Breakdown
I slowly winded my way around the curves and turns. My old truck was loud in the quiet night. I left the house after I was sure charie was asleep. I felt a little guilty for that but then again I had felt alot of guilt already today. I was on the way to the cullens. I didn't exactly know why I was going. Mostly to apologize. I felt horrible. My headlights shone out onto the road in front of me. It was raining. The ground was wet and scary. My tires hadn't been checked ok a while and they didn't have much traction. On every turn I slowed down, afraid my old piece of junk I called my car was going to spin and get lost in the forest. I had seen movies about that before. When people get in an accident and die from hypothermia beause they get lost in the forest. Noone ever finds them and they basically disapear into thin air. No remains...just the car. I could imagine it. The pain. Not being able to do anything about you own death. People say all death is peaceful. I don't think that. I have been so close to dying many times. Let me tell you. It's not peaceful. It's like slowly burning in hell. Pain...torture.
I came back to reality. My hands were wraped tight around the steering wheel. My knuckles were white. I realeased my grip and immediately clenched it again. I hated driving in the dark. I turned around the corner and headlights blinded me. I sqinted and put my arm up in front of my face. I car sped past mine. I didn't recognize it. It was small and sleek. It was all navy blue except for a silver stripe up the front of the hood. It was probably Edward. But then again all vampire tend to drive fast. Wter spewed up off the sides of the car. It zoomed around the corner then was out of sight. I pulled up to the Cullen house. All the lights were on. I wasn't suprised. They were always up. I turned off my engine and it kicked out exhaust. I steped out of my car and walked up to the door. What happened to it. There was no door. Just hinges. I walked let myself in. All of the cullen were standing looking at the door. They were speechless. All of their eyes moved up to my face. Rosalie glared at me an made me feel about as big as an ant. I could see disappontment in alice's eyes. She looked down to the floor and turned around and walked away.
" What happened in here?" I looked around the room. The front door was all the way across the room. It was split in half and one of the halves had a dent in it. There were splinters sticking out the sides. Part of the railing on the stairs was ripped off and now in the wall. Rosalie looked up at me with the rudest look I had ever seen in my life. She looked at me like I was an idiot. She glared and said, " Why don't you ask your lips?" It was basically a snarl. I wouldn't call it talking. I didn't know what to do. I felt like the whole world was falling and I was being crushed with by it. The guilt was snapping every single bone in my body. It felt like I was never going to be able to face any of the Cullens again. I had never seen Alice like that. She would probly never talk to me again. Oh my god.
Edward's POV:
I pulled up to my house. All the lights were on as usual. To us we never had a night. No sleeping. No tired. I opened the door and practically ripped it off. I was furious. I had never been so mad in my entire life. Oh it was nothing I thought to myself. Ya right. That was way more than something. That was a love kiss. I picked up the car and threw it into the woods. It flew over the trees then fell. I walked up to the door. I grabbed the handle, ripped off the door then threw it into the house. I walked in and everybody was watching me. I knew they were without looking. I had to let out my anger. I felt like I was going crazy. I walked to the stairs and ripped of a chunk of the railing and smashed it into the wall. I ran up the stairs and into my room. I slammed the door. It dented in. Well atleast it didn't fly through the doorway like the front door did. I'm going to have to replace that. I grabbed a pair of pants and deodorant. Like I needed it. I had no need for it. I never got dirty. And I never smelled, so it was pointless. I flung open the door and it flew off the hinges and went right through the window. The window shattered and from below, it would have been a shower of glass. I felt bad for breaking everything but I couldnt control myself. Everything I touched was destroyed. I ran down the stairs and into the garage. I grabbed the keys to the Porsch. My favorite car. It was fast. Blue and silver. I loved it. I got in and threw my stuff into the passenger seat. The garage door opened and I sped away. I held the steering wheel tight. I knew that if I held it any tighter it would break. I pushed my back against the leather seat. I sped around the corners and then I saw her truck. Bella looked at my car. She looked like she was I'm pain. I didn't ever like to see that. I sped past her. I almost turned back but I couldn't handle anybody right now. I was having a mental breakdown and I might lose control...I wouldn't want that. It would be a bloody mess. I didn't know where I was going I just kept driving. I kept looking at the road and I turned on the radio. Jeez they have song for everything these days.
Breakdown --- Forever The Sickest Kids
When was the last time you talked to me?
Seriously
I feel like I don't even know you
And I would rather me leave
Than stay and watch you make a fool of me
You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go
I never wanna see your face round here anymore
Cause it's a breakdown, a breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown, a breakdown
Looking at me lying
If I said I wasn't getting quite bored of you yet
And your consistent nagging
And your constant state of panic
Is unnecessary stress for me
You're the tip, tip, tip-top of the charts
You're the best thing I've ever done
And the reality is that I wrote this song for you
You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go
I never wanna see your face round here anymore
Cause it's a breakdown, a breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown, a breakdown
When wood floors meet high heels
And shadows form from chandeliers
When wood floors meet high heels
And shadows form from chandeliers
You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now
You might as well go, go, go
I never wanna see your face round here anymore
Cause it's a breakdown, a breakdown
Where do we go from here?
It's a breakdown, a breakdown
Bella's POV:
I ignored Rosalie and walked right past her. I was sure that I did it in a manner that made her believe I didn't care. I walked up the stairs to the the hallway. I felt horrible about everything. But at the same time I wasn't sorry. I wanted to kiss Jacob. It was what was right. I felt bad for Edward. I also felt bad for Jacob. I wanted them both so bad. But I couldn't have both of them. I had to decide. But nows not the time. I had to explain to Alice. I walked down the hallway and knocked on her door. I waited a second and the the door opened.
" Bella" she said. She had the same look in her eyes. I think she might have had a vision. That would be the only reason she was mad. I hadn't done anything else. I hope. I looked ip at her and said, " Can I come in?" I asked hopefuly. She looked up at me with warm eyes. She smiled and opened the door wider. I walked into he room and sat down on her bed. It was so comfortable. She didn't even sleep. She looked at me and seemed to know exactly what I was thinking.
" We can switch mattresses if you want. I don't ever use it. Well sometimes I lay on it hoping that I can just fall asleep but I never do. That's probably the only thing I don't like about being a vampire. No sleeping…huh" she looked at me and then said, "Do you want to tell me what happened because I know you do." She walked over and sat down on the bed in front of me. She grabbed my hands and said, "Tell me everything!" I looked at her and laughed. And I began my story.
When I was finally finished Alice's mouth was dropped open she closed it and blinked a couple times. She looked up at me and said, "Well that explains a lot. He was furious. He thrashed everything. Its like everything he touch was crushed. We were all speechless. It was actually kinda scary." She focused in on something on the bed then looked back at me, " Jacob huh? Why him?" all I did was laugh. I let go of her hands and stood up. I yawned and stretched. My back popped and my yawn lasted forever. I looked at Alice.
" Is it ok if I stay here for tonight? Im to tired to drive back. Sorry."
" Oh no its fine! We love having you here." She squeeled and jumped up and down, "So what do you want to do?" she asked and looked at me. My yawn answered her question.
" I'll get you some pajamas." She walked into the closet and was gone for a while. I layed back down on the bed and closed my eyes. She came back with a pair of pink silk pants and a white cami.
" Here you go! Sleep well." She handed me the clothes then left the room. I looked up and the door and shouted, "Thanks! Night." There was no answer but I knew she heard me. I changed into the clothes and layed down on the bed. Before I knew it I was alseep and dreaming.