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AN: Chapter has now been re-edited thanks to dihenydd!

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Chapter 3: All these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin
Tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?

Tear meat from the bone
Tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

- Happy? by Mudvayne


"You really need to talk to him." Alice started to plead, as I lay back down on my bed.

"Alice, I have already told you, I am not going to talk to him." I know I was being really stubborn, but I had my reasons.

"Fine then, how about we have a little fun then, shall we?" Alice said with a little devious smile.

"What do you mean?" I sat up straight and looked over at her.

"Well, he hasn't seen you for 5 years now, right? And you don't look anything like you did back then." She was on to something.

"Sooo…" I moved my hands signalling for her to keep going.

"Sooo..How about we use that to your advantage. Make him see that what he has done has really had no effect on you, or maybe show him that because of what he did he has made you into the woman you are today." I got what she was saying, and it did make sense. If it wasn't for Edward, I may still be some fat lard sitting on the couch waiting for him to notice me, but at the same time if it wasn't for Edward I would still have my best friend and I wouldn't have ended up going to such extreme lengths and almost ending up in the hospital.

"If you think about it, he more than likely thinks he got your goat when you left Forks High, but now you're going to flaunt yourself and let him know that you are better now than you ever were." Alice had continued.

"But that's the thing Alice, it took a long time for me to be able to get to where I am now and you know that I am still not in the best condition." I stood up and walked past her to get my glass of water.

"But he doesn't know that. He doesn't know that you went Bulimic and everything. You can let him think that you lost all your weight in the healthiest way, rather than the worst way."

While I took a sip of my water I thought about it. It really didn't sound too bad. In fact it kind of sounded like fun to get back at him, but could I really do that to Edward? I mean sure I hate his guts, but he used to be my best friend after all, and now he is Emmett's best friend again. What if this all goes badly and I ruin their friendship because I am seeking revenge.

Then all the old memories came back. Him laughing at me while his friends tripped me so I would land face down in the mud as they walked all over my new books, or having them spit spitwads at my face only to find out they were colored so when I wiped them off my face I had streaks of yellow, brown, and green across my face. This was of course only the beginning. Childish, I know, but things only got a hundred times worse by the time I left that school.

That's it.

"I'll do it." I turned back and faced Alice and she started to jump up and down clapping her hands. Man why was she so happy about this? Shouldn't she actually be protecting her cousin anyway?

Oh wait, this means there is going to be a makeover doesn't it?

"That means we need to give you a makeover for tonight!" I knew it.

"Okay, let's get this over with."

And with that she dragged me into the bathroom so that we could get ready.

/&/

Okay, here I am at the movie theater waiting for my approaching doom. There is no going back now especially, with Alice and Rose holding me down and not letting me go anywhere. There is no way they were going to let me run away. But that still didn't stop me from squirming around in their arms.

"Bella will you relax, everything is going to be fine. Even if something does go wrong, we will be here for you. You look amazing, that jackass won't even know what hit him when he sees you." Rose told me rubbing my arm while Alice nodded her head.

I admit I want to see Edward's face when he sees that his formally fat "friend" is no longer fat. Granted I didn't lose it the best way at first, but once I got control and gained some weight back to a healthy size I kept myself healthy, by eating the right foods, and exercising regularly.

Alice had picked out a great outfit to show all my curves. I was wearing skinny jeans, with a slim tight shirt that tied around the back and sort of made my chest more pronounced. I still felt very uncomfortable in it though. I mean it did show all my curves, but what if it showed some not too good curves? What if Edward saw me and all he saw was his fat friend trying to wear clothes that are too small for her so all her rolls are showing and she had a muffin top?

Oh shit.

"You guys I have to go to the bathroom now!" I started to fight and struggled within their grasps wanting to get out.

"No you don't. You're fine, and you look amazing. Trust me. You don't need to do anything." Alice was looking at me straight in the eyes. "Do you honestly think that I would make you wear something that would make you look revolting?"

"No" I sighed and looked down at my feet

"That's what I thought. Now the boys should be here soon and I want you to be confident and bold. You need to show him that he has had no effect on you at all. Can you do that?"

"I...I think so?" I stuttered.

"No 'I think so's." Rose interjected. "You really need to get him back for all those things he did to you in high school. Show him up. Make him look, but do not let him touch."

I had to roll my eyes at this. Like he would ever want to touch me. As if I would ever let him touch me, or even come anywhere that close to me.

I thought back to that day when he came up to me and practically told me that he hated me. I felt anger clawing its way up my body to my face slowly boiling my blood.

