Brown hair, turquoise eyes, childish behaviour, unshakable will... Eren.
The brat has fucking great skills in stalking!
I just have to see him every-fucking-where I go! Mall, work - yes he just started as a part-timer, bar -yes he's of drinking age, and when I don't go to either of those, I fucking meet him on the streets! I'm sick of him wagging his tail and going all Levi-san here, Levi-san there. He just came back from Japan and he picked up their speech manners.
Damn him for not getting their subtility too.
Check out his friend Mikasa! She's perfect! Tidy, doesn't talk much, almost invisible but can show awesome charisma when needed. I remember her fucking trying to tear me to pieces at first. Understandable though considering what I did to her... Childhood friend, half-lover or whatever he is to her, the idiot doesn't seem to notice how infatuated she is with him. And judging by her exasperated air whenever somebody seems to realize her feelings- which happens pretty often- it seems this has gone on for years now.
I vented my anger on the wrong person yet again. I don't know why the brat got so attached to me instead of hating me for it. But I really fucked him up that night. What's worse is that if there's anything I'm regretting right now, it's completely forgetting about it later on. I need that memory to keep myself from fucking doing that again.
I didn't see my handwork when I woke up in his appartement since I really didn't look at him, I just wanted to go home at the time... But I couldn't miss it when he came on to me at work. At first I was really alarmed at how many bruises our new part-timer had, I didn't ask what happened, since I wouldn't have liked being asked if I had been in his position. I just made sure I eavesdropped when the others asked. He said he got beaten up and then fell in love. Strange kid. That's what I thought, snorting and heading out the room. That's when I felt a murderous stare directed at my back, and heard stomping my way. I turned around to find Mikasa drawing her punches and getting ready to hit me. He stopped her and looked at me with hopeful eyes.
I only then suspected he could have been the man in whose house I woke up in just the previous day. He said yes and beamed at me, showing all his teeth. Well all but one.
Seing Mikasa's provocative stance, and his enthralled looks, I asked what the fuck happenned and he said:
"I bumped into you when going into 'the wall', I said sorry, you ignored me, and pushed me aside looking completely furious but even more so hurt. I asked what was wrong. You said to fuck off. I re-asked. You suddenly grabbed the hem of my shirt, kicked my feet off the ground and went at me like I was you worst enemy. You even busted one of my teeth. You then started going off about how I lied, and made you go all strange with my blue eyes and blond hair..."
I stopped him at that and ushered him to skip that part. No need to tell me what I already knew.
"After trashing about all of that, you fell on the ground beside me. And started saying how angry you were and how sorry I should be. And how you still couldn't hate me... And you wanted to go home. Your home with me... I knew you were talking to someone else through me, but I couldn't help falling for that you."
I then learned that Mikasa only found out the next morning. Which was why she was pissed at me, and pouting at Eren. I went back to his appartement, and in apology- that the bastard couldn't understand- made him help me clean his appartment. It took us longer than I thought it would. But we managed to get rid of all that fucking filth the brat lives in and never seemed to notice.
And I am now stuck with an always-ranting brat, his invisible friend 1, and even more invisible friend 2. Oh! I didn't mention him. The kid's so introverted and shy even I pity him. Which makes me try to rile him up, and get him used to people and life. He seems even more scared of me now though.
Anyways, we're going to 'the wall' today. Let's hope we don't meet the other bastard.
They drink for a bit... Eren makes friends with Bert, Reiner, fights with Jean... Makes a scene out of himself, and as usual is completely oblivious to Mikasa's side-glanes. But I'm glad I came with them. This is such a nice distraction from my usual depressing thoughts.
I turn around to check out who's in the bar, no, to make sure a certain someone isn't here, only to find Hanji in my face. I grunt and push her back.
-"that's meaaaaaan!" She whines.
-"Well I don't wanna get your fucking spit in my face."
-"I've been calling you for a while. I was worried but you seem better than we thought you'd be. We're all worried about you. He is too you know."
I feel myself growing livid and look around again in an obsessive attempt to make sure he's not here to see my reaction. I clear my throat and say.
-" He gave me the fucking 'I still give a fuck' line."
-"Yes. But I'm sure he used other words to convey that." She snorts.
I don't answer and she ends up asking the almost too obvious question:
-"How are you?"
-"I don't wanna talk about it."
-"Are you gonna go back to being the secluded scaredy-cat who wouldn't talk to anyone?" She says in a provoking manner. I hear myself 'tssk'ing and look up to glare at her only to see a worried look plastered on her face." You can't just shun everybody."
-"I'm not fucking..."
-" Don't deny it when it's this obvious. You won't answer my calls, texts and e-mails. Even Mike tried to reach you, but you just went and ignored him too. You're our friend too. You know we wouldn't pick sides. We don't want you to be on your own now."
-" I..."
I mentally stutter on what to say:
-"I'm not alone."
I end up saying, I catch a glint of hurt in her eyes before she covers it.
I don't want her to get me wrong.
-"He... Needs you more right now."
I toss at her, then rise and walk towards the door. She catches my hand and looks surprised. I try to smile at her and explain, talking around the clenching of my throat the best I can.
-"2 years. I couldn't stop caring that fast. As much as I'd want to."
I walk away.
I can hear Eren's footsteps behind me, but I speed up so I can reach my house before he catches up with me.
I stand in front of the elevator waiting for it to reach the main floor. Fuck, I hate waiting. Should have taken the stairs. But it's stupid to take them now when the elevator's just 1 floor away.
With the slight 'ping' comes a gentle jumpy "Hey"
Oh come on!
-"Fuck off."
I sneer as I walk in the elevator. Eren comes in right after me. And the cabin takes off.
-"Is that him? Blond, blue eyes, besides you got all tense when you saw him."
Can he be anymore annoying?
-"Shut the fuck up! Don't ask me about him. Don't mention him. Don't even let me know when you see him."
-"But I know him from..."
-" I don't give a flying fuck what your relatioship with him is."
We already made it to the floor. I'm honestly too tired and too riled up to fucking stand the kid any longer.
I walk in my appartement, then ignoring his silent plea to be let inside, I shut the door. I go to wash my face when the annoying ringing of the home-line brings me back to the living room, and answer the call:
-" Hey there Levi". The sweet sweet voice I missed hearing calls out to me and I feel a sudden need to confide in someone overwhelm my senses.
-"Levi. You there?"
I clear my throat.
-"Yeah. What's up?"
She's been away for 3 years now. She's only ever heard of Erwin. She doesn't know we practically lived together. Doesn't how much of his mess I'd put up with... How close I came to moving out of this house, into his...
-"I called to say I'm coming home."
I didn't lie to Hanji earlier when I said I wasn't alone. I still had her. I'd always have her.
He wouldn't have anyone if I took away his friends.
Like I wouldn't have anyone if someone took her from me.
End of chapter 7.
Who is she? Could it be? Le gasp :p