Chapter 10 – Part 2

My mind needed a few minutes to respond again, it was frozen. Whatever happened, happened so fast and unexpected, that sent million of reactions to my brain, which collapsed with so many different emotions received at the same time. I didn't blame it; my heart was even more confused than my head…

When my brain could start working again, slowly, slowly, it seemed like there was some kind of buzz somewhere in here. I pushed my mind to try and make it work good enough to realize where the buzzing was coming from when dumbly I realized it was coming from my pocket. 'Material Girl' was the 'buzzing' I was hearing. I rolled my eyes at myself and tried to grab the cell with so much that it slipped off my hands – yeah, I swear it slipped…it wasn't me – and crush to the floor. With hysteric movements, I tried to fix the little pale blue cell phone, but with my lack of technology knowledge, I failed in every attempt. Just what I needed right now… "Something else?" I shouted rhetorically, looking up to the sky.

When I thought I would reach an anxiety attack, I visualized an old phone cabin a mile away, maybe the only one that remained in Forks. "Thanks", I mouthed to the sky again, with apologizing eyes.

I ran –well, swung toward the phone. And when I reached there, breathing agitated for the lack of physical training, with trembling hands, I dialed Alice's number.

Beep…. Beep… beep

"Hello? Bella?!" Alice snapped, her voice more upset than usual.

"Alice! Yes, is me---"

"What on earth happened to your cell phone?!" she cut me off, pissed off "In one moment it was ringing, and in the other one it just went dead!"

"Yeah, sorry about that… it slipped off my hand" I said ashamed, color involuntary covering my face.

She sighed loudly. "Why you always have to be so… Bella?" she chuckled, and started again with a tone so serious that got me goose bump "Anyway, I'm calling you, because I know, being you, you are just inches from having a panic attack, and maybe… just maybe, I can prevent it"

"WHAT?!" I shouted so loud, that it resounded on my ears for the bad acoustic of the tiny place. "How do you know that? No, wait; I know how you know that… But I mean, why? Please tell me! Why are you telling me you can prevent it? YOU know something? Please, you know I'm—"

"Bella!," She snapped with a determined voice, I swear that if she had been here right now, she would have slapped me –slightly- on my face, for me to react. She was right. I was starting to lose it… "Calm down please! You are talking like crazy; I told you I would help you prevent your anxiety attack, but only if you help yourself, I won't be able to do anything if you react like this. Please calm down and let ME talk, alright?" she finished softly.

"Okay, I'm sorry. I'm just too… disturbed" I hesitated on that last word, I was feeling so many emotions at the same time that just one word couldn't sum all up.

"I know you are, that is why you have to listen to me. But please Bella, don't freak out, I promise we will find a solution" She said calm.

So she couldn't tell me anything else? Now I was really freaking out! But I took a deep breath and tried to recompose myself. I wasn't really going to achieve anything with that hysteric mood, so I convinced my mind I was calmer, and it bought it.

"OK, Alice. I'm calm now, please tell me" I begged with the most composed voice I could get. She proceeded.

"Today, while I was with Jasper at the center, in a new store that by the way has really good quality clothes," -I rolled my eyes at her addition- "I had a vision… a vision different from all I have ever had. One where you were implicated, actually, you where the main reason of it--"

"WHAT?" I choked, I couldn't help myself being quiet, I just burst out. A – different – vision – about – me? "How was this vision, why different, about me? How do you—"

"Bella! Please focus! I thought we agreed I was going to talk, and you were going to listen? Please, we don't have much time left!" Gulp. We didn't have much time left? For what?! I would swear my face had turned pale; it seemed that all the blood had abandon my system, I was too scared. I decided to let her keep talking; besides I couldn't even formulate a word correctly.

