I woke up and Jacob was sitting on the end of my bed staring at me. I sat up."Jake are you ok?"
"Yeah I'm ok I'm sorry I scared you," He replied.
"Its ok you didn't scare me I'm not scared of anything whether it be vampires, werewolves I'm never sacred remember."
He laughed a little "yah I remember we used to stay up and watch scary movies and my sisters would get so scared they would sleep with my parents because we'd mess with them all night." he smiled then frowned a tear running down his cheek. "That won't happen anymore."
I climbed to the end of the bed and pulled Jacob into a hug. "Jake I'm here just let it out." he started to sob and within minutes he had fallen apart he wrapped his arms around my waste and pulled me close. This was the first time he had cried since Billy died.
"Why me why do I lose everything close to me?" he said barely audible.
"First my mom then you and now my dad, " he said then paused.
"All I have is my sisters," he cried
"Jake you didn't lose me I'm still here always your my best friend," I said rubbing his back.
"That's not what I mean," he said confusing me.
Just then my mom walked in and asked if we were ok. We didn't get a chance to talk about it again. We spent the day handling the funeral arrangements and the will Billy left. A few days later was the funeral. It was a nice ceremony. The Quileute's had a very unique way of honoring their their dead.
The week had passed in a blur and next thing I knew it was a week till Christmas. Edward talked to our teachers and they let us take our finals via email. So now we were just waiting for our final grades. Meanwhile I was happy Edward, Alice, Rose, Emmet and jasper where all flying in tomorrow to spend Christmas break.
Jacob had been staying at his house Billy had let the house and all his money to him and his 2 sisters. He was slowly getting through things. As For the past week we had been inseparable. I was happy that at least out of this situation I got my friend back. I had missed him.
I got up and drove offer to Jacobs so we could hang out for a bit. I knocked on the door. But, Jake wasn't there. I figured I would check across the street at the beach since the car was still there.
I went across the street to la push beach. Jacob was walking along the water. I ran up behind him and punched his shoulder like I always did.
"Hey Bella," he said his tone making me aware that he wasn't in a joking mood.
"Hey Jake," I smiled. "What's wrong?"
"Nothing, why?"He replied defensively.
"You seem down about something," I said
"it's nothing really," he smiled and then punched my shoulder lightly we walked around the beach for a while joking when my phone beeped.
New message
Edward: hey love can't wait to see you tomorrow we should all be there at 10…what r u doing
Bella: can't wait to see you either I miss u… at the beach with Jake.
Edward: that's nice… well 2 I g2g miss you… I love you bye
Bella: love you 2 bye
I felt Jake reading over my shoulder so I turned to him. He had a sad hurt look in his eyes. He looked away quickly. "So do you really love him?" he questioned.
"Yeah Jake I do." I replied
"Oh," he frowned.
"Why?"I questioned curious as to why my relationship with Edward would make him sad. He mumbled something that I sounded like, you don't want to know. So asked again, "why."
He just shook his head and looked at the sunset. "Don't be like that Jake you always shut me out not this time tell me you can tell me anything, "I sad touching his arm.
He pulled away though. "No I can't," he said raising his voice a little.
"yes you can Jake what's your problem don't do this don't shut me out like before I don't want to lose you like last time," I said raising my voice a little.
"You don't want to know Bella so just leave it alone," he yelled back.
"Try me," I yelled.
"I love you ok," he yelled.
"What does that have to do with anything I love you too Jake you know that," I responded.
"No Bella I'm in love with you, he said and turned to me then, his eyes filled with love and passion. Then he grabbed my arms and pulled me to him so fast I didn't know what happened till his lips where on mine moving with urgency. It took a few seconds for me to register it. Then he pulled away.
I sat there shocked for a moment. "Bella say something," Jacob shook my arm, bringing me out of my trans. confusion and anger took over and I had to get out of there I needed to think I started to get up but he grabbed my arm.
"Wait bell you can't tell me you don't have feelings for me?" he said, "if you can tell me that and ill leave you alone."
"I...I don't know," I cried. He kissed me again. But, this time I fought to get him off me. I finally pushed him off and turned around to find Edward standing there holding flowers.
A/N: sorry about the late post fan fiction was down…well that was an exciting development, don't you think? Tell me what you think and review.