10. The Most Important Shower of a Young Man's Life.

[Eren]

"Wait at least two hours after eating. Do NOT purge your anus with lots of water as it will dehydrate your gut. If the water is scalding it couldn't damage the inside lining of your rectum. Anything other than water can irritate this, too. Simply, clean the outside normally in the shower and use the small syringe attached to gently squeeze warm water inside."

This was all almost too much for my little brain to deal with, and we hadn't even taken our clothes off yet.

My hand glided around my back and I slowly began inching over the cheeks to where the hole was. I had turned the water heat down but the place was still steamy, and I found my breaths shallow as I felt the puckered edges and began rubbing it gently.

I sighed, leaning further against the tiles as my dick began to bob up with the sensation. Fuck … I was just supposed to clean it, but I so badly wanted to do more. I suspected that the Captain liked shower sex, since it was so much cleaner and everything. I could almost imagine it was his fingers, cold and slender, massaging me gently and slowly pushing inside to stretch me out. The strain resounded inside my cock as he pushed deeper, slowly rubbing it all around as the water ran down my legs and my knees almost gave way. My free hand had been holding me up against the wall but now I couldn't resist reaching for my dick.

That's how I found myself with a cheek pressed against a cold, slimy tiled wall, angling my hips upwards to reach the jet of water coming from the shower head, with one hand on my dick and the other in my ass. Sex with men is so weird. Like, what if I rip a fart? What if he pulls his dick out and there's shit on it? Heichou's a clean-freak anyway, how can he even stand the thought of putting his thing in me like that? If he hadn't included these instructions, I might have dared to hope he'd let me put mine in his. But, maybe that wasn't a thing for a sub to do.

Unfortunately, this sub was a virgin, and I had been saving myself for my Master. It was ever since the nettle sting incident, I decided that both my dick and my ass were off limits to anyone but him. Anyone, including myself.

Looking back, this idea wasn't so great in a practical way. I was so pent up that I would probably cum immediately if he just touched the tip with one finger. Or perhaps his tongue …

"Nrgh," I moaned, and grit my teeth against the throbbing erection. What was I doing? I had waited for a reason, so that I had something real to offer to Heichou: my virginity. He hadn't ordered my self-denial, he hadn't even mentioned it, but for some reason it just felt right. I had the opportunity to experience something for the first time with someone so important, and it felt wrong to spoil myself before we had the chance to do it together.

My chance was here. My love was about to fuck me as soon as I'd completed a survey about a hundred pages long and … and … and what was I saying again?

I was too fucking horny already. I remembered his low voice in my ear, and opened my eyes to look down at the metal syringe on the floor. I just had to be patient a little longer. My virginity would be his … and I, his possession. These were my self-imposed chains. His was the only passion I would allow myself.

Suddenly, there was a loud banging on the door. "Are you trying to drown yourself in there, suicidal maniac? Some of us need to take a piss too, ya know!"

"Jean!" came Mikasa's voice, along with a dull whacking sound. "Eren's in there, leave him alone!"

"What's with you obsessing over Eren's bathroom schedule, Mikasa? It's really fucking weird …"

I opened my eyes, sighing and dropping my hand. I looked down and watched the water running off my dick as it dropped down dismally. There was nothing like Mikasa's voice to turn me right off.

"Now — what do you want to do next, Eren?"

Well, that was a weird thing to remember right now.

I blinked through a haze of hormones to see Heichou kneeling over my lower half, rubbing himself gently.

My ass was clean. I cleaned it. It should be clean. Please don't kill me.

"I — ugh —" His hand slinked up my thigh and my erection stiffened painfully, my words turning to mindless gurgles. He placed his hands either side of my head and leaned over me, drawing his legs up around my waist and burning me with the touch of his skin. I clenched my hands up in my own hair, unable to even touch him back. It was too much. I was close to erupting already just from his mouth and lips and — oh, Godesses — his throat. Blowjobs were awesome — giving, receiving, I didn't care. His dick in my mouth was even so erotic I wanted to explode. The sensation of its giant hardness inside me made me increasingly aware of my asshole, and despite my virginity I knew my jaws could open a great deal wider than that little hole. But the fear was almost part of the fun by now. Every new feeling was so unexpected, and he took control, always knowing exactly how to make me squirm. My holes were his to use, I decided, and he could use them however he liked. My hands covered my face in embarrassment as his head buried into my neck, kissing and sucking and biting. I squirmed, trying to hold in all the weird noises that kept coming out somehow, and kicking my legs out in frustration.

