Seth and Nikki were walking back to his dorm in silence. Fall was creeping in, quickly fading away Summer so the night air was certainly colder. Seth wanted so bad to put his arms around Nikki for warmth and tell her that everything was going to be okay but after the bar fiasco with Paige, he doubted that Nikki liked him very much right now. His mind floated back to Paige and Nikki's conversation back at the bar.
"Hello. I hope I'm not interrupting." Paige smiled and moved to sit near Seth and Nikki.
"Umm. You're definitely interrupting. We were having a private conversation?" Nikki didn't want to sound so snappy but she already didn't like Paige from everything the very drunk AJ kept telling her.
"Well i heard my name so i thought i could pop in and speak for myself." Paige said back.
"Okay then." Nikki turned to her, tongue caught in her cheek as she clasped her hand in front of her dress. "You wanna explain why you've been fucking my man?"
Both Paige and Seth's eyebrows raised. Paige's in pure disbelief and Seth's in shock. Did Nikki just describe him as... her man?
"If he's yours why did he crawl into bed with me as soon as he came back to Ohio?" Paige laughed, "Unless you two have some sort of weird open relationship."
"Our relationship is none of your business." Nikki started to get up and that's when Seth feared for Paige's entire existence. She got into Paige's face and the two women stood toe to toe with each other. "From here on out. You keep your pale, ghostly hands off of my man. Even when I'm not here, he's mine. Are we clear?"
"Crystal." Paige said, not backing down. "But maybe instead of us getting catty and the end result being a match between us wwe style... We should be angry at that arsehole who has been playing both of us?"
Nikki then looked at Seth. There was sadness filled in her brown eyes. Paige was right. Nikki had no reason to be jealous. Seth probably told Paige that he was single and technically he was. Her heart ached. She's never been more embarrassed in her life. "You're right." Nikki said sadly. She pushed back from Paige and grabbed her bag, running out of the bar.
"How could you not tell her about me?" Paige looked at him disgusted. "You're a real arse, Seth." She picked up the rest of Nikki's drink and then tossed it on Seth before sauntering away.
xxx
Seth opened his door quietly and watched Nikki pile in. She started taking off her heels then unclipped her hair, letting the rest of the curls fall. Seth realized he probably should take off his wet shirt so he tore it off his shoulders and tossed it in his hamper. When he was about to take off his jeans, Nikki called to him.
"Can you umm.. unzip me?" Nikki asked quietly.
Seth nodded then walked over to her. He slowly unzipped her dress, letting her perfect back come into full view. Seth sighed as he took the dress off her shoulders, and let it fall to her waist. A certain tension filled the air and Seth breathed deep through his nose. He contemplated for a moment, then said fuck it. He touched her shoulders softly. Nikki shivered but didn't pull away from him. He laid a quick kiss to Nikki's shoulder blade then brought her in to lay against his front. "Nik, I'm sorry." Seth said against her neck. She gasped when he laid a soft kiss there.
"It's fine. We weren't even together. I have no real reason to be mad. I guess I'm just.." Nikki whispered softly. She turned her head to look at him, and their eyes connected slowly. "I'm just ... jealous." She admitted all too quietly.
It wasn't soon before long that Seth captured her lips into his own, bringing down the rest of her dress so that Nikki was in nothing but panties. Seth grabbed at her thigh and squeezed, leaving his hand print all over her glorious skin. She turned around fully and jumped on him, wrapping her arms securely around his neck, and Seth held on, carrying her over to his bed. He laid Nikki down softly, pressing himself into her. Nikki bit her lip as her eyes flicker at him. Seth's hands moved up the contour of her body, towards her breasts. He cupped the side of it and then leaned in to take a beautifully puffy nipple in his mouth. Nikki moaned out his name, squirming under him as he sucked and took a nibble of it, getting her panties extremely wet.
Seth pressed his erection against her underwear, letting her feel exactly what she's been missing. Soft licks down the center of her body were felt until he reached in between her legs. His tongue sucked in her juices through her panties. Nikki moaned out and looked down at him.
