wow, you guys I am so sorry, I really wanted to write this chapter at faster and get out to you guys, but for some reason I had a really hard time to finally find the inspiration and everything to sit down and right it out. Plus school can suck taking away actual free time to sit down and right, but I did it! At three in the morning you guys finally have your chapter, and it is a good one.

Oh also BATTLESTAR is on tonight!!!! I am so fraking excited. lol, There may be one or two of you that actually care or even know what I am talking about. I just freaking love Jamie Bamber.

Anyways, Read on, if you dare.

Chapter 17: Cursing my sore blunt tongue

Have I found you?
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding
Or lost you?
American mouth
Big bill, stuck going down

- Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron and Wine

Weeks have gone by and most of us were back at school for another term, while others of us just went on with work.

After telling Edward that I was bulimic I was sure that he would find some reason to hate me for it, but he was hating himself more than anything, sure he did deserve some of the blame, but I don't want it to go on like this anymore. I just want to move past everything and I guess he did as well. I knew that he wanted to talk to me about high school that night and morning, but then I really didn't want to know. I had just got done telling him one of my dark secretes and was exhausted mentally at that moment, I just didn't really want to hear anymore then.

Now that I want to talk about it, he won't. He doesn't want to go anywhere near that subject I guess. I did have a feeling though, that there was something more that he wanted to tell me than just about the past, but like I said before, he hasn't said anything about it. I was starting to get really annoyed at the fact that I just didn't let him talk. I have been trying to get through to him, and hinting to him that I wanted to talk now, but he just ignores it and starts a new subject. I just wanted to give up, but part of my brain was telling me just to yell at him and tell me everything and I was sure that at one point I am going to. In fact I was planning to do it soon, real soon.

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I was taking my photography class, and I loved it. It is all dark room photography so most of the pictures I take are black and white, but not to be cocky or anything, but I found them to be pretty amazing at times. I just couldn't stop taking pictures and it was kind of annoying some people, cough cough Emmett, but I never realized just how much I missed it. I never have taken so many pictures since we were kids. It really seemed like I was getting my old life back.

"Bella, Can I have a word?" Mrs. Bravo (yeah I know funny name, but she is Italian, so it makes sense) called me just before I had left the room.

"What do you need?"

"I was just looking at your latest pictures, and…I got to say they are amazing, much different from the ones from last term." Mrs. Bravo is the same teacher that I had for my last photography class, and one of my favorite teachers, so I was happy when she said that she was going to teach this course as well.

"Really?" I couldn't hold in my smile.

"Yes. They are just…." She began flipping through the portfolio that held all my latest pictures, "remarkable." She breathed.

"Thank you." I was very honored that she loved my work so much.

"The ones that I rather enjoyed are these ones." She started pulling out the pictures that I have taken of the gang outside playing football in the rain awhile back, and some other ones of us girls covered in grease and guck after trying to fix my truck. Rose was the one to actually fix it though, the guys were making fun of us at first, but they shut right up when we did end up getting it to run.

I also ended up getting some pictures of Carlisle in his white coat just getting off work and was meeting Edward at another family meeting. Yes, Edward let me take him to another meeting, I couldn't go in there, but he did let me walk him to the door. Seth even came out and talked to me saying that he loved the progress that Edward was showing and said that if he would just completely open to me then he would be done. So you can imagine the pressure that I was under trying to get Edward to talk again.

Before I left I had taken a couple of pictures of Seth as well and they were included into the profile.

"But I got to say," Mrs. Bravo continued, "I love these ones the most." She started pulling out pictures that I have taken of just Edward. Some of him just sitting on the sofa playing guitar hero with a giant smile on his face as he just owned Emmett at a song. I also had some of him outside in the rain during the football game we had. Water was dripping down his face, causing his hair to fall in his face as he gave Emmett a high five after scoring a touchdown; his shirt all wet and socked clinging to his chest and stomach.