"Ahh — ngh — fuck, Levi, fuck me — please!"

He grabbed my hands and pinned them beside my head, kneeling in my lap and making my heart panic rapidly at the close contact of our naked bodies. I could barely open my eyes but I felt him over me, leaning down to kiss my face all over. "You're sure, Eren?"

"Yess," I hissed, rocking my hips back and forth and struggling against his grip.

I opened one eye and peeked up at him, as he stared back into my face with supreme nonchalance. I turned my head, meeting his gaze fully.

"You cleaned yourself like I instructed?"

I scowled slightly. "Yes, sir."

He smiled down at me and kissed me roughly on the mouth. I was gasping so much and it was wet and messy, but losing my head in his lust felt all the more exciting.

I lay immobilised as he climbed to the bedside cabinet and took out a little tin and a jar of liquid. I watched as he moved in between my legs and hiked my foot up behind his head, exposing me completely and making me blush. I cringed away, unable to look, as my muscles began convulsing as if I was a mare in heat.

"Eren …" I felt his hot breath on my thigh and scrunched my eyes shut with a groan. "Are you sure you're OK with this?"

"Mm-hm," I moaned, bringing my hand up and biting down on it as my lingering arousal boiled in my stomach. I opened my eyes and looked at him. "Levi … I want this."

His mouth fell open and he sunk his teeth into my thigh making me writhe and yell out.

"You can tell me to stop at anytime." His voice became lowered with lust. "I'm going to loosen you up first with my fingers, understood? If that goes fine I'll put my dick in you, as you wish."

I nodded fervently, wishing for him to start already. He pecked kisses down my leg as he opened the tin and pulled out a rubber, rolled it over one of his long fingers, then opened the jar and dipped his wrapped-up finger in it generously.

"Ah!" I gasped from the cold, and then groaned from the pleasure on the smooth liquid being rubbed around my hole. My toes began to curl as he rubbed all around it, sending shivers down my legs and heat up my dick. The stress of arousal was accumulating inside me so intensely, it was like nothing I had ever experienced. My breathing was heavy and I tried to control it as I opened my eyes and looked up at him as he concentrated on his task, biting his lip gently and lowering his eyebrows in concentration. He was so sexy. I could barely believe that this man who was humanity's strongest, this man who sliced down titans in their droves, was now staring at my fucking asshole with that look on his face. He glanced up, suddenly, and caught me staring. The sight of his eyes on mine made me gasp, and next thing I grabbed my chest, groaning loudly as his finger moved gently inside, pushing in and out slowly and spreading around the lubricant. At first there was a strange sort of resistance — not exactly painful, but uncomfortable and not that good — but after a while his finger could move smoothly, and it didn't feel half bad. His muscled chest was heaving as he watched me at his mercy beneath him, and I gazed up in awe at my Master, his strength and his power and his overwhelming authority.

"Levi …" I groaned more as his finger travelled deeper, right down to the knuckle, and pressed upwards causing intense shock of pleasure that made me scream out. My dick pulsed furiously, preparing to blow. I grabbed the sheets and shut my eyes, panting feverishly, and gently began to move my hips up and down to the motion of his thrusts. Oh fuck. It was so close — I was about to —

His finger pulled out. "How is it?" he asked, and I just kept nodding and whimpering and thrusting into nothing. "I'm going to put two in now, OK?" I held my breath as I felt something larger pushing against the entrance which had already closed up tight again. "Relax a little, Eren," he said, kissing my thigh again and stroking my abdomen.

I writhed a little, and shook my head. How was I supposed to relax in a situation like this? I was all pent up and ready to cum. I couldn't hold it back much longer. Oh Goddesses, this was embarrassing.

"It's never going to fit," I gasped.

He snorted. "Of course it is. Just think of the biggest crap you've ever taken."

I cringed. That was not really something I wanted to imagine right now.

"Oh — ahh!" I yelled, as his fingers pushed in deep and stretched me out with an explosion in my loins. "Shit," I moaned, sitting up slightly to see him watching my face as he shoved his two fingers in and out. The sight combined with the action itself was too much to bear. My eyes rolled back. "Levi — Ah, I can't — Stop!"

