Chapter 3
All Things Lead to Jacob
First I felt guilt. Then anger for feeling guilty. At the same time I felt pleasure. Edward left me and hurt me more than imaginable, and now I was getting him back. He always thinks the world revolves around Edward and that everybody in "Edward World" was absolutely in love with him. Well I wasn't. he had hurt me beyond repair and I could never forgive him. I mean sure he came back. That helped a little, but it's like he automatically expects me to forgive him and be better. He thinks that once he's back I'm all his. While he was gone I realized another love. Friendship. Jacob healed me, well almost but he was there for me when I needed it. Edward wasn't. And now that he's back he expects everything to be the same as it was and that I would just forget that he left me laying on the cold, hard, forest floor in the rain, all alone. Alone for me to be unconscious for a couple of hours and have a dream about my life. In my dream I was a vampire. The day Edward left Victoria changed me. All about my life as a vampire. And in the mean time my whole family thought I was dead. I should have just been. I mean the whole time he was gone I was like the walking dead. Literally. It was like I had no soul. Except for when I was around Jake. He made me feel good. So in the end all things come back around to Jake. That makes sense.