"And I can take it that you do too." I removed my gaze from the pictures for a minute and looked at her as she gave me a sly smile.

"What do you mean?" I asked suddenly feeling embarrassed.

"It's just that you have a lot of pictures of this same boy. More of him than anyone else." She kept pulling out pictures all of Edward grinning and smiling at the camera, my heart beating faster and faster after each one.

"Is he someone special?" she asked but I don't think I fully heard her because I was staring at a picture with him looking at me with a crooked grin.

"Well, is he?" she smiled at me and I realized that I to had a small smile on my face that I quickly wiped off when she said something.

"What?...Oh…uh…no, no , no…he is just…just a friend." I stuttered my way through rather quickly.

"Really?" She folded her arms across her chest and had that look on her face; you know the one, the one where she is looking at you and saying you are just full of shit, that one.

"Yes, really. Well, I got to go; I will see you next Friday." I said in a rush and ran out the door to my truck.

I was speed walking to my truck, and I didn't know why I was going so fast. I mean I didn't have work for another hour. I really need to get another job, because this only working like twice a week at the Doggie Hotel wasn't giving me enough hours.

I was nearing my truck when my phone started to ring.

Felix.

I just hit ignore and went on to my truck starting it and heading in to work early.

I haven't talked to Felix since that night at the restaurant. I just could not face him after what his brother did to me. Was it really just a coincidence that he just so happened to show up not to long after he had told me that he really doesn't talk to his brother?

That was just less than half of what was going through my brain all through work. What I was mainly thinking about was all those photos, and Edward, god Edward, is there really something more that I am hiding from myself? Or am I just secretly hoping that after spending so much time he will finally talk to me? Or is it that I am trying to fight something inside of me that wants out?

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"Hey guys, bye guys!" I called when I came into the house and saw Emmett, Jasper, and Edward, all looking as if they were getting ready to go somewhere, so I just went straight upstairs to my room. I was still a little uneasy and embarrassed at what happened today, and really just wanted to be left alone to my thoughts for the rest of the day.

I had gotten changed and as soon as my head it the pillow I was out like a light.

I was awoken by some obnoxious noise and it was coming from downstairs, it almost sounding like a bunch of cats being drowned, but I think it was supposed to be singing and music.

With each step I took down the stairs the singing got louder and louder. Oh god, who the hell was here? And why are they singing that song of all things.

I entered the kitchen and saw a horrific and yet utterly hilarious sight before me. Emmett and Edward were dancing around the kitchen as they were cooking breakfast, to Andy Samberg's "Jizz in my pants."

I couldn't hold in my laughter any longer as they started to shake their asses back and forth, it just exploded out of me.

They both looked over at me in surprise and just when you would think they would be embarrassed or something, they were far from it. They just continued right on dancing around like no one interrupted them.

They were taking turns singing different parts. Edward would sing be singing Andy Samberg's part, while Emmett took on that part sung by that same kid who played Andy's brother in Hot Rod, I never knew his name. That didn't matter anyway, I just watched them. They were both just really into it.

It became really hilarious when they decided to throw in some hip thrusts. I just doubled over in laugher holding on to the wall for support as I watched them make complete asses of themselves. They even decided to grab each other's hands and started spinning around while they let the food cook, it was as if my laughing just encouraged them on even more.

I started clapping my hands and whistling when they completed and they bowed towards me accepting my applause.

"That was amazing you guys." I told them both playfully as I pulled out a tool to sit at the counter and they resumed making crapes.

"I know." Edward grinned at me.

"But can you please tell me why you guys are being so loud at," I looked over at the stove for the time, "8 o'clock in the morning, on a Saturday." I groaned and laid my head on my arms.

"There was really no reason. Neither of us slept at all last night and crapes sounded good, so we decided to make some and I turned on my mp3 player and this song so happened to come one." Emmett shrugged.

"Are you guys high or something? And what do you mean that you didn't sleep at all last night? What did you to do, have sex with each other or something?" I taunted.