"Seth.. You don't have to do this.." Nikki pleaded.
"Shh." Came Seth's reply. "I want too."
xxx
In the morning, Seth got up first. He sat up and put on his boxers, looking back down to see Nikki sleeping softly against his pillow. He smiled and stretched, wondering what to get her to eat for breakfast. He was gonna go with pancakes when he noticed that Dean was there, asleep in his own bed in the corner. Seth was confused because Dean told him he was spending the weekend with Roman. He told him he wasn't going to be back until at least Monday.
Worried that something might be wrong, Seth went over to Dean's bed and shook him awake. "Dean?" He said as ruffled Dean's hair. "Dean, wake up man."
"Yeah dude, what happened?" Dean asked. His voice was deep with sleep.
"Hey, man." Seth smiled at his friend, "I thought you were spending the weekend with Roman? Did something happen?"
"I don't want to talk about it." Dean stated quickly before he turned away, trying to go back to sleep. Seth turned him back around to face him, and Dean looked annoyed.. and also kinda sad. But Seth could tell he was trying to mask it.
"Dean, come on. Talk to me? What happened?" Seth was starting to worry. "Did you and Roman have a fight?" Seth swore that if Roman hurt Dean again he would fly to New York his damn self and pummel that fucker.
Dean shook his head. "No, we didn't fight. Can i go back to sleep now?"
"No!" Seth said sternly, "Not until you tell me what happened!"
"For fucksakes, Seth fine!" Dean sat up angrily, "I broke up with him. Okay? We broke up. I fucking broke his heart. Is that what you wanna hear?"
"Wait... what?" Seth asked, "You broke up with him?" Seth was confused, "Dean, i thought you loved him?"
"I.." Dean looked at Seth trying to choke back tears. "I'm no good for him, okay? We're no good for each other. It's over, Seth. The man i love..." Seth could see that Dean was on the verge of crying, he held onto Dean's hand, and squeezed. "I can't love him anymore."
Seth tried to speak but Dean just turned back around towards his bed. He heard Dean whimper and then a strangled cry. Fuck, Dean was hurting. He needed him. He needed his superman. Seth took a deep breath then got in Dean's bed, quickly wrapping himself in Dean's arms. "It's gonna be okay, Dean." Seth said softly. Dean turned around in his arms and cried against him, finally letting it all out.
Nikki woke up not soon after Seth and she saw the personal embrace between friends. Seth was holding Dean like he was holding her last night, cuddling him, running his fingers through Dean's hair and kissing his forehead. Not only did Nikki overhear their entire conversation but she realized as she looked at them..
There was something more going on between them.
Nikki cleared her throat to get their attention and that's where Seth and Dean parted. Seth turned towards her and smiled, moving across beds to kiss her lips. Nikki accepted the kiss but she noticed Dean watching them. She pushed Seth back then looked up into his eyes. "Seth can we.. talk.. outside?"
Nikki put on Seth's shirt and walked out the door without an answer from Seth. He looked at Dean apologetically then walked out to talk to Nikki.
"Hey babe you good? Is this about last night?" Seth moved to hold her at the waist but Nikki stopped him and moved back two steps.
"No. This isn't about last night. This is about you and Dean." Nikki replied crossing her arms.
"Me and Dean are best friends. What do you mean?"
"Best friends don't hold each other like that. Best friends don't cuddle like that. You were holding him like you were holding me last night, Seth. It's obvious... you have feelings for Dean."
"What?" Seth scoffed with a laugh, "That's ridiculous. Nik, Dean and Roman just broke up. I was just trying to consul him!"
"Yeah i heard everything. I also saw you looking at him like he was the only person in the entire world. Like... you love him. My best friend is gay Seth, i know exactly how two guys look when they have feelings for each other!" Nikki screamed almost loud so the whole dorm could hear.
"Nik i..." What could Seth say but the truth?
"No. Don't Nik me. Look, I'm all for free love. I believe in equality and letting people love who they want. But if you have feelings for Dean, you need to let me know. I don't want to start something with you if you're harboring feelings for your best friend. So just.. tell me the truth, Seth. Do you.. love Dean?"
