Okay you guys, I really want to apologize for such the long wait, especially after that last chapter. I know some of you are angry at me right now, but things happened and didn't go turn out the way I wanted them to. Then again, what in this world does.

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Seriously you got to go check it out.

Again sorry for the long wait

Now read on, if you dare.

Chapter 19: Always lying saying you're fine

You've got to take your mind off him
But not with aspirins
You won't
You won't let your family in
Like smoke your body comes
Through the gaps in the urban slums
You try
You try to speak American
When you don't know what you want
You end up finding that you haunt your own
Your own life
You're the daylight ghost that creeps
You're the empty city streets and I
And I see you
And those talkshows fill your days
Something is slipping away
Sometimes it feels like you don't have a body
Your skin is cellophane
You know I feel the same
Sometimes it feels like you don't have a body

Body by The Servant


BPOV

It's been over two weeks since everything has happened, and I have spent most of my time locked up in my room. Never crying though. I wasn't going to cry anymore over this. I am going to start working past this, and just not talk or hang out with him anymore.

This is the second time in my life where he has hurt me badly and I wasn't going to take it anymore. Despite how much my heart was aching, as if someone was trying to dig it out of my chest with a spoon, I was not going to see him anymore just have him do it all over again.

I really don't know how I was going to avoid him, but I was going to have to, even if that meant moving out of the house with Emmett and finding somewhere else to stay for awhile. I was really debating whether or not if I should just get away from it all totally. Just leave the state; maybe go spend time with my mom.

"Bella, I am heading off to work, okay?" Charlie asked from the other side of the door. "I'll call you later this afternoon to check on you."

"Kay." I replied barley raising my voice, but just enough so I knew he could hear me. I knew he wanted to say something back for I could still see his shadow under the door just lingering there for a minute. That is what shows me that Charlie is really worried about me; he really isn't one to linger.

But, he did leave. I heard him shut the door and start up the cruiser leaving me in my own misery for the time being.

On that day when I got here two weeks ago, Charlie got a call from Emmett asking if I was here. Charlie told him that I was, but then he pressured Emmett to give him answers. Well, I guess Emmett told him, for Charlie started to yell into the phone angrier than ever at what Edward did. He told Emmett that Edward was to keep away from me. Little did he know that I was going to stay away from him as much as possible.

Turns out, Emmett really hasn't seen Edward since that day either. No one has, except for Seth and Kate. Seth did let everyone know that Edward was fine and was just trying to sort things out.

That is a bunch of bull shit. Sort what out? His next plan to make my life his own personal enjoyment. It was seriously as if I was one of Alice's Barbie doll and he was trying to rip my head off.

As my thoughts continued to settle on Edward, no matter how hard a tried to make them melt away and just disappear, they wouldn't, which in turn made me run to the bathroom to continue my new daily routine, or should I say to my old original routine.

It was seriously back to the high school days, except, Edward wasn't physically there tormenting me, he was in my thoughts. Hiding in every dark crack and crevice that I try to lock up behind a metal door, and yet he still finds a way to break through.

After I was done, I decided it would be best if I took a shower and clean myself up as best as I could.

Upon getting out of the shower clean, or what at least as clean as I could feel, I put on my robe and walked back out into my room to put on some music, hoping to distract my thoughts. I just hooked my MP3 up to my speakers that were sitting on top of my drawers and pushed on. One of my favorite songs by Bob Marley came on. Three little birds.

"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Yeah right, everything is gonna be all right my ass. That is a bunch of shit.

I slammed one of my drawers after pulling out some clothes and tossing them on my bed. In turn it caused on my books big hard back books of Edgar Allen Poe poems to fall to the ground hard making some, all ready loose floor boards to pop up out of the floor a little bit.

I had completely forgotten that that was there. I got down on my knees and pulled the boards out of the way revealing an old tattered box.

I pulled the box out from the floor and was really fighting myself to not open it. I knew what was inside it. Old fucked up memories. I really fought against myself of trying to toss it out the window and opening the box and facing the old memories that once used to be pleasant, but now would only cause pain.

I stood up from the ground ready to go throw it into the garbage when I tripped on the boards that I didn't put back causing the box to slip out of my hands and its contents to spill all across the floor.

