When Seth got in, the room was dark and the lights were off. He contemplated on turning them on but he knew what he would see if he did. Dean would be on his side, laying on his bed looking idly towards the window. It's been like this for three days now, Seth would come home from seeing Nikki, and he would find Dean in the same spot, unmoved. He was worried about him, but Dean didn't say much lately. His phone would go off like crazy with messages, most likely from Roman, but Dean didn't answer a single one of them. Seth decided against turning on the light. He knew Dean wouldn't move either way.

"Hey, D. Me and Nik saw the empire state building today."

"Seth got no response back.

"We went all the way to the top and you probably won't believe this but, she told me she liked me a lot."

He still got no answer.

Seth chewed on his bottom lip and then moved towards Dean's bed. He sat on it, near Dean's feet and looked down, fiddling with his fingertips. "I.. I wish you were there with me, you know? Nikki's great but, us dude. Me and you D. We came here together, we came to see New York together, and now you're like...this."

Seth felt Dean move, so he was alive.. Seth said to himself. Dean looked at him finally, a blank expression swiped across his face. He was finally listening to what Seth had to say, but still he said nothing back.

"I know he hurt you, Dean. I know he hurt you so badly and fuck i swear if i saw Roman right now i would probably punch his lights out for you, but i just want you to be okay you know? You lay here everyday, heartbroken over him and he doesn't fucking deserve you, dude. But i.. i can't seem to fucking fix it, i can't fix your heart and it makes me feel useless." Seth found himself ready to choke up. His eyes glossed over and he put his face in his hands rubbing the tears away. He just wanted to help but he didn't know how.

How could he mend Dean's broken heart?

When Dean didn't respond, Seth was ready to just give up for one night, but he felt a warm hand on his, Dean's warm hand finally caressing his own. He still said nothing back, but even heartbroken Dean was there taking care of him. It's been like that since they were kids.

"You're not useless." It was the first thing Dean had said in almost a week. Even though his voice was barely above a whisper, the sentiment made Seth smile. He looked down at Dean, his sullen face trying to mask every pain in his body. Seth untied his toes and then got in the bed with his friend, spooning Dean. He knew his best friend could use some comfort right now and he was going to try and give that to him.

They laid in silence for awhile, Seth just held him in his arms while Dean eyes trained on the window. He made no sudden movements and that scared Seth. It scared him to think that Dean was going numb because of Roman. The thought crossed his mind, yet another scary thought, maybe Dean was in love with Roman?

Not maybe, definitely.

"He hurt me." Dean rasped out finally, leaning more into Seth now. He said it like he was afraid of the words, a realization coming over him. Roman had hurt him. Roman. The sweetest most attentive guy with a heart of gold. Roman, the guy who could make him smile just by staring at him. His Roman. That was the man who hurt him.

"I know." is all Seth could think to say back. He felt Dean clinging to him for dear life, so naturally, Seth tightened his hold on his best friend.

"I hate him." Dean was sniffling now, as he connected his fingers with Seth's. He squeezed them lightly and Seth let him, not moving a muscle. He wanted Dean to know that he was there and he could feel any emotion he wanted to feel, he could touch, squeeze any part of his body. He was there for him.

"I know." Seth said again.

"I.. think i love him." Dean cried freely now, no longer holding back all the tears he held in for three days, whimpering as he admitted it through tears. He turned towards Seth and the brunette quickly caught a falling tear, wiping it from his best friends cheek.

Fuck. Seth didn't think he would admit that part. He definitely was in love with Roman. There was no maybe. Although, smashing glass over a kiss kinda told Seth that already.

"I know." Seth said for a final time. He kissed Dean's forehead and pulled him in so that Dean was laying on his chest. After Alicia he didn't think it would be possible, but there Dean was. In love again. "Dean?" Seth said as he looked into sad blue eyes. "You're going to be okay, you know that right?" He wanted him to know that no matter what he was going to make sure of it. No matter what he had to do, he was going to make Dean okay again.

Whatever it takes.

Dean looked up at him, blinking a few times before he nodded sadly.

"I know." It Dean's last sentence before he finally closed his eyes and got some sleep.

xxx

Seth finally got Dean to agree to take a shower. He was making small progress with his friend day by day. While Dean was in the shower, Seth saw Dean's phone going off. It was Roman, yet again. He clenched his jaw, hearing the familiar Ed Sheeran ringtone play over and over. He walked over to Dean's phone, taking the time to look at the picture Dean took of Roman before Seth said fuck it and finally decided to pick it up and answer it.