Seth looked down slowly and nodded. He wasn't going to lie to her. Nikki made a noise of disappointment with her mouth then moved to go back inside. He grabbed her wrist and stopped her before she reached the door. "I do love him. But i'm not in love with him. I'm in love with you." Seth pleaded with Nikki.
"Seth, can you honestly sit there and tell me that if Dean wanted you... you wouldn't give him a chance? That you would push him away all for me?" Nikki's eyes were filled with tears.
"I... don't know." Seth answered.
"Well when you know, you give me a fucking call." Nikki pushed away from him harshly then went inside. She took out some sweats from her bag and popped them on along with some sneakers. Once she was done packing she walked to the door.
"Nik, come on, don't do this!" Seth called out.
Nikki didn't respond as she opened the door and left.
Seth fell into his pillow and started screaming into it. He couldn't believe he just lost Nikki again, all because of his own stupid honesty. God he was such an idiot. He turned to look at Dean who was looking back at him with his mouth open in shock.
"Seth.. do you have feelings for me?"
*A few months later*
"Randy i don't want to be here." Roman told Randy. They were in a gay strip club for Randy's birthday. About two months after Roman and Dean broke up, Randy showed up at his doorstep. He said he heard it through the grape vine that Dean hurt him and figured Roman could use a friend. They bonded over the fact that John broke up with him too and Roman slowly but surely let Randy back into his life. He didn't know if it was because he was lonely without Dean but Randy was a good substitute... for now.
"Rome calm down. This is fun. Look at all the hot guys. Let's get you a lap dance." Randy looked around for someone hot to loosen Roman up a bit but no one seemed to catch his eye. Roman's eyes wandered too and he came across this blue eyed brunette with dimples that reminded him of Dean. His heart panged in his chest as he watched the guy with the washboard abs and gold shorts flirt with a bachelor party. He didn't smile like Dean smiled but the resemblance was something that had Roman licking his lips. He started thinking about Dean now, and where he might be. He often wondered if he was okay, even though Dean broke his heart it didn't mean Roman stopped caring.
He couldn't ever stop.
"I'm going to the bathroom." Roman said sadly to Randy. He got up before Randy could reply and walked off to where the music wasn't blaring in his ear. He started to wonder how Nikki did this. Four nights a week she would come and shake her thing over loud overbearing music for almost a thousand a night. Roman laughed as he realized he answered his own question.
When he made it into the bathroom he washed his hands and looked in the mirror. He had to sleep more often, honestly. He was way too handsome to have bags under his eyes. Roman sighed. He got a paper towel and went to dry off when..
"I fucking told you, you give the costumers what they want. You understand me?" Roman heard a guy yelling through the bathroom door. He opened it just a crack to try and see if he could figure out what's going on. "If they want you to suck their dick, next time..." He squeezed the guys face and Roman could make out a thick red beard. "You better fucking do it. You heard me?"
He didn't know what came over him. But Roman felt drawn to the situation. He pushed open the bathroom door hard and the two men jumped at his presence. Roman locked eyes with the victim of torment and in the moment he realized..
He just found Sami.
"Sam?" Roman said in shock. His heart was pounding. What the fuck was Sami doing in a strip club being man handled?
"Umm.. I don't know who that is." Sami answered with fear laced in his voice.
Roman could tell that Sami was afraid of what might happen, not only to him but to Roman in that moment. Roman scrambled in his pockets and pulled out 300 dollars. "I want a private session with your redhead. Right now." He held up the money for the guy in the suit then watched his eyes glisten with excitement.
"Private session for 30 minutes is 300." The guy replied. "Any longer you gotta pay a little bit more than that, pretty boy."
"How about..." Roman opened his wallet, revealing his black card that was only allowed to use on specific special occasions. "All night long?"
The guy nodded excitedly then pushed Sami into Roman. "Here. He's yours. Pay at the front." The suit went up to Sami and grabbed him again, "They'll give you my card at the front. Let me know if this one doesn't behave." He pushed Sami hard then left them alone.
