t was raining. My vision blurred because of it. That's one of things I remember from that day. One of the few things. I was looking down at the one thing I wished I would never see. It was already too late for that. Much too late.

Flowers surrounded the gravestones forming something like a bed. A bed that I'd like to think was for them so they could sleep together under the sky. Still, regret filled my heart. It was then that I lost all I knew. All I had left. My only family was gone. They had grown old. While I sit here still the same.

At least they were happy together up in heaven or wherever they were. Maybe they were watching the sky together like they always would. On that bed of flowers. They were an odd couple but so in love it was almost like a fairy tale. I miss them.

It was at that very moment when I realized it wasn't raining...

I understand now. I understand everything Lovi ever told me.

"Just wait. In the end everything will be alright."

He was right. Everything would be alright in the end. As much as I thought such words were lies. I can't believe I'm actually admitting that my brother is right. I didn't think I would. I guess I still did have hope.

"100 years ago I had hope. Now I don't, well, I didn't. I thought myself as a fool for having hope. That's why I hate talking about it because back then everything was fine...For some reason I regret the past."

"You shouldn't. I thought by this point you would appreciate the time you had with those in the past."

"There's something you're not telling me." I detected it. There was something in his tone.

"You're right..."

"Well tell me!"

"I...I waited a century like you have. Perhaps even longer."

"You've waited a whole year to tell me that!"

"The topic never came up..."

"You bastard." I sound like Lovi. That really is something he would say. Like to Toni. then he would say... "You amazing bastard."

"I guess we're just an old married couple."

"Well if we are..." I smiled ever so innocently. "Want to go mess around while talking like we did back then?"

"What kind of messing around?"

"Oh you know..."

Why? That's all I ask. Why did the world decide to make me wait over a century? Why him? Why is he so damn amazing? Just why?

I'm not complaining. Not one bit. I'm just curious. Like a child with wonder that ponders about the universe. I'm curious as to who decided my fate. Like any other person does.

As much as I hate the past, he's right I should and I do appreciate the past. I can't help but smile at the fact that I got to see Lovi be happy. I shouldn't be angry about the fact that he's dead. I should be happy because he was happy. I thank him.

Life could never be so perfect. No matter how much of a mess it was. I've waited for many things. Searched for happiness to my world of hopelessness. Now I've found it. I've found him. Him, the beautiful man laying in front of me staring at me with his amazing blue eyes that sent me into a different world filled with something indescribable. It was at this moment that I smiled as a single tear fell.