Chapter 4

A Lying Smile

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The following morning Bulla woke up and looked at her shoulders. Her plan worked what she did last night healed while she was sleeping leaving nothing but the memory. At school she happily talked to her friends about what was going to happen that night, she needed a break from her problems.

"Bulla I have no rules for tonight's little party except nothing dirty with my uncle while I'm in the room"

"Fun wrecker, now I don't know if I'm going to come"

"Oh come on you have to, it will be great"

"Pan, I was joking don't worry"

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That night the gang met at Pan's house where she had moved everything to make room. First they talked while music blasted in the background; all through out the night they constantly challenged each other to see who was top-dog. Pan and Bulla were trying to name the most bands at the moment. Half way through they searched the web for parodies of their favorite games and shows. Bulla started laughing to the point that she was crying and her breath was short. She left the house at humming one of the songs, she got into her mother's car and yelled "Pan we have to do this again and soon I had so much fun!" She sat in the car her smile covering the length of her face.

"So have fun?"

"Yeah it was great"

"What did you do?"

"Nothing fancy, we just kinda hung out"

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A few days later she had started again, at night she would promise herself that she wouldn't but as she lay in bed her arms would surge and she would become restless until she succumbed to it. But no matter how many times or night's it happened the same thing would result, nothing would be left in the morning.

After school Pan and Marron walked home with her and stayed over for dinner. As soon as they all sat down she regretted having them over. Vegeta got in an argument with Trunks ad by the time dinner was over Bulla was dragged in.

"Oh look what a cry baby, your always crying…grow up" Bulla couldn't speak, the words wouldn't form, Pan and Marron tried to defend her but it only made it worse. She pushed out her chair and ran upstairs, they followed her without hesitation. Pan ran to Bulla's side as Marron locked the door and turned on the stereo so they couldn't be heard or interrupted, even though they knew that no one would most likely. She walked away from them and starting screaming at them, "I hate him, I hate him, if I could I would kill him…Oh I can't stand him, he acts like we have to obey him, like he is so much better then me!" The two stood by her, letting her vent out to them, they knew she had bottled up all of the fights inside, they could tell just by the way she was saying things, things that didn't happen before. Soon Bulla stopped screaming and fell to the floor on her knees she was still crying, the pain was still there. Inside felt like old wounds had opened up again, would this pain ever go away? Her arms started calling out to her, her body shook trying to get away from the temptation she couldn't, not with her friends here with her, then all her hard work to keep it a secret would be ruined. Come on, give in, you want to feel better don't you. Don't worry about your friends they'll understand Bulla stood up and moved to her desk, the two backed up to give her space. She kept her back towards her friends as she searched her desk for her pin; slowly she placed it in her fingers and brought it up to her shoulders.
"Bulla what are you doing?" Pan asked slowly moving forward towards her, she let the needle touch her skin and mark it. "Bulla stop don't do it!" Pan yelled in worry and pleading voice. She said nothing as she continued, neither moved forward unsure what to do. Suddenly she dropped the needle and went to the floor.

"I'm so sorry, please don't tell anyone about this" Marron and Pan went to her side. "Bulla how long have you been doing this, why didn't you tell us?" "For a while and I guess I thought you wouldn't believe me because the marks are completely healed by morning, please me that this doesn't leave the room" "But Bulla, you need help" "No! Please, please promise me, don't tell my parents or anyone especially Goten, he can't know" "Okay Bulla we promise right Pan?" Pan looked at Marron confused, why she was agreeing to this "Okay I promise, but please let us help you" "Thank you, let's do something else, that's how you can help"

I can't escape this hell
So many times I've tried
But I'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)
I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times I've lied
(So many times I've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself

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Okay I AM SO SORRY this took me forever to update. But I finished this chapter in school and I made sure that I updated it the same day, and for once I did. I hope you like it, please Review.