Well, hello to you too! I apologize for my laziness and lack of chapters. I`m a busy woman these days, and time is not something I have a lot of.

When I long for Rookie Blue though, I take time to write down whatever comes to mind, and this particular chapter is inspired by my own life ;)

Enjoy...

First Negative

Who knew picking out a pregnancy test would be that hard? Andy went in to the pharmacy a couple of blocks from the station, just to be sure that she wouldn't run into a familiar face.

She looked at her phone. Morning shift starts in 20 minutes, and she really need to pick one out already.

When her phone goes off, she grabs two kinds. Heads to the desk to pay so she can get out just as quick. And suddenly she is embarrassed towards the kid behind the desk for needing one in the first place.

She`s a grown woman damn it. Still she feels like a tomato, ready to explode all over the front desk.

She lands a few money bills in front of him, and heads out. Doesn`t care about the change either.

So, that`s Wednesday morning.

Wednesday afternoon, she goes straight home. And while she normally loves driving home along with Sam, she finds herself a whole lot of grateful, that he needed to finish up some files.

She tries to convince herself that if this does turn out negative, they have only been trying to have a baby this particular month, and although she feels like she wanted to get knocked up like yesterday, a year is perfectly normal.

Andy does not have a year, because her ovaries is about to burst from wanting, is more or less her thinking.

And if someone thinks that her being just 27 years of age helps with her desire, that she still have plenty of time, well everyone is wrong. And while Andy may have many years on herself to be pregnant and give kids to herself and Sam, when she wants something so bad, she can`t function for more than five minutes at a time without thinking about how bad she wants to have Sam`Swarek's baby.

She also wants' to be the woman to make Sam a father. She wants to watch him with their perfect little human being, one that they had made, and she wants to be the one that made Sam Swarek cry, while holding his own child.

Turns out, that`s not happening in the next nine months after all.

Not Pregnant, is what she sees on the stick when her watch goes off.

She feels a lot of things right now actually. Disappointed for once, hurt, angry, like her own body plays a whole lot of different tricks with her, for making her believe she might actually have been pregnant.

Also, it`s unfair is what she thinks. And suddenly her selfish ego is angry towards her best friend for accidentally getting pregnant at the age of 18.

She doesn`t bother taking the second test. Doesn't need another reminder that it didn't take this month after all. She zones out for a minute, thinks about all the things they might have done wrong, and all the things they should do next month to optimize their chances.

She needs to Google something.

"Andy?", she hear from outside the bathroom. She jumps at the sudden voice filling the house and does not have the time to put away her stash before her husband comes in and greets her a proper hello.

"Uh... I was... just making sure...", is what she ends up saying when he finds her by the sink, with one used pregnancy test and one that didn't even make it outside its box. She doesn't even bother trying to hide the trails of tears down her chin, because Sam, her husband, he`s a damn good detective, and can always tell when his wife is unhappy or sad for any kind of reason.

He reaches out for her, tries to pull her against him. "It's okay, really.. I`m fine".

"Sweetheart, you're not fine. You're disappointed. So am I...just... come here", he tells her as he makes another pull.

She lets herself get pulled into him, and that is also when her voice trembles and breaks again. The burn behind her eyes and twitching in her nose also tells her that she is about to cry again.

Andy does, but this time, her husband is right here, to hold on to her, make things a little better, because that is what he do. He always makes the hard stuff better, and she loves him so much for that.

It`s then that he cradles her tearstained face in his warm hands, digs his eyes into hers. "Andy, it will happen. It`s only been a month. Remember when you quoted Google for me? I vividly remember you saying that it could take months, and that is normal...", he smiles.

"I know, it's stupid... I just.. I really thought I was you know..."

Sam, he knows. He was there when she threw up a few mornings ago. He was also there when she cried out in pain when he accidentally grazed her breast.

He smiles then. "No, it`s not stupid sweetheart. When we want something, time is what we don`t have much of. I know you want this really bad, so do I", he reassures her, like she didn't know just how much he wanted this too.

He kisses the end of her lips and wipes the wetness away. "Think about all the great sex we`ll be having huh? Because I will get you pregnant sweetheart, trust me", he smirks, covering her up with his arms.

"I know you will".

Sam is not one to break his promises.

Because,

five weeks later, Andy, his wife is pregnant.

Any requests for further chapters? I`m all for tasks! :)