Hey guys, hope you've enjoyed the first two chapters :)

dont worry, i'll be doing Edward's POV soon enough :) just though Bella is a little more important right now, as we're getting in to her mind, what she thinks ect :)

I havent had a chance to add much music to this chapter, i thought it was best left un-touched, but that doesnt mean i wont update it one day with music :)

Tulips are better

Chapter 3

Tossing and turning that night, I couldn't sleep. Groaning as I rolled over to looked at the clock on my bedside it read 4:09am.

I'd have to be up in two hours and I hadn't had any sleep at all. I sighed, there was no point having to try and sleep when I fully knew I couldn't.

I suppose if I fall asleep in my office, I'll leave a note on my door…

Grabbing my Mac, I went to check my email, Alice hadn't been on yet, well of course facebook was dead, there was no one online that I wanted to talk to, there was no Emmett, Rose – which normally meant they were in bed sleeping, or somehow they were up this early to have sex, lovely thought right there.

And I knew Alice and Jasper wouldn't be online, Jasper had told me in his drunk state he was taking Alice out for a meal, a surprise one at least. So knowing me, at stupid early o'clock later Alice would be hyped up and telling me all about it, leaving no detail out.

It was then I thought about Edward. After Saturday when he made me laugh in the bath all about work, something hit me.

Something I never noticed much before

My boss and me had something more in common then I first thought.

Okay, okay, so we were friends to start with, but we only met through the others, that's how I became his assistant, it was due to me being in Alice's office a lot.

Who would of thought that I would get that because I hung in Alice's office so much more then I did downstairs?

I chuckled a little.

***

"Oh dear lord Bella, what on earth?"

Oh god Alice, don't cause people to come over, don't bring the others over, for the love of hula-hoops!

There was no way that pixie would of read my mind was there? No not a single bit. As soon as she said that, Jasper and Emmett came in tow, thankfully Edward hadn't arrived yet.

I looked up from my desk to see all three look at me, it was like an episode of the three bears, me being Goldie locks.

"What happened, what's with the bags look? You do know it does nothing for you right?"

"Yes I do Alice. I didn't sleep at all. And I bet you didn't know you mum was on facebook at 5am did you? No because you guys were all fast asleep."

I banged my head on the desk hard. I didn't notice them stare at me so much they were probably working out if I took drugs before coming here, yet again, they thought of me so much,

"Did you take…"

"No Emmett, but if you ask if I took any drugs, my god Rose will not be having kids with you," I shone a smile at him, he took two steeps back from the desk and cupped himself, taking the warning very serious. Alice rolled her eyes,

"Then what on earth made you unable to sleep? You're normally the first one out, what on earth has kept you up?"

"If only I knew."

"Uh well, we best go, leave you to get a coffee or something Bells, come for lunch with us later by the way. I'm in the mood for a slice of cake."

I nodded as the three of them moved out of my office, Emmett scuffing though, keeping eye contact with me in case I moved and decided to chop now, until he hit my door, I smiled a little. Bless the bear.

I then looked down to my mac and noticed a postie was there:

Come in my office in 40minutes. Tell me everything then.

Alice x

She must have wrote that while I was telling Emmett off, she was good.

***

What a fucking stupid person I am, for fuck on a stick and everything shit. Why the fuck did I have to tell Alice I liked Edward, or more to that love him. And his stupid office was next door! Arh! I'm never going to be able to look him in the eye anymore.

I did as Alice said, I went to her office, spoke about everything then burst out saying I loved him. What a tosser.

And what made it worse was that I could hear him in the next room, so I looked at Alice and ran back to my office, locking the door.

There was no way he was coming in here after all that, and there was no chance Alice would be knocking either.

Sighing again, before the part of meltdown and I would cry I put my ipod on.

It was the only way in fact I would be able to not think about it, but of course one song had to come on, which made me feel pretty low again stupid Oasis, making me feel that way. I then heard my email noise, so no doubt it was Alice.

