the lobby's front door open with anger. He could hear Chris behind him calling him pleading him to stop but he refused. Happy for both of them!? What a joke! He was willing to forgive the first time but a second time? No.

"Mike please!" Chris yelled grabbing his arm stopping him.

"No! He needs to stop! If he keeps pursuing you then I'll… never have you…" Mike added at the end frowning. Chris looked at him wide eye.

"I have you…. But why do I feel like I don't…?" Mike asked looking up at Chris. The pain in his eyes, how could Chris face him? Chris lowered his gaze the knot forming in his throat was hurting. What was he doing? All he was doing was hurting Mike. He didn't deserve this.

"Please…. Understand Mike…" Chris pleaded as he stepped forward resting his head on Mike's chest, he could feel his heart pounding loud against his chest.

"You're right, Josh still has my heart…." Chris confessed. Mike rested his hands on Chris's shoulders pulling him away. His eyes were glossy almost as if he was at the edge of crying.

"I-I can't do this…" Mike replied Chris's eyes widen as he shook his head. He could fix this! It still wasn't too late.

"No. Mike, I love you too!" Chris smiled reaching up only to have Mike stop him.

"Stop." Mike closed his eyes not wanting to look at Chris.

"Let's end this." Mike added opening his eyes, still not wanting to look at Chris. Mike walked passed Chris leaving him. What just happened? Chris stood as the tears ran down his cheeks he blinked swallowing the knot in his throat. He lowered his gaze to ground.

Mike closed his front door he leaned against it slowly sliding down. He rested his face in the palm of his hands thinking. A tear running down his cheek. How long had it been since he cried? Especially over love? Mike wiped the tear away angrily.

"Fuck! C'mon Mikey don't cry over him! Never really had him anyway…" He told himself. A strange way to make yourself feel better.

Chris laid in his bed, he was dead inside. He had no motivation to do anything. His eyes were red the scene with him and Mike played over and over. He laid thinking if there was anything he could had said, or done to keep that from ever happening. There was. Not having gotten so worked up over Josh and Sam. He closed his eyes.

"Stop…" He told himself not wanting to think anymore.