Out of it came old letters, pictures upon pictures, and my old camera. That camera Edward had given me for Christmas. I pushed myself up off the floor and started to pick up everything as fast as I could so that could just throw them out, or even burn everything, but I still had to face pictures of my old heavy self with Edward smiling at the camera like two dumbasses that used to be best friends. Now they were just two dumb asses that couldn't stand to be around each other because one decided to screw the other over with a bitch and a knife in the back.

I was picking them up as quickly as possible and was avoiding looking at them as much as possible until I picked up one and stopped. It was a picture of Edward and me while we were camping just before sophomore year had started. I slide down to the ground with my back up against my bed as I recalled the old memory.

Charlie really wanted to go fishing and didn't want to go alone because he didn't have his pal Billy Black to go with him, but none of us really wanted to go fishing, but Esme and Carlisle had suggested that we all go camping together and turn it into a giant outdoor party thing.

So we all went, and I mean everyone, even Alice and Rose, especially Rose, neither of them are really the camping type, but once both of them had heard Jasper and Emmett were going they had readily agreed.

As soon as we arrived to the forested area where we would be staying we unpacked and set our tents up, with the girls in one and the guys in another. Since it was a warm nice day, we had spent most of it down on the river swimming around and river rafting. It was an amazing day.

That night was just as great. We always had the weirdest conversations when we were all around a fire. We had started off talking about politics and ended up in the discussion of saying how when you take a really hard shit, that is the closest you could get to an orgasm without really having one.

Like I said, we always had the weirdest conversations.

I laughed lightly at the memory as tears began to slide down my face onto the picture. It was of Edward and me that same night. We had all decided that we were going to bring our air mattresses out of the tents and just sleep under the stars. After shoving all the mattresses together we all plopped down together laying beside each other. I was in between Alice and Edward with Emmett and Jasper on the other side of him and Rose on the other side of Alice.

We were in the middle of talking about whether Hillary Swank was hot or not when I fell asleep. It was the best night's sleep I have ever had, and I really didn't know why, that is until Alice had shown me this picture she had taken.

It was of Edward and I cuddled up close together. It wasn't lover close, but it was still close enough for me to be happy. Our foreheads were touching each other and his arm was under my neck while one of mine was resting on his free hand in between our bodies.

I wanted to tell him so badly that day how much I loved him, but I freaked out. And right now I was happy that I have never told him. He would probably just use that against me back in high school.

I can see it now, James and Tanya poking fun at me for even thinking Edward would ever like me, and having Tanya throw herself even more onto Edward. I wouldn't have been surprised if she would have had it planned for me to walk in on them in the bathroom in a very disturbing position.

As if he would ever love me like I love him.

The tears came faster down my face and I got back up and ran into the bathroom.

EPOV

This was it. I was going to talk to Bella. I needed to. I needed to explain myself.

These past couple of weeks I have been really horrible for me. Everything I did would remind me of what had happened. Nothing was able to distract me from thinking about Bella. I spent as much of my time with Alexis as I could, hoping that she would distract me, but every time I would try to play with her, just looking at her would remind me that I needed to talk to Bella.

I knew that this time it wouldn't be easy to get her to listen to me for all the stupid things that I have done, but I have to do this. I still am kicking myself in the ass for believing Felix. I can't really explain what compelled me to believe him, but I just did. I don't think it was the fact that he had said that they "slept together" was what really got me, it was more of the fact of what she had said to me before that and he came over and practically confirmed it.

So here I am now at the front door of the Swan resident with my fist knocking hard against the wooden door waiting for her to answer. I didn't see Charlie's cruiser in the driveway which I was thankful for because I knew he would be waiting to kick my ass right now, or even pulling a gun on me for hurting his daughter yet again. I wasn't so sure Bella would still be here either but Emmett's Jeep was still parked across the street, so I knew that she had to be here.

I pushed on the door bell while impatiently taping on my foot waiting for the door to open but nothing.

"Bella?" I started to bang on the door with my fist again but still nothing so I tried the door. Lucky for me it was unlocked so I stepped inside.

"Bella?" I called out as I shut the door and looked around downstairs but no one was there.

"Are you here?" I made my way upstairs and as I neared the top of the stairs and approached her room I could hear the sound of someone dry heaving. It was as if they had nothing at all in their system, but they were still trying.

I knew who exactly it was. I picked up my speed and just as I was about to enter the bathroom Bella stepped out looking sickly pale with a sheen of sweet along the top of her head. She looked as if she hadn't slept in days with deep purple bags under her bloodshot eyes.