"Ha ha, very funny." Emmett was getting some dishes out.

"No, we stood up watching Generation Kill for awhile, then Jasper left so we decided to play counter strike against each other." Edward told me.

"How did you guys do that, Emmett only has the one computer in his room, it is kind of hard to have a LAN party with one computer."

"There was your computer that Edward used." I looked at Edward as Emmett said this.

"You were in my room!" I yelled out.

"Don't worry you were asleep, I just sat at the computer and played a game that's all." Edward was pulling out a bunch of berries to go with the crapes.

"Still, you were in my room! You know how awkward that is?"

"Oh chill Bella. It's not like he took advantage of you or anything lying on your bed." Emmett started laughing as my mouth just hung open.

"Not funny." I chided.

"Here, just take your crapes and eat up." Emmett shoved a plate in front of me that was had couple of crapes that were covered in a bunch of barriers and some whipped cream.

"Fine." I took a fork and shoved it into the flat pancakes. "Why did Jasper go anyway?"

"Because he wanted to spend all day with Alice today." Edward came over and sat next to me with his own plate.

"Doesn't he spend every day with Alice?" I asked.

"Yeah, but she is supposed to be going over to her parents for the weekend, and she also wanted to spend some time with Carlisle and Esme while she is over there." Emmett just stayed standing behind the counter as he dug into his food. "The only ones that have really seen Carlisle lately would be you too when you went to the meetings."

"Oh. Are you going to go too?" I turned towards Edward.

"Yep. But not until later tonight, Esme really wants to see me, she really hasn't in awhile, I have only talked to her on the phone, plus I have a few things to discuss with her that I kind of need her help with."

"Like what?" I probed taking a drink of orange Juice that Emmett had set in front of me.

"I have to go to the bathroom." He called out after giving me the drink.

"So?" I started again after Emmett went into the bathroom.

"So…you know how I have been going to Kate's a lot lately?"

"Yeah and you said that you are just there and keep her company because of what happened to Tanya, but I got to say that I don't think I really believe that." I shoved mouth full of blueberries and strawberries.

"That's because it really isn't true." He dropped his fork on his plate and rubbed his hands all over his face. "Kate is pregnant."

"Really?" I let out slowly not sure where he was going with this, unless… god no.

"Umm… is it yours?" I asked quietly not making any eye contact with him, he just started laughing at what I assume was me.

"God no." he continued to laugh, "God no. She is still with Garrett, and it's his."

"That's great!" I let out in relief and I was happy for her as well.

"You were really worried there for a minute weren't you?"

"No" I jumped off the stool and walked towards the sink with my plate in my hand trying avoiding my embarrassment as heat started in my cheeks.

"You are such a liar."

"Sorry can you blame me, you are over there every Friday and sometimes on other days during the week."

"No I can't." he sighed.

"Anyways, she's pregnant, what does that have to do with anything."

"That's the thing, she has been taking care of something for me lately while I have been…busy, and I need to see if Esme will help, now that Kate is going to busy with her baby."

"What are you talking about, is it like a dog?"

"No, no, not a dog."

'I'm back!" Emmett came back into the kitchen, "don't you always feel ten times better in the morning after you take a dumb. You always feel like fifty pounds lighter."

"That's great Emmett." I was really irritated right now, Edward was going to tell me something, again, and Emmett had to interrupt, again!!! It is usually Alice that does this kind of shit to me.

"So you guys, I just talked to Rose…"

"Dude, you talked to her while you were taking a shit?" Edward interrupted.

"Yes, now anyway, Rose and I are going out later this afternoon and will probably be gone until later this evening."

"Your point being?"

"You guys get the house to yourselves, congrats! Now I am going upstairs to take a shower." Emmett rinsed off his dish to my surprise and headed upstairs.

"Great, he is going to leave me to clean up his mess."

"No, I will clean it." Edward got up from the other side and came to stand by me at the sink.

"You don't have to."

