Chapter 17

Lauren woke up early, the kids were restless inside her. Bo was sleeping next to her, she touched her face, finally there was some warmth. She slowly got up and checked the fridge and the chicken. She was hungry, from the moment Bo arrived, that fear she had inside disappeared. She didn't care what was going to happen from now on. She felt so safe around Bo. She was going to make sure Bo was getting some rest, until whatever comes towards them. She could understand the Succubus would never leave her alone again. Lauren compromised with the fact, this is the person, the creature she was bonded forever and she loved all of her.

Lauren found jam and milk, she boiled eggs and prepared a very big breakfast, she felt her daughters moving from excitement. Since she got pregnant she was eating everything she wanted but also she was making sure to keep healthy and not indulge much or binge. The guys were complaining that she wasn't eating well and was weak, but Lauren knew it wasn't the food but the fact she was missing Bo.

She turned and watched her baby sleeping. She is been throu so much. All her life. Lauren thought how different they are. In appearance, life, character, genes.

She was raised to have everything, finished school, got a degree, was top of her class and became a great scientist. The years she has been a slave was a big slap on her confidence, but still she had her science and work to hold on to. But Bo, her life has been a constant struggle, abandoned by her real parents, struggling to fit in a religious society and then realizing she is different. Everything changing in her life. Thank God she had Kenzi, Lauren thought. Kenzi has been her rock. These two were such a great team, as Bo said, Kenzi was a real sister to her. Dyson, she didn't want to think about him, he got what he deserved and I bet more if he survives. Bo was so sensitive, she would forgive people so easily. Sometimes she was more human than me. Lauren could understand that. Kenzi, Trick, Dyson were her family. Bo couldn't think some of them could betray her. She was so loyal to them. She was so loyal and couldn't think they wont be as loyal. She was so loyal that she betrayed me, Lauren thought. And then there was her dark side, the monster. Lauren found that part of Bo scary but also fascinating. As a scientist she wanted to research, find whats causing Bo to turn to someone else, and why. She also loved the way the monster was so protective of her, everytime she was under danger, Bo would change to that wild animal who could only see her and nobody else. It was one of the signs that made their relationship, their bond so strong, so unbreakable.

Lauren continued to prepare breakfast thinking about the past, when she heard movement. She turned, and saw Bo. She was awake. Watching her. No blue eyes, Lauren noticed. She said nothing, she turned and continued preparing breakfast.

"Lauren"

Lauren didn't turn, the familiar voice she loved so much was back. But back was her anger too, the thoughts of abandonment and loneliness were back to.

She felt Bo next to her, as usual they could feel each other without touching. Lauren finally turned again. Bo was behind her, looking still very tired but much better.

Bo moved towards Lauren and hugged her. Lauren said nothing, didn't react to Bos hug.

"I missed you so much, how are you?" She took a step back and looked at Lauren again. She placed her hands at Laurens belly.

"You are pregnant with my children"

She bended and kissed Laurens belly, and then hugged her again.

"I am making breakfast, I bet you are hungry" Lauren said.

"How are you? How are the kids? Are you healthy? Are they healthy?"

Bo was looking at Lauren and couldn't have enough of her, she was so beautiful, more beautiful that she remembered, more beautiful than her dreams, seeing her pregnant with her kids. Bo wanted to hug Lauren and never let her go, she was crazy with thoughts. My kids, I missed so much, Bo moved and hugged Lauren again from behind, hiding her head at Laurens neck.

Lauren closed her eyes. She missed Bos touch so much. They fitted each other so well in that department, no matter how different they are. Bos hands traveled on her belly again.

"No more games, you and the kids are mine, and from now on we wont separate ever." Bos voice changed again. Lauren didn't answer, she allowed a minute for Bo to calm down.

They eated breakfast in mostly silence, Bos asked about the pregnancy and how Nick and Dan were and how they treated her, Lauren asked her about the imprisonment but Bo didn't answer. Bo would have breaks as dark Bo and then normal Bo back and forth. Lauren would allow those moments to pass and then continue to address normal Bo.

"So how are the kids? They grow up in the right way?"

Bo was nervous, Lauren could tell.

"Yes, everything is going really well."

"Do you know what they are? I mean…"

"Yes, they are both girls."

"Both girls, that's good"

Bo looked at Lauren for sometime.