How could he say that shit to me? How in the world did I hurt him! He was the dick that hurt me, not the other way around. How could he do any of those things he did to me? Shouldn't he have had some form of conscience and feel guilty and bad for the things he did?

But of course it wasn't only that day he hurt me, at times he hurt me by just sitting there watching and laughing, and sometimes helping other people cause me pain.

Flashback

It's been over 3 weeks now since Edward had confronted me, and I'm not doing well at all. I walk around and ignore everyone. Pretending that what they're doing has no effect on me, but who am I kidding, of course it has an effect on me, and they all know it. That's why they keep doing the things that they do.

Finally the day is fucking over!

I'm walking over to my car when I hear some people snickering. I look up to see Edward and his friends sitting over at a picnic table staring and laughing at me. I turn and look the other way and keep on walking to my truck. It isn't until I unlock my truck and am about to get in when I notice that something is wrong. My truck seems oddly lower.

I step back from my truck and notice that the tires are slashed.

I hear that stupid ass group over at the table start laughing even harder as I slam the truck door shut and start walking towards the road.

"Way to be FUCKING ASSHOLES!" I shout at them with venom, but mainly at the boy that is sitting on his ass and laughing with the rest of them, as I keep on walking.

"I'd be careful of what you say bitch, you never know, your mouth may end up causing you even more trouble in the end." James shouts back at me.

I stop and turn to look at him.

"Oooooo…scary." My voice dripping with sarcasm. "You got me so afraid. What are you going to do next? Tell your daddy?"

James' dad is the man of Forks, he has even more money than the Cullens, and everyone knows when things didn't go James or his brother's way they would run to daddy dearest.

"Oh honey, the things I'm going to do to you, daddy doesn't really need to know about." he tosses me a sick smile.

"I'd be careful if I were you James. Just remember that her dad's the police chief." Edward speaks up for the first time and I shift my eyes to him and glower.

"I'm not too worried about that, I have my ways of getting by the chief. Everyone has their price." He never takes his eyes off me. It's really starting to scare me, so I walk away from them and don't turn back.

How could he just sit there and laugh as James scared the hell out me? Oh I know, because he is a fucking douche bag that needs to be shot!

I'm so pissed as I continue walking home that I don't notice people shouting at me until a car passes by tossing water balloons at me from out of a car window. Not just any car window, a sliver Volvo, Edwards silver Volvo.

As they drive by I hear hysterical laughter coming from the car. Now I'm soaking wet in the middle of the winter with bruises and welts forming on my arms and head from the water balloons.

I can't move. I'm so cold, wet and hurt, so I do the only thing I can think of. I fall to the ground and start crying like a baby.

Once I slow down the crying, I move towards the bushes and make myself puke, cleaning myself of today's mistakes, of being too much of a wuss to stand up to those douche bags and tell them off for good.

When I'm done I clean my mouth off and continue the walk home. Why I didn't wait for Alice or someone to give me a ride, I'll never know, I just wanted to get out of there and leave.

End flashback

"Okay, I'll do it!" I stood firm and tall trying to show them my sudden boost of confidence.

"That's our girl!" Alice cheered.

Of course it was then that I saw Emmett walk through the doors towards us in the lobby.

"Hey Em. Where's the other two?" Alice inquired when we realized that it was only him that came in.

"They are on their way in; Alice can I talk to you?" Emmett pulled Alice off to the side.

Oh great. What is it now?

They were talking softly thinking that I couldn't hear them.

"Is she going to be okay?" Emmett asked, with his voice full of brotherly concern. "I mean he is about to come in and I don't want it to flick a switch and make her go back."

God why is he so worried about me now? Wasn't it him that had invited Edward along in the first place?

"I think she will be fine. I'll keep watch over her." I noticed Alice look over at me from the corner of my eye. "She really needs to face him anyway. She needs to get past this or I don't think we will ever get the old Bella back or even the old Edward back."

The old Bella, humph, yeah who wants her back? She was the pushover with extremely low self-esteem that no one wanted to be near, unless they wanted a to boost their own self-esteem.

What did she mean by the old Edward back? I am pretty sure that her cousin would act like himself around her.

I decided to stop listening to them and looked towards the main doors.

Bad idea.

Jasper came in and right behind him was Edward himself.

AN: Review please?

Also so I went to see Twilight at a midnight showing the other night, and I got to say, I freaking LOVED IT!! I have to say that my favorite scene would have to be the baseball scene. It was pretty amazing.