"C'mon." Roman took Sami's hand a dragged him to the cashier. He paid 1500 dollars for him then took him out of the club towards his car. Randy would just have to find his own way home tonight.
Roman drove quickly back to his brownstone then brought Sami up the stairs. He entered his apartment then took Sami to his bedroom, closing the door.
"Okay. Spill it Sam, where have you been all this time? Working at a strip club? Honestly selling your body to nasty old men?" Roman was furious.
"Can i take a shower?" Sami's answered sadly, his eyes were red and watering, "I haven't had one in two days."
Roman looks at him, he looked broken, dirty and defeated. Roman nodded then took his hand, leading Sami to the bathroom. He closes the door and then starts to take off Sami's clothes. He tossed the fishnet shirt they made him wear, then the tight rainbow shorts. Roman noticed he had bruises on the back of his thighs and arms. He said nothing though as he helped Sami into the shower. He closed the shower curtain then exited the bathroom.
While getting undressed in bed, Roman could hear Sami crying from the bathroom. He winced at Sami's sad whimper, trying his best not to let guilt eat him alive. He was in his sleep shirt, which happened to be Dean's old shirt he left there and his pyjamas when Sami came out in nothing but a towel.
"Stuff to wear is in the dresser drawer." He told Sami softly. The red head nodded then went to open the drawer, taking out some sweat pants. He put them on, then crawled into bed with Roman.
Silence crept between them, and Sami came closer. Roman opened his arms and Sami entered them, wrapping himself in Roman.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" Roman asked, his hands running through Sami's wet red hair.
"In the morning, please." Sami whispered, leaning up to look at Roman.
They caught eyes and then slowly Sami kissed him. It was out of need, Sami's desperate attempt at telling Roman thank you. Roman surprisingly kissed Sami back, right before holding him close and going to sleep.
Sami woke up alone in bed. He looked around for Roman and then smelled sausage in the faint distance. He got up to find Roman when he heard him arguing with someone over the phone.
"No I'm not sorry for leaving i had something to do... yeah well it's your fault for trying to drag me to a damn strip club anyway... Yeah? Fuck you too Randy how's that?" He hung up and violently slammed his phone down, moving to put the breakfast on plates. Sami came in not soon after and smiled when Roman noticed him.
"Hey. I made your favorite. Waffles, turkey sausage and eggs over easy." He sat down at the table with Sami and poured them both some orange juice.
Sami took a sip and then started to eat like he hasn't eaten in days. Roman looked at him oddly, then realized that Sami probably hasn't eaten in days. He was skinner, his ribs were showing and he had bruises everywhere. Roman really needed to know what happened to him. "Sam.. Can we please talk now?"
Sami looked up from his almost done plate and nodded as he chewed. He put his fork down and sipped the rest of his juice. "What do you wanna know?"
"Everything." Roman said. "Start from where we left off."
Sami gulped, then looked down, nodding. "Well.. As you know, i had nowhere to go. I thought about just doing the homeless thing after you told me you couldn't help. But as i was walking out of your building i saw Kevin Owens. Your neighbor."
"My neighbor did this to you?" Roman's first thought was to call the police but Sami cut him off.
"No. He didn't. He actually let me stay there rent free. I stayed there for a month. We created this.. weird bond. He was sweet to me and the night i left he kissed me and told me I'd always have a place to stay with him. Me still being hung up on you, i decided that living down the hall, and seeing Dean come over on weekends and you two kissing outside of the building meant that this wasn't a very good place for me right now. I left to fend for myself but i didn't have much money. I was sleeping in one of those bus depots when a guy offered me a job at a gay strip club. I thought it was okay because Nikki does it and honestly she seems happy. But it wasn't like her job at all. After about a month.. He was pimping me out to the costumers. Letting them do what they wanted with me for money. I never saw profit. He kept me in a room above the strip club with just a bed. They... raped me constantly. One beat me so bad i couldn't walk for a week." Sami had tears in his eyes. "At first i thought, this is what i deserve for hurting Ro, you know? But then.. I just stopped laying down and taking it. I started fighting back. That's why you saw him trying to whip me back into shape back there. I started to become defiant. If you didn't find me Ro, i don't know what i would've done." Sami started choking up and that's when Roman came over to hug him tight. He held onto him as Sami cried, letting all his emotions out.
