A/N: Hi again. Thank you for the reviews. Since this is my first time posting a story I'm so worried I will let all you readers down. So much pressure…I really hope I don't disappoint. I'm a little worried about how this chapter will go over with readers so I hope I don't lose any. No Danny yet but I promise he comes in the next chapter.

As some have said in reviews, this is a dark story. I don't know why but for some reason I am drawn to dark stories…maybe it's all the Lifetime movies I watch or the young adult books I read.

Warning: Some adult, sexual content but it is mild, nothing too explicit.

The next few weeks went about the same, with many stares, some name calling and the occasional shove. One teacher in particular however took a liking to Lindsay, Mr. Mason.

Ever since the first day of classes when Madison called Lindsay a 'whore', Mr. Mason had kept a close eye on her. He would call on her to answer questions which she always got right and her work on labs was almost always perfect. During lab when he went around talking to all the groups, he would often spend a little more time talking to Lindsay who often had questions that were more intelligible than the other groups.

With the odd number in the class, Lindsay asked to work alone and after some convincing, Mr. Mason allowed it.

Despite all of Madison's attempts to flirt with Mr. Mason, he showed no interest in her which pissed Madison off to no end. In her experience, Madison could get the attention of any male she felt like but he was not responding. What pissed her off more was the he did pay attention to Lindsay, the girl Madison hated and that made Lindsay smile a little.

Lindsay didn't normally look for this kind of attention but ever since the party, she had been feeling very lonely. When she was in elementary and middle school, Lindsay had had plenty of friends but then her parents decided to send her to a private school that most of her friends didn't go to.

When Lindsay became friends with Madison, what previous friends she did have that came to the new private school, drifted away. Madison had a way of keeping Lindsay from making any true friends; Madison liked control and took pleasure in controlling who Lindsay could and couldn't be friends with.

Lindsay put up with Madison's antics because when it was just the two of them, she really had a great time. It also didn't hurt to have the social status that came with being Madison's friend. But now, all of that was gone and Lindsay missed having someone…anyone; and that's why she let things go the way they did one night in October.

It was a Monday after school and Lindsay had stayed late to do some research in the library for a project. She was walking out of the library when she saw Jason and he saw her right back. He grinned at her and started to walk towards her. She told herself that she should move, run, do something but her body wouldn't respond; she had no control over herself.

Instead, she stayed planted to the ground, the feeling of something coming up in her throat. He got really close to her, each facing the other and put his hand on her shoulder. Lindsay tensed at the contact and shivered when he whispered right in her ear, "shhh, it's just me Lindsay," then kept on walking.

When she could finally move, she ran to the bathroom and threw up. She came out of the stall, washed out her mouth, put some cool water on her face and then found a piece of gum in her backpack and chewed it until the taste of vomit was gone. She spit out the gum and walked out of the bathroom where Mr. Mason was waiting for her.

Little did Lindsay know but while the whole thing with Jason was taking place, Mr. Mason was watching from his office. "Are you ok," he asked her.

"Yea, I'm fine," she replied not looking up.

"Come to my office; follow me" he said and led her to his office.

She didn't know why she was following, maybe it was because she was feeling vulnerable or that he was paying the attention to her that she so desperately craved; either way she didn't hesitate. When they got into his office, he closed the door and led her to the couch where they both sat down.

"Are you ok Lindsay," he asked again.

"I'm fine," she said again but not convincingly as a tear fell. She normally didn't allow herself to cry in front of people but she was feeling that pressure again, that panic.

"You're a wonderful, smart, beautiful girl and shouldn't let what anyone says bother you," Mr. Mason said as he put his hand on her cheek to wipe away a few tears.

He didn't get it, he didn't know what she was going through and something kept her from telling him but when he leaned forward and kissed her on the lips, she didn't stop him.

She didn't stop him when he put his tongue in her mouth, she didn't stop him when his hands traveled down to her hips or when he moved to lay her down on the couch. She let him feel her up and down and even kicked off her shoes and socks. She helped him take off her shirt and bra and let him kiss her bare skin. She watched as he took off his own shirt, shoes and socks. She didn't stop him from taking off her pants and underwear. She wasn't surprised when he soon moved to taking off his own pants and underwear or when he put on a condom. She almost welcomed the pain that came from being a virgin when he entered her, the pressure and the panic seemed to disappear with the arrival of pain. She let herself kiss him back, but there was no pleasure for her.

The whole time she felt like she was outside of her body watching down on what was happening. When he was done, they both got dressed. "I'm glad we did this," he said.

Lindsay just smiled and kissed him again because she thought that was an appropriate response. "Let me walk you out, ok," he said.

"Ok," Lindsay agreed and followed him out of his office to the exit where she began her walk home.

Lindsay didn't know what to make of their 'interaction' but she liked having something else to herself. But was she really in control?

Tuesday she noticed that Mr. Mason was eying her more than usual during his class and she could tell that Madison was jealous. When Lindsay went to walk out of his class that day, Madison gave her an extra hard shove as she pushed by her. Madison must have told all her friends to be extra mean to Lindsay that day because she got more names thrown at her than she could remember happening in a while.

Wednesday during his class, Mr. Mason asked Lindsay to come by his office after school that day to talk about one of her labs. On her way to his office, she passed Madison and Jason in the hall, Madison glaring at her and Jason grinning knowingly at her.

She felt the familiar panic rising in her stomach but hurried away. She was able to make it to Mr. Mason's office without throwing up and when she got in, he shut the door behind her and started kissing her. "I've been thinking about you a lot," he told her between kisses.

Again, they wound up on the couch naked with the only release for Lindsay being from the panic. Again, it was as if she was watching herself from somewhere else, disconnected.

After Mr. Mason walked Lindsay to the exit, while she was walking home, she wasn't so sure she liked how she felt with Mr. Mason, so disconnected from her-self.

Lindsay was happy when the weekend finally came and she was able to leave the school and not have to go back for two days. She felt like she needed the weekend to get away so she did all her homework on Friday with the intention of going to Central Park on Saturday and Sunday to do nothing.

When her father heard she had finished her homework already he insisted that she come to his law firm that weekend to get in a good weekends work. As always, she obliged and again, her life was taken out of her hands.

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