"No, I think I do, I did after all create the mess." He pushed me out of the way so that he could start the water and load the dishwasher.

"Thanks, I am just going to go upstairs and get changed then." I didn't really wait for him to respond, I just ran straight upstairs to get ready of the day.

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"We are off! Are you kids going to be okay alone?" Emmett asked with authority and underlying of teasing. Edward and I were in the middle of playing Wii Mairo Cart, and I was trying to stop him from winning again by pushing his wheel out of his hands.

"Yes, daddy." I gave Emmett an evil smirk.

"God, don't call me that."

"Why? You like it when Rosie calls you that." I pouted at him trying to hide my smile. I knew that I was getting to him.

"Oh yeah, and he likes it" rose slapped his butt, "but if he wants me to be calling him that at all tonight we better get going." She gave him a seductive grin.

"Kay, bye guys." Emmett waved his big hand as Rose pulled him through the front door and slammed it.

"Guess they are going to have a fun time tonight." Edward smiled at me taking his eyes off the screen for a minute.

"Please don't say anymore. I really don't need visual on what Prince Hummperdink and Booburala do when they are alone." I shuddered at the thought.

"How the hell do you do it?" I yelled tossing the wheel on the floor irritated that he has beaten me yet again, and folded my arms across my chest.

"What can I say? I am just that good behind a wheel, no matter what kind." He was getting really cocky right now.

"Just shut it."

"Oooo… Look at you! You are so cute when you are angry." He grabbed my cheek just like a grandma would and pinched it.

"Stop it." I shoved his hand off my cheek, that's when I an idea popped into my head.

"How about we do something else?" I offered.

"Like what exactly."

"We wrestle." I told him matter of factly.

"Wrestle? You cannot be serious?" He had a shocked expression on his face.

"As I heart attack."

"I don't want to wrestle you." He stood up from the couch and stood in front of the TV looking at me.

"Why? Are you afraid of losing to me?"

"No."

"Come on. I know I used to be twice the size I am now, but that doesn't mean that I cannot still beat you." He gave me a disappointed look and folded his arms across his chest, I know I was being overly dramatic with the twice the size thing, but I just went with it.

"No Bella!"

"Don't be such a pussy, I won't hurt you." I stood up from the sofa and went to stand directly in front of him.

"I am not worried about me; I am worried about you getting hurt. Like you said, you are smaller now."

"You are just afraid of getting your ass wiped by a girl. Don't worry, you won't hurt me. Trust me when I say this, I can take care of myself these days." I could tell that he was about to give in.

"Alright let's go outside."

"Why outside? It's all muddy and wet." He ignored me and went to the back door.

"Exactly." He opened the door and walked outside. I felt a smile crawl across my face as I followed him out.

I walked past Edward who was just stand on the deck and made my way down the few steps out to the middle of the muddy lawn as it squished in between my toes. I just sat there moving my toes feeling the mud gush between them. It was like I was six years old again, running around out in the mud so that it would splatter everywhere, while playing tag with the boys. It was just after we had found Edward and Esme thought it would be a good idea if we all hung out together as much as possible to distract him from what had happened, but at that time I didn't even know what had happened to him. The girls didn't want to play with us though, because of the fact that it was all muddy. I couldn't help but smile at the old memories.

I heard soft snigger behind me, and looked to see Edward leaning against a post on the deck just watching me with a silly grin on his face.

"What?" I couldn't take off my own smile that was on my face.

"Nothing." He shook his head and then proceeded to take off his dark black shirt.

"What are you doing?" My voice was high and squeaky.

"I don't want to get my shirt dirty and plus, this will be easier without one. He lifted his shirt off of his body and over his head leaving him yet again shirtless in front of me, except this time he was wearing an interesting necklace that I have never noticed before.

"Sounds like a good idea." I copied him and started to lift up my t shirt and Edwards eyes started to pop out of his head.

"Relax will you, I do have a sports bra underneath, it's not I will be going topless." I finished removing my shirt and tossed it at Edward who just sat there holding it gawking at me, making me feel really uncomfortable.