"Edward?!" she whispered frantically.

"Bella, I…" I didn't know what to say. I didn't even know where to start at this moment after what I just came across.

"Edward, what are you doing here?" she was walking backwards towards her room as I moved forward towards her.

"We need to talk." I told her firmly.

"No, we don't. I don't want to talk to you." She turned and stormed off into her room.

"Bella, I think it is best if we do talk about all this." I followed her into it and put my hand in the way so she couldn't shut the door on me.

"I don't want to talk to you." She snarled at me again.

"I really think you should."

"Edward, no! I want you to stay away from me. You were the one in the first place saying that you didn't want to see me again. Well I am trying to keep my end of the bargain, but you are making that really difficult right now." She started to yell at me.

"I just want to talk to you about everything." I pleaded with her just wanting her to listen to me.

"Can't you tell that I want to be left alone? Isn't it enough that I have you constantly haunting my nightmares?"

"If you just listen to me for one minute then-"

"No Edward. I am done. Please just leave me alone. I am not in a good place right now, I can't even take care of myself anymore, what makes you think that I will be able to take care of your problems?"

She can't take care of herself? This can't be good.

"You're doing it again aren't you?" I asked her softly taking a couple more steps towards her and she just stood there looking at something to the side of the room.

"What do you want me to say?" She shrugged her shoulders.

"I want you to tell me that you aren't doing it again. I don't think I could handle the fact that I have made you do this to yourself again."

She just shook her head at me looking down at the ground with tears glistening in her eyes.

"Bella"

"I don't want to hear it, especially from you." She stabbed her finger at me. "I was fine until you had to come back. Did you just come back so that you could hurt me all over again? Didn't you get enough back in school?" That hurt. It really did, and her tears weren't helping the pain either. I knew I had hurt her badly at school. I was just a stupid juvenile teen who was lied to and thought that the person he loved hated him.

"I'm sorry" I whispered knowing that it would never make any difference and would never erase what I did in the past.

"You make me sick." She snapped. "How you tormented me daily, doing harmful and a lot of the time painful things to me. Sure at times you would never join in some of the things that James and them did, but you just sat there. That is what was the most disgusting and distasteful thing you ever did. While I was being pushed around, shoved into the dirt, you just sat there and watched it all happen."

I didn't say anything. It was true. All of it, and I was disgusted with myself because of it. All the things I put her through just to try to keep me happy, when all it was doing was ruining both our lives in the process.

"I hate you for it! I really do and yet…and yet…oh god" she pushed me out of the way and started towards the bathroom, but I caught on to what she was doing and before she made it that far I grabbed her and pulled her back into me.

"Let go of me!" She started to pound her little fists across my chest, but I just tightened my grip around her not letting her go. I wasn't going to let her go just so she could do this to herself. Not again.

"Please Edward, I need to go!" she started to scream at me between sobs.

"No Bella." I said softly into her hair as I hugged her tighter. She gave up fighting and we fell down to the ground with her weeping in my arms. I felt my own tears fall down my face and into her hair as I held her as close to me as possible.

"I am so sorry." I kept whispering to her over and over again in between my own tears. I really badly wanted to tell her that I loved her so much and always have, that I didn't mean anything I said to her at the park, but I knew after the hell I have put her through she hated me with a fiery passion.

"Why Edward, why?" he begged me wanting to hear the answers to everything.

"Because…" How was I supposed to tell her all this?

"Because I was a stupid son a bitch that believed what my worst enemy said."

"So it is true, you thought that I slept with Felix, and that is why you treated me like shit!" she pushed herself away from me and I let her.

"No Bella. That is not just it! Just please listen to me!"

"God damn it Edward, then what the fuck was it?" I took a deep breath ready to explain myself but she didn't let me.

"Was this all before or after Tanya came up to me in the bathroom and told me that all you thought of me was a fat slut that hung on to you to tightly." I just gawked at her for a minute not knowing exactly what to say. I would never say something like that to her. I love her, and for her to believe in something Tanya said is complete ridiculous.

"And when will you explain how Alexis came into the picture, or was it that just because you thought that I had sex with Felix you had to fuck Tanya as a way to get back at me but ended up knocking her up." That got me fired up, she doesn't know anything about Alexis.

