High Tension

'Oh my…oooh myy god. He didn't just do that. Why would he do that? Weren't we supposed to study? Kissing obviously has nothing to do with Potions – at all! Maybe I've overseen something in the book but I clearly can't remember any kissing. I just kissed a boy…oh damn what is Ginny gonna say? Ginny or…anyone! No one must find out. Aaargh…those silky lips of his slightly touching mine…' he felt like melting but then pushed the thought away 'I must stop thinking about this…' Harry thought while he was running down the halls heading the Gryffindor common room.

It was already dark outside and the corridors were merely lid by some candles. Harry passed a flinching Mrs. Norris seeming to protest against his speed when he finally reached the portrait of the big lady. He told her the password and slipped in as soon as there was enough space for him.

"The youth nowadays…way too impatient." The lady said in an arrogant tone but Harry didn't care – he barely heard her.

"Harry! There you finally are…I've been looking for you." Suddenly a familiar voice was raised. It was Ginny. She was sitting on the sofa placed right in front of the chimney. "Where have you been? Everything alright?"

Harry stopped though he still seemed to be in a rush. He was looking for a way to forget what he just experienced and sat down next to Ginny trying to find some peace. Though he didn't look at her, he was staring at the sparkling fire instead not saying a word.

"Are you okay? You look just as if a ghost passed you." Ginny said with a concerned voice and scooped up till she was sitting right next to Harry. She placed her hand onto his thigh and started to rub it.

Harry – ripped out of his thoughts about Draco: "Erm…sure." He merely said, looking her into the eyes. 'This girl is what I should think about….what everyone expects me to think about…what I'm supposed to think about…' Ginny then moved her hand up heading Harry's package and then slightly kissed him biting his under lip. Harry first wasn't in the mood at all but soon thought it would be the best way forgetting about what just happened and pierced with his tongue into her mouth. After kissing for a while Ginny whispered into Harry's ear: "You know what…I think we should take our relationship onto the next level…" Harry removed a little bit and looked at her in a weird way: "Are you serious? I mean…right now? Already…don't you think we should wait until…" but he couldn't continue as Ginny pushed him backwards – him falling down on the sofa. Ginny then sat down onto Harry's lap and took off her shirt. "Now tell me again…" she said with a grin on her face.

The drive overcame Harry and he dragged her body onto his kissing her bare skin. His eyes were closed as he suddenly whispered: "Draco…"

Ginny seemed to have overheard his words and didn't care at all not stopping to kiss his neck. Harry's eyes opened in horror as he realized that he just called the girl he was about to have sex with…Draco. In that moment Ginny was about to open his trunk softly leading her hands into it.

"Stop it!" Harry suddenly breathed and pushed her away. Ginny slipped and fell down on the ground.

"Are you fucking kidding me??" Ginny hissed at him, rubbing her head which was hurting quite a lot. "What the hell is up with you? I was just going to satisfy you and you idiot push me away??" she looked angrily at him. Harry didn't know what to say. He couldn't tell her that the reason for all that was him thinking about Draco. 'The last thing I want now is that she or anyone would think I am gay…since I'm not.' He stared at Ginny with his jar opened trying to figure out what to say.

Ginny – with gritted teeth: "Fine…" she got up and put her shirt back on.

Harry: "I'm sorry…please! Don't….I…I'm sorry! I don't know why I…erm I guess I'm just not ready for this."

Ginny: "So? Have you ever thought about me? You're so egoistic. Have you ever thought about that I fuckin need this?"

Harry: "What?"

Ginny: "Oh please…don't you understand? Well if you can't satisfy my needs I'll go look for someone who can."

Harry – giving her a desperate look: "What? No! I mean…" he got up and grabbed both of her arms. "You have to understand…I'm gonna give you what you need. Just…erm don't you think it has to be somewhere more special?"

Ginny – rolling her eyes: "Alright…I'll give you one more chance. But don't you ever disappoint me again!" Harry lowered his hands and she walked away up the stairs to the girls dorms.

Harry stood there for a while staring into the fire.

'Give her what she needs? Egoistic? What the fuck is she talking about? Why do I even care about what she says? I don't love her, do I? Is it because I care too much what people think of me? Am I this immature to care about what the others say?'

Harry didn't know what to think anymore. He didn't know how to feel, how to react – how to cope with the situation. He wanted to know what happened earlier that evening. He wanted to be certain about his feelings. Out of the growing rage in his mind he rushed away. Determined he stepped out of the common room onto the barely lidded corridors. He fastened his pace as he was heading his target. As he came to an edge he bumped into someone coming from the other side.

"Oh I'm really sorry…why does this always happen to me?!" The boy said looking onto the ground.

"Draco..??" Harry said with surprise on his face. He couldn't suppress a smile.

"Harry…I…I was looking for you. I'm really sorry…" Draco stuttered.

Harry gulped down his smile and said: "You better are! I mean that's not quite the sense of tutoring you know."

Draco just stared at him not knowing how to react. They both just stood there…staring at each other.

The tension between them was growing and Harry began to feel uncomfortable because of it. There was this uncertain feeling inside him telling him to take Draco right in this moment, drag him against his body and just kiss him. There was something about the boy that made him feel in a way he never did before. Only his mind was holding him back and he had to force himself to step back.

Draco: "It's late…I'm tired…I think we should go to bed."

Harry: "In which one?"

Draco just stared at him misunderstanding not quite sure what he just said: "I'll go in my bed…you of course can decide for your self."

Harry – blushing: "Erm right…good night." Then he buzzed off forcing himself not to look back.

Draco followed him with his eyes 'Oh Harry…what is this about you?' then he also returned to his bedroom.

In that night none of them would get sleep – thinking about one another.

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End of chapter four. Yes they have undeniable feelings for each other…so will Harry be able to stop caring about what society would think of him? Or will he decide to be with Ginny? So much questions xD stay tuneeed :) and pleaaase review…

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