"Seriously Edward, you saw me even less when I was doing yoga." I saw him tilt his head and lift his eyes up to the sky as if he was remembering it.

"Yes, yoga, I remember that. That was a good day."

"I don't have all day. Let's do this shall we?" I got into my pose of bending forward just a bit with my hands out in front of me.

Edward made his way over to me and stood in front of me taking a similar structure to mine, but not without popping his neck a couple of times first.

"Ready?" he asked.

"Ready." I replied flexing my fingers a bit.

Edward lunged at me and I smoothly moved aside so he went right past me and fell into the mud.

"Sorry, that was a cheap shot." He just stood back up.

"It's all good, all good. I know you are afraid of losing to me and I can understand if you just want to stop this now." He was taunting me.

This time I lunged at him, but he stood firm and as hard as a rock as I dug my shoulder into his chest. He just grabbed me by the side and tried to take me down to the ground. I just wrapped my arms around his stomach and pushed up against the wet ground only to have my feet start to slip and slide.

Edward took this moment to push me backwards, because I was focusing more on not fall face forward than back. I fell to the ground having water and mud splash all over of me getting all over my arms stomach and face, along with having my jeans soak up a bunch of water so my ass was all wet.

"Here let me help you." Edward reached beside me and grabbed a handful of mud and rubbed it all over my face.

I knocked his feet out from under him using mine and he fell onto his back and started to groan a little bit at the pain.

I saw my opportunity and took it. I jumped off the ground and on top of Edward locking his arms by his legs using my knees and hands so he couldn't move. I leaned forward on him so our chests were touching and rubbed my face all over his so that he had some of the mud that was on my face on his as well.

"Looks like I win." I said smugly breathing across his face.

"Not quite."

"What?" Edward moved his leg so that it wrapped around and hit me in the chest knocking some air out of me bringing me over to my side. I struggled to get out of his tight grasp that he hand on my legs but he just pushed me over so that I was on my back and kept our legs locked together.

I tried to fight him off with my hands but he just took them and clasped them together over my head using his own large hands.

"You…were saying." He let out breathlessly. Both our chest were heaving up and against each other as his necklace hung down in my face, it was a dog tag, but I didn't quite get what was on it, but at this moment I wasn't too concerned about that.

Now, what was I saying? I didn't know anymore, I wasn't even sure what was going through my head anymore. All I could really focus on was that the fact there was a half naked man on me covered in mud. The same man that I used to love all those years ago and I think I still felt something. No, no I don't never mind, there are no feelings for him left, they are all gone.

My eyes were darting back and forth between his pearly green ones. I saw his eyes darken and then drift down to my lips.

"I…I…" Oh great Bella that is intelligent.

I was trying so hard to think of something witty to say or anything, but nothing would come, but that didn't matter, nothing mattered for he had swooped down and pressed his lips to mine, fast and hard, but it wasn't rough. I sat frozen for like less than a second not really sure what to do. I mean I have never been kissed at all in my life, and I mean at all! And yet I still somehow knew what to do. It was like human instinct, I just kissed him back just as hard lifting my head off the ground as high as it would go for I was still pinned to the ground.

He began to suck on my bottom lips as I gently nibbled on his top lip. The hands that were holding mine above me loosened and he slide his muddy hands down my arms, one stopped and slid into my hair as the other one grazed my sides causing me to shiver as it landed at my waist, all while he continued to suck on my lips switching back and forth between the top and bottom of my lips going faster and harder as he did so.

I moved my hands up from over my head and slid them up his arms and shoulders, having them end up tangled in his bronze locks making it even muddier than before. His hand started to slide across my bare stomach creating a soothing feeling because of the mud; it was almost like a massage. His kisses still kept the same rhythm of fast and hard but he never tried to deepen it so I thought that maybe I should take the lead.

