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So here is chapter twelve enjoy...

Chapter Twelve

Confusion

Renesmee's Point of View…

I tracked Jacob and my father's scent deep into the woods. I can hear Jacob growling and my father trying to calm him down. I have created a huge mess for myself. Neither Jacob nor Peyton deserve to get hurt like this. I don't deserve any of them. They're both great guys who deserve someone great in their lives; And right now, I am not the best for neither one of them.

Just a few feet away I can see my father's back facing towards me. He was standing still. There I can see Jake still in his wolf form pacing back and forth in front of my father. "Jacob I know she's my daughter but you also have to understand that she's still young." Jacob growled. "I know… I know its not an excusable action but see it in her perspective view. She only lived in this planet for ten years, you and I have walked longer and she has not experience much human things like we have." I watched Jake starred at my father for a few seconds. "I know what happened to Sam and Emily but why don't you let Nessie make the decision herself? Like what we did with Bella?" Jake growled louder. "Jacob, if you do love Nessie like you said you do, you will let her make this decision?" Jacob phased back into his human form. I turned around as he placed his clothes back on.

"Your right Edward." I heard Jacob said. I sighed and slowly walked towards them.

"Your a family to me Jacob and a big part of it too. No matter what happens you are still a part of my family." my father said and smiled and turned around to face me. "I think I'll leave you two alone." my dad said and sped up to me and kissed my cheek and then disappeared.

"Jake, I know sorry is not enough for what you had just saw." I said as I stood a few feet away from him. I watched Jacob turned his back away from me closing his eyes. "I know that you'll never for give me for-"

"Why did you do it Nessie?" he asked in a whisper.

"I… I don't know. For the last couple of days, I had been so confused." I replied shaking my head. "On what love really is and imprinting itself."

"So when I left you began to question us." he stated not asked. I nod my head. "I knew I shouldn't have told you about what happened to Sam and Emily." he said shaking his head and turned around to look at me. I couldn't bare to look at his broken hearted face. "Go, figure things out Nessie. As much as it hurts me, I want you to make the decision yourself. Either its me or Peyton. But I am going to tell you one thing though. I will fight for you and I'm not going anywhere." he said. I began to sob and felt his warm arms around me.

"I'm so sorry Jake." I said in a whisper.

"It's alright Nessie, just let us know of your decision." he said kissing the top on my head. "Come on, lets get you home. We have school in the morning." he said and we both walked home side by side.

The walk home was silent and we sped our way through the woods. Jacob followed me to my room and tucked me into bed like he always do since I was born. "Sweet dreams Nessie." he whispered kissing my forehead. I heard him let out a sigh of defeat as he walked towards the door.

"Jake?" I asked sitting up in bed.

"Yeah Nessie?" he asked turning around.

"Will you spend the night here. I know it'll make things more complicated but I would really love to hear about what's going on back in La Push." I said.

He sighed.

"As you wish." he said pulling the day bed that my parents had left for him incase he sleeps over in my room. Jake and I never slept in the same bed.

Dad's rules.

Dad said that it's ideal to save yourself for marriage, just like he did. Though its just his opinion, he had given me the option last year, I followed in his foot steps. Keeping yourself pure until committing yourself to someone is a great idea. If dad could go a hundred years of not having sex with someone, I know I can also….

Well…

Maybe not for a hundred years, just until I get married.

"So what do you want to know about La Push?" he asked as he lies down on the day bed.

"How's Claire?" I asked. I missed Claire, she and I had great time together.

"She's doing great, Quil tutors her and she's a straight A student. She's on the top of her class right now." Jake proudly said as he pulled the covers to his waist.

"How's Seth?" I asked.

"Seth would be Seth," Jake said in a chuckle. "He's getting married this winter to Sophia Call, Embry's first cousin. You do remember her don't you?"

"Yeah, she was beautiful." Sophia, a girl with olive shaped brown eyes, waist length ebony hair, slender physique, and best of all, very nice. "I didn't know Seth imprinted on her."

"He didn't, he made the choice of marrying her. Seth felt like he would never imprint and he had already fallen in love with her." Jake smugly replied. I shouldn't have brought the whole imprinting subject.

"How's Jared?" I asked quickly changing the subject.

"He and Kim are expecting their third child, a boy, the first boy." Jake replied in barely a whisper.

"That's great," I replied with a bit of enthusiasm. "How about Leah?" I know Leah doesn't get along with my mom because my mom chose to be immortal and plus she's just someone whose always angry with the world.

"She just finished nursing school." Jake laughed. Leah had finally saved enough money to go to college. While she went to college she took some anger management classes to help her control her anger and it may someday help her control her phasing or stop phasing permanently. "She woks at Forks Hospital and still single."

"I bet a lot of people are interested with her." I replied. I got to admit Leah is very beautiful.

"You have no idea. She was the one that actually took care of my dad while he was in the hospital." Jake replied closing his eyes.

"That's really nice of her." I replied.

"Nessie, I'm really tired. Can we continue this tomorrow?" Jake asked.

"Sure, goodnight Jake." I said barely in a whisper.

