So I have rewritten this chapter about 3 times until I got it to the point of 'not sucking that much'. I am still trying to improve my writing style so I would love to get some advice on how to do it and also I would love to get some recommendations for books to read. Thank you for reading! Reviews are appreciated.
I woke up in a small room already in the sub. The room was barely lit though it was fine for sleep and relaxation. There was another bed about a metre or two away from the one I was laying on. I looked more closely and noticed Roach laying on it. He had his eyes closed and was breathing peacefully. I shifted my weight and rolled onto my side to look at him.
"Already awake?" He said with his eyes still closed which made me freak out a little since I didn't know he was awake.
"Yea. How did I get here?" I asked actually wondering how I could teleport from the heli to the sub.
"I carried you here." Roach said when he opened his eyes and looked at me. He looked very tired or might have been the lighting in the room that made him look so.
"How is that even possible?" I asked. "And did you sleep at all tonight?"
"It's magic. And I barely had any sleep; have been watching over you and reminiscing. Thinking about my past and how my life would have turned out if I didn't pursue a military career." He looked up at the ceiling when he said it.
I closed my eyes wondering how my life would have been that day if I didn't go to military college. One thing wouldn't have changed I would still be terrified of my father. Other than that I would have been a musician, a pianist maybe even world known. I guess I would still be fit and athletic since I love working out. Though if I wasn't here I wouldn't have met Gary. And others. Maybe they would have already taken out Makarov? And maybe without casualties. Meat and Royce. Oh lord... maybe I wouldn't be a burden and they would still be alive? I felt how I was about to start whimpering like a little kid so I tried to get my grip. I started breathing deeply I am not a burden I kept repeating those words holding back my emotions and tears.
"You ok there?" Asked Gary getting out of bed. I've heard his footsteps getting closer and when they stopped I opened my eyes and saw him standing right beside my bed leaning over me.
"Yes, I'm ok, it's just Meat... and Royce and..." I didn't know what to say. The pain was real. I didn't think it was possible to bond with anyone over such short period of time. But then again I had Roach next to me who I bonded with the most. I wouldn't be able to live through his death. I knew I couldn't lose him.
"I know it's difficult to deal with those feelings but it gets better with time." He said sitting down on the bed. I sat up and wrapped my hand around him when he pulled me into a warm embrace.
And as always our moment was interrupted by Ghost banging on the door shouting "Get ready we're leaving in 20".
He sighed and leaned back looking me right in the eyes. Gary smiled and kissed my forehead. And when he got up to leave said "Don't be sad in here without me, ok?" I nodded.
Before he could leave I screeched "Wait!" quickly threw the blankets off of my legs and leaned over the edge of my bed to put on my combat boots. "I'm coming with you." I said standing up.
"Captain said you are not going this time." He said standing in a doorway.
"Not the mission." I said when I walked closer and pushed him out of the way. "Just around the sub. Before you leave."
"Oh..." he trailed and looked a little distracted. "Ok. Let's go then."
I followed him through the corridors of the sub. They were also a little dark just like the room we were before. There were also other soldiers walking around the sub with their own business. When we walked towards the prep room I noticed Scarecrow and a few others not getting ready. I walked up to Scarecrow and watched Roach put on his gear.
"Do you know where the computers are? I would love to get access to military system." I asked Scarecrow.
He looked at me with an arched eyebrow. "You have an access to it?"
I nodded. "Military college. That's what they teach us there you know. And few other things like psychology and negotiating. Since there are no firing ranges here or courses to run I thought I should improve any other skill I have."
Scarecrow smiled and nodded to me. I quickly waved to Roach before I walked after Scarecrow who was leading me towards the computer lab. I also wanted to blow a kiss but hesitated as it would look weird among the other soldiers.
"Here it is." Said Scarecrow opening door for me. "If you feel a little lonely come over to my and Toad's room. Everyone who is not going to this mission will hang around there."
"Thanks." I said and entered the room. There were other soldiers sitting beside the screens. I completely ignored them and sat down by the computer that was further away from them. I sighed and started typing codes needed for the log in. I had a little trouble with a password since the old fart changed it. 'It should be something about him. It's always about him. How about 'Iamaselfishbastard'... yeah, I guess it's too easy.' I tried a few more combinations until I got the right one. Then I scrolled through all of the accessible information to his private files. Some of them had even more passwords on them. I tried unlocking them. Soon two of five files were free to view and I wasted no time and opened them. What I saw was shocking.
Gold Eagle: This game of yours. You sure it all will work?
Kingfish: Sure it will. If not I have a few more ways to get our war.
GE: Fine. I'll send them over. Captain MacTavish will send her to the right entrance. Don't forget that.
K: Don't worry; my men will take care of everything if you take care of everything on your end.
GE: I am a man of word. No need to ask twice.
K: Hope I can trust your word. Kingfish out.
Gold Eagle was Shepherds codename. He was chatting with Kingfish. We all knew who was called Kingfish. Before further ado I looked at the other file.
K: I didn't get what I needed. The girl is not as weak as you said she would be.
GE: I know. Little brat got some courage thinking she was an important part of the task force. I already sent you an ACS module and a soldier as compensation.
K: You think this will light up the fire to destroy nations?
GE: Obviously. American soldier killing civilians in Russia? The world you known will be gone in mere seconds.
K: You are a horrible person...
Before I could finish reading the whole conversation the file disappeared and words in red 'Access denied' appeared on the screen. Old man caught me spying on him. You can't really call that spying but my chances of bringing him to light were gone. Even if I only warned my superiors I didn't have any proof of my words. I was in a huge trouble and could only count the days until he got rid of me.
I then quickly turned off everything I used and walked out to corridors. I walked back to the rooms and remembered Scarecrow's offer. I knocked on his door and when I heard him say "Come in." opened it. There was him and Toad sitting on one of the beds also Archer, Ozone and Chemo on the other. They had an improvised table in the middle and played on it. There were also a few glasses of whiskey on it. I walked in and squeezed my butt between Scarecrow and Toad.
"Here." said Archer handing me a glass. "You look like you need a drink."
"Thanks." I said and emptied the glass in a few gulps without hesitation. It felt like I was going to cause an earthquake from my nervous shaking and I needed to calm those nerves.
"Now you are a wild drinker, Carmen." Said Toad and others laughed. "Aren't you too young to drink?"
"Oh yeah, I am. Funny how you need to be 18 to become a soldier and 21 to drink alcohol. Oh wait… I completely forgot. I became 21 a month or two ago." I tried to seem careless and not to show how my heart was about to jump out of my chest.
"A month or two?" laughed Chemo. "That's very specific."
Scarecrow dealt the cards while Archer filled the glasses with more whiskey. Once everyone had theirs filled we lifted them up. "Cheers." I said and emptied my glass just as fast as previous one. It was a long night for us.