Roman's jaw was clenched. The moment right about now was so damn tense between these three men. He looked over at Dean, who was shirtless, fist clenched and possibly ready to knock Sami out if he dare look at him the wrong way. Then there was Sami, who looked nervous and worried that Dean would do exactly that. To say that he was between a rock and a hard place was most likely the understatment of the year.

"Sam, why are you here?" Roman spoke up, breaking his silence. As Sami and Roman finally caught eyes, Sami could see Roman looking back at him completely distraught. Kinda like a sick puppy who didn't have a lot of time left. He hated that look that he was getting, the last time Roman gave him a look like that Sami had just broken his heart in high school.

Admittedly, Roman hasn't seen Sami since the day after they kissed and things were tense back then. Sami's wife had slapped Roman hard in the face and called him a homewrecker that same morning, then they took the hampton jitney out of there before Sami and Roman got a chance to talk about things. Roman hasn't spoken to Sami since then. He cut off all contact with him, and now Sami was there, standing in his apartment and that scared Roman. He didn't know what Sami wanted, but he knew it couldn't be good.

Sami's eyes traveled onto Dean then he gulped, Dean was hovering behind Roman like his own personal attack dog or something. Even though Dean was making him feel uneasy, Sami managed to look back into Roman's gray eyes. They were misty with worry, and Sami could understand why. The truth was that he came there to apologize, and to let Roman know just how sorry he was. He also had to let Roman know exactly why he kissed him that night. Before getting on the plane to New York, Sami had this all planned out. He was so sure that Roman and Dean wouldn't of gotten back together and that's why he decided to come now... He wanted Roman to know, that after all of these years, he could finally admit it.. Not only to himself but to anyone that asked.. Sami loved him.

He was in love with Roman.

But how could he admit that with Roman's boy toy standing behind him?

"I just came to say sorry." Well at least it was a little bit of the truth, Sami thought. "I shouldn't of kissed you that night, Rome. It was all my fault, i initated it and in doing that i.. ruined my marriage and our friendship. I guess old feelings just bubbled over while looking into your eyes and in trying to comfort you, i got carried away."

The way Roman and Sami looked at each other now, had Dean worried that there might be some unfinished business between them. After all, Roman did say Sami was his first love. Sometimes you never get over your first. No matter how hard you try. Dean's worries were muted for the time being when he felt Roman squeeze his hand. He did that often, it was like his own protective way of making sure Dean was still okay.

"I'm sorry too. I shouldn't of um.." Roman looked down, "I shouldn't of kissed you back. Especially when i have such strong feelings for someone else."

Roman's words seem to take up all the air left in the room. Dean could see it in Sami's eyes, his heart was broken when Roman said that. He didn't want Sami, he wanted Dean. The blue eyed boy wanted to celebrate that small victory, but right now definitely didn't seem like the right time.

"I know things are weird between us, and Dean i owe you an apology too. I'm sorry for kissing Roman. It was an honest mistake." Dean nodded, even though he wasn't accepting that half assed apology from this ginger headed asshole."..I really hope we can go back to where we were before the hamptons soon, Ro. I'm staying in New York for a while so you should call me, maybe we can hang out or something?"

Sami seemed hopeful, while Roman seemed a bit more indecisive about that. He didn't know if he was ready to be that close to Sami again.

"I would have to think about it." Roman decided. It was the only logical answer he could think of right now.

"That's okay." Sami had agreed because he didn't want to push Roman. There would be a time to tell him everything, but this was a great first step in the right direction. They looked at each other one last time before Sami headed for the door. Roman closed it behind him and then leaned against it, looking at Dean.

Well, that was awkward.

"So.." Dean said, now looking down at his own abs like he had dirt on them or something.

"So?" Roman was a bit worried that Dean was thinking that he might still want Sami, when the young boy looked up, Dean's eyes held a certain gleam in them. They were sparkling and it set his heart a flame. He was so adorable sometimes.

"So... you got strong feelings for me huh?" Dean bit on his bottom lip as he smiled at Roman. He noticed Roman playfully rolled his eyes and blush, then walk over to Dean. He pulled him in his arms and leaned down to peck Dean's sweet lips.

"Yeah, i do." Roman immediately said in response. He saw that dimpled smile form on Dean's face then once again he picked Dean up, this time over his shoulder.

"Rome!" Dean giggled as he got carried into Roman's bedroom.

Breasts were in his face as Nikki rode Seth. He suckled on them and she moaned as he thrusted up into her. They've been going at it for an hour now and Seth couldn't remember the last time he had this good of sex. His last girlfriend, Paige was good, but she wasn't as good as the woman on top of him.

