"Are you saying you could never love me?" is what Seth asked Nikki, his pale hand was firm on the door knob and he was ready to up and leave at any moment. Seth had told Nikki he loved her, but Nikki didn't seem to like that answer. They yelled, and screamed for the better part of ten minutes as Nikki pleaded for him to take it back, to not go down this road with her. They were having fun, why does it have to be more than that?

"I don't know." Nikki sighed as she looked down, she felt bare and it wasn't because she happened to be naked. The raw innocence and insecurity she was feeling at the moment came from the fact that Nikki was loved, for the first time in her life she was loved and she didn't know how to handle it. "I don't think i could." She saw Seth's hazel eyes flash full of anger, sadness and regret. He punched the wall, and it caused Nikki to jump from a natural shock, then she automatically started to cry.

None of this was what Seth wanted to hear but nevertheless it was truth. Nikki didn't know how to love him, in the end she would end up hurting him and Seth would end up hating her. That's just how the world worked, people like Nikki weren't allowed to be happy. Even if it's exactly what she wanted. "Seth, i'm... sorry." Nikki cried freely, droplets of rain falling over her tanned cheeks as she looked at the man she was losing on her own volition.

"Yeah, I'm fucking sorry too." Was Seth's very cold response before he walked out and slammed the door.

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Seth didn't like thinking about her, in fact he was pretty sure that he was numb to all feelings now. That night, when he blurted out that he loved her, and Nikki begged him to take it back, once Seth walked out the door it was like something changed him. It was like he couldn't feel... Or care. He was numb. He liked being numb, it meant not having to deal with others emotions, That was okay fot a guy like Seth. But seeing his best friend now, all heartbroken over Roman, it was starting to make Seth feel like he was making a mistake. Even though she didn't love him and couldn't see a future with him right now, Nikki was still everything he wanted in a woman. Cute, funny, smart, witty, and way out of his league. So what if she didn't love him back? Maybe she could grow too?

Delusional, table for one.

"I'm going to poli-sci, i'll see you later dude." Seth could hear Dean say in the faint distance. Dean's voice was a phony calm, an underlining full of anger and a slight hint of guilt mixed in with regret. He hasn't spoken to Roman in full week and he kept saying everything was okay but Seth knew different. He knew that his love sick friend was hurting, but this time there was no way of fixing it. Partly because Dean wouldn't tell him exactly what happened, instead he got the shitty cliff notes version.

"Hey, you wanna go hang at Bryan's later? I heard Emma is gonna be there!" Seth tried to cheer Dean up by mentioning his old crush. Dean had a crush on Emma freshman year but never acted on it with the art major. She was cute, but also quirky, totally Dean's type.

"Nah, Alicia said she needs help with her homework, so i'm gonna be in her dorm. Don't wait up okay?" Dean turned to leave.

"Dean wait!" Seth stopped him, causing Dean to turn around. When he did, Dean's phone started ringing, it was that same Ed Sheeran song, how did it go? Baby we found love right where we are. Seth remembered that was Dean's ringtone for Roman. He saw Dean take his phone out of his hoodie, look at the screen then most likely he pressed ignore because he put the phone right back in his right pocket.

"Well?" Dean was starting to get annoyed, "Spit it out dude i don't wanna be late!" Dean yelled at him, causing Seth to get straight to his point.

"I think you should call Roman." When Seth said it, Dean's face automatically changed from the sad, depressed numbness that he wore daily, to a cold, expressionless stare that honestly scared the hell out of Seth. But he wasn't going to back down. Dean was just being stubborn, he needed to hear this. "Call him back Dean."

"I told you once." Dean warned, "Stay the fuck out of my personal life. Or better yet, how about you call the girl you're 'in love' with back, tell her how much of a fuckhead you are for telling her that you loved her with your cock in her, instead of worrying about me and my dick." With that, Dean slammed the door in his face.

Seth licked his bottom lip then ran his hands through his blonde struggle patch, luckily it was slowly growing back. Even though Dean gave him a quick verbal lashing, Seth knew that Dean wasn't mad at him, he was just directing his anger towards Seth. Dean was mad he couldn't be in New York, that he couldn't be with the guy he loved. He would definitely talk to him later, but for now, there was something that Dean had said which was right.

He should call Nikki.

They both needed closure and it wasn't doing him any good that he kept this on ice. He had to let Nikki know why he said what he said and let the chips fall where they may.

Seth picked up his phone and dialed her number, breathing heavily before he got an answer.

"Hey, Nikki?"

Was it okay to be lovesick over a guy you really wanted but also was miles away? That's what Roman was now contemplating as he laid out across his pillows. There were books on the side of him, along with his macbook and a notepad. But, Roman couldn't focus. His mind kept going on Dean and their phone conversation turned sour about a week ago.