His fingers slid out of me immediately and I rolled away from him, shaking and throbbing. "What? — Are you OK?" he asked. I felt his weight beside me a moment later, and blinked my eyes open as I tried to reclaim control of my lungs. I looked down at myself, and then hid my face in my hands.

"I'm sorry," I squeaked.

"Sorry?" he repeated. "Eren, are you alright?"

I nodded, my face growing redder.

"Did I hurt you?"

I shook my head. "No … it felt good," I whispered.

I felt his hand lay lightly on my shoulder. "Then … why did you ask me to stop?"

I scrunched my eyes shut, feeling my throat close up. "I don't know … it was so intense." I felt as if I was going to burst into tears, but I swallowed the lump down my closing throat and reached behind me, looking for his touch. He took my hand, squeezing it gently. I felt his body inflate and collapse in a sigh. "I'm sorry," I choked out again.

"Eren, there's no need to apologise."

"But … I'm embarrassed."

"Don't be. This is the first time someone else has touched you, isn't it?"

I swallowed, and then nodded shyly.

"Then it's only to be expected that you feel overwhelmed. Don't worry about it. Your first time, every little thing that goes wrong seems a disaster because you imagine sex as this glorified experience. But once you've done it a few times you realise that minor things go wrong all the time. It's no problem. We grow with each other, and find a pace that suits us both."

I turned my head, and found his eyes. "Really?"

He nodded, smiling. "Yeah. I mean, it could have been worse. Your nerves could have made you completely flaccid." He wrapped his arms around my chest, pulling me close. "I don't care whether you come in ten seconds or ten minutes or an hour. I just want to make you feel good."

I rolled over and threw my arms around him, pulling my body close to his and burying my face in his shoulder. He gripped me tight, and I felt my heartbeat quicken again as I felt his pulse beating and his breath on my ear. I gasped a little as I lifted my leg and felt his dick still erect against me.

I was so relieved that Heichou was understanding that it made me brave. "It did feel good … I've wanted this for so long and I … I had thought of touching myself, um, down there. Just to stretch myself out to save you the trouble, but also just because I wanted to imagine it was you. But for some reason I just felt like waiting instead. I wanted to save myself for you, Levi."

His body lifted as he inhaled with the power of my words, and I felt him pull me closer as my dick began throbbing, the arousal from before still built up against a dam and dying to be let out. I pushed my hips forward until I winced as the tip of my dick found his skin and sent a shock through my body. "Eren …" he growled.

"Levi … I'm ready now," I whispered. "I want you to take my body and possess me. Please?"

Before I knew what had happened he had flipped me onto my back, leaning over me and kissing up my neck to my ear. "You're sure?"

I nodded, pushing my face and my fear into the pillow and gripping the sheets in my fists as I threatened to yell out. "Yes — ngh — fuck me!" I gasped.

His hands roved down my back and over my ass, ending on my thighs and he pulled them up so that I was kneeling. My dick bobbed between my legs as I heard him rip open another packet, and I turned halfway around to watch him roll the condom onto his penis. My eyes widened as I noticed how small and delicate his fingers were compared to it. I turned back, clutching everything I could as my legs trembled.

My body jerked as I felt the cold lubricant once again, this time being applied by a thicker and silkier thing, which I quickly realised was his own dick. His hand gripped into my butt cheek and the other reached around and began gently stroking my penis. I gasped, thrusting lightly into his hand as the sensations built heat up in my neck.

"This might hurt for the first few minutes, Eren, but after that I hope you'll start to enjoy it."

"Yes, sir," I replied shakily, my eyelids lowering as I took in his built frame and his muscular chest, his pale face and his hair hanging down into his eyes. I turned back around and pressed my face into the pillow, barely able to believe that this was finally happening.

I gasped as he began to push his penis harder against my hole. But he had been right: the little road bumps we hit along the way were not the bits I remembered afterwards. I felt like it would never fit inside me, and it actually took a decent amount of time, but very slowly I felt him begin to penetrate me shallowly as I widened to accommodate him. And as he jerked me off I began to notice less and less the strange discomfort of it stretching. It was a weird feeling, not exactly a pain and almost a pleasure, but it burned my cock whatever it was. He hands clutched me so tightly, and the pressure of his dick was steady and controlled. I knew he was holding back.

