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". . .He needs to know. Just tell him gently, in a way that he'll understand. For all you know it could help him regain his memory."

After changing Chuck's gauze (as well as my own) we went into the living room to watch TV. Chuck was quite interested in some show on G4 but around eleven o'clock he started yawning.

"Chuck do you want to go to bed?" I asked, putting my hand on his shoulder.

"No, it's fine."

"Chuck we can DVR this show if that's what your worried about." Ellie suggested.

"DVR?"

"We can record the show."

"Ellie you don't even have a VHS player."

"Don't worry about that Chuck, it'll be taken care of." Ellie smiled.

"Now come on Chuck lets go to bed, you need your rest." I said standing up off the couch.

"Okay." Chuck yawned in compliance.

"Good night Ellie." Chuck walked over to Ellie and gave her a hug and a kiss on the cheek. "I love you."

"I love you too Chuck, go get some rest. Sweet dreams." She replied.

"Night Devon." Chuck said walking over to Devon, who embraced him.

"Night bro."

We walked into his bedroom together and got ready for bed.

"Are you gonna stay with me tonight Sarah? I don't want you to have to sleep on the floor again." He asked putting on his night clothes.

"I'll be fine Chuck." I smiled. "But thanks again."

"The truth is. . . I don't like sleeping alone in this big bed. And I'd normally get in bed with Ellie but she's married to Devon now and that would be weird." Chuck's pleading eyes were too much.

"I'll stay as long as you need me to." I replied. Chuck's smiled widely, his perfect white teeth showing.

I went into the bathroom and changed into shorts and a t-shirt and went into the bedroom.

Chuck was already laying on his side of the bed, reading a comic book.

"You ready for bed now?" He asked.

"Mmhmm." I said as I got into the bed beside of him.

It wasn't until this moment that I realized just how badly I missed my Chuck. I would do anything for him to remember it all. To remember me and our life and our baby.

Since the day I had my first doctor visit I'd carried my first ultrasound picture in my pocket. It had made everything seem more real.

"Hey Chuck, can I show you something?"

"Sure. . . This isn't gonna be one of those flashes is it? Because if you're gonna show me something that makes me flash, I don't want to see it." Chuck said nervously.

"No Chuck." I smiled. "This is just a normal picture." A picture that if I'm lucky will trigger your memory. "It might help you remember some stuff."

"Okay." He smiled.

I gave him the ultrasound photo and he inspected it carefully.

"Remember anything?"

"No. . . Sorry." I sighed. Well at least I had tried. "Uh. . . What is this Sarah? Because all I see are, um, squiggly lines."

I smiled."Chuck, this is a picture of. . . of a baby."

"It doesn't look like a baby at all really. Whose baby is this."

"It's mine." I said softly.

"Oh. You mean you have a baby?"

"Actually I'm having a baby."

"There's a baby inside of you right now?"

"Mmhmm."

Okay so the easy part was over. . . Maybe he wouldn't ask me who it's dad was I mean he's eight years old so maybe he won't care. Right?

"Wait, if you're the mom than who is the dad? Because babies have a mommy and a daddy."

Wrong.

"Yeah Chuck. The daddy is. . ." If I said 'you' I could almost guarantee he would freak out. ". . . The daddy is my boyfriend."

"But you said I'm your boyfriend. Right?"

"Mmhmm."

"So you're saying. . . I'm gonna be a daddy?" At first he smiled in disbelief but then he went into panic mode. . .

"Sarah, I don't know anything about being a dad and I know I'm supposed to be twenty eight but I'm not and. . . "

"Chuck it's okay, Calm down." I said putting my finger on his lips. "You don't need to worry about any of that okay? We'll get your memory back soon and then everything will be alright."

I wasn't so sure of that myself. Would everything turn out all right? The father of my child is only a child himself mentally. . .

"Are you mad because I don't remember?"

Yes Chuck, I'm furious. I'm furious for you. You don't deserve this. You didn't deserve to get hurt and I didn't deserve to get saved by you. . .

"No Chuck, I'm not mad at you. It's not your fault." All of this is my fault.

"Good. I didn't want you to be mad at me." He smiled. "But what do I do now?"

"Nothing Chuck. You just worry about getting better."

"Are you sure I don't need to do anything?"

"Yeah Chuck. It's fine." You don't have to be the one looking out for me anymore.

Chuck's eyes showed his exhaustion and I knew he needed his sleep.

"You should go to bed now. We have a busy day tomorrow."

"Yeah okay. . .Sarah."

"Yeah Chuck?"

"I'm sorry. For everything."

Chuck was so sweet, and innocent. I almost regretted telling him. An eight year old boy doesn't need to find out that he's going to be a father. Maybe Ellie was wrong, and telling Chuck was a bad thing. . .

"It's okay Chuck, you didn't do anything." I put my hand on his warm cheek.

"Okay." He said quietly. He quit fighting sleep and closed his eyes. . .

"I'll see you in the morning. I love you." He said in the same way he had told Ellie goodnight. I knew that eight year old Chuck didn't have the same feelings for me as he did before, but I still loved him just as much.

I didn't really expect Chuck to say "I love you" when he told me goodnight, so he caught me off guard, and I was unsure how I should respond.

"Mmhmm, I, um, love you too Chuck. Good night." I replied with some awkwardness in my voice.

Chuck was fast asleep. And I soon joined him. I fell asleep on his chest. The way he held me in his sleep gave me some assurance that my Chuck was still in there somewhere. . .

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A/N I know someone is bound to mention this so before I get this in a review I'll address it.

"Why did Chuck say I love you?" or "Chuck saying I love you was weird."

Let me explain, Chuck was just saying ILY like in his usual bedtime routine. He didn't think anything of it in a BF/GF kind of way, he was being purely innocent about it.

And also, sorry if I can't respond to every review, I'm getting behind in a lot of stuff so I don't have enough time to reply but let me tell you, I read and appreciate every review and consider everything you say, so please,

R&R