Decisions have to be made

Harry was lying in his bed as the sun started to send its glistening beams trough the glass of the window. Harry counted the seconds…

"…four…three…two…one…" then the alarm clock began to ring loudly. He got himself up in a sitting position and hit the alarm in order to stop the annoying noise. Harry kept sitting there for a few minutes. A loud moan ripped him out of his stare. "Oooh myy…I'm so freaking tired. Why can't they start school an hour or two later…" it was Ron who just woke up. Harry started to laugh: "Man, stop nagging and get dressed. I'm hungry."

Ron snorted but then he toddled slowly to the bathroom.

About fifteen minutes later the two boys made their way to the dining hall in order to get breakfast. They were about 10 meters away of the table as Harry suddenly stopped – Ron not noticing and walking on. Harry hesitated to go one because he felt torn apart inside him… There on the table a few meters in front of him were sitting Ginny on the one side and Draco on the other side. The question now was where he should take place. He stood there seconds of uncertainty as a familiar voice ripped him out of his desperation. The voice came from behind and it was his dear friend Hermione.

"What are you doing, Harry? Are you conscious about the fact that you're totally blocking my way to my food? Are you sure you really want to come in between us?" Hermione tried to look serious but had to giggle as she widened her eyes looking at Harry who grinned back at her. "No, of course not… I'm not tired of life yet."

Hermione pushed him slightly aside and as she walked by she said: "C'mon let's get something to eat. You look hungry." Harry followed her as if he had forgotten about his seating issue which he was with struggling in his mind. "I do? Well actually I'm starving…" he said accompanying her to the table. There he saw his chance – he just decided to sit next to Hermione who placed herself next to Ginny.

In relief he grabbed a slice of honey bread and began to eat passionately – not noticing neither Ginny's nor Draco's glances.

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Potion class was over and Harry stuffed his books back into his bag when Draco suddenly said: "You were pretty silent today morning."

Harry looked up just for a second from his books slightly glancing at Draco in order then to take his bag and make his way to the door. Before he vanished he said over his shoulder: "I'm just tired – that's it."

Draco followed him with his eyes and an eyebrow up. He then shook his head and left the dungeons.

'What is up with him today? Well okay…what were I thinking. I freaking kissed that kid and I don't think he forgot about that in the last 24 hours. I wish he would though…god damn it.'

While he thought about that he passed Harry who was standing right next to a girl. It was the youngest Weasley and she grinning at him. Draco couldn't see the facial expression of Harry but the scenery yet alone felt like a sting in his heart. He turned his face away in order to think of something else…

"So you really are serious about that?" Harry said in a low voice. The conversation he was leading with Ginny felt awkward to him and he didn't want anyone to overhear them. He cautiously looked aside as Ginny said: "I'm dead serious. I thought you've already got that message. So I'm free tonight. What about you?" she was looking at him in a quite serious way as if she was trying to pull the answer out of Harry by looking at him intensively. "I…I don't know. It depends on my homework for tomorrow I might have to study the whole evening."

Ginny made a face and answered: "Harry…it's Friday." Harry ran out of ideas and finally said: "Alright, alright…tonight. I'll be in the common room at ten." He couldn't bear the situation any longer, kissed Ginny slightly good bye and rushed off before she could say anything more.

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After dinner on that day, Draco made his way up to the library in order to get a book he needed. He felt tired and the only place where he wanted to be in exactly that moment was the fluffy mattress of his bed. And he wanted to get there as quickly as possible. It was already a quarter to ten and it was pitch black outside. As he strolled down the hallways suddenly a silhouette was coming towards him. He recognized Harry who seemed to be in a rush.

Draco: "Oh hey Harry!"

Harry slowed down a bit: "Draco…hey…"

Draco felt insecure what to say next but before Harry could pass him he said: "What you up to?"

Harry – stopping: "Well actually I've got a date with Ginny and I'm quite late already."

Draco: "Oh…then I don't want to annoy you." With a sad expression on his face he went on.