"Do you know if they are like you or like me?"

"No not yet. I wanted to keep a low profile so I didn't try to do tests that would show they aren't normal. I had to make sure nobody knows who their mother is"

"Oh. Ok"

Lauren would stay in the house while Bo announced she would walk around to see the place and if the territory was safe. They didn't talk much after that. There was tension as so many things were left unsaid.

Then it started snowing, Lauren was worried about the weather. She had to have supplies if there was an emergency with the kids and make sure she could handle everything alone. At such times she was happy she was a doctor. She felt she could face every emergency alone as long as she had the sufficient materials with her.

"Don't worry, the snow would make it difficult for them to find us. We can be at peace for awhile"

"I am not worried, I just want the kids to be ok"

"Why? You don't feel ok?"

"I feel fine. I am just saying that if something comes up, I have to be prepared"

"We have to be prepared you mean"

"Yes, we"

Lauren was tired so she laid to bed early, while Bo would sit in the couch watching her.

"Did you ever think this would happen when we first met?"

"No, you?"

"You once said you loved me from that first minute"

"I did. But couldn't imagine we would live on the run and you would manage to get me pregnant"

Bo smiled.

"Yeah, I never imagined that either. Even though I used to dream about us as a family, only having Kenzi as our kid"

Lauren laughed.

"You know she is the one who told me"

"I know"

Silence again. Bo got up and laid next to Lauren in bed.

"You regret meeting me?"

Lauren bitterly smiled.

"What? Why, I want to know. You regret meeting me? Having my kids? Look where we are, in a cabin in the middle of nowhere. You must regret meeting me. I ruined your life."

Lauren didn't answer.

"Even if regret meeting me, this is how things are. You and I are one. I promise you, I wont let anything happen to you and the kids. Nothing."

"You are so selfish"

"Why?"

"How can you ask me if I regret? I been throu so much for you, to be with you. I have proven you again and again how much I love you, how much I choose you. You are a selfish bitch asking me that after everything. You want the reassurance that I love you and I wont leave you. But you are mistaken me, I am not Dyson or Tamsin or Trick. They betrayed you and you think everybody else will eventually. That's why you always ask me."

Bo moved towards Lauren and dragged her close. She would placed her hands around her, and start kissing her neck and side of the head.

"No. You have to listen me first. You left me two times already. And the second time was when I needed you the most"

"I didn't know you would get pregnant, I only wanted you to get a better life"

"That's easy for you to say. I told you that wasn't your choice to make. Do you see me here? That's my choice to be here. With you, without knowing if we have a future together, what would happen to us, if our kids would be allowed to survive in this world. But its still my choice to be here with you. When you left and then I found out I was pregnant I felt so alone. Once again used by you. How you would get the best of me. And still I loved you. And still couldn't sleep thinking how are you. And still I was thankful that I had something from you inside me."

Bo hugged Lauren stronger.

"I told you I love dark Bo. You know why I love her? Because she knows what she wants. She never doubts. She wants me. In the wild crazy out of this world and logic way."

Bo was listening what Lauren had to say. She turned Lauren and they looked at each other.

"I know what I want to. I always knew. But I was afraid. I made so many mistakes…"

"Well its time you stop making them Bo. Its time to see who you are, to accept who you are. For me and the kids. I am not scared when you are with me. Its time you start believing in yourself and stop being afraid."

Lauren could see Bos hunger, she moved to kiss her lips slowly at first and then stronger. They stopped kissing and Bo rested her head on Laurens breasts.

"I missed you much, your thoughts kept me alive. I want you so much"

Lauren moved to take off her clothes.

Bo got naked too. It was the first time normal Bo saw pregnant Lauren naked.

"You are so beautiful. She touched Laurens belly. I missed your body, your skin so much. Sometimes I would think this was a dream, it never happened."

They started kissing with a thirst that proved their need for each other.

Bo would stop the kiss

"Is it ok for the kids? I don't want to hurt them"

Lauren smiled.

"Yes, its ok. I am a doctor I know. Besides if they are as their mum, sex would be a critical part of their lives"

"Yeah, after they get to their forties."

Lauren smiled. They started kissing again, Bo was careful and tender and it was clear she was trying to hold back because of the kids. But Lauren didn't care. She had her baby back at last. It was hours after that Lauren would come to face how the reality of that thought could change so quickly.