CHAPTER EIGHT

It had been two weeks since Ben had last seen Jay. A whole fortnight had passed since his best friend, the guy he considered family, had taken his anal virginity in a crazy, alcohol fueled fuck fest. And nothing...nothing else at all had played on his mind since.

Ben had remained in the same hostel for as long as humanly possible, hoping, praying that Jay would just decide to turn up out of the blue. Jay had been ignoring his calls, blanking his texts and literally pretending as if Ben didn't exist ever since it had happened. Ben missed his touch, his taste, the smoothness of his skin, the contours of his body, the smell of his freshly washed hair but most of all, he missed his company. That night was amazing but in reality Ben just wanted his brother back! He just felt so alone.

It's not as if he didn't understand. But that it doesn't mean it doesn't hurt!

Ben remembered how scared he was when he came out his father. He even remembered how stressed out he became in the days before he broke the truth about his sexuality to Jay. Thinking back now and remembering how cool he was with everything, surely it should have rang some kind of alarm bells?

But then at the time, Jay had shown absolutely no interest in guys at all. Even recently though Jay had never given any kind of indication that he was having doubts about his sexuality. He had always seemed so sure, so...straight.

Ben on the other hand had been dressing in tutus and dancing to Lady Gaga for as long as he could remember. As much as he played the big man, as much as he tried to convince his Dad that he was straight, as much as he tried to convince himself, Ben had always known he was gay.

Back before he came to London his mother and stepfather had encouraged his love for theatre, dance and music. They didn't make him gay, they simply embraced who he was...something he feared his father Phil would never be able to accept.

Ben laid back on the bed and inhaled deeply, clamping his eyes shut trying to block out all the noise. His mind he recreated those scenes so many times. Countless nights he had dreamed of the taste of Jay's cock on his tongue. His prostate quivered every time he imagined Jay's member prodding around inside his ass sending him to euphoric, lustful state. This time Ben lay and remembered as Jay's cock sprang out of his tight boxer shorts and hit him on the nose, a little drip of precum sliding down onto his top lip.

But as much as he tried to drift into another sex filled dream, nothing could block out the thumping at the bedroom door.

On the first knock he bolted up hoping it was Jay. But the constant thumping that followed confirmed to him that it wasn't. He strode over to the door and thrust it open to see a short, fat Eastern European looking man standing on the other side. His twisty mustache folded over his top lip and his unkempt chest hair flowed over the top of his wife-beater.

"Where is my money!?" The man bellowed in a Turkish accent that made the "my" sound more like a "me". "You owe money." He grunted.

"Calm down mate, I'll get your money alright." Ben responded, grimacing at the smell of the short man's body odour.

"I am serious. You owe me three hundred pounds!"

"Don't be ridiculous, it's only been a couple of nights." Ben exclaimed.

"No. Your last payment was short. You owe nearly four hundred pounds!"

"Well is it three or four hundred?" Ben quipped with a cocky smirk.

"Four. You owe four hundred pounds. You pay or you go!"

"Yeah, yeah. You'll get your money!" Ben bemoaned forcing the door and slumping against it. He could hear the man rambling loudly in Turkish on the other side of the door, cursing no doubt he thought.

Maybe it was time to go.

Jay wasn't coming back.

WRITERS NOTES: Thanks for the supportive comments and I do apologise for the long awaited return of this fic, I've been insanely busy! Kept it fairly SMUT free in this chapter but if you'd prefer it more smutty then I can always do that! Or if there is anything in particularly you'd like to see, I'll try and work it into the story.

Building up to Good Friday now which should be within the next few chapters. Before that, we have Ben and Jay's reunion that takes place before Good Friday which will either feature in the next chapter or the one after that.

Keep those fantastic comments going!