Chapter 6
Indra wasn't shy when it came to speaking on the commander's behalf, she was just like Lexa. She didn't leave many decisions open for discussion but not many of the other clan members disagreed anyway. The queen was once and for all to be stopped. After discussing the terms of the war, each clan was willing to put forth some of their best warriors. While the remaining were to guard polis and the sacred peace it holds. Lexa just needed to get better and return to polis to start the first of the attacks. As they left polis again Clarke and Octavia were in deep discussion about polis, Clarke remembered Octavia's face light up when they first arrived and it brought a smile to Clarke's face. Octavia had helped Clarke survive from mount weather, she helped her be strong and push through the pain when she was her weakest she had helped her become a warrior. Clarke felt indebted to her, she truly felt like Octavia was her family she could trust her with anything and she knows she can because Octavia trusted Clarke just the same, there was an unspoken agreement that they would protect each other and Clarke also knew that Octavia considered herself Clarke's personal guard never leaving her side and always watching over. When Clarke finally asked her why Octavia just said she earned it.
"How is Heda healing?" Octavia tested, watching Clarke's eyes light up and a small smile pull into her lips. She knew, and Clarke knew she knew.
"She's good" Clarke said looking around to make sure no one overheard "I told her I love her"
Octavia grinned from ear to ear "That's so cute" she was grateful to see life in Clarke's eyes again. She would have to thank Lexa. Octavia paused "Wait she said it back right?" Causing Clarke to laugh "Yes, she said it first actually"
Clarke paused slightly and looked at Octavia "Its's weird, I blocked out all these thoughts and emotions when we were away and now I can't stop thinking about her all the time and when I'm not with her I miss her and when I am with her I can't get enough of her it's like my heart aches in a good way"
"Wow" Octavia said laughing.
"Shut up" Clarke said punching her arm.
"I know what you mean though"
"She frustrates me too, but I know I frustrate her. And sometimes when I find myself angry at her she just does something and can completely wipe the anger away like smiling or the way she looks at me sometimes as Lexa and not the commander"
"I definitely cannot picture any of this, her commander face is just too good at showing any emotion. Except she radiates fear and gives me the shivers sometimes"
"I don't see her like that anymore, well sometimes when she's really pissed at me" Clarke laughed "I can't wait to get back"
Lexa could finally walk around again, although the infection had weakened her immensely and she felt out of breathe just walking five steps. Although she didn't show at all, she could not have her weakness show. She would just need to power through until her body caught up. She wanted to be walking around before Clarke got back, the only real walking she has been doing is the nervous pacing in her room. She was waiting and waiting and she couldn't help the feeling of fear radiate through her every time she thought of how reckless the ice queen was. She needed to regain her strength so could be at Clarke's side and keep watch over her, maybe she was being paranoid but it was justified to anyone who knew what had happened to Costia. She wondered if there was any reason other than just wanting to take the commanders place for the queens obvious vendetta. Lexa stopped pacing when Abby walked in, she just stopped and stared before finally saying
"I am here check how your shoulder is"
Lexa just nodded and pulled down her shirt to reveal the wound, it had healed well. But she couldn't handle too much with it at the moment.
"It should hopefully be at full strength by the end of the week, the arrow didn't hit any bones or nerves thankfully but it hit muscle so you may have pain but not too much"
Lexa nodded again "Thank you"
Abby smiled slightly before turning to leave, she paused when she seen the guitar Clarke left.
"She played?" Abby asked turning to look at Lexa. Lexa nodded again
"She learnt to play from her father, they would play together and sing duets, she was always happiest when she played" Abby said smiling but frowned again
"I stopped her from smashing it to pieces after her father was floated, she told me to get rid of it because she never wanted to play again but I couldn't" Abby said
"She sings wonderfully and plays music beautifully, it was a new experience to see and I hope she will share it again" Lexa said.
Abby smiled and wiped a tear then just left.