"Sami I'm so sorry." Roman cried out, sniffling with him. He couldn't believe Sami went through so much. And all because of him. He felt so much guilt that he wanted to do anything to appease for it. "I'm so sorry."
"Stop apologizing. I fucked up first. I never meant to hurt you Ro. I'm sorry." He held onto his face and they looked at each other for awhile. Sami breathed out deeply then pulled back, wiping his tears.
"I forgive you. Okay? And you're never going back to that strip club. Ever. I give you my word. You're safe now Sam. And you can stay here as long as you like." Roman smiled then got up to put his own plate in the sink.
"You sure Dean wouldn't mind?" Sami sniffles. "I don't want to come between you too again."
Roman stiffened as he washed his plate. "Umm, Dean actually broke up with me a couple of months ago." He didn't want Sami to see his face. "So i highly doubt he cares who's in my bed anymore."
Sami could tell by Roman's tone that Roman wasn't over him. No matter what Dean did Roman would always love him. He saw him scrubbing the dish a little too hard and that's when Sami got up and moved behind him. "Roman."
"Yeah?"
"Roman look at me." Sami demands.
Roman turned around and looked at Sami, his eyes watering again this time for a completely different reason. A lost love. "When's the last time you heard from him?"
"A couple of months ago. He called to ask if he had left his flash shirt here and i told him no." Sami looked down and noticed Roman happened to be wearing a flash tee. He smiled at his friend.
"Do you miss him?"
"Every single day, heh." Roman's lip quivered, and he ran his hands through his hair. "But he doesn't miss me. I guess i just gotta get over him." Roman turned back around to finish the dishes.
"Why don't you try.. calling him?" Sami asked, sitting back down to finish his plate. "I bet he's thinking about you right now."
"Ha. No. Dean never wanted me to begin with. Apparently i was only a fantasy. You were right, Sam. You were right all along."
Sami shook his head, "I don't believe that. As much as i don't like the guy, i think that you're giving up way too easy. What happened to true love, Ro?"
"It doesn't exist." Roman said coldy. "Now finish up and meet me in the gym room. First thing we're gonna do, is get you healthy again."
"Coming!" Sami smiled.
*A week later*
Dean was miserable. It's been months and he still couldn't get over Roman. Some nights he wanted to call him so bad and tell him how much he missed him. Other nights he knew he'd get nothing back from Roman. Truly he hurt him way too much to even think about getting anything from him. He let Randy get into his head and make him believe that Roman was too good for him. Everything he was feeling that day was getting to him but he shouldn't of ended it like that. He shouldn't of let Roman go at all.
Seth's been good to him. Really good actually. Apparently Seth revealed what Dean already knew, there were some lingering feelings between them still from high school. They talked about it, and even tried making out a bit but it sorta felt like kissing his baby brother. Seth told him he just wanted to see if there was anything there and Dean agreed it was good to get it out of their systems, but Seth was in love with Nikki. They made up about three months ago and were full fledged dating now, doing the back and forth long distance thing.
Dean tried dating, the girls were okay, but the guys he tried it with just didn't compare to Roman. Maybe because Roman was his first, but when another guy sucked him off it didn't feel... good. It felt wrong and it was wrong. He couldn't jump into something with someone else when he knew that he still had feelings for the guy he broke up with. It was just too messy.
He tried calling Roman one day, pretending to ask about a stupid flash tee. Roman said he didn't have it and even though Dean knew he was lying it was good to hear his sexy voice. Dean picked up his drawing pad and started finishing up his drawing of him and Roman when Seth walked in.
"Hey so, I'm going to New York for the weekend. Nikki invited me to hang out with her since we have a long ass weekend. I figured you should come, we could all have fun."