Harry – desperate look in his eyes: "Wait…no you…you don't annoy me!"

Draco turned but looked on the floor instead of looking at Harry: "Really? I had the feeling as if."

Harry: "C'mon, stop talking bullshit. You know that's not true."

Draco – looking into Harry's eyes blushing slightly: "Do I?"

When Draco's eyes met his, Harry felt uncomfortable. It felt as if those shiny grey eyes were piercing through him and as if they could read his mind. He shivered. He took two little steps forward, opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something but couldn't. There it was again. The tension between them. As Draco stepped forward the bells of the nearby church began to ring. It was 10 o'clock. Ginny came back to Harry's mind, he hit his forehead… "Damn it…"

Draco uncertain what Harry was thinking of he said: "What is it?"

Harry: "Ginny is going to kill me."

Draco – looking sadly on the ground: "I guess you better go now then."

Harry felt like torn apart. He just didn't know what to do. He could stay with Draco, but what would happen then? He wasn't ready yet to admit his feelings he had towards the young man standing before him. He wasn't able to leave him neither. Leave him for the girl that was waiting for him impatiently upstairs in the Gryffindor common room having nothing on but her nightgown. What would people think if they found out? The great Harry Potter dumping his girlfriend for a boy?

He stepped back a little and said: "I'm sorry…" then he turned and went away. His steps were growing faster and faster as he ran away. Draco was left behind with the most uncertain feeling ever. Though he knew that he could never be with him, he felt left alone – the boy he loved running in the arms of someone else.

Harry reached the door to the common room which was covered by the portrait of the big lady. She was sitting in an armchair breathing hard but regularly. She was sleeping. Harry leaned onto the wall next to the portrait. He was trying to regain a normal breath since he breathed heavily from running that fast. After seconds of closed eyes he swung them opened again and stepped in front of the portrait. "Miss? Miss!" Harry was trying to wake up the fat lady. First she just twitched a little bit but eventually she woke up. She looked down to Harry angrily: "Shouldn't you be sleeping already instead of waking me up??"

"I'm really sorry to interrupt you…" he said but the big lady didn't let him speak any further "Whatever…I want to sleep now so just tell me that damn password."

Harry gulped and told her the password. As the portrait was swung open the common room was all dark. 'Did she already leave?' he thought as he stepped into the common room and soon saw the timid shine of the crackling fire. There were some other noises too but he wasn't able to figure out where it came from. As he stepped closer to the fire he recognized a silhouette stretching oneself on the sofa. "Ginny?" Harry said in the expectation that she might slept in while she waited for him. Not so much…he stepped a little forward as the person on the sofa startled up.

"Harry? Oh uhm…hey…" he got up from the sofa revealing Ginny who lied there with almost nothing on. In a hurry she took her shirt and covered her naked breasts.

"Harry!? What are you doing here?" Ginny said in a tone that sounded upset and insecure at the same time.

Harry's eyes widened as he realized what she had been doing. "What the…? I thought…and…" he stuttered.

Ginny regained her senses: "Oh please did you really think I could wait for you…forever?" The other boy who now was standing in front of the chimney covering the light didn't dare to say a word. He just left heading the boy's dorms only looking back once capturing the scene a hurt Harry and upset Ginny would make.

"You're disguising me." Harry said after a while. His hurt feeling turned into anger. He couldn't look at her any longer and rushed off heading his bedroom. He let himself fall back into the soft pillows of his bed…

'I can't believe she just did that to me. Cheating on me with such a jerk? Such a little whore…' he was filled with anger. Yet he knew that he basically wasn't mad at her. Of course yes he was but not as much as he was mad at himself. He made the wrong decisions. He gave away his true feelings – eventually he betrayed himself.

A silent tear ran over his cheek and accompanied by rain drops pattering against the window he fell asleep…

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End of chapter five…yeah I kind of really like this one. I just didn't know with whom Ginny should cheat on Harry…so I merely wrote the boy xD So if you've got an idea who I should take please don't hesitate telling me.

Thankies for reading!! :)