"Night Nessie," he replied.

I closed m eyes and I wonder what Jake is thinking right now. I know he's extremely angry about finding me kissing Peyton. But why is he so calm? What happened between he, my mother, and father years ago while my mom was still human that they haven't told me about? Now, both Jake and Peyton are waiting for my decision and my mind is still scrambled. I just don't know what to do. I want to be selfish and keep both of them but I know that's impossible. I have to choose one. How did my mother made her decision without hurting the other?

What seemed to be the shortest sleep I ever had, its finally morning and Friday. I don't want to go to school to face both Peyton and Jake at the same place. I sat up in bed and found the day bed empty. Jake had made the bed and placed it back in the corner of the room. He had left my room while I was still asleep. I quickly ran to the bathroom and did my morning routine. As I walked downstairs, I could smell a wonderful aroma. Bacon, sausages, hash browns, and my favorite blueberry pancakes and blue berry muffins. I sped into the kitchen and found my father and Jake cooking breakfast. Jake was flipping pancakes while my father places bacons on a plate.

"Smells wonderful," I said as I sat on the bar stool.

"Morning Nessie," Jake said with a friendly smile. He sure looks like he's in a good mood.

"Morning Jake," I replied with a friendly smile. "Morning dad, mom…" I said. My mom was taking out the blueberry muffins out of the oven.

"How was the game last night? I heard the team won without me." Jake chuckled as he placed the pancakes in front of me.

"The game was awesome. Everyone did a great job." I simply replied as I poured honey all over the blueberry pancake.

"Calm down on the honey Nessie, you'll give yourself a sugar rush." Jake laughed as he went to pour pancake mix on the pan. I smiled and ate my breakfast in silence.

I rode with Jake to school while my family drove separately. Jake is taking this separation better than I thought but during the drive to school, Jake was filling me in with stories about what's going on in La Push. I can tell how happy he was being back in La Push and catching up with old friends. I walked out of the car, Jake and I walked side by side, not holding hands. My family walked ahead of us. Jake and I slipped inside our first class. We sat on our normal seat. "Jake man glad to have you back," says Greg as he settled on his seat in front of Jake.

"Thanks dude," Jake said with a friendly smile.

"This is great, our team will be undefeated with you and Peyton on the team!" Greg excitedly said.

"Peyton is on the team?" Jake asked as he turns to me.

"You didn't know?" Greg asked and then smiled. "Dude, that guy is awesome! I don't know whose stronger, you or him. I think if the two of you team up, everyone else doesn't have to play." Greg added with a booming laugh.

"He's on the team?" Jake once again asked with his eyes still kept towards me. While Greg continued his story about how Peyton tackled two of their opponent's team member all by himself. Jake kept his eyes towards me.

"Doesn't every big bad wolf play football?" I asked in a whisper knowing Greg isn't paying any attention to us.

"I guess we all do." Jake replied with an expressionless face an turned to Greg. "Can't wait to see what this kid got." Jake said and I can see a grin appearing across his face.

"Oh I can't wait to watch this." Greg said with a booming laugh that reminds me of uncle Emmett's. Uncle Emmett! I completely forgot to talk to him. I guess dad gave him the 411 on what's going on but I'm sure he's still going to want to have a talk with me.

During lunch, Jake and I walked inside the lunch room side by side. It was weird because we normally make an entrance holding hands. I looked around and eyes were fixed towards me and Jake. I guess its just not me feeling like this is awkward, apparently so does everyone else in this entire school. Jake and I sat down on the table where my family were already settled. My mom slid her lunch trey in front of me. My dad and uncle Jasper slid their lunch treys in front of Jake. "How does it feel like being back in school?" uncle Jasper asked Jake as Jake took a bite of the hamburger.

"Not what I expect it would be." Jake simply replied. I looked over to my dad who looked concerned about Jake. I know, I am guilty for what is going on inside Jake's head.

Aunt Alice placed her head down on the table. "Are you alright sweetheart?" uncle Jasper asked as he rubs the back of her head.

Still with her head on the table she replied, "No… two werewolf plus Nessie in the room. It's harder for me." she replied.

I turned towards the lunch line, there I saw Peyton holding two treys of food. I watched him sit on his regular table with Justin and the rest of their friends. He had his eyes kept towards me. I saw Jake turned around and shot Peyton a glare and turned back around to eat his food.

"Jake I don't think that was necessary." my father said with still a concerned look on his face.

"Butt out Edward. It's war and this doesn't concern you anymore." Jake said as he grabs his trey of food and walked out of the lunch room.

"What was that about?" I asked as I turned to my dad. My dad swiftly got up from his chair and followed Jake without a word. "Mom?" I whispered. My mom slid to the chair that my dad was sitting on and placed her left arm around my shoulder.

"Everything will be alright sweetheart." she whispered.

I looked over to Peyton who still has his eyes locked towards me. I looked down and sighed, thinking about the mess that I have created for myself. Why does human emotions has to be this complicated? How did mom survive eighteen years of being human with all these mixed emotions?

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