"And be your third wheel?" Dean laughed as he kept drawing. "No thanks."
"Come on. She finally saved up enough to buy her own apartment and pay off her student loans. It's her house warming. You should definitely come." Seth picked up his drawing pad, and Dean yelled at him.
"Give it back!" Dean warned, but Seth shook his head, flipping through an entire sketchpad of Roman drawings.
"Roman will be there you know." Seth said, looking at all the drawings before tossing it back at him. "Maybe seeing him will give you some kind of closure?"
Dean put his pad away then sat up, looking up at Seth. "I'm pretty sure Roman doesn't want to see me." He said quietly.
"Probably not." Seth replied honestly. "But i don't think either of you are over each other. You should talk to him. At least one last time."
Dean fell back on his bed, shaking his head. "I dunno, Seth."
Seth sighed then suddenly a lightbulb went off in his head. He went over to his camera then looked through it until he found the picture he was looking for. "Here." He tossed it at Dean and it hit him in the stomach. Dean yelped then picked it up, looking at a picture of him and Roman sleeping peacefully in his bed. He smiled, and rubbed his thumb across the screen. "Real love exists, dude. And you had it. All you have to do, is find it again."
Dean's smiled again, looking up at Seth, "Sometimes i miss him so much i ache." Dean said, exhaling. "Do you think he'll be happy to see me?"
Seth nodded, "Honestly? I think he'll be overjoyed."
Dean was nervous. This was going to be the first time he physically saw Roman in months. He bet that he still looked great, after all these months. He wondered if Roman knew he was coming, or if he thought about him at all these past couple months. Dean missed him so much sometimes, he just wanted to know if Roman felt the same? He was starting to realize that he was over thinking. No matter what happened tonight, he was just gonna go with the flow. Dean promised himself to stay calm, cool and collected.
Yeah right.
Seth knocked on the door and once Nikki opened it, he automatically picked Nikki up off her feet to give her a kiss. The love birds made out for a while then Nikki pulled away to hug Dean.
"Hey you two. I'm glad you guys could make it!" She opened the door for them and they came in. A bunch of people were there. It was kinda like a party. Nikki's new house was huge and Dean could tell she worked her ass off to get it. He followed Seth and Nikki around like a puppy dog and decided to stay close to them. He didn't see Roman yet so his only other saving grace was to be the third wheel. They sat on the couch together, with Nikki in Seth's lap and Dean on the other of side of them. Nikki and Seth couldn't resist the PDA in front of Dean and honestly it was making Dean sick.
Gross.
"Hey, Dean uhh.. Me and Nik are gonna check out the bedroom for a sec. We'll be back." As Seth trotted away with Nikki, Dean decided to go to the kitchen to get something to drink.
He walked in immediately reaching for the tequila. He poured it into a shot glass and drunk it quick. He was on his second when he heard a familiar voice in his background.
"You and tequila were always inseparable." Dean's whole body went numb when he heard Roman from behind him. He took a deep breath then turned around, his blue eyes taking in a sight.
Roman. God. He looked so damn handsome. Could his shirt get any tighter? Or his jeans, damn he could wear a pair of jeans. Ugh, he was gorgeous. Dean didn't really know what to say. He thought that he wasn't going to lose his shit when he saw him again, but goddamn was he losing his shit inside.
At least he wasn't showing it though.
"Tequila is my one true love." Dean smiled, his eyes capturing Roman's.
"Yeah. There was never any room for anyone else." Roman shrugged went to take a soda out of the fridge. "How have you been, Dean? You look.. great."
Dean tried to pretend that he didn't die inside from Roman's compliment. "I've been good. Doing my best at school and you know.. just getting by."
"Have you been... seeing anyone?" Roman had to ask. Even though the thought of anyone touching Dean the way he used to made his skin crawl. Dean wasn't his, not anymore.
"I actually have been, yeah." Dean scratched the back of his head, looking anywhere but Roman's eyes. "H-have you?"
