It's All My Fault

Two weeks had passed after Kido and Kano hanged out on the first day of school. Kano would follow Kido. Kido didn't really care anymore. They would talk during class or walk after school. Then, Kano introduced Kido to a group of friends that he made at the school. There was Seto, Mary, Momo, and Shintaro. Momo and Shintaro are siblings. Seto is a nice and friendly classmate. He is a close friend to Mary, who is very shy towards everyone. Kido ignored them sometimes, but she was much nicer to them than how she was with Kano. Nothing has changed between Kido and Kano. Kido would still call Kano an "idiot" and hit him.

Kido's POV

Do I even consider them my friends? I talk to them and we walk together after school. I don't deserve any friends at all. I just act mean and cold towards them. I still don't understand why they consider me a friend. I must admit though. I don't dislike them...We were walking together after school like usual.

Mary asked, "Kido, is there something wrong?"

Everyone turned to look at me.

I'm making them worried.

I patted her head and told her, "Uh nope. Sorry for making you worried."

I realized I messed up her hair a little when I patted her hair. She looked silly and cute at the same time. I let out a small laugh. I covered my mouth after that. Everyone looked surprised, so did I.

"Sorry...I kind of messed up your hair, Mary." I said awkwardly.

Everyone was silent for a while until they all broke out into laughter. Then, I was cracking up again myself. We were laughing like this until we arrived at our houses. This feels nice. I hope days like these never end...

I arrived at my house. I closed and locked the door. Then, I went to my room and sat on my desk. I started playing music from my iPod, while doing my homework. Two hours passed and I finally finished it. I set my pencil down and stopped listening to music. I took a look around my room. Then, I saw a picture of me from middle school on one of my drawers. I was with another girl. That girl always smiled...She always wore that red scarf. We were standing by a cherry blossom tree. She did bunny ears one me, while smiling cheerfully. I was smiling in that picture, too. I walked up to the drawer. The picture frame was in my hands. I was staring at it for a minute.

"So that's what I look like when I smile." I said to myself. I set the frame down. I went to my bathroom and took a quick shower. Then, I decided that it was time to go to sleep. I threw myself on my bed and fell asleep.

Where am I? I see myself on my bed with a high fever and unconscious. I also see...a girl wearing a black school uniform with a red scarf. She's taking care of me and feeling my forehead. Oh no. It can't be...Is that Ayano?! No! This is that day! What am I doing here?!

"Kido, please feel better. You're making your parents and me worried." Ayano said in a less cheerful voice. She was putting on a sad smile.

I see my parents gently touch her shoulder.

My mother said, "Ayano, I think we should drop you home. You won't be able to go home from this storm. There might be lightning too. Don't worry about Kido, we'll take care of her right after we drop you off."

"NO! Just stay with me! Don't leave me. If you guys leave me, you'll die!" I screamed at them, but of course, they couldn't hear a thing.

Ayano replied, "You're right. Thank you. I really hope Kido feels better soon." Ayano looked at my weak body and then left my bedroom to go with my parents. I chased after them.

I kept screaming at them, trying to stop them. I was doing my best to warn them. They couldn't hear or see me. I tried touching them. My hand just went through them.

"STOP!"

"DON"T GO!"

"AYANO, MOM, DAD!"

"I DON"T WANT YOU TO DISAPPEAR!"

"Please...don't leave me all by myself...again."I helpless cried out.

Ayano sat in the back seat, while my parents were in the front. I was outside of the car, touching the window near Ayano with my right hand. Then, she looked up at me. She can see me? She said something I couldn't quite hear. I tried to read her lips.

"Sorry."

She looked back at my house with a concerned expression. I just stood there as the car drove away. I knew what was about to happen next. I never saw it happen though. Lightning flashed and struck at a tree nearby. It crushed the car. My whole world was destroyed during that day. I landed on my knees. I cried my eyes out.

"NOOOO!"

My eyes opened wide and I got up from my bed right away. "A dream? More like a nightmare." I woke up in cold sweat and was breathing heavily. I realized that I was crying for real now. "Why was she apologizing to me in the dream? I should be the one apologizing."

My parents died from the car accident. However, Ayano survived. She was barely rescued in time. She was severely injured. I was so grateful that at least she lived. Ayano doesn't deserve to die. She always smiled everyday and made me smile even if I wasn't nice to her. One day, I visited her in the hospital. I wanted to show her my biggest smile. I wanted to tell her how happy I was to know that she lived. I went to her hospital room. I saw her wrapped in many bandages. I instantly felt guilty. She saw me. She looked sad and confused. I brought her flowers and smiled at her.

"Good morning, Ayano! I've brought you flowers to cheer you up."

Awkward silence

"Who are you?"

I dropped the flowers

"Y-you don't know who I am?"

She shook her head sadly.

"Oh. I'm just here to deliver you flowers from your family." I lied, looking at the floor. I picked up the flowers and I put it in a vase filled with water. She looked at me and said with a smile, "Thank you! I feel a little better now." I gave her a weak smile. That was the last time I smiled. I told her, "Please smile like that every day."I walked out of the hospital room. I leaned against the hospital door. My best friend doesn't remember me. I was nothing to her now. I cover my face with my hands and cried silently.

Because of me, my parents died. Because of me, Ayano, my only friend, lost her memories. I was sick that day. They took care of me and then died! If it wasn't for my health, they would have lived. I could have been smiling and laughing with them every day. I was scared of making friends. This is why I preferred being alone. I thought that everyone I cared about would soon leave me like my parents did. Ayano almost died. I don't want Seto, Mary, Momo, Shintaro, and Kano to "disappear".

"It's all my fault."

"It's all my fault."

"It's all my fault..."

I was facing the ceiling and said that three times.

"I should just disappear."

Wow. I tried making it at least 1,000 words and it took me a little longer than I expected. Ahaha sorry about that. Thanks for the reviews. They made me very happy. Please review to give me advice/suggestions. Also review to tell me if you like this so I know that people actually enjoy reading this. Happy New Year to those in different countries who are reading this. I'm still waiting for 2014.