I wonder how long I'll be 18. At most people are 18 for like 10 years. So, my chances aren't too bad. I think. Hopefully. You know what, I shouldn't get so frantic. I'll be fine!
Haha! If only I knew what would come! It's been a century since that day. I'm still the same age. If I had found my soulmate then, I would probably be dead. Now look at me! I'm sitting in a worn out apartment. Getting drunk off my ass. At least I have a reason unlike the many fools who have had like 10 years being 18. Try a century! It really does things to you. Like drive you insane or slowly kill you inside.
Really I'm just calm. I just hate when people complain about how much time they've waited. They don't understand what it's like to wait for too long. In just the blink of an eye so much time could pass and you don't even know it. Then there's the hard moments where everything moves so agonizingly slow that you just wish it would stop.
No, I didn't lose all hope. I still feel like the world has something in store for me. I'm just questioning why it's such a long wait. Now what was I doing? Oh right getting drunk. This is going to suck. Then again, I'm used to it. What was it Saturday? Meaning I could get completely drunk. Oh so much fun.
Well I have no one to go to anyway. Alcohol is my best friend for now.
Doing nothing the whole day was really boring. There was nothing to do. I didn't feel like reading or really doing anything in general. I was in a place where I wanted to do something but I had no motivation. Why must you hurt me this way world!
Was that really my biggest problem? I really didn't know what I had in store. Hell was coming for me and I couldn't even do anything about it. How wonderful.
Usually I'm happy, but even the happiest people have problems. My problem is that I've lived for over a goddamn century and I'm still waiting. I'm getting pretty close to giving up. The only reason I haven't given up yet is because I still have some level of hope. Maybe not much but it's still some.
Now, I better get drinking. But before that I'll sing myself s nice, happy birthday.