Clarke nearly ripped the door off its hinges getting into Lexa's room, she frowned when no one was there. She decided to go to her room instead hopefully she can change then find Lexa. Pushing through the door she sat her bag down on her bed and opened it, pulling out some fresh clothes. Suddenly hands snaked around her waist and lips were pressed into her neck, she tensed up immediately but then relaxed knowing who it was she could smell Lexa's scent. Leaning back into her she moaned at the feel of strong arms around her and the lips kissing her slowly. Hearing Clarke moan like that only intensified her need for her in that moment, spinning Clarke around she left no room open for words as she pushed her mouth onto Clarke's pushing her backwards until she was sitting on the bed as they broke apart Lexa pushed Clarke's bag off onto the floor and leaned over Clarke claiming her lips again. Clarke was hit with arousal like never before as soon as she seen the fire in Lexa's eyes when she pushed her down onto the bed. Giving Lexa her sexiest smile, Lexa claimed her mouth again, straddling Clarke, Lexa's hands went to Clarke's hair while Clarke was pushing up Lexa's shirt. Lexa pulled back and used her good arm to pull off her shirt, causing her hair to fling over one shoulder. Clarke was trying to get a look at the infection but couldn't with Lexa's hair in the way and with Lexa clouding her mind as her lips attacked her neck again.
"Lexa" Clarke moaned, okay that wasn't helping she thought as Lexa replied with a moan of her own.
"Lexa" she tried again "let me see your wound" Lexa pulled back groaning.
Okay that was cute Clarke thought and laughed at her childish reaction.
Clarke was inspecting Lexa's shoulder when she stopped to look at the green eyes staring at her intently.
"You seem a lot better" Clarke said
"I had a lot of nothing to do when you left"
"How boring" Clarke scoffed joking.
"It almost killed me more than the infection did"
Clarke threw her head back in laughter.
"I can breathe again though, so thank you for returning" Lexa said turning to lay on her back. Clarke smirked and crawled up Lexa's body until hers was pressed into Lexa's.
"Nothing will keep me from you now"
Lexa's arousal hit her again at full force, pulling Clarke's lips to hers she flipped them over and straddled Clarke, Clarke sat up bringing her body flush against Lexa's hugging her, laying her head sideways onto Lexa's chest just listening to her heartbeat. They sat like that for a while until Lexa noticed Clarke's smooth breathing, settling her down on the bed and lying next to her, setting Clarke's head on her chest again she lay waiting to wake Clarke up from her nightmares. But they never came so she too fell asleep.
Clarke stood in the medical wing of the ark. Waiting for her mother to finish patching up a wound from training, she needed to tell her mother what she intended to do. She was nervous. She knows her mum is going to hate it, maybe even throw a tantrum and make threats but she didn't care. She hasn't cared about her mother's opinion for a while, she just needed her to know.
"Clarke" Abby said
"Mum can we speak in private?"
"Yeah sure" Abby said raising an eyebrow and walking into the nearest private room.
"So what's wrong?"
"Nothing is wrong mum, I just want to let know that I am in love with Lexa" Clarke said with a straight face.
"I know, I can see it. And I can see she returns the feelings, even though I may not like her too much. But I don't know her. Abby said. Clarke was surprised that she was actually reasonable for once. She didn't know Lexa, not like she did. No one did.
Okay, this is it. Just say it. "I am going to war with Lexa" Clarke said
"No you are not!" Abby said desperation in her voice "please you will die, the queen already tried to take you once"
"I will be fine, Lexa has a bigger army and being a leader I will be more protected as well as the other clan leaders and Lexa herself, the leader is usually the last to fall in battle" Clarke said trying to make the situation better.
"I am going whether you like it or not" Clarke turned and left.
Lexa needed to find Octavia, she needed her. She was walking towards Octavia's tent when Lincoln spotted her, walking inside he returned moments later with Octavia. She looked curious but nodded.
"Join me for a walk Octavia?" Lexa demanded not really leaving time for Octavia to answer before taking off. She didn't speak, neither of them did until she was out of camp jaha and into the forest. Lexa stopped and turned eyeing Octavia.
"We will be going to war soon" Lexa said
"Yes Heda, I will fight with you" Octavia said proud.