Nikki nuzzled her breasts into his mouth, forcing more of it in as his cock moved deeper and deeper inside of her. "Mmm, Seth oh my god!" She whispered as he sucked and nibbled, giving her the intense pleasure that she needed.

The next thing she knew Seth had picked her up while still inside of her, and sat her in his lap. Nikki giggled as she pushed back, riding him like a stallion. The exact moment that she contorted her body in a bridge like way so that she could take more of his dick at once made Seth want to come by just that sight alone. His babe was not only beautiful and badass, but she was athletic as all hell. He pulled her flush against him as he pounded up into her, squeezing her asscheeks in his hands and giving them a firm slap, making Nikki moan more.

The moment was becoming tense between them, Nikki was staring into his chocolate eyes and he back in hers as they slowed down their movements. He was slowly coming inside of the condom and Nikki was wet, gushing around his cock. They laughed while kissing and coming down from their sexual high. She ran her fingers through blonde and brown, then fisted his hair and sucked in his bottom lip as they completely stilled from their orgasm.

"Oh my god that was so much fun." Nikki laughed, pecking Seth's lips repeatedly.

"Yeah.." Seth smiled, she had her eyes still closed, her hair was wet with sweat but she still looked so heavenly. It was at that moment that Seth knew.. He sorta realized it a while ago, but he now more than ever Seth was coming to realizations.. He loved her.

"I love you." Seth said out loud, completely forgetting that he wasn't saying it in his head.

It was when Nikki's eyes opened and she looked at him shocked, Seth knew he fucked up.

"What?"

Dean was so silly. That was Roman's first thought as he made a joke about italian food that wasn't quite funny, but it made him laugh anyway. They happened to be at a street fair, that went up 14th street all the way to 26th and Dean was loving it. They had italian sauages, lemonade, and Roman made Dean try something called zeppole, an italian dessert which as soon as he tasted it, Dean loved more than life, apparently.

They held hands all the way up to 26th street, when Dean noticed the ferris wheel. Dean pointed to it, signaling to Roman that he wanted to get on then pulled Roman over to the ride. There was a line so they had to wait and of course Dean started to give Roman a quick history lesson on ferris wheels. Roman didn't mind, he actually loved hearing Dean talk.

"I love the ferris wheel. Especially at night time." Dean admitted, holding Roman's hand as they moved forward in the line. "I love seeing the stars above and the night sky."

"I love it too, it's really romantic in a way." Roman added, taking a step further to wrap an arm around Dean's waist from behind. Of course, Dean didn't seem to mind as he just melted against Roman perfectly. Dean laced his fingers in Roman's then squeezed his hand when they finally reached the front of the line, where they got on ths ferris wheel together.

Dean was right, the ferris wheel was so much better at night time. Somehow you seemed closer to the stars that way. They held hands in the car together, looking at each other as their hands connected together carefully. Dean's blush was even more evident now and Roman couldn't stop himself from touching him. He rubbed his jean clad thigh, and Dean rested his head on his shoulder as the night faded away above them.

He was starting to wonder if this is what it was like to truly love someone. With Randy, it was way more about sex and the fact that they were both exceptionally hot. With Sami it was young love and secrecy, having to steal glances and schedule time for kisses. But with Dean, everything seemed so carefree and easy. Like there were little to no worries and that made him happy.

Dean made him happy.

"Dean?" Roman called his name, causing Dean to look up into gray eyes.

"Yeah?" Dean asked as his blue eyes sparkled against the glow of the moon above them.

It was the perfect time to tell him. The perfect time to say exactly how he felt about him. It was the perfect time to say i love you.

"You make me really happy." Coward. Roman thought, was he ever gonna just man up and say it?

"You make me really happy too." Dean leaned forward and kissed him softly on the lips, and Roman could feel their connection troughout his entire body. Kisses never made him feel dizzy like this. His warmth and innocence was so beautiful to Roman, he couldn't for the life of him understand just how much he loved him. He did love him. And so soon.

How did it happen this quickly?

After they got off the ferris wheel Roman and Dean decided to go to a late night movie.

They were holding hands walking towards the theater and Roman kept giving him gentle squeezes as they made idle chatter about everything. Dean surprised Roman by stopping him right in front of the theater, he wrapped his arms around Roman's neck and Roman circled his waist. They gave each other looks of love, and Dean bit his lip as Roman leaned in. And as they were about to kiss, Dean noticed his friends Cody and Dolph walking in his direction.

"Shit." Dean said, quickly letting go of Roman's neck, pushing away from his big samoan. Roman wonders exactly what was wrong, so he looked towards Dean's line of vision and he saw the two men he was looking at.

