Disclaimer: See last chapter
A/N: Kind of gutted that hardly anyone is reading/reviewing this story, but I guess I will live. =/
~ Chapter Five ~
They say life goes on, that you will wake up one day and realize that life is worth living, no matter what. Sonny found herself wishing that would come true, she wanted to smile, she wanted to laugh, she needed to love again. But it just seemed that now that her best friend had gone, nothing was worth living for, nothing.
She wasn't sure why it hurt so much, maybe it was because of how Tawni had died, or maybe it was because Tawni was the only true best friend Sonny could spend every second of every day with and not get annoyed or bored.
She would lay awake at night, tears hitting the pillow behind her as she looked up at the ceiling and found herself wishing she could go back to that night and go to the studios instead of staying at home in bed, sick. She would wonder if he would have killed anyone else that night or if Tawni was his only target, and as much as she wanted Tawni back, she would be too afraid to wish death upon someone else.
It had been two days since she had let Chad hold her in his arms, two whole days since she spoke to him, forty eight hours since she had last broke down. She remembered when she got home that evening, looking at herself in the mirror and promising that it would never happen again.
Breaking down was the easy thing to do, staying strong.. now that was difficult.
She tried her best to remember a time when she was happy, but everything seemed clouded by the depression she found herself being pulled into, not even making any attempt to get out of it. There was no point trying to get out of something you wanted.
She jumped at every noise now, almost afraid that the same was going to happen to her, afraid that he was going to come after her, taking her away just like he had Tawni. Tawni.. her name made Sonny shudder nowadays, the two girls had been so close and now she was gone and Sonny was left behind... it didn't seem fair to her.
It was a few hours later, when she had been sitting down on her living room floor, tears falling slowly down her face as she stared at the television screen in front of her – So Random was on. She had been happy for a second when she turned it on, glad to see Tawni's happy, smiling face on the screen once more – where it belonged. She had smiled when she heard Tawni's laughter but that had soon turned into crying when she realized that this may have been the last time Tawni ever laughed, the last show she did, she last time she smiled, the last time she felt like she was at home...
It hit her when she was sitting there that Tawni was gone forever, the only thing left would be memories and old re-runs and they would never be enough. Nothing was ever going to be enough.
It took her a few moments to realize that there was a knock on the door, not really wanting to get up and answer it but having a feeling that she just had to.
"Chad?" She whispered as she opened the door slowly, wanting to run into his arms and breakdown like she had only a few days before. He made it all go away for a moment, he made her feel a little better when she looked into his eyes.. he was the only one who could do that.
"I came to see if you were okay." He frowned, taking in her appearance – knowing that no matter what she said, she was not okay. Her face was pale, tear tracks appearing silver in the moonlight, the dark circles looked as though they had been carved underneath her eyes.
His eyes trailed down her body, biting down on his lip when he noticed she was only wearing a baggy hoody and nothing else, exposing her now tiny legs after her few weeks of not eating anything at all.
"I brought food." He announced suddenly, ripping his eyes away from her body and lifting up the bags he held in his hands,
"I'm not hungry." Sonny muttered, letting him in as he shook his head and glared at her, warning her not to push her luck as he found his way to her kitchen. She followed him out, her arms folded around herself as she watched him unpack all the food he had bought.
"Why are you even here?" She found herself asking,
"We need a plan, remember?" He shrugged, knowing that wasn't the real reason,
"Oh.. yeah..." She looked down at the floor, hating herself for actually thinking he cared for a moment there as he sighed, running his fingers through his hair.
"And because I wanted to make sure you were okay, I noticed you weren't eating properly and I didn't think it was right for you to be alone at a time like this."
"Thanks but I really can't bring myself to eat..." She adamantly shook her head, tears threatening to fall down her face once more as he suddenly wrapped his arms around her shaking body, hushing her with gentle words as tears fell from her eyes again.
"Don't go." She whispered,
"I could never leave you." He smiled, rubbing her back as she cried, lifting her up when she finally fell asleep in his arms. He wanted her to feel safe with him more than anything else, he smiled as he put her down in the bed, climbing onto the other side before wrapping his arms around her again and closing his own eyes.
A/N: The filler chapter, gayness.
Right, voting time.
Do you think that Sonny and Chad should KNOW the killer?
Or should he be a stranger?