I parted my lips a little bit and slid my tongue out and licked his lips hoping that he would get what I wanted, and he did, but it didn't last long. As soon as I slid my tongue and got a little bit of taste of Edward, he scared me by pulling away fast and jumping up off me leaving me breathing heavily on the ground looking up at him with wide eyes.

He just stood there for a minute panting and looking down at me. He seemed really nervous and I could see a debate was running within him as he just stared at me. He ran his hair through his filthy hair.

"I…I can't do this." He breathed out pinching the bridge of his nose, "I got to go."

He ran back to the house and I heard him slam the front door shut and start his engine driving away from me.

I let out an unsteady breath. What the fuck was that?!

I was starting to shake and I didn't know how to move, I had absolutely no idea with what to do with myself.

I had just had my first kiss ever, with the one person that I have always wanted it from, and he just left me here alone in the dirt. I felt so dirty, both inside and out, literally and figuratively.

I don't know how long I sat there, but it did start to rain and so I decided that I shouldn't just sit here and sulk about this. This really isn't the first time he has hurt me, maybe this was some sort of sick joke that he was been planning for some time.

No, that can't be true. I just got to get up and move. Just stop thinking about all of it.

I pushed myself up from the ground slipping a few times, but it wasn't because it was slick, but because I was shaking so badly.

I got up and headed towards the back door, but not without noticing Edward's black shirt sitting on the banister along with mine. I grabbed mine first and really debated if I should pick up his as well, but my greater instinct made me pick it up and take it with me.

I went straight upstairs to the shower trying not to think about what happened, distracting myself by trying to scrub myself clean. I was so concentrated on not thinking about what just happened that I really didn't notice that I was rubbing my skin raw.

As soon as I got into the shower I went back into my room to get dressed putting on my undergarments first along with a pair of PJ pants. I saw Edward's shirt just laying on my bed and I couldn't help myself; I picked it up and shoved it over my head and let it fall on my body. Bringing it to my nose I inhaled deeply the delicious aroma that was Edward.

Oh shit.

I ran out of my room and back into the bathroom ending up at the toilet, disposing everything I had eaten. This time it was different though from what normally happens; I didn't force it out or anything, I just truly felt sick to my stomach.

I needed someone here; I cannot stand being alone with myself right now. After washing my face I went to get a phone and dialed the only person that I could think of right now that could comfort me.

"Hey Felix, can you come over?"

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"Bella are you alright? You haven't talked to me in weeks?" Felix started asking as soon as I opened the door and let him in.

"Yeah, sorry about that, things just have been happening a lot lately."

"What's been going on?"

"Since the last time I saw you? Edward and I have been getting closer which is a good thing, but he is hiding something from me and it is starting to drive me up a fucking wall, my brother and my friends have all found someone special in their lives, which is each other and seem like they all could get married any day now, while I am going to die alone because no one wants me, and let's not forget about James..." I rambled off

"What about my brother?" Felix stopped me before I could continue. I figured he would already know what James did, and figure out that is why I haven't been talking to him.

"Your brother fucking attacked me while I was at a restaurant with my friends!"

"Bella, I am so sorry, if I had known…"

"How did you not know? He is your brother isn't he? How do I know that you didn't tell him exactly where I was and everything? You and Edward have such a big thing against each other and I am starting to think that you are using me to get at him for something."

"You are just going to have to trust me Bella, I didn't know." He seemed earnest, but I still wasn't so sure.

"How?"

"You know me. I stood up for you when James was tearing you down, why would I just sick him on you like that now?" That did make sense, at least for the moment it did. My brain was so fucked up right now that I was pretty sure I wouldn't be able tell up from down.

"Now tell me the reason you wanted me to come over."

"I don't really want to talk about it." I hide my face from him.

"Why did you want me here if you aren't going to talk to me?"

"Because I just needed someone I knew that could help me right now from myself. If I called anyone else they would freak out and make things worse."

"Bella, what happened?" I felt a few tears finally fall down my face that I wasn't so sure would ever fall down.