"I need you to not follow me to battle Octavia, I need you to do something else for me. Something I trust only you with" Lexa said dropping the commander's mask.
Octavia stared curious.
"You know the ice queen has threatened Clarke's life, and I know she will be the ice queen's priority to get to me. I need you to take Clarke, and protect her, while this battle happens I want you and Lincoln to go just like you did months ago, and live hidden until it is safe for her." Lexa said with clear fear on her face "I cannot lose her"
"I don't think Clarke will go for this" Octavia said
"Then we will make her, Octavia she will die if she follows me into battle, and neither of us want that" Octavia nodded
"I will protect her with my life Heda" Octavia said
"Thank you" Lexa said surprising Octavia, Lexa never thanked people for what they were expected to do.
"We will arrange this more but I have a map for you to follow, I have sent Samuel to leave supplies and food along the way for you to pick up if you need it, if Clarke will not follow then we will use a herb and take her when she is asleep, burn the map and do not let her return. Lincoln will be good at remembering the map in his mind, we will begin with this plan when we leave for polis. Inform Lincoln but do not tell another soul" Lexa said
"Of course" Octavia said.
Indra was getting the sky people who will join them in war ready to leave for polis as Lexa and Octavia walked back in. Abby was walking towards Lexa "She can't go she will die!" Abby shouted at Lexa.
"Abby calm down, we will talk in private" Lexa said trying to not draw attention to them. Once they were back inside the ark Lexa turned and glared at Abby.
"Clarke will not be going to battle"
"Good"
"She will be somewhere safe, do not mention this to her because we both know she will want to join me"
"Where will she go?"
"She will be safe with Octavia that is all I'm sharing with you, do not discuss this with anyone" Lexa said turning and leaving. Ignoring Abby further.
They were set to leave for polis at sunrise. Lexa had one more night with Clarke until she would be sent off for her protection. She hates having to do this to her and herself, but this is the safest option. She can feel the queen planning to take her, and kill her. She could not live without Clarke. She can't even imagine it, it would be the end of her. She knows Clarke will never willingly go with Lincoln and Octavia, so she got Lincoln to collect an herb that will put Clarke in a deep sleep for several hours. Enough time for them to make it far enough that Clarke will not know how to return. When it is time Lexa will take Clarke's sleeping body to them and watch them leave. Clarke would return any minute now, she was off saying goodbyes thinking she would be going to polis. Clarke walked through the door finding Lexa in deep thought, Clarke assumed it was because they were about to leave for war. "We will survive this Lexa" Clarke said. Lexa got up and walked to Clarke still deep in thought she could not deny herself anymore, she needed to have Clarke and Clarke be hers in every way she could attach herself to her. She remembered her conversation with Octavia on sky people traditions and while she thought it was strange she wanted this to be perfect for Clarke. Getting down on one knee in front of Clarke, she reached for her hand and kissed it looking up into Clarke's eyes. Seeing the confusion she smiled "Clarke I love you, and I cannot ever be without you. When we return successful from this battle, Will you marry me?" Lexa said looking hopeful. Clarke was shocked, Lexa wanted to marry her? This was fast, very fast. She knew that. But she wanted this, live is short lived on the ground and could end at any moment. She wanted to die as Lexa's wife. She still had not answered and Lexa stood up looking rejected.
"Clarke?" She whispered
"Yes" Clarke blurted out quickly
"Yes?" Lexa smiled
"I love you too, of course I'll marry you" Clarke said smiling.