"Yeah. I have.. just a couple of guys." Roman told him honestly.
"Yeah umm, me too. Actually dating guys is kinda weird. Like i wanna do it but..."
"You're scared too right?" Roman laughed, "That was me, freshman year. I was so scared. Then i started seeing different guys, and all my nerves just faded away."
Dean nodded, "Yeah but the experience is different. Like i was trying to date this guy and he just really wanted to fuck so..."
"You had sex with other guys?" The fear in Roman's voice was not lost on Dean.
"Ro... I.." Dean started to say. He didn't know how to tell him. He wanted so badly just to tell Roman the truth, that even though he's been on dates and shit nothing compares to him. That no one compares to Roman.
"Don't worry, Dean." Roman faked a smile, "It was only a question. It's not like i'm jealous. You're allowed to do what you want. I just hope whoever the guy is, he's making you happy." Roman turned away from Dean to put his soda over some ice on the counter and then started drinking it.
Dean was seeing someone. Roman had to laugh to keep from crying. The one guy he truly thought that loved him, moved on. How fucking ironic. He had no right to be jealous, since he was seeing people too but damnit, Dean was.. he was his. Roman felt like crying.
"Tell me something?" Roman turned his head to look at Dean, who surprisingly never left the kitchen.
"Anything." Dean said hopefully.
"This guy... was he... better than me?" Roman's lips were parted and he looked at Dean expectantly.
"I dunno, we didn't get far. He.. sucked me off that's all. I umm.. i couldn't go through with it." Dean shook his head while looking down.
"Why not?" Roman asked, this time turning fully to face him.
"I think you know why, Ro." Dean's voice was soft, "I think we both know why."
"Yeah, i do." Roman blushed, "But you could at least spell it out for me? Just for old times sake."
Dean smiled looking away, "Because he wasn't you, okay?" Blue eyes looked deep into gray. "He wasn't you."
"Well..." Roman was grinning, "Not to brag but i have heard that i'm pretty damn good in the sack. Your guy couldn't compare to me if he wanted too."
Dean rolled his eyes, "I don't have a guy. It was a failed one time hookup. There's only been one guy i ever truly wanted and i fucked it up with him."
Roman's smile left him as he heard Dean. He sucked in his lips and nodded, "Yeah. Maybe next time don't break his heart when he's totally and completely in love with you. Just a thought."
Dean was gonna say something back but Roman was already leaving the kitchen. He grabbed him, and pulled Roman back into him. Their chest thumped against each other's and Roman let out a unexpected moan. "How does he feel about me.. right now?" Dean asked. His hands were gripping Roman's sides tight and Roman's hands were inching closer and closer to Dean's ass.
"He's still attracted to you. And still wants you to fuck him." Roman whispered, licking his bottom lip. "But he's afraid you're gonna get what you want and then hurt him again." Roman's gray eyes were filled with worry. Dean had him in a trance. He wanted him so badly but he was afraid that Dean would just hurt him again.
"He wants you to know that he'll never hurt you again if you let him explain and give him another chance." Dean bit his lip, and let one hand drop from his waist. It cascaded up his side then cupped Roman's jaw.
"I don't know, Dean i.." Roman didn't get a chance to finish his sentence. Dean was already kissing him. Roman kissed him back, sloppily filled with lust and need. They both walked back until they reached Nikki's counter. Dean was pushed away from Roman hard against the counter and then Roman smiled as he kissed him again.
"Hey, Roman? I think i'm gonna head home-" Sami said as he walked in the kitchen. His eyes widened as he saw Roman and Dean making out and groping each other against the counter. Sami slowly exited the kitchen without either of them seeing him and then went to go get his coat.
"My place is on the other side of town." Roman said regrettably as he stroked Dean's erection through his pants.
"Fuck." Dean could hardly think. "How about a cab?" He asked as he grabbed Roman's ass and squeezed.
Roman pulled back after a soft suck of Dean's bottom lip. "Yeah, let's get a cab."
A/N: Think Roman forgave him too easily? (There's a reason for the long waits in chapters.) -Melle