"Please?" he took my face in his hands and forced me to look into his dark eyes.

"It was Edward"

"What did he do?" he voice was fierce.

"He, he, he just left me." Felix looked confused and tears were falling down my face.

"We were having such a great time today together like how we were back when you were younger. Felix, I had my first kiss in my life, and I never thought it would actually ever be with Edward, but he ran away from me as if I had herpes or something." I started to sob losing all composure that I had.

"I think I am starting to fall for him again, but after that, I don't know. I just feel so disgusting and with myself, worse than back in high because I have never, ever gotten this close to him, and just to have him tell me that he 'can't do this', just made me feel even lower than shit. I don't even know how to put it into words."

"You are anything but that. Bella, you are beautiful and Edward is too much of a dumb ass to see that. There are other people who would die to be with you."

"Oh yeah, who?"

He didn't say anything; his only response was his mouth on mine his lips rubbing mine. This wasn't right, it didn't fell right at all. His lips were hard and really rough, they felt all dry and chapped, almost as if I was kissing a tumble weed. I tried to push him off me, but that just spurred him on.

He put his hand on the back of my head shoving my face closer to his and took my bottom lip and began to bit on it, nothing like Edward.

Maybe he was right though. Edward doesn't want me, but looks like Felix does. He licked my lips like I had done to Edward asking for entrance, but before I could do anything; I heard the front door slam and someone screaming profanities from outside.

I pushed myself away from Felix who was looking out the window and I ran out the door and towards the retreating figure.

"Edward Wait!" but he didn't hear, or he just acted like he didn't. He had jumped in his car and after starting it he fishtailed out of the driveway and onto the road speeding away from me yet again. I was breathing as if I had just ran a marathon trying to keep my tears under control at the fact that he had just left again before even trying to explain anything to me.

I turned to head back inside but stopped when I saw Felix just standing there with a smug smile on his face looking off towards the direction Edward had just driven off to.

"Felix, you need to leave." I scolded him.

"Sure! No problem" He happily bounced down the front steps.

"What the fuck?!" I started at him wide eye and in shock at his sudden happiness.

"Bye Bella, I'll talk to you later." He kissed me on the cheek and continued his way to his car.

I went inside slamming the door angry at everyone and everything, and also hurt for what Edward did, I wanted to cry, but I just couldn't any more, at least for right now.

I lay on my bed after making a trip to the bathroom, for what felt like hours, but never really knew exactly how long I really was laying here.

Emmett did come home and did open my door, I m sure ready to tell me about his day having no clue what happened to me, but he must of thought I was asleep for he just shut the door quietly. I just hugged my pillow tighter to me just wishing for sleep to come.

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Ring…ring…ring…

I tried to ignore the fun ringing, but it just kept going off, one call after another a never ending torture. I still hadn't gotten to sleep and the phone ringing really wasn't helping. I reached for my phone looking at the caller ID I noticed that it was Alice.

Should I really answer it? What kind of news was she going to tell me? Does she already know? He was supposed to meet up with her, so maybe he told her everything.

Against my better judgment I answered the phone to see what she had to say.

"Hello?" I asked exhausted.

"Bella? Bella? Please tell me that Edward is there." Alice was talking really fast and I could tell that she was really worried.

"No Alice he isn't, why isn't he there with you?"

"No he isn't Bella, god, he is gone!" she was starting to cry.

Oh no.

Sorry for any mistakes, remember it is really early in the morning right now.

So I hoped you guys liked! It was kind of fun to write the wrestling part. Also if you guys dont know what the hell I am talking about with the Jizz in my pants song, the link is on my page.

Another note, it is really sad to say this, but I am a virgin at kissing, well and with everything else as well, but I hope that secne truned out well.

So I am off to bed now, and I look forward to waking up in the morning to your guys' reviews, I am going to try really hard to get another chapter at by Sunday! The more reviews I get the more likely that will happen. TRUST ME.