p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="4675ed6137bc129341b2026ecd96ce73"Kageyama woke up in a cold sweat. The only thing illuminating the dark, gloomy room was his alarm clock, proudly displaying the time. 1:57AM. Kageyama rolled over to face the wall, attempting to shake off his dream of Hinata, his bright smile and his loving gaze. Heartbreak hit him once again as he cried his eyes out. Attempting but failing. Kageyama's mind kept drawing back to what he read in Hinata's journal. How could he be so blind? How could he not have known? /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="fb5c36567317591588a21275b8dfe6a2"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I talked to Kageyama today. Its the first time we have ever had a conversation about something other than volleyball. Something meaningful and I really enjoyed it. We talked about school and our future. I wish I had told him then. I wish it had played out like a scene from a movie or a book. Him standing there, the sakura petals dancing in the wind. We'd both lean in for the first time and then our lips would meet and It would be perfect because it would be with Kageyama. But that's not how it happened. We just said a simple "goodbye" and turned our separate ways. Like usual. ' /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="d1c1cd32b5619d28f41d673be382694e"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Kageyama is pretty annoying most of the time. He says stupid things and I swear he's like a vampire...But he substitutes blood for milk. But the other times, ahh. The other times he's all I see. I can't see past a world where we exist together. On the world stage, tossing to me. He's my Favorited, milk-drinking, stupidly smart idiot. He remembers everything, and I'm grateful. Once he remembered me saying that I get cold easily so the next day in his bag I saw an extra jacket. I don't know if it was for me but I'd like to think so. He's so stubborn, but once you get past his scary face and sharp words he's so sweet. He's a joke. A dumbass. But...He's my favorite one. I could never tell him this. As much as I wan't too. I just can't. I found out today that I will inevitably die within the next four months, of course I can't tell him. /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="7d3d1f5f6871c787c999193ff73adbef"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"'Entry thirty-eight, /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="6b5c81e1f0cf8f75a972fe8bbb1d74fb"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I'm back here again, the white walls, the white sheets and the nauseating hospital smell. A thousand miles away from Kageyama. I'm such a mess. My blood is all over my clothes and tears are still pouring down my face, I'm just scattered pieces of myself. How could you ever love me now? I thought I could be fine..If I just try harder. But I've lost so much along the way to becoming the player you want me to be. Everything hurts, Kageyama. And I'm still here, alive, again. But I'm a thousand miles away, from you. /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="26ce070460c1c3034d2f8a6d0b82b249"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"'Entry forty-nine, /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="f875c39b9b765ad89fee72b9e7a8963c"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Kageyama. This is what I leave for you. If I may die, I do not die in vein. If you had asked, I would have brought the stars down from their place in space and deliver them to do. I would do so no matter what. But, Kageyama. I die, in hopes that you will discover this notebook. I pray to anyone who is listening that you will read this one day. I have officially gone off my medication. I am sober and inevitably, I will die. /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="1e523c5e576b12a8a70e5c44f3b3f194""Kageyama, thinking of Hinata isn't a bad thing" Kageyama was cut off. He instantly recognized the voice, "Hinata isn't taboo, and by reminding yourself of him when you play keeps him here, With you and with all of us. We are all mourning and hell, I know numerous people on this team that blames themselves. As much as I hate to say it, we need you here, em style="box-sizing: border-box;"king/em. We all do." Tsukishima spat. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="8e078f4d2af6de94ce65d0d350b98a66"'em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Entry five, /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="fb5c36567317591588a21275b8dfe6a2"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I talked to Kageyama today. Its the first time we have ever had a conversation about something other than volleyball. Something meaningful and I really enjoyed it. We talked about school and our future. I wish I had told him then. I wish it had played out like a scene from a movie or a book. Him standing there, the sakura petals dancing in the wind. We'd both lean in for the first time and then our lips would meet and It would be perfect because it would be with Kageyama. But that's not how it happened. We just said a simple "goodbye" and turned our separate ways. Like usual. ' /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="0b5fe0146299d2890c481eabb0ab556d"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"'Entry nineteen, /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="d1c1cd32b5619d28f41d673be382694e"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Kageyama is pretty annoying most of the time. He says stupid things and I swear he's like a vampire...But he substitutes blood for milk. But the other times, ahh. The other times he's all I see. I can't see past a world where we exist together. On the world stage, tossing to me. He's my Favorited, milk-drinking, stupidly smart idiot. He remembers everything, and I'm grateful. Once he remembered me saying that I get cold easily so the next day in his bag I saw an extra jacket. I don't know if it was for me but I'd like to think so. He's so stubborn, but once you get past his scary face and sharp words he's so sweet. He's a joke. A dumbass. But...He's my favorite one. I could never tell him this. As much as I wan't too. I just can't. I found out today that I will inevitably die within the next four months, of course I can't tell him. /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="7d3d1f5f6871c787c999193ff73adbef"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"'Entry thirty-eight, /em/p
p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="6b5c81e1f0cf8f75a972fe8bbb1d74fb"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"I'm back here again, the white walls, the white sheets and the nauseating hospital smell. A thousand miles away from Kageyama. I'm such a mess. My blood is all over my clothes and tears are still pouring down my face, I'm just scattered pieces of myself. How could you ever love me now? I thought I could be fine..If I just try harder. But I've lost so much along the way to becoming the player you want me to be. Everything hurts, Kageyama. And I'm still here, alive, again. But I'm a thousand miles away, from you. /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="f875c39b9b765ad89fee72b9e7a8963c"em style="box-sizing: border-box;"Kageyama. This is what I leave for you. If I may die, I do not die in vein. If you had asked, I would have brought the stars down from their place in space and deliver them to do. I would do so no matter what. But, Kageyama. I die, in hopes that you will discover this notebook. I pray to anyone who is listening that you will read this one day. I have officially gone off my medication. I am sober and inevitably, I will die. /em/p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="5dac1fce46f405d8049c18d44f65b23e""We know you're hurting. And we understand the pain you're feeling is natural. Because of-" Suga cut off the sentence and after a small hesitation picked up his sentence, "Because of em style="box-sizing: border-box;"span style="box-sizing: border-box; font-weight: bold;"HIS/span/em death. But Kageyama, its been 3 weeks and we haven't heard from you. We haven't seen you at school or at practice. We are all grieving too, and we want you here. It may seem selfish to you Kageyama but the team really needs you right now. We're falling apart, and you are distancing yourself from us. Kageyama we still want you here. No one blames you for what happened. No one thinks that at all" A chorus of affirmative statements came after that. Kageyama took a deep breath. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="1e523c5e576b12a8a70e5c44f3b3f194""Kageyama, thinking of Hinata isn't a bad thing" Kageyama was cut off. He instantly recognized the voice, "Hinata isn't taboo, and by reminding yourself of him when you play keeps him here, With you and with all of us. We are all mourning and hell, I know numerous people on this team that blames themselves. As much as I hate to say it, we need you here, em style="box-sizing: border-box;"king/em. We all do." Tsukishima spat. /p
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p style="box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 24px; font-size: 18px; font-family: 'Source Sans Pro', 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; line-height: 24px; min-height: 24px; padding: 0px; color: #555555;" data-p-id="a4c1ed3bbfed0cc7e119f8a893c09030"After a moment Kageyama spoke up. "I'll think...about coming back" And that's all the team needed to hear. That's all Kageyama had to say. /p