I heard him let out a long sigh at the same time as I gasped from the presence of the whole tip inside me. I twisted around, and gasped as I saw his face screwed up in concentration. I groaned as he slowly plunged deeper and deeper and it began to hurt like hell. I bit down on the pillow, my toes clenching up, until suddenly I seemed to loosen up and his dick shot deep inside me and hit something with a blinding shock of heat.

"Argh!" I yelled, screaming nonsense words as I felt my dick pulse. "Oh, Fuck!"

"Oh, Eren …" he murmured, reaching out and taking my hand. I clenched it tight as I panted and then screamed again as he thrust again. His balls crashed against mine and the presence of his whole dick inside me made me harder than ever.

"Ah — ah — Levi, it's all in!" I turned around again and saw him biting his lip and watching me, his hands running over my ass cheeks and making my eyelids flutter. And that was it, a penis was inside me. Levi's penis: my Heichou and my Master.

"Eren … how does my dick feel inside of you?"

My legs felt like they were on fire and his words made my dick twitch. "It's good," I moaned. "Please … keep going."

His voice was laced with a smile and croaky from restraint. "I'm going to start moving now." I nodded and watched his body moving back, feeling the pressure slide away as my empty ass twitched inside as he left. He moved slowly, pushing back in as the path became slippier. He closed his eyes, thrusting gently into me, his breaths coming in heavy. On the way in he hit that spot again and I yelped, making him growl and lay on top of me, pulling me close and pumping into me with steadily increasing speed. His breath on my neck and the heat and pulsating of my insides forced me to bite the pillow, not caring that I was drooling or that I was too close to exploding or anything, really. My head was too full to think of anything but that hot, blinding pleasure. He grabbed my hair, pulling my face around and kissing me harshly on the mouth as he rode my ass over and over. I was gasping, shaking, and burning up with this passion as I opened my eyes and found his, his pupils dilated and black as night against a thin line of grey. His eyes widened slightly as I watched, but then I had to clench my eyes shut as a new wave of pleasure coursed through my veins and I felt the orgasm building up again.

"Levi — I'm gonna —"

Suddenly, he grunted and grabbed my arms, pulling me back onto my knees. The change of position made me scream and hit me with a new force. "Oh, fuck—!" Stars lit up my eyelids and my legs buckled as I reached my climax, the heat breaking out of my tip in transparent white cum. I collapsed forwards, saved by his arms, and with a gasp he pulled himself out of me, ripping the condom off and finished himself, quickly spewing his load between my legs, clutching me close and groaning into my skin.

Together we panted until exhaustion set in and we crumpled onto the bed, moving aside to avoid the sticky wet mess left on the covers.

I almost laughed to myself. We hadn't even got under the sheets.

"Sorry," I panted. "I made a mess."

He pulled me tight and his hot sweaty skin cooled mine. "Don't fucking apologise, Eren," he sighed. "It's too cute. I mean, annoying."

I turned and saw him smile wearily at me with a Levi Heichou smile. My recovering heartbeat accelerated and I instinctively leaned up and kissed him passionately. I clutched his chest and he wrapped his arms around me, hugging me tight, and exhaling contently into my hair. I smiled, feeling my asshole still tingling a little as my lungs caught up with my heart.

"Thank you, Heichou," I mumbled, and quickly corrected myself as I heard him give an annoyed noise. "I mean, Levi."

I lay catching my breath as Levi got up and grabbed a tissue box from the bedside cabinet, wiped himself, then me, and then the sheets. He leaned over and kissed the top of my head, as I looked up smiling.

He smiled back, ruffling my hair. "I'll be right back, OK?"

"OK," I replied. He stood up and I watched his naked body leave the room. Levi's skin was so pale and his frame so lithe. Not to mention, his ass looked so firm I just wanted to bite a chunk right off. A moment later, I heard the running water of the en suite shower.

I sighed, and stared up at the vaulted wooden ceiling. I lay contently for awhile until my feet began to itch and I looked around the Captain's bedroom. It was meticulously clean, despite the clothes and condoms on the floor and the cum on the duvet. Curiously, I leaned over the side of the bed and studied the rubbers. I guess the little syringe really did its job because there was no shit in sight.

I lay back, wondering why I didn't feel any different.

Looking around again, I noticed the clean sheets on the armchair in the corner and sprung to my feet, imagining Heichou would be very pleased if I changed the sheets before he got out of the shower. I got up intending to do so, but as I stood on my feet I noticed the little ache in my ass, and suddenly noticed the faint sheen of sweat on my skin and the moistness of leftover lube between my legs. Nervously, I went to the bathroom door and knocked gently before entering.

