Welcome to second chapter of my first God Eater fanfiction!

After around two hours of making that FemMCXRen in the first chapter, it's time for the main course of FemMCXSoma!

Disclaimer: Refer to the First Chapter's disclaimer

Jealousy

Eighteen years. It had been eighteen, hard years since Soma was born. All of his life, he felt like he was destined to be a God of Death, with his own mother as his first victim. Without him realizing, his scythe not only reap his mother's soul, but also his God Eater comrades-in-arm. One by one, they die while completing mission with him. At first, he cursed his luck for teaming with those weaklings without competency as God Eater, but later, for some unknown reasons, those weaklings were starting to curse their luck for teaming with him.

Why the hell it became the other way? Was it because of rumors? Or because he really was a God of Death?

Well, whatever. It always had been like this. The strong survives, the weak dies. It's the law of nature.

… was shat Soma thought. It just happened that he was stronger than anyone else that they die before him, and with twist of fate, they would die near him. It always had been that way, even people in the Den started a rumor about him being the living God of Death. The rumor went for a while, even the rookies who just got recruited as the newest members of the First Unit heard them. The platinum blonde boy thought it was amusing to see the rookies' reaction. The one named Kota, or whatever his name was, reacted childishly normal. That orange beanie rookie would first refuse to believe in the rumor, but after seeing Soma's action on battlefield, and everyday attitude too, he started to distance himself from Soma with a glint of fear in his eyes.

Clever boy.

But that wasn't the case with the other rookie.

That day was Soma's turn to babysit the new rookie girl but somehow Eric der-whatever from another unit came along. As he carelessly chat with the rookie, an Ogretail came from above, directly to Eric's head, and… everyone knew what happened after that. That accident should've proved the brunette rookie enough that Soma was kind of a God of Death in a way, but instead of staying away from him, she suddenly came to him in front of his room and bluntly asked 'Are you a God of Death?'

Soma froze without breaking his cool. He blinked once. Blinked twice.

Surprise surprise, she really wasn't kidding when she asked that, she was dead serious. To answer her, Soma threw back her question, asking her what she really thought he is. The buster-blader girl didn't answer. She continued again with other question 'What do you want to be?' and left without another word.

Heh, that's it. Maybe this unit will be amusing for once.

Since then, without anyone, even himself, realizing, Soma would put juuuust a tiny bit extra attention to the rookie girl. He learned that she was a decent God Eater, at least able to survive on the missions. She was also a quick learner, more so if Lindow was the one who taught her. That girl must've idolize Lindow or else she wouldn't look so happy every time she got a mission together with their leader. Other thing he knew about the girl… she was weak against other girls… Watching her became Licca's plaything, Kanon's poor training partner, and Alisa's personal friend-servant was a bit annoying, but at least she did it with a smile on her face and ended up with other people smiling face too, so maybe that was her odd way of befriending other girls?

That was the last time he saw her smile cheerfully.

After Lindow's MIA status and Alisa's breakdown, the rookie girl never smiled like she was before anymore. Soma didn't even see any positive emotion from her face after she got promoted as his leader, the First Unit Leader. All she cared about was completing the mission with cost of no life. He even rarely saw her taking a break in her room, which located right beside his room. He could've sworn it must be because of his sly old man's 'special missions'.

Fortunately, Shio came into their daily lives. Though he didn't want to admit it, the monster's presence lighten up the unit's mood, especially his leader's mood. She became a little bit lively again and sometimes would smile as she taught Shio something. The half-aragami boy even couldn't help himself to teach something to Shio. Well, considering his moral standing was pretty much… different from others, Soma decided to teach her something… harmless in any way, which was to sing. It was fun and all, until Shio told everyone their little secret of singing practice. Damn… Maybe it was better to be a loner after all. But, look! She was laughing… freely and cheerfully laughing like she used to be. Seeing her smile, her laugh, Soma felt something deep inside his heart. What was that feeling again? Relieved? Whatever… As long as his leader could cheer up again, this shame was an equal price.

Everything was starting to set in its place again, like how it used to be, until Shio ran away and went to the moon because of his blasted father's Aegis Project.

Once again, everything went dark for everyone, including himself. For so many days the gloom stayed. He could only smile and wonder about Shio by looking at the moon or his white-clad buster blade. But well, life went on. The Den somehow got 2 more of those rookie new-type and around that time too, the female leader cheered up a lot. Not only she cheered up. Somehow the first unit would found her going on a solo mission happily. Alisa insisted, based on her woman instinct, that their leader fell in love. Was she, what, fell in love with the rookie-boy?

Whatever. As long as she's fine, so what.

He forced himself to think that, even if there was some sort of burning feeling inside of him. This… feeling of his clearly hate the idea of his leader being happily in love with someone else. Every time he saw her happily carry a few cans of disgusting First Love Juice into her room, every time he saw her happily daydreaming in the chopper after missions about, obviously, someone he didn't know, it angered him.

But even more than that, it angered him when she embraced Lindow's aragami arm.

After saving Lindow from his transformation, the logical way of celebrating it was to be happy, maybe threw a few free beer for everyone, but not with her. Instead of happy her idol back, she was… mourning. Clearly as the price of Lindow's safe return, something dear for her was sacrificed, but what? The only thing that they lost when saving Lindow was…

…Lindow's God Arc.

Wait a minute… The God Arc was fine when she was happy before Lindow's return… During her showdown with Lindow who almost turned into an aragami, Lindow's God Arc somehow broke after their resonance. The blade remains were going to be thrown away but if Soma heard right, the girl offered, which was close to demanding, that she could keep the blade. Right after that, she began to mourn over nothing and longing for Lindow's arm.

Soma knew this was something classified and sensitive to Far East branch so he didn't bother to find information from terminal or ask Dr. Paylor about the details of Lindow's aragami transformation, so he came directly to the source.

"Oh, Soma! Rare to see you hanging around my room," greeted Lindow to the platinum blonde boy in front of his room. "What's up?"

With Soma being Soma, he threw the question without any chit-chat, his voice tinted with a bit of offense. "What the hell is your God Arc?"

The former leader was surprised with the younger's question but tried not to show it. Actually he knew Soma would smell something odd about his reversed aragami transformation, but he didn't expect Soma to actually ask about it, seeing it didn't have anything to do with the boy.

"Wh-," Lindow stopped himself from asking 'why're you asking that'. He saw something in this boy's eyes… The Amamiya saw… the desire to protect. In the name of Vajra's tail, that arrogant loner Soma finally found something he wanted to protect. So, whatever the reason Soma asked this question out of nowhere, he did it to protect someone, and that was enough excuse for Lindow to declassified this information.

"Why don't we get into my room and drink a few cans of beer, eh? I'll tell you everything then," he lightly offer the younger one and inside they went.

After about an hour of explanation from Lindow, some thinking and connecting one thing to another, Soma came to a conclusion: He was fucking angry toward a ghost, a God Arc ghost. And what the hell with this feeling of losing? Did he lost to this Ren ghost? Heck, of course he did. He was never able to make her smile like Ren did. But the good thing was, Soma was alive, Ren didn't.

There was no way in hell he'd lose to a ghost.

Heheh… The final line was made based on someone's fanfic about FemMCXRen with a jealous Soma. My bad I forgot who made that fic… But I find that line extremely cool!

Well, again, pardon for the typo, and onto the next chapter!