AN: Alright here is the next chapter! Beware there is language and some fighting plus some... well... anyways hope you all enjoy! Oh a reviewer suggested that I put a recap so I'm going to!

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Recap: I smiled at him and then Chris and everyone behind him. "I'm getting wasted what does it look like?" I asked before downing the whole cup, and I faintly recognized people cheering in the background. My mind was on one thing and one thing only- James might be doing what he did to me with Jenny.

Chapter Five

Drunken Fights & Cries

"Hell yeah!" I yelled as my favorite song came on, at least I think it's my favorite song. I didn't care though I was on my eleventh drink and I was letting my head spin as I danced with friends… though I didn't recall their names.

"Bella c'mon it's late, you've had enough it's time to go," Jasper said as he grabbed my arm.

I pulled away with a laugh and shook my head, "If there's one thing I learned from my slutty roommate it's that there is no such thing of having too much!" Some of the people that I had been dancing with cheered with me and I continued dancing.

It was the first time since a long time ago that I was actually having fun and I was going to make it last for as long as I could. I felt someone pull me to them and I leaned into them dancing in tune with the dance. "She doesn't scream like you do Isabella."

The voice made me stop dead in my tracks, I heard yelling in the background but I didn't care, I was drunk and I had the old Bella's strength with me. "That means a lot James." I said as I turned in his arms and I looked into his black eyes. "But you know what would mean a lot more to me?" I asked and I saw him shake his head. "You being the one that screams," I whispered into his ear.

His head shot up just as I kicked him in his groin, he fell to his knees with a cry and his watery eyes looked into my blood shot ones as I punched him in the nose. "I don't hear you screaming James!" I yelled as I punched him again. "C'mon let me hear those pipes!"

"Bella!" I heard Chris yell as he grabbed my arm.

"Stop!" I yelled before twisting out of his grip and grabbing James' face and punching him again and then stomping on his leg with my heel and finally I got a yell out of him as he fell to the ground clutching his leg and his groin. I whipped my hair out of my face and before I could hit him again I was lifted off the ground and carried out of the house as the party grew wild. "Let go of me!" I yelled hitting someone's back.

As soon as we were a block away I was hoisted off the persons back and sat on the cement. I looked up and saw Emmett starring down at me with a slight smile on. "My sister just took down the co captain of my football team."

"I'm glad you like this," Chris said as he paced in front of me. "What the hell were you thinking?" he asked as he turned towards me.

"Can I have some water?" I asked softly as I felt the alcohol work its way to the back of my throat.

"Here," Rosalie said as she sat down next to me, handing me a cold water bottle.

"Thanks," I whispered and then started to chug the water.

As soon as I finished the water Chris piped up again, "Are you really that stupid Bella?" he asked.

"What's your problem Chris? So she got into a fight with him," Edward said as he walked up with his hands in his pockets.

"Yeah so what? She just got into a fight with James." Chris said and then he started to pace again. "James, Bella. You do remember who that is don't you?"

I stood up shakily and stared at Chris, "Do you think I would have said the things I said to him if I didn't remember Chris?" I asked through clenched teeth.

"Bella you of all people should know what this is going to mean." Blake said as he stood next to Emmett.

"You carried me remember that Chris?" I asked and Chris looked down at the ground. "You carried me to your dorm in nothing but a ripped skirt and your letterman jacket as I cried and shook. You told me one day I'd finally get to look at him and tell him to scream to yell for help and for him to look like shit for a few weeks. I got that tonight and here you are telling me that I'm a fool." I crossed my arms as my hands started shake from the sights in my head.

Chris stood still as he eyed me with wide eyes, "I'm done pretending Chris. It happened and I'm fucked up because of it, you got what you wanted." I said and then walked away towards my dorm.

"Bella!" he yelled for me but I just continued on my way without turning back to him, but as soon as I got inside my dorm room it was about five minutes before there was a knock on my door.

I was stunned when I saw Edward standing in the entry way. "Bella… can I come in?" he asked as he stood there with his arms hanging beside him.

I nodded and left the door open and turned and walked to the mini fridge and grabbed two waters. I threw one to him as he walked over to Jenny's bed and sat down on the floor so he was leaning against it. "What did you need?" I asked as I sat across from him, leaning against my own bed.

"Can you just explain what everything was about?" he asked as he twisted the cap off of his drink.

"I don't think that's a wise idea-" I was about to continue but he cut me off before I could.

"Stop with trying to get away from this, do me a favor and don't think about me as the guy you used to date, think of me as your best friend that you used to be able to tell anything to." Edward said as he looked at me with the eyes that I did fall in love with, that I did tell my secrets to, and that made me feel safe- and they still did.

"I was at this party my senior year of high school…it was the night before my last day at seeing the campus so I thought that I might as well try and get the gist of college life. I had met Chris and Blake the day before so we hung out until I met James… James was charming, cute, and he had this thing about him that made you want him… I would have jumped at the chance to be with him but I was still hung up on you so I showed no signs that I was interested. After a few drinks I thought it was better that I left so I walked towards the dorm I was staying in and I had found this shortcut on the way down this alley and I was met with a slam up against a brick wall as soon as I turned down it.

"I hit my head pretty bad but I still remember parts of it, screaming and thrashing out at him was pretty much the gist of it. I was lying on the ground weeping and shaking when Chris and Blake found me; Chris wrapped me in his lettermanjacket and carried me to his dorm room that he shared with Blake. I slept there and the next morning I was given clothes and two over protective friends that demanded that I come to this college so they could watch over me."

I traced the wood as I spoke and I finally looked up at Edward when he let out a gust of air. "I'm going to kill him," he said in a dead whisper that almost made me shake.

"Edward… there's more…" I said and then looked down and started tracing the wood floor again.

"There's more than James raping you?" he asked and I heard his teeth snap close.

"He didn't… he didn't wear… protection…" I said softly. I was wrenched up from the ground by Edward whose eyes were turning a dark green.

"You had a kid and didn't tell anyone!" he yelled.

I closed my eyes and shook my head. "I found out a week after I moved into my dorm room that I was pregnant… I turned to Chris and Blake and they both said they would help me no matter what my choice… I didn't get an abortion… I couldn't even think of getting one." I said and I felt my heart wrench as I wrapped my arms around my waist.

"Bella…"

"I was three months and six days in when I woke up with my bed filled with blood. It's not the rape that hurt me Edward it was waking up and feeling completely alone. I was going to call Charlie and tell him when I was farther along but when I lost it I just couldn't face anyone, I became shy and couldn't talk to anyone but Jenny, Chris and Blake. I know I probably should have said something but I just…" I trailed off as my eyes were overwhelmed with wetness.

Edward wrapped his arms around me and squeezed me, "Bella… did you even tell your mother?" he asked. I nodded as I continued to cry.

"Can I tell you something?" Edward asked and I nodded again as I wiped my eyes with my palm. "Ever since you left Forks things have been hell."

I groaned and fell back onto my bed.

"I didn't mean it like that… I just want you to know that I wish I could re do that day every minute of my life." He said as he knelt down to my level.

I looked at him with a questioning expression, "What about Ashley?" I asked.

"I'm not with her… I've never actually been in a relationship with anyone since you… and I don't plan on it." He said and then captured my lips with his.

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