He was already drying himself, his body pale and shimmering with water droplets, and looked up at me, pushing his pitch black hair from his eyes. My words left me when I saw him there, so beautiful, and he cocked his head to the side when I remained silent and staring.

I shook myself. "Um, I should have a shower too, right?" I asked. He patted his muscled chest dry and I averted my eyes. "Next time we could shower together to save water, even."

I looked up to see him smiling. "Eren, I was drawing you a bath. Is it OK if I bathe you? I'd like to give you a different sort of attention now."

I blinked. What the hell did that mean? "Ah — but — you've already done so much for me, you don't have to —"

He rolled his eyes. "It's not like I'm really being that considerate. It pleases me to give you attention. So are you too self-conscious to deal with that, or will you just get in the tub?"

I swallowed, somehow nervous again, and then nodded. I stood awkwardly as he finished drying himself and wrapped the towel around his narrow waist. He prepared the bath and I stepped into the steaming water, sitting down as he procured a stool and sat down beside me.

"This is something I like to do as a sort of aftercare," he said, and I remembered the day he first kissed me when I first learned that word. He dipped a cloth into the water and then began foaming soap into it. "I know we didn't do anything harsh today but it's a nice ritual and a chance to discuss the best or worst parts of the scene, anything we should ban or if there's something else we'd like to try. It's also just a display that, no matter what I say or how I treat you in there … I still care about you." He looked into my eyes, reaching out and placing the cloth against my neck. I recognised the scent of lemon soap, a smell I had come to associate with my sweet Captain. "Because … I like you, too, Eren."

My heart swelled a little as I looked down shyly.

"So, how are you feeling?"

"Fine," I said. "You can be even rougher with me next time."

"Oi," he said, hitting my chest. "Don't be so lewd." I smiled, relaxing into the warm water as he massaged me with the cloth. The warm water soothed my skin and I sank into comfort along with my lover's gentle touches. "So you'd like there to be a next time, would you?" he asked.

I blinked, sitting up a little straighter. "Well, yes! Isn't that what the contract was about?"

He wiped a splash of water from his cheek with his elbow, frowning a little. "Oh, no, not at all. That's a temporary contract, its only real function is to begin the conversation about what's allowed or not. Technically we'd have to make a new one for every scene, and always discuss it beforehand."

He pushed my back and I obediently leaned over, hugging onto my knees as he washed my shoulders. I stared at the wall, very confused and tired by all the technicalities. "But … couldn't we just experiment as we go?"

Levi stopped scrubbing, and I turned to watch him as he wrung the cloth over and over with his hands, seeming to concentrate very hard on that task. "Tell me, Eren, what is it about this sort of relationship that appeals to you?"

My stomach dropped a little, and my mind flapped into panic as I searched for some response. Didn't he know already? "Well, it's — it's you, Heichou," I said quietly. "I want you to enjoy me."

Levi's pressed his lips together and looked up at me. "That's very sweet, Eren. But it's not entirely true, is it?"

I gasped, my heartbeat stopping. "Levi—"

For some bizarre reason, he was smiling. "It's alright, Eren. I want you to have your own desires as well as catering to mine. You didn't feel this way about me always, did you? Your interest began when you discovered this … fetish of mine."

I pushed some hair from my forehead, feeling uncomfortable. I was devoted to Levi — why couldn't he see that? Before I could find some way of explaining myself, he was speaking again.

"The way I see it, there are different levels of submissiveness … One person may like the pretence of having the power taken away, but most of the excitement comes from regular sex and stimulation. Another might genuinely enjoy the pain and suspense of a more hardcore scene, but still for their own direct pleasure. Another may mostly enjoy being able to gratify to the will of their Dominant partner. And then there are others who want to give up all control, all day, everyday, and live to serve their Dom." My heart was beating frantically, and I shot him a nervous glance. But he was still just smiling, and began washing my chest as I leaned stiffly back in the tub. "If it's equivalent for Dominants, I'd have to say I get mine from directly inflicting pain and controlling. But I want a full-time lover, not a slave. And I also very much enjoy being able to turn you on while I'm at it."

He sluiced water over my head and I shivered, despite the heat of the water. I still didn't know what to say, so I said nothing at all.