"Thank you… So, when the vision was over, just one second later, Edward called me. He told me he was in the bathroom of some restaurant and that he saw the vision, because I was too closed to where he was, and that he had figured out something else about these new kids… he couldn't hear their mother's thought either…" WOW, that was really unexpected. First Liam then Adeline and now…Moira? Wh-what was it with them?
I couldn't think of that right now, I was too focused on the part about we didn't have time, and something inside me told me it wasn't about Liam…

"So, I told him I was going to talk to Carlisle to ask him what this could mean, when suddenly the vision reappeared again, much clearer now" she continued, slowly, deliberately, in case I couldn't handle it any more and collapsed there.

"The vision showed that something in your future has changed drastically, it was like your entire future changed in some moment in that restaurant… I didn't see you future anymore, it was like something blurred, like you had made a choice, or someone had made a choice, that changed completely your course in life… it was impossible!"

I was shocked, how could my life completely change? What did that even mean?!
I looked for words to speak, but they were down, deep in my body. And I needed answers right now; I didn't have time to look for them.

"When Edward saw this, he stayed completely mute, without breathing, nothing. He just stayed like that for a couple of minutes. When I decided to talk, I didn't want my brother to go crazy, he finally spoke… He said, please stay calm, 'If it is what she wants…I'm giving her the chance,' then he hung up."

Now I did collapse. I unconsciously dropped the phone, my hands were shaking too much, and all the strength I'd been saving, had left my body. Giving me the… chance? For what, for change my life, my wonderful never thought like life, with whom I loved?!

"Please Bella, could you at least make a sound? I know I've told you to stay quiet, but let me know that you are still alive!" The phone suddenly shrieked hanging from the floor.

I took it again, and made an 'Aha' sound, just to let her know I wasn't dead, yet.

"OK, so now the worst part is coming… So, please, please, give me a favor and just sit down" Alice said with a worried tone. What she didn't know was that I was already spilled all over the floor.
Worst part? Oh boy…

"Are you already sitting?"

"Aha" I managed to mouth again.

"Great, so…. When we were coming back from the store with Jazz, I just had another vision…. This vision showed…" she took a deep breath "it showed… Edward leaving"

And there, my heart cracked. I was speechless, mindless, I couldn't even breathe. I just stayed like a vegetable, drowned in my own misfortune, my IMMENSE misfortune!
Edward leaving… Edward leaving… Edward leaving… was the echo of the only thought that still hung in some corner of my dead mind.

"Bella? Bella?! Are you alright? Answer ME!" she panicked. But this time I couldn't even modulate a sound, tears wouldn't even shed, though my eyes were aching for the need to.

"BELLA! If you are not answering right now, I swear I'll call Charlie to go look for you and take you to the hospital, and you won't even have a chance to prevent this, THAT IS WHAT YOU WANT?!" Charlie, Hospital? At this time, that didn't even have the effect it would have any other normal day – if some day in my life could be considered as anything close to normal…- But the part of having a chance to prevent Edward leaving, woke me up.

Now I was looking as crazy as the words that had been lost inside, please come back. I need you now!!! I thought. And they finally appeared, a little hasty, but appeared anyway.

"E-e-dwar-th d-eaving? A sh-shance-e?" I managed to say. Jeez, I was talking like a five year old!

"YES! A chance! He is going to leave now. He is already coming to the house and then he will leave. I could stop him for some minutes, but you are the only one he would listen to! You have to come to the house NOW! If you want to prevent this Bella, if not it would be catastrophic. Really Bella, I've seen it. This needs to be stopped some way!"

"O-o-k-k" was all I could mutter. So that was why he had given me that deep and desperate kiss, because for him it was the last one…

And then the sound of an annoying operator came from the phone, I hadn't more credit, and no more money.

Now I fought for words to flow.

"Alice? Alice? It's going to cut down!.. Alice, PLEASE STOP HIM! Do whatever you need, tell him I'm dead if it's needed. Just STOP HIM" I shouted, with all the strength I'd found in my body.

"I will! Remember come as soon as you c---"And then the line was dead.

And I ran, and ran to get to my truck. To go stop my true love for making the biggest mistake ever, to tell him how much he really was the one for me.

TO BE CONTINUED