Dear Eren,

If your reading this…I wish you weren't. I wish I could be there with you and I wish I was still fighting. But I guess I lost…I didn't win and now your reading this, I'm truly sorry I could never say this to you. I said it once but I wanted to say it again when we weren't fighting, but I suppose that was just wishful thinking.

Thank you.

Thank you Eren.

Thank you so much.

I wish I could show you how grateful I am to you and that you saved me when I was a child and continue to do so. I wish I could apologize in person but my feelings are strong, which brings me to something else I could never work up the courage to say…

I love you.

Eren Jaeger I am in love with you.

I always have been, ever since you wrapped this scarf around me you are my hero, my inspiration, my everything. I didn't know what this feeling was until just recently actually, Armin saw right through me one night when we were fighting. He was comforting me and said the way I feel isn't that towards a brother, nor is it obsessive, or shallow. It's love. And he helped me understand that.

I just wish I could have told you in person.

Please apologize to him for me, he always supported me and helped me but I could never help him as much as he would help me. I hope he lives a good peaceful life.

Also please apologize to Levi and the rest of our comrades, there strong people I hope they made it out alive.

But lastly, I want to apologize to you, Eren. I'm sorry for being such an annoying adopted sister, for punching you that one time, and for not helping you when you've needed me most.

I hope you can forgive me and live a peaceful life.

Love,

Mikasa Ackerman

Eren was shaking by the end of the tear drenched letter, how could she be so selfish and write that?! If anything he should be thanking her.

He wanted to scream from the top of his lungs that he was in love with her that she was his everything without her he was nothing.

But all he could do was cry and sit there and look at a beautiful paper in a broken mans arms.

He couldn't accept this.

After all they've been through there's no way he could accept this.

The hysteric boy got up slowly and began his never-ending search for his lost love again.