"Ambrose?" Dolph spoke up and waved at him from afar. He and Cody broke out in a small sprint so they could meet Dean face to face.

"Umm hey guys." Dean says, scratching the back of his head with one hand as he greeted his friends with the other. Roman just sorta stood there nervously as the guys intensively stared each other down.

"I thought that was you!" Dolph smiled, giving Dean a fist pound, Cody did the same.

"So.. who is this?" Cody asked, his eyes moving from Dean to Roman, and he looked at Roman up and down, like he was scanning him. He was big, and tattooed. Cody raised a curious eyebrow as he looked at him, Dean never mentioned hanging out with anyone other than Seth this whole vacation.

"This is Roman." Dean looked at them, then at Roman. He wanted to tell them the truth. That this was the guy he was seeing but he knew Cody and Dolph would just judge him. They wouldn't understand that Dean loved him. They wouldn't see pass Roman being a guy.

"He's my... friend."

Once he said that, Roman looked at him like Dean was speaking a completely different language that he couldn't understand. His friend? That's what he gets introduced as? Roman was livid. He and Dean shared an intense stare that Cody and Dolph picked up on quickly. No words were said for about a minute, and Roman could feel his anger rising. His friend. That's all he was?

They didn't have a label, that was true. But he thought he meant more to him than just his... friend.

"Yeah, um, It's nice to meet you guys." Roman said before he pretended to look down at his watch, "Unfortunately i have to go." Roman needed to get out of there. He couldn't really breathe right now and his heart was doing backflips in his chest. He kept hearing Dean call him his friend over and over in his mind and it was making his blood boil. Roman stood in front of Dean now who had the most apologetic look on his face. He wanted to mouth an 'I'm sorry' to Roman but he looked into those gray eyes, that were once filled with so much love for Dean a minute ago, now a shade darker and his gaze as cold as ice.

Dean fucked up badly.

"I'll see you around... friend." Roman slapped Dean's shoulder, a little harder than usual. It hurt Dean but the pain was masked by his sadness. Dean looked at him sadly, wanting so bad to just to hold him and apologize. He wanted to man up and tell Dolph and Cody that this was the man he loved then kiss Roman like crazy in front of them.

But why couldn't he?

"Umm.. Yeah man, see you later." Dean decided to say. He looked down, he couldn't watch Roman leave. He couldn't watch the anger and sadness that Roman held in his eyes right now. He heard his footsteps fade away and that's when Dean saw his retreating frame turn the street corner.

"Dean, you okay?" Dolph asked. Dean wanted to say no, that he wasn't fucking okay. That he felt like a damn coward, that he was crazy for the guy that just left and wanted Roman to come back. Instead, he just faked a smile and nodded.

"Yeah i'm great." He was lying, he knew he had hurt Roman, he knew he fucked up. But he just wasn't ready to come out as... whatever he was yet. He just didn't know if Roman would ever forgive him or not.

"Okay well... that was weird." Cody laughed it off, "Anyway, do you guys wanna go see Fifty Shades of Grey?" Cody asked. Dolph and Dean gave him a disgusted look and then proceeded to walk away from him.

"What? Hey! I heard it was good!" Cody yelled as he tried to catch up with his friends.

"I didn't think you'd call." Sami said honestly as he met Roman in the bar near his house. It was late, but as soon as Roman called him, Sami rushed over. After all, Roman didn't sound too good over the phone.

"I needed a friend, and since Nikki is busy getting dicked down, you came to mind." Roman was holding his beer so tight that Sami could see the imprint of his finger tips on the glass. He wondered what had happened to make Roman even want to talk to him. The way they left things, Sami was unsure that he and Roman would ever speak again. But he looked at him now and he could see that Roman really needed a friend.

"Ah, so i'm a distant second choice." Sami laughed and he saw Roman crack a small sad smile.

"Don't say that, Sam. You're my best friend." Roman took a sip of his beer then put it down on the bar. He looked at Sami sadly for a brief moment then looked down towards his shoes. "So.. umm .. Dean introduced me as his friend tonight." Roman admitted, as he took another sip a beer. "Just his friend."

Ahh. Sami thought. That's why Roman looked so sad. The straight asshole did something completely predictable. Even though Sami knew Dean would hurt Roman, he hated that his friend was so depressed over him.

Sami ended up taking the beer right out of Roman's hand and forcing him to look in his eyes, "Roman, what do you expect from a straight guy? That he was just gonna come out of the closet for you? Even if he is all over you in private, in public you're always gonna be his shameful secret. I told you not to get involved with this guy.."

"I know." Roman denounced, "But i fell in love with him Sami, i'm in love.."