"Dean?" Roman breathed into the phone, he sounded exasperated and depressed when he said Dean's name. He got no response so he decided to try again. "Dean?"

"Think again you asshole." Seth finally answered, breathing harder now. Fuck this guy, he thought. He doesn't deserve Dean.

"Seth." Roman could hear the distain for him in Seth's voice. He sighed, "Look, i know you hate me and i know Dean probably doesn't want to talk to me but please-"

"No shut the fuck up." Seth cut him off. He didn't want to hear his excuses. He was ready to tell him off. He promised Dean that he was going to be okay again and Seth always kept his promises.

"You're right. He doesn't want to fucking talk to you. You're a liar, and a cheater. You broke his heart you fucking scumbag!"

Seth could hear Roman tearing up over the phone at his words, but he didn't care, something came over him. He wanted Roman to hurt as much as he hurt Dean.

"Seth i.." Roman cried.

"Didn't i tell you not to speak? (he paused) Exactly. Listen to me because i'm only going to tell you this once, stop calling him. Don't call, don't text, don't even breathe his name anymore. Fuck off, Roman. I mean it. Leave Dean alone! Understand me?! Dean never wants to see you again!" Seth screamed into the phone then quickly hung up on Roman before he got a chance to answer. He tossed it on Dean's bed and soon Dean came out of the shower wrapped in a towel.

"I thought i heard screaming, is everything okay?" Dean asked as he looked around for his clothes.

Seth smiled, "Yeah, i was just on the phone with my cousin. Asshole broke my lord of the rings dvd." Seth lied.

What the fuck kinda lie was that?

"Don't worry." He said as he sat on Dean's bed, and watched Dean get dressed, "From now on, D, everything is going to be perfectly fine."

Dean looked up at him confused for a second, he didn't know what he meant by that random sentence but he smiled anyway. Seth was always there for him.

"Thanks superman."

"So Seth told you Dean never wanted to see you again?" Nikki asked as she and Roman shared a sundae at a diner. Roman's favorite diner at Nikki's request. She knew Roman was heartbroken by what happened in the hamptons, so she decided to try to cheer her best friend up.

Roman nodded quietly at her question.

"It's my fault anyway. So i understand that he doesn't want to see me. I don't blame him, or Dean. I was stupid. I messed up a good thing because i was afraid. There's no one to blame but me. Don't be mad at Seth, please?" He pleaded with Nikki.

"Roman, just because you made a mistake doesn't mean it isn't too late to fix it. No matter what my crazy boyfriend says. I saw you with Dean in the hamptons, you guys looked so happy. After Randy, I think you deserve some happy." Nikki scooped some ice cream up and put it in her mouth, savoring the taste.

"Boyfriend huh? You and Seth making things official?" Roman backtracked as he smiled, he was happy for his friend.

"Don't change the subject!" She blushed, "But yes, i call him that. I really like him so much Rom. He's so sweet to me and my god he has the most beautiful penis I've ever seen."

Roman made a face at that, scrunching his nose. "Ew. Okay i didn't need to know that." He laughed, eating some chocolate sauce off the top of the ice cream. "I'm happy for you though Nik, you deserve it." He smiled at her, he knew Nikki had been through a lot and she definitely deserved happy. Even though he himself waas miserable. Nikki grabbed his free hand, bringing it to her lips to kiss Roman's fingers softly.

"So do you, Rom. You deserve happiness too, with Dean."

Roman pulled his hand away and shook his head. "No i don't. Seth is right. I'm a scumbag. I hurt Dean so much, it's better if i just leave him alone, and let him enjoy the rest of his vacation." Roman looked down and tried his best to fake a smile. It was the last thing he wanted, but if Dean didn't want anything to do with him than he had to respect that.

No matter how much it hurt his heart.

"I'm so sorry Rome." Nikki said, kissing his cheek

Roman nodded, twisting his spoon around in the cup. "It's okay. Dean deserves to be with someone who makes him happy and it's just not me."

Nikki sighed, "You love him.. don't you?"

Roman looked at her, then looked down sucking in his lips. "I do, yeah. I think i do." It was the first time he admitted it, but it didn't feel bad to say. He loved him. Even though he hasn't known him for that long, he loved Dean.

Fuck.

