The Meanings Of The Raimbow.
Coppia: Spiritshipping/ JohanxFemJudai.
Guest Star: Yubel (YubelxFemJudai, not Yaoi).
Green.
Silent Envy.
The memories hurt. Heal the reminiscences or break the bitterness uncovered, goes beyond the common peeling skin; evokes impossible desires, the power to stop being human, to experience the warmth and the cold of a thousand emotions individually. So much control over the physical couldn't compensate that persistent lack, the pain sliding in the inevitability of only lived, consumed, with the same intensity of the fiery passion that had forged the original emotion. How, it was unintentional, preferably, so that silence savored the internal wear out the soul with greater taste. Only then, Johan realized to be a mere puppet in the hands of fate burning, lively, in giving the illusion that he was the one true master of himself. But he was not like that and accept it, forced him to swallow a kicking truth the need for solitude, not even show your face in the mirror, fearing to see in his emerald eyes a glimmer left that illuminate the dark thoughts.
"Can you feel it, little human? You don't have to pretend with me, you can't.
We shared a lot more than the body and mind.
What you try to fight, I have lived for centuries, in loneliness and anger,
never get rid of it. Never do with reason. Painful, isn't it?"
He had taken note of their feelings about Judai coming into harmony with Yubel's feelings, secretly holding secretly the soul in his mind, before being locked up in a crystal prison and preventing the contact to turn into something so ingrained as to be a weight. At that time, she only needs a body that arouse the girl's desire to continue to seek the face behind which she had hidden, hoping to mend the rift that had strayed and restore, in this way, an order that didn't include no one a day out of the two of them. Steal Johan's heart, his heart, and force her to the limits of their certainties, had exposed her total transparency in the presence of any form of light in the universe. But a promise that transcended eternity and it's relentless thresholds couldn't have any rivals with a tiny, trivial and immature as his affection. From everywhere observe Judai, in any situation she were immersed, he noted the presence of Yubel at her side, constantly, her attention related to her eyes gloomy apprehension, her voice, her conscience happy to have regained possession of their privileges. Every breath, movement, sensation, their lives belonged to a reciprocity unconditional, that sundered arcane laws, the regularity of the world itself as if his weight was even less than nothing. Everything, of that creature, had the full and total Judai's dedication, pure love and naive that Johan was forced to touch with friendly hand, unconditional smiles and fears that he would collect and rocked with his courage, if only if the evidence had not been so committed to emphasize an equally inevitable envy that gap that Yubel made and would continue to make insurmountable in front of his eyes to the dirty, bitter of deep jealousy.
Notes:
I am back! Going straight to the chapter, the color of this day is is green, reported Johan's eyes and meaning envy, inherent to his frustrated thoughts. Precise, again, I know in broad lines this saga, but I was fascinated by Yubel, her devotion turned into madness when she was dismissed from Judai and her obsession with wanting to be her only center (and if I remember well , in his past life, Judai was precisely that he would only ever loved her). I have tried to leverage the intensity of this relationship, in my usual way that, sometimes, I don't explain it myself, but without breaking the obscene (I would say it's simple and unhealthy dependence on one another, like two souls separated and who once shared the same body...Ok, maybe it's time for me to look more constructive hobby ...). Before leaving, I thank you again, all, or all, you make me always happy to return to this site! A big kiss to all!