"Are you? You've only known him four weeks, Ro. Maybe just being close to him makes you think you're in love. Maybe you're just... infatuated?"

Sami gave Roman a certain look, one that said please listen to me. Roman wanted to listen, he definitely did, but his heart was saying something else. His heart wanted Dean. Even though Dean hurt him tonight, Roman still loved him. It was love. No matter what Sami thought.

"You're not even listening to me are you?" Sami asked him honestly.

Roman just shrugged, "I am, i just.. can't get him off my mind."

"Okay fine, I got an idea.." Sami stood up, "You're going to stop thinking about him for a second and come dance with me?" Sami smiled at him, and it caused Roman to smile back, giving in to Sami easily. Roman nodded a yes and Sami clapped his hands together excitedly.

They got up and Sami didn't waste time pulling Roman in, moving slowly to the pop music that blared in the background. Sami had his hands on Roman's waist and he kept pulling him in closer, so close so that they were flush against each other's bodies. Sami's hands circled his waist now, and Roman decided to hold on to his shoulders. They were smiling and sort of grinding against each other. Roman's mind wasn't on Dean in that moment, and he actually was having a bit of fun.

Then, without much warning, Sami turned Roman around, and let Roman feel exactly what he had been missing all these years. As soon as Roman felt Sami's growing erection pressed against his ass, his eyes went wide and he pulled away, scratching the back of his head.

Fuck. Sami had a fucking erection.

"I-I'm actually gonna go home. I'll call you tomorrow okay?" Roman didn't meet his gaze. He couldn't. Fuck did Sami just get a damn hard on dancing with him? What the hell was happening?

"Rome?" Sami's voice faded into the background as Roman hurried the hell out of there.

Roman made it up the stairs of his home and as soon as he got on the elevator his mind started to wander. Sami had a hard on while dancing with him. A fucking erection. After highschool he lost all feelings for the ginger when he left him for Brie and broke his heart. He thought their sexual attraction ceased long ago but apparently not? Maybe it was just the alcohol, Roman tried to tell himself. There was no way that Sami would still be harboring feelings for him after all these years... right?

As soon as Roman got off the elevator, someone else he didn't expect to see was there waiting for him on the floor near his door. Dean. His.. friend. Dean. The straight virgin he deflowered about a week ago. Dean. The guy he happened to be crazy about, the guy he was in love with.

"Hey." Dean said as he got up off the floor.

"Hey." Roman said back, quietly.

"Can we talk please?" Dean stood near the door and watched as Roman failed to look him in the eyes. He could tell he was hurting. At first he thought it was a good thing introducing Roman as his friend but it looked like he was ashamed of him or something. Dean never wanted to make Roman feel that way. It wasn't his intention. He let Roman open the door to his apartment and Dean followed him inside nervously.

"I'm sorry." Dean said it out right, getting straight to the point. He moved forward a bit so he could be closer to him. "Cody and Dolph don't know about us and i can't have it getting back to town that i'm.."

"Gay?" Roman asked, as he finally looked into blue eyes.

"I'm not gay." Dean admitted, "I still like women. I just happen to... like you too." Dean saw Roman roll his eyes, as his back hit the counter of his kitchen.

"So you're saying that you didn't tell your friends about us because you don't want the people in your hometown knowing that their little Dean likes cock. But yeah, totally not gay. Right. Gotcha." Roman didn't want to listen to Dean's excuses tonight. He walked over to his counter and took out a box of cereal from the cupboard and then opened his fridge to get milk.

"Do you have to be so fucking rude and abrasive about this? I didn't want them to know because i'm not ready to be labeled as a.." Dean stopped himself before he said it out loud. Fuck. What the hell was he thinking?

"As a what? Fag?" Roman pursed his lips as the slur fell off of them. "Queer? Pole smoker? Meat packer?" He laughed. A bitter angry laugh that made Dean feel gulity for even thinking it.

"Roman, come on that's not what i'm saying! You're twisting my words!" Dean grumbled, rolling his eyes.

"No, i hear you perfectly. You don't want a label. And you know what? I don't want to give you one. Be whoever the fuck you wanna be Dean. But me? I'm an out and proud gay man. I've never been with a woman and i don't wanna be.."

"I know that-" Dean started to say but Roman cut him off.

"Then you also know that i'm not gonna be with someone who is ashamed to be with me. I'm not your fucking friend, Dean. I don't know what we are, but friends isn't it. And you calling me that just hurt. It fucking hurt so bad."

"I said i was sorry!" Dean tried apologizing again.

"I don't want your sorry." Roman fired back. "Just go." Roman walked over to the door and held it open for Dean so he could leave.

