It was all silences for a long time, feel like days, weeks, months, but in reality I think it was 30 minutes before Alice asked me the one terrible question everyone knew she would. "It's Edwards." she stated. I love her and everything but he died a couple days ago and it's really hard to talk about.

"Ah huh" I mumbled. I didn't want to talk about it but I did at the same time. Like it's a touchy topic but your dying to tell someone. She wanted to know and I had to tell someone, if I were to tell anymore I know it would be her without a second thought. We have been friends since we met back in freshman year. we met like you do when you are like; remember back in kinder garden all scared and alone you seem but then you met someone and you play with them like you known them for years. That's how it was with me and Alice, I was the scared little girl all shy in the corner and Alice was there to take that first step. That's how it is with us. One of us has to take the first step and if its not one of us than its both of us but walk together, day or night we are there for each other.

I don't know what I'm going to do and I don't want to at the moment all I want to do is forget that this all happened, all I know is that I'm keeping this baby even thought that its Edwards baby, my Edward, my Edward who is never coming back. And that face which is half Edward in it will be staring back at me threading me all its life because of something that happened before it was born. I have to promise myself that I will never blame it for something that he/she didn't have any choice on or anyway stopping his death or anything at all. I Bella swan promises never to blame, accuse, or judge my baby on any topic of its father. I promise that when it has reached the right age I will tell him/her about Edward; my child has a right to know.

As I take this vow in my head I realize how stupid it sounds but I don't want to hurt my baby.

"Alice, can you make sure that I'll never hurt this baby, I want to be able to tell to it about Edward and its history, I guess."

"Want me to make you vow?" she asks as her rolls her eyes, kidding, not realizing that I did already in my head just now. "Oh god you already did, didn't you? You know it doesn't count unless you write it down" I always speak to soon with her.

"No I didn't" she looks at me strongly" okay fine I did but I wanted to promise myself"

"ill help you with anything you need, ill get you Oreos at four in the morning if that what you want, I'll drive to the grave yard to help you visit Edward and show him to your baby, ill babysit and care for him or her" thought all of that I know that she isn't kidding one bit, no sarcasm or anything, just straight up truth.

"One more question? How far along are you because you might want to see a doctor and stuff? Would you want my dad to be the doctor? That might be a little weird because you havent told him yet but you know because it's his grandchild and you know that he'll care even more for it than. Which is good but like I said it might be strange." she continued her rant about everything. But then as she talked and talked, she said one thing that stuck my mind again; I have to tell people. Telling Alice was already wearing me out, how in the world would I do this? I want to be able to do tell everybody with Edward and only Edward. But he's not here. Maybe Alice. No... I'm doing it myself.

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