How ironic was it that the first guy he opens up to in a long time wants nothing to do with him? He started to wonder that as he looked up to his ceiling. Roman breathed out a sigh, then started putting his books and stuff away. There was no point in trying to review Torts when he couldn't even focus.

"Roman?" Sami came out of the guest room and saw Roman lying there looking defeated. He wanted to help his friend get over this asshole who had his heart. But it was becoming harder and harder. Sami thought he was taking a giant step when he interrupted their phone sex convo turned bitter last week, but apparently he was highly underestimating Roman's love for Dean.

So Sami had to move to plan B.

"Hey buddy." Sami took off his shoes, leaving them neatly in front of the door before he walked to bed, crawling to Roman. He laid next to his friend then smiled as they caught eyes. The iris of gray in his perfect view, almost causing Sami to melt under Roman's sad and innocent gaze, "Still thinking about Dean, huh?"

"Yeah. He won't even take my calls." Roman said defeatedly.

"Because he's an asshole." Sami denouced coldy.

"Sami.. You can't just go around calling people assholes." Despite everything, Roman smiled at his friend, "Plus you don't know him like i do."

"He's an asshole if he can't see you meant no harm by having me over here. Also.. he's jealous of what we have. Which screams asshole to me." Sami's honey green eyes shined at him, and Roman felt safe under his gaze. Apart of Roman just wished that he could talk to Dean, let him know he loved him still and that there was nothing going on between him and Sami. But another part of him knew that Dean wouldn't listen to logic. They were far away from each other, according to Dean, Roman could be fucking Sami right now. Even though that notion itself was ridiculous.

"Sami stop." Roman looked down at his own shirt then back up into those beautiful eyes. "I would be jealous if my boyfriend was hanging around his ex too."

Sami understood that, he got closer to Roman, pulling him in and surprisingly Roman laid his head on his chest. Sami wanted to fist pump in victory, but he had to wait to celebrate, this was all apart of plan B.

He realized that Dean was a hot head who took things at face value. He didn't think, he just acted. So instead of coming on too strong with Roman, Sami was just gonna be there for him. As long as it took. He was gonna let Dean destroy this relationship all by himself. Besides, Roman was worth the wait. Things ended bad between him and Roman before, but Sami truly believed that Roman was his soulmate. He made a mistake in highschool and he was looking to make up for it now.

"Sami?" He heard him say, which caused Sami to lift his head to look down at Roman, he pushed a soft strand a black hair behind his ear, watching Roman blush slighty at the exchange.

"Yeah?"

"Thank you for being here with me." Roman smiled for the first time in a week, and it was all thanks to Sami. Yes, Sami was a very great friend. He was always there for him, even when he was miles away. Roman loved Sami so much.

"Hey, i'm here for you no matter what, always remember that." Sami wrapped Roman in his arms, holding him tightly. He felt Roman melt into him, slowly Roman was drifting off into a deep sleep.

Sami smiled to himself as he held the guy he loved the most in his arms. Hopefully it didn't take long for Roman to be his once again.

"So if women aren't allowed the same wage percentage as men it means that no matter how hard we try to fight for equality we still get the shorthand of the stick, or should i say the 64 percentile of the stick depending on your race." Alcia was reading her oral representation for Dean, but Dean was spacing out. He had his phone in his hand, scrolling through all the missed calls from Roman. Fuck, he felt like an asshole. Roman was trying, more than likely to call and apologize and there he was ignoring them.

And why?

Because of his stupid bravado and jealousy of that period stain who called himself Sami. Dean knew his game. He knew what he wanted. But he better fucking chill because that samoan dick belonged inside of him. Okay, not really but damn he missed Roman so much. Not just his dick but just hanging out, being with him, playing video games and getting so horribly beaten by Roman in call of duty, soft kisses, that time Roman took when hiking and he ran all the way down the mountain from a snake and Roman didn't judge him..

"DEAN!" Alicia pushed him and Dean snapped out of his reverie, focusing on the girl in front of him.

"Shit sorry. I was playing flappybird." Dean lied, what was he supposed to do? Tell her that he was having flashbacks of his previous relationship with another man?

"Eh, it's cool. My presentation is shit anyway. I need a break." She laid back on her bed and Dean followed soon after. They both looked up at the ceiling, then all of a sudden, Dean felt Alicia's hand going through his. It should've felt awkward, since they were exes and all but it was actually comforting to Dean so he didn't automatically pull away. Alicia was someone familiar and he was used to her touch. Apart of him wanted to tell her to stop, but he surpressed every bad thought and let their contrasting hands stay connected for at least a little bit longer.

"Dean... Are you okay?" Alicia asked as she rolled over, turning so that her upper body rested on top of his. He looked down and saw her green eyes filled with worry. She did that a lot, she worried about him a lot. Dean loved and hated it at the same time.