"So that's it? You want me to go because i didn't want to call you my fucking boyfriend in front of my friends, who by the way are actual assholes who make gay jokes all the time?" Dean was livid, "Fuck you Roman! You're a selfish bastard."

"And you're a fucking coward. Now get the fuck out!"

Dean sucked in his lips and then stormed out of Roman's apartment. Roman slammed the door after he left, then leaned against it with tears in his eyes. They just had their first real fight and they weren't even an exclusive couple. Admittedly, Roman shouldn't said the things he said, Dean had every right to come out when he was ready, but being introduced as nothing more than a friend hurt him because he was head over heels in love with Dean.

But to be fair, Dean didn't know that.

Roman banged his head against his door, regretting everything that just happened. His sigh was overly dramatic and water threatened to fall freely out of his eyes. He should call Sami, he thought. Maybe he could ask him to come over so he wouldn't think about how much he just hurt Dean.

Roman was ready to walk into his room when he heard three soft knocks on his door. His heart raced as he opened it, seeing Dean still there looking down at the sneakers on his feet.

"I.." Dean began.

"I'm sorry." Roman told him first. It caused Dean to look up with a gleam of hope in his eyes. He stood out there for about five minutes before he decided to man up and apologize. He didn't think Roman would say it first though. It made him smile, Roman was mature enough to admit when he was wrong. A quality Dean hadn't found in his past lovers.

"I'm sorry too." Dean said back honestly, and before he knew it, Roman had him in his arms. He smiled as he leaned forward into inviting lips and kissed Roman oh so softly. Roman closed the door behind him and they kissed their way to Roman's bedroom.

xxx

Roman loved showers. Especially showers where he had Dean propped up against the wall, while he slowly fucked him. As soon as they got to the room they started tearing at each others clothes, then Dean suggested a shower to wash the day away and Roman happily agreed.

To think he and Dean were fighting not an hour ago, about something so silly. Now there they were, making love in the shower. Hot steam wafted around them, and the sounds Dean was making resembled a porn stars. He was scratching up Roman's back, as his legs clamped firmly around his waist. Roman's cock was deep inside of him, and he moved slow, purposely thrusting hard in and out of him. At times it was hard to keep his balance since Dean had his full weight on him, but Roman definitely managed to make it work.

They locked eyes as soon as Dean came. His brown hair falling in small wet curls around him and his dimples more prevalant than ever as they pecked lips. Roman kissed his shoulder blade then pulled out, letting Dean's feet hit the floor of the tub. He watched Dean kiss his kissed pectoral, then the crook of Roman's neck. It was soft, and in each kiss Roman could feel all the love this man had for him.

They dried off and then made their way to Roman's bed, stark naked, and tangled up in each other. No words were said for a while, they just shared small kisses and touches, until Roman looked into his eyes. The thought was lingering on his lips, they needed to talk about this sometime.

"You leave in two days." Roman said as he turned to fully face Dean. "What am i gonna do without you?"

Roman's gentle laugh and small smile made Dean's heart flutter. Small pangs in his chest were making him weak. How did it become this? How did he come for New York and leave in love?

"I honestly don't know what i'm going to do without you either." Dean moved so his upper body rested on Roman. He felt Roman hold him protectively and he couldn't help but sigh. He was gonna miss this. He was gonna miss Roman. They both knew long distance wasn't gonna work and two days was all they had left together. Two days and no more kisses, hugs, smiles, great sex.. nothing. It was scary to think about.

"Roman?" Dean looked up at him and Roman smiled, pushing some of the untamed curls out of his face.

"Yeah?" Roman asked, gently caressing Dean jaw.

Dean wanted to say it. He really did, but somehow he knew it wasn't the right time.

"Will you miss me?" He asked instead, putting his thumb to Roman's lips.

"Everyday." Roman admitted with a smile. "I'll miss you every single day."

They kissed, a tight searing kiss that had Dean feeling like Michael Jackson when he first debuted his signature moonwalk. On cloud nine he was with this man, who's tongue felt like velvet and his love that felt like winning a nobel prize every day for the rest of his life. As they were kissing, Dean couldn't help but think what would've happened if he wasn't such a chicken and he told the man he loved..

That he loved him.

A/N: These idiots ugh i can write them for hours and not get tired. Hence, the really long chapter. Sorry if it's too much to read i just have it all planned out a certain way.

Now: Do you think Dean will ever tell Roman he loves him? Do you think Sami will? Will Seth recant his love for Nikki or will he fess up? Does Nikki love him back? How do you think they will cope with Dean leaving and neither of them wanting to admit their love? (Feedback is greatly appreciated!) Thanks for reading! -Melle