"It's important that we talk about this, Eren … If we were to just experiment as we go, I'd be scared of pushing you too far and hurting you. There are things you wouldn't be ready for immediately."

"Like what?" I asked curiously. I highly doubted it.

He reached down suddenly and grabbed my nuts. "Like cock and ball torture, maybe? I could tie you up with ropes until bits of you turned blue." He let go, and I was able to breathe again. I was almost sure he was going to crush them. I started to understand slightly. He could have really hurt me, if he wanted to. So how was that pain different to what I was imagining as a good sort of pain? He went on. "Or I might decide that you're my slave, and tie you up in the cellar and only feed you on my cum for a few weeks. Would you enjoy that?"

My dick was getting hard at the mention of being fed on cum, but I certainly did not want to be tied up in dark cellars for weeks at a time. I bowed my head and shook it, but shivered as he ran a finger along my balls and up my shaft.

"There's a level of pain and discomfort that you can't handle right now. And some positions need stamina. I can train you, but only if I know your boundaries," he said. "We'll find them together, OK?"

I nodded. "OK." I paused. "I don't want you to turn my nuts blue."

He laughed. "How about I go grab the contract and we can get a few ideas of what you would like?" He smiled at me, so excited, and I forced myself to smile back.

"Yeah … I'm just pretty tired," I said, bringing my hand up to hide a forced yawn.

He nodded, rolling his eyes. "Of course you are, what am I thinking?" He moved down and washed me in-between my legs and all the way down to my feet. "How about you have a think on it for the next few days, and we can discuss it again next time?"

I nodded, and stood up as he reached for the towel and held it up for me. He patted me dry from head to waist, then got me to step out of the tub. He went to change the bedsheets as I finished drying, being careful not to drip too much on the floor. He had taken care to slip in how much he hated stepping in bathroom puddles in his bare feet when he woke up to piss in the middle of the night.

I sighed. My lover sure was meticulous. I dried my ass with the towel, wincing slightly and remembering that gorgeous strain that made me harder than I had ever been in my life. I was ready to feel it again, that and more. But instead I dressed and climbed into a clinically clean new bedspread and angled my hips away as I cuddled with my Heichou, hiding my eagerness. I didn't dare to ask if we could go another round. It was probably somewhere in that hundred-page contract about ass recovery, or only cumming once a day or something. And I knew for a fact that he didn't intend on giving me anything more until we had discussed things. So many rules, and so much discussion.

Talking was boring. I just wanted to fuck.

The next morning, I slipped out before he awoke. I gently shut the door behind me, and walked down the corridor. My whole body was aching and stiff from last night's endeavours, and I savoured each shock off pain that the impact of my footsteps on the floor shot up through my sensitive ass.

Suddenly, I heard steps. I rounded the corner to see Squad Leader Hanje striding off away from me in a hurry.

"Oh, Hanje-san!" I called, and she spun around quickly.

"Ah, Eren! Hi! Beautiful morning isn't it?"

I looked at her pink face, and the creepy big smile she was wearing. "Um, what are you doing around here so early?"

"Me?" she asked, throwing a hand up flippantly. "Oh, I was just … returning from my morning jog!" She yawned, stretching widely. "I definitely wasn't eavesdropping on yourself and the Captain having beautiful morning sex, that's for sure."

I raised my eyebrows slowly. "But … we didn't have morning sex."

"Of course, that's why I didn't hear it," she explained. "Anywho, how did yesterday go?"

I blinked a little, and shook myself. "Oh — great! Your advice worked like a charm. All I had to do was take my shirt off and whack my head on the underside of the table and he practically ordered me to his bed."

She laughed loudly. "That's Levi for you. He never could resist playing the nurse! Yep, there's nothing that gets him hard quite like a damsel in distress."

Saddle sores. Nettle stings. Walking into doors. Yeah … there seemed to be a pattern there. I had hurt myself accidentally three times, and once on purpose. But after last night, I wouldn't need to hurt myself again to get his attention. I had it now, undivided and unrestrained, and from now on Levi would be the only one hurting me. But whether it was more for his gratification or mine, I couldn't yet say.

Hello my dear readers, and my sincerest apologies for the long delay. New job and whatnot, and other fandoms requiring my attention. I do plan on finishing this, though, because it's important to me. Thank you all so much for the support so far, please keep reviewing and I'll try to keep writing faster!