Lexa laughed, really laughed in joy and she couldn't stop herself from gripping Clarke under her thighs and lifting her up to wrap her legs around her waist as Clarke laughed at her and she turned and walked them over to the bed. Laying Clarke down her left no time in taking off her shirt before attacking Clarke's lips with her own. Pausing she looked into Clarke's eyes and saw the desire, letting Clarke sit up and take off her own shirt. Clarke's hands were running up and down her abdomen where her muscles were outlined. She pushed Clarke back down and leaned down smiling when Clarke's hands moved to grip her ass and pulled her down into her. Clarke's hand went to Lexa's binding, removing it and throwing it to the side as Lexa did the same go Clarke. Lexa was kissing down Clarke's neck and over her clavicle when she reached the valley of her breasts kissing in between them and moving to the left to pull a hardened nipple into her mouth and brought her right hand up to cup Clarke's right breast. Clarke was moaning at the feel of Lexa's mouth on her body. Grabbing the back of Lexa's head with her left hand "Lexa" she moaned, Lexa moved down running her tongue over Clarke's stomach before stopped to undo the belt while looking up at Clarke who was looking down breathing heavy and looking incredibly beautiful. Lexa pushed down Clarke's pants and pulled them off before moving her hand to pull off Clarke's underwear. Clarke's breathe hitched when Lexa pulled down her underwear and throwing them off moved up to kiss Clarke. She moved her right hand to Clarke's centre stroking her clit causing Clarke to jolt with pleasure. Teasing her Clarke groaned in annoyance, Lexa smiled and pulled back to look at her "Open your eyes" Lexa said and when Clarke did Lexa pushed two fingers deep inside her "Oh god" Clarke moaned, as her pace got faster Clarke got louder until it was too much and she just breathed heavy in Lexa's ear, Clarke was close so close and when Lexa brought her thumb over Clarke's clit Clarke's body quaked as she rode out her orgasm. When she opened her eyes again Lexa was still inside her but was just smiling down at her. Lexa removed her fingers as Clarke sat up flipping them and bringing her lips to Lexa's neck while moving her hands down to grip the top of her pants and underwear removing them in one tug. Bringing herself back down onto Lexa she pushed her thigh into Lexa's centre getting a groan from the brunette. Cupping Lexa's breasts Clarke moved down her body with her right hand bringing to Lexa's core while moving her lips to her chest. Circling Lexa's clit getting a moan from her she slowly thrust her fingers inside, slowly she removed them keeping a slow pace until Lexa was becoming frantic with need. She quickened her pace and using her thumb to run over her clit until Lexa's body's became rigid and she released a low moan and shook from her orgasm, Lexa gripped onto Clarke pulling her down as she recovered. Lexa opened her eyes and let go of her strong grip keeping Clarke down, Clarke moved off to lay half on Lexa's side.
"Wow" Clarke said smiling.
Lexa just laughed and pulled her in for a deep kiss, before getting up "I will go get some water" she said getting up and throwing on her clothes not forgetting the herbs in her pants pocket. She left the room and made her way to collect a jug and water. Crushing up the herbs as best she could she put them in one cup pouring water in and watching them dissolve. Returning she found Clarke had not moved, handing her the water she watched Clarke drink it "This tastes a little weird" Clarke said shrugging.
Lexa hid her expression with her own glass as she drank, setting it down she moved to lay down again with Clarke resting on her.
She could already see the effects on Clarke, she maybe had a few minutes.
"Clarke, I want you to know that everything I'm about to do is for your safety. You may hate me but I cannot lose you" she said kissing Clarke's head. Clarke just laid there trying to keep herself awake "What are you talking about Lexa?" Clarke said yawning.
"I need you to stay with them, and not come looking for me until I come for you" Lexa said just as Clarke lost consciousness. Lexa laid there for a moment not ready to say goodbye just yet. When she finally brought herself to get up she dressed Clarke and packed her things. She slipped her dagger into Clarke's bag hoping it will help her and maybe provide some comfort to her. Getting up she slipped on the bag just as Clarke usually would and she scooped up Clarke's unconscious form in her arms and carried her out of the room and across the ark coming outside she spotted Octavia and Lincoln waiting by the gate already. She handed Clarke over to Lincoln kissing her forehead and whispering "May we meet again princess" Lexa's voice trembled then she looked up to Lincoln and Octavia her mask coming over her face. "Thank you, I will send for you when it is safe" Lexa said. Octavia nodding she turned around with Lincoln following with Clarke in his arms. They made their way out of the gate and followed their path the map was leading them. Lexa just watched until she could no longer see them. Breathing unsteady to blink back the tears she looked up at the sky and gathered herself before looking down putting up her best commander face she thought "Time to head to polis"