"Yeah why?" Dean asked, trying hard to not have his voice be so leveled. He didn't want Alicia to realize how upset he was. And he didn't want to accidently have a Seth moment where he blurted out that he had been with another dude. Not sure how Alicia would view him after he told her that kind of thing.

"All week you've been... off.. i dunno, maybe i'm seeing things but you seem... sad. No, depressed. Like someone broke your heart or something."

Dean stilled when she said that, then sat up with his hands between his jean covered legs. "I.. umm.. It's... complicated." Is all Dean could think to say. He wasn't ready to let Alicia know that yes, he was hurting. That the same hurt he felt stemmed from a guy back in New York. A guy he loved deeply but still was confused about. Fuck it was super complicated.

"Well, whoever this chick is, if she makes you feel like this, like you're shit, maybe she's not worth it. You know?" Alicia crawled into Dean's lap, straddling his waist. Dean wrapped his arms around her, but still looked down. "Dean? You believe me right? You deserve better." She said as she put her hand to his chest, and felt Dean's heart beat. It was slow and steady, the heart of someone completely broken.

"Umm yeah." Dean agreed even though he knew the opposite. He deserved to be with Roman, but what he wants and what he deserves are two completely separate things.

He felt her kiss his cheek, and Dean tensed up automatically. Alicia noticed but tried to kiss his cheek again, only to be stopped by Dean's hands on her face. "Please don't." The desperate plea escaped Dean's lips. Alicia nodded, leaning forward to touch her head to Dean's gently.

"You sure you're okay?" Alicia had to ask again. It was Dean's turn to nod, and he closed his eyes, letting his head fall to her shoulder.

"I'm okay." Dean muttered, breathing in the familiar scent of vanilla, and peaches,

"Just a little lovesick."

"So Seth called me." Nikki tells Roman as they run beside each other on the treadmill. Luckily, Roman had one of his headphones out because otherwise he wouldn't have heard his best friend.

"Really?" Roman was actually surprised. The way Nikki and Seth had left things he would've thought that whatever they were... would be over by now. Guess he was wrong. "Well what did he say?" Roman asked as he upped the speed on his own treadmill.

"He said that we should talk sometime about what happened between us and i agreed. I feel so terrible about how we left things so he wants to video chat next weekend, that way we are able to see each other face and face and hash this thing out." Nikki slowed down her treadmill so she could talk to Roman properly. She looked at him as she talked, Roman had a pained look on his face, partly because of all the cardio and partly because he was jealous. It was almost a week and a half that Dean's been ignoring him and Roman hated it. He had to talk to him but he honestly didn't think it was possible. It was almost like he was trying to cut Roman out of his life completely, and that thought scared Roman.

"Has he tried to contact you yet?" Nikki wondered as she noticed Roman slow his speed down too.

"No. I call, i text, i send voicemails. My video chats go unanswered and so does everything else. " Roman stilled for a few seconds, pressing pause on his machine. "I think i lost him Nik." He picks up his towel and then sighs, rubbing it on his face and neck. "He doesn't want me... He doesn't love me."

Nikki stopped her machine immediately and then stopped Roman's. She pulled him off of the treadmill towards the locker rooms. Roman stopped in front of it, knowing very well that he couldn't go with Nikki into the women's locker room.

"Rome... do you love him?" Nikki asked as she leaned against the pale covered wall.

"Come on, Nik, you know i do." Roman looked down, wanting nothing more than to ignore this conversation.

"If you love him, which i know you do.. then you have to fight for him."

"How? When he won't even answer the phone for me." Roman whined.

Nikki laughed, slapping his chest, "Ro.. Do something spontaneous! Something unexpected and then make him forgive you." Nikki got a bottle of water from the vending machine and started slowly drinking it. She opened her eyes and noticed Roman looking at her with his curious eyebrow raised.

"What are you suggesting Nik?"

Nikki just shrugged, "I dunno Rom, what do you think i'm suggesting?" Nikki winked at him before her silm figure disappeared into the locker room.

"Hey Dean, it's Roman. I... (exhales) I know you won't answer. I know you're pissed at me even though there is nothing going on with Sam and I.. I miss you. I miss you so much. Please just let me know you're okay? I... you know how i feel... i'm worried about you."

It wasn't his first message but it was Dean's favorite one. He could hear the sadness in Roman's voice and it broke him. Dean had woken up in the middle of the night with Alicia laying on his chest and he decided to listen to Roman's voicemails. There was something about this one though, the way Roman tried to tell him he loved him, but stopped himself from saying it over the phone. That broke him. Fuck why did he have to miss him so much?

"Let me walk you to your dorm." Alicia was being attentive and sweet to him recently. He's been staying over her dorm to avoid Seth and avoid New York memories. But he figured two days in the same clothes was enough.