"Oh Romie." Nikki rubbed his shoulders, and then kissed her best friends forehead. She knew Roman loved him but she also thought Roman wouldn't ever admit it. Now that he did, she realized how serious this was.

And now she didn't know what to say.

"You're still coming to my birthday party this weekend right?" Nikki pouted. She decided maybe a change of subject would do them both some good. "Even though Seth will be there? Roman you set the whole thing up i don't want you to not come because of him."

"Dean will be there." Roman warned as he scooped up some chocolate ice cream.

Nikki just pouted again. It actually made him laugh. He couldn't resist her adorable face.

"Ugh fine, don't worry." Roman shrugged his shoulders, booping her nose. "I'll be there."

"You know you don't have to do this right?" Seth told him as he and Dean stood in front of the club. It was Nikki's birthday and Seth wanted to celebrate with her but he didn't want Dean to be uncomfortable. Roman was no doubt inside of there and he and Dean haven't seen or spoken all week. Dean was doing a little bit better, he didn't want him to regress now.

"I know but you constantly keep telling me i need to try and some have fun right?" Dean answered him.

"Yeah but.. he's in there." Seth put emphasis on the he in question, and he saw Dean's face tense up.

"He stopped calling me, texting, everything." Dean shrugged, completely clueless to the fact that Roman had stopped at the request of his best friend. "Roman doesn't give a shit about me. So i don't care about him. I promise. I'm okay." He grabbed the back of Seth's neck and smiled at him.

"Dean.." Seth said, feeling like this was a bad idea.

"I'm okay." Dean said again, pulling Seth into the club.

xxx

He wasn't okay. Fuck. He thought he could handle seeing Roman but he fucking couldn't. He had on a fitting long sleeve black shirt and deep blue jeans to match. Hair up in a tight bun and he was smiling. He was smiling with some fucking guy at the bar when he walked in. Dean always thought that if he ever saw Roman again he would be heartbroken like he was, but no. He was fucking laughing and smiling without a care in the world. That bastard. Seth watched Dean watch Roman, and he kept his hand on Dean so that his friend wouldn't go over there. But he knew, he knew as soon as he let Dean go he was going to find Roman and scream at him or something.

"Seth! Baby!" Nikki called him over and Seth waved, telling her to give him one minute.

"Dean, i'm going to say hi to Nik. Promise me you'll behave until i get back?" Dean kept his eyes on Roman as he nodded "Dean!" Seth shook him, causing Dean to look at him in the eyes. "Promise me?"

"I fucking promise. Better?" Dean said, clicking his tongue in defiance. Seth just shook his head and finally let his hand go to go to Nikki and before Dean could even think about it he was walking over to Roman.

His heart pounded in his chest as he made it to the bar, he could barely breathe but fuck it. This asshole was getting a piece of his mind tonight. He walked over, sitting in between Roman and the guy who was flirting with him.

"Hi." Dean smiled at the guy, ordering a drink.

"Hi um sorry but we were kinda in the middle of talking..." The guy said, trying to look at Roman who seemed to be focused on Dean now. Fuck he looked so hot and scuffy. Keep it together Rome. He had to tell himself.

"Let me save you some time from getting to know him because, this beautiful guy here, with the wide gray eyes and big muscles, his name is Roman.." Dean started to say.

"Dean don't fucking do this.." Roman whispered to him, but of course Dean wasn't listening.

"Roman likes hiking, music, law, long walks on the beach and what am i forgetting?" Dean snapped his fingers in the guys face. "Ahh that's right.. He likes cheating on you with his married best friend." Roman's jaw dropped when he heard Dean say that. Dean drunk some of his beer down but most of it spilled when Roman grabbed his wrist violently, pulling him away from the bar.

xxx

He pulled Dean outback and then Dean pulled away from him harshly, a small smirk splayed across his lips.

"Was it something i said?" Dean laughed, leaning against the back door of the club.

"Are you honestly fucking kidding me? How fucking dare you say that shit about me?" Roman was beyond angry now.

"How about fuck you!" Dean spat. He was so fucking pissed at Roman that out of nowhere Dean pushed Roman hard. Roman's mouth was agape when he felt Dean push him, so he pushed Dean back just as hard. Dean slapped him in his arm and then Roman slapped him back. Something came over them both, they started hitting each other, each hit somewhere different on their bodies. Punches and slaps where being thrown until they fell to the ground, with Dean on top as he grabbed Roman's wrist, twisting them before pushing them above his head. "Ow!" Roman screamed, "You win okay get the hell off!" Roman yelled pushing Dean off of him hard. Dean crawled to his feet then Roman followed, wiping some dirt off his clothes.