Bella. I heard what you said in Alice's office I heard everything

I also heard you run off as soon as you heard me move, I'm sorry

I was about to come next door and tell you the same, but you left.

Alice told me to come by your office, but I kind of guess you don't want me there just yet, as well. I can't say I blame you; you've just had a shock.

But I like you Bella, really like you.

Not the stupid like, as in friends, well there's that as well, but uh well you know what I mean. We've been friends since I met you in Alice's office that morning and have been close ever since.

So if you do want to do something, come by my office or just reply back….

If you don't want anything out of this, it's okay Bella, I promise.

But I'm serious on the part that I like you Bells, you bring a smile to my face and you make working here a lot of fun, plus hearing your clumsy stories on the phone makes my night complete.

Okay was I reading this correct? Seriously. Tell me.

I looked at the email to double check it, this was defiantly from Edward? Not a joke from Emmett, as I knew what he was like,

He once sent me an email saying 'Edward' was down in his car waiting for me as he had something to talk about, being gullible as I was, I did it and ended up finding out Edward was on the talking to his parents instead. How I cursed that guy so much that day what made it worse, was the fact he super glued my office door, so I couldn't go in, so I ended up doing all my work in Edward's office, after the awkward meeting in his car that morning. So I was confused, I couldn't tell if it was a true email, or Emmett hacking in to the email system again, because that is how he passes his time at work.

Well, you're right about whole office thing. I plan on staying in here the whole day, I know what this office is like, or more then likely I know what downstairs is like, as soon as they hear something it goes to someone and the email gets around the office. Well more then likely Lauren has heard this and is now telling the whole downstairs office what she thinks it's all about, so prepare for some rumours of us probably having sex in the office or something completely stupid.

But I don't know what to think right now, I'm so confused, I feel there's something there, but I don't know what it is, I don't know if it's the same for you, but I feel something, of some sort.

And for now, a date would be okay I suppose, and I know the friendship will be sort of destroyed if things don't turn out but look how it turned for Alice and Emmett, I kind of feel sick being around them. They make me feel sick because they're in love while I have nothing. Well apart from Mike Newton stalking my facebook for me, and more then likely wanking in a cup over a new photo.

Edward, there's one thing I must know though before we think of doing this.

Do you think our friendship can sustain this? You know the whole boss and assistant sex thing? Because if you don't it's fine. Okay?

And if this Emmett hacking in to the emails again, I am so cutting your balls off and giving them to Rose for a gift.

I couldn't help but hover over the send button, there was no chance I would be leaving my office, but there was also the fact that there could be rejection heading my way, I sighed, there was no point being so stupid, so I hit send,

Brilliant Bella, you're about to be rejected again.

Deciding not to wait about, I decided to go home instead, leaving my work mac here, while I took all I needed and left the office and left for home.

***

Bella Swan: I feel completely sick, what a stupid person I am, I've had the worst day ever! This has nothing then the time Emmett scared me in the shower when it was Halloween.

I know putting that on facebook was wrong but right now, that was all I had, I didn't want to sit in work this week, so I called in while I was driving home to tell Alice, I've called in sick for the week.

Hopefully, being home the rest of the week would give me some time to think about everything lately, maybe sitting around my flat will help me think; ha what am I thinking, I need a drink before I do any thinking.

Wine, chocolate, ipod, Grease! That's what I need right now. And Edward.

I stopped, mid way through doing what I was about to do, did I just his name in my head of plans tonight?

Seriously not Bella

There is something wrong with me. Charlie was right, I needed to see someone about my thoughts, this cannot be right. And maybe a padded room would be nice right now.

So there we go. Edward's POV will be the next two chapters :)

Because i love you guys so much, i thought we could see what it's like in Edward's eyes.

Although just to warn people now, who think Jacob will turn up...dont hold you're breath, im not a fan of him :) i'll end up throwing him in a bonfire

mwhahaha :)