It was late, around one am late and he just wanted to slum in his own bed, but there was his brown temptress, biting her beautiful bottom lip softly and making faces at him. Come fuck me faces, let's try again faces, do-what-you-want-with-my-body Lady Gaga style faces. Faces that Dean just couldn't handle right now.

"You don't have too. I'll be fine." Dean leaned down and kissed her forehead, then popped on his black chuck taylor. "I'll come over tomorrow with new clothes. Then we can resume our sleepover." He winked at her then opened the door to leave. "Bye Licia."

The summer air was fleeting, and intoxicating. Dean was enjoying the scent of the trees that flooded into his nostrils as he walked back to his dorm. He started to think about Alicia and maybe asking her to go on a picnic with him before fall officially started. That would be fun, Dean thought as he took the stairs two at a time to get to his destination.

The one thing Dean didn't expect to see when he got there was a 6'4, 265 pound samoan man sitting in front of his room door looking lost. Dean had to blink a couple of times to make sure that what he was seeing was real.

Roman was there. His Roman.

That stupid asshole who slept in the same bed with Sami just last week.

That same asshole who looked so incredibly gorgeous in his smedium blue henley shirt that caused Dean to release a unwanted audible moan. What was he doing there? Was he dreaming? He has to be fucking dreaming if he honestly thought Roman would come all the way to Cincinatti, Ohio just to fucking see him. If this was a dream, it was a fucking sick one that was conjured up by the devil himself.

"Ro- Roman?" Dean spoke loudly, standing at the end of the hallway. His feet were cement and his eyes were magicians because this had to be a trick of some sort.

"Dean." Roman said as he stood up, but his feet didn't move. He saw Dean slowly inching closer to him and he could tell by the shocked look on his face that he still didn't believe that Roman was truly there.

They were face to face now, and Roman said nothing as Dean reached out and poked him in his abs. "Hey!" Roman giggled. "Whats that for?"

"You... You're real." Dean was still in shock.

"Very real." Roman smiled softly. "I've missed you." He looked around when he noticed Dean looking around. Probably to make sure no one saw him and Roman talking in the hallway. He almost forgot Dean wasn't out yet. He didn't want any of his friends to find out that he was there and have them judge him.

After he was sure that everything was clear, Dean reached up slowly, a shaking hand moving to cup Roman's face. Roman closed his eyes, immediately reacting to his touch. He felt his soft caress and it made all the hairs on his body stand up. No one has ever made him feel this excited by just a simple touch. No one.

Roman was enjoying the feeling of Dean's hands on him again. He thought Dean was inching towards his hair but instead he felt a hard slap across his right cheek.

"You fucking asshole." Dean's voice was deep and intimidating. Roman was enjoying the touch so much that he complete forgot about Dean's anger. He touched his face, in shock as Dean folded his arms in front of him.

"What was that for?" Roman asked, rubbing the stinging feeling away in his cheeks.

Dean rolled his eyes and shrugged, completely ignoring the question. "How's Sami? Have you guys fucked yet? I know he's glad i'm here, he can have you whenever he wants."

"I'm not some fucking slut, Dean. No one can have me whenever they want." Roman defended himself.

Dean snorted coldly, "Could've fooled me."

" You know what? Fuck you, Dean." Roman shook his head, "I came all the way here for you, but i forgot you're nothing but a fucking immature asshole." Roman turned to walk away, but he felt Dean pull him back in, their chest making noise as they fell against each other.

"Fuck you too." Dean whispered, right before he started devouring Roman's mouth with his own.

Roman fell back against the door, he felt Dean's tongue snaking it's way inside his mouth for a moment before he grabbed Dean by his t-shirt then slammed him against his own door. He sucked in Dean's bottom lip, and reached around, his hands groping every part of Dean until he reached his ass. Roman grabbed it, squeezing the firm cheeks through his jeans. It caused a moan from Dean, and then a hard push that made their lips part.

Dean and Roman looked at each other before Dean went into his pockets to find the stupid key to his room. He felt Roman push up against him, rubbing his crotch against Dean's ass. Dean looked back and then kissed Roman on the lips roughly, rutting his ass against Roman's jean clad erection.

Dean pushed him away again, watching Roman lay against the wall across from his room.

Dean opened his door, and leaned against it's frame as he looked across at Roman.

"Get the fuck in here." Was the last thing Dean had to say before Roman came in his dorm, closing the door behind him.

A/N: That's funny... i think ambreigns are about to do more things they will regret. Lets take a vote: team get it on or team talk about your issues! I wanna know what side you guys are on!

Before Ro came it seemed like old foxbrose feelings were bubbling to the surface. Do you think Alicia and Sami have a chance now that Dean and Ro are in each others clutches again?

Sidenote: Sorry it took so long to update, i've been trying to not let hate get to me but it has and honestly it's effecting me a bit. -Melle