They said nothing for awhile, all you could hear was the busy street beside them and the small breeze whisking around in the air. Roman looked at him, his eyes were seconds away from watering when he asked Dean the question again. "How could you say that stuff about me?"

Dean refused to look into his sad eyes. "Because it's fucking true!" Dean could feel his metaphorical protective walls coming down. Fuck. This isn't suppose to be happening this quickly. "You cheated on me, fuck! Then just stop calling? Who the fuck do you think you are Roman? Flirting with that asshole right in my face?"

He wanted to scream and run away, but instead he finally looked Roman in the the eyes.

Roman looked back at him confused, "Are you kidding me? Dean i called everyday! Every fucking day for four days with no answer. I left you countless voicemails, and texts messages saying how sorry i was. How much i wanted to see your perfect fucking face again. How much i fucking miss you! Then Seth picks up and he says you didn't want me. He curses me out and tells me i hurt you so badly that i should never contact you again. So i listened, for you. I did it for you. I couldn't let you hurt anymore because of me."

They both started breathing heavily, looking at each other. Dean was confused, when did Seth do all of this and why? That's why Roman stopped calling, it was his best friend. He realized Seth only did it because he was trying to protect him, but this wasn't his battle to fight.

"I didn't ask Seth to do that." Dean unconsciously leaned forward, moving some dirt from under Roman's eye. He felt himself inch closer to Roman, and he saw that Roman was doing the same thing.

"I figured that you didn't but, he's right. I hurt you, Dean. I hurt you because i was afraid..."

"Of?" Dean said now stepping even closer to Roman. He looked so good, he smelled so good. He missed him so much.

"That.." Roman opened his mouth, he was about to tell him. That i'm in love with you? He couldn't say that though. Somehow it didn't seem like the right time. "That doesn't matter.. the point is you deserve so much better than me anyway Dean." He touched Dean's face softly, and watched as Dean moved into his caress.

"I just wanted to tell you i'm sorry and for what it's worth, i miss you like crazy." Roman pulled away from Dean, then wiped a falling tear from his eyes. He moved to open the back door to the club, but not before he looked back at Dean who was crying now too.

Fuck he couldn't watch him cry.

Roman opened the door quickly and left Dean there alone.

xxx

Dean came back in the party, searching for Seth. He was never more angry with his so called best friend then he was right now. Who was he to speak for him? He found Seth sharing cake with Nikki in a booth.

"I didn't ask you to fucking speak for me did i Seth?" Dean said, interrupting their little coupley feeding session.

Seth looked at him, at first he was confused, but then realized what Dean was talking about. Fuck. He knew, and Roman and Dean must've talked because Dean's eyes were super red. "Dean i did it for you. I swear!" Seth rebuttled.

"You don't make choices for me. Ever. Especially when it comes to Roman." Dean spat back.

Seth stood up face to face with Dean. "You were hurting, i just wanted to fix it! I did it for you. That fucker doesn't deserve you D!" Seth was pleading his case but Dean wasn't listening.

"Just stay the fuck away from my relationships and me from now fucking on Seth!." Dean pushed pass him and walked out of the club.

Dean left and quickly he hailed a cab. He knew where he was going.

It was time for him to stop running and just follow his heart.

xxx

Roman was sitting alone watching a movie by himself when he heard a soft knock on the door. He got up to go answer it, seeing Dean standing there, looking down. "Dean? Hey, are you okay?" Roman asked, and he watched his brunette head shake up and down.

"Did you want to come in?" Roman asked and Dean shrugged.

"Well what do you want to do?"

The question was left lingering as Dean moved in and kissed Roman softly. Roman immediately reacted to the kiss, he kissed Dean back just as soft then embraced him, picking Dean up off his feet as he brought him into his apartment, their kiss never unlocked as Roman closed the door behind them.

A/N: What an emotional rollercoaster. Thank you so much for all the love in the last chapter, some of you even guessed what was gonna happen next and i was surprised because i wrote this awhile ago and it was spot on. Four for you Glen Coco!

I think it's time our boys stop running... don't you? *cue obligatory background porn music* Hopefully you guys see where i'm going with this, anyone guess it yet? - Melle