"Stop right there. There is one thing you should know about Alexis and that is she is not Tanya's."

"What the fuck is your problem?!" I froze as she shouted at me.

"How is this supposed to make me feel knowing that you didn't just screw around with one person, but more than one and ended up getting one of them pregnant?"

"That's not it, let me explain god damn it!" I was getting so frustrated at her. All I wanted to do was finally explain myself and she wasn't letting me.

"No! Get out of here!" she tried to push me towards the end of the stairs.

"NO!" I roared at her and that is when the front door burst open reviling an angry and enraged Charlie.

"She said to leave!" Charlie said in a very commanding voice as Bella ran back into her room and I ran after her ignoring that her father had just busted trough the door.

"Bella please listen to me!" I started to bang on her bedroom door.

"NO!" she shouted from the other side.

"Edward, get the fuck away from that door." An icily voice said from beside me. I have never heard Charlie curse in my life time. That proved that he was pissed. I slowly turned to face him to see that he had a shot gun pulled out facing towards me. There was no way he was going to shoot me, but it still didn't mean that I didn't fear that he would.

"But sir."

"Don't 'but sir' me. You have caused enough problems around her too many times to count. I'll give you the count of three to get out of my sight and away from this house.

I just stood there for a moment not moving then he cocked his gun and made me jump.

"One….Two…" I pushed myself away from Bella's bedroom door and slowly passed by Charlie looking into his dark eyes and ran down the stairs and out to Kate's car that I had borrowed. Driving off I could see Bella in her bedroom window looking out with her tear stained face as I drove off.

/&/

As soon as I had arrived back at Kate's I ran inside slamming the door behind me and ran into a very puzzled Kate.

"Wow, you're back early. I figured you guys may be having angry sex or something right now." Kate started to tease me when I neared her, but I wasn't in the mood at all. I gave her a dirty ass glare and she backed away.

"So, I take it that things didn't go according to plan?"

"Up your ass with broken glass." I told her rudely as I pulled out a chair from the kitchen table and sat down at it putting my head in my arms.

"Okay, it didn't go well at all."

"Of course it didn't! Her father fucking threatened me with a gun when I was trying to talk to her!"

"Are you going to tell me what happened?" She pulled out a chair next to me. She had her long light brown hair pulled back into a loose pony tail and she had some flyways going in every which direction. I could tell she was cleaning, she even smelled like cleaning supplies.

"Where is Alexis?" I asked making sure that she didn't need attending to.

"She is asleep. Now stop changing the subject and tell me what happened."

"I tried to talk to her, I really did, but then I found out that she is making herself sick again."I sighed and ran my hand down the back of my neck.

"It's all my fault, yet again." I groaned.

"You can't think like that Edward. You are just going to keep beating yourself up for that."

"How can I not beat myself up for it? It is my entire fault that she is doing this again."

"Don't worry, she will recover from it, she has before." She grabbed my hand and rubbed soothing circles on it trying to keep me calm.

"I don't know Kate." I just shook my head at her. "I have fucked up everything. I can't believe that I was such an idiot and believed Felix."

"Haha, neither can I" she laughed lightly. "That guy is such an ass that needs to be shot a few times in the head."

I couldn't help but laugh a little at the thought of that happening to him, but then was taken back into reality.

"Why won't she just listen to me?" It was a stupid question to ask, I know. I already knew why she wouldn't listen to me, hell I wouldn't listen to me after everything I did, but it would still be nice to hear from someone else their point of view of why she would let me talk.

"You got to see it from her point of view Edward. You accused her of doing every single thing that she thinks you did." I looked at her confused waiting for her to continue.

"You see, you accused her of sleeping with someone you despise, she thinks you slept with Tanya, the one she hated more than you. You accused her of her of telling someone your past, and yet you gave James her dairy! That is the one thing that a girl doesn't want the world to read. Then you accused her of being just like your mother and leaving her, and yet you were the one to leave and push her away. She would of never left you if you didn't torture her and just talked to her." It was true everything she said was true, but with her leaving me just like my mother, it wasn't just physically it was mentally. It really just wasn't that she left at all, it is what she said that had really brought all those horrific memories back of lying at night in a tunnel with no blanket and only the moon as light to keep away all the ghosts.

"What am I supposed to do? I want her back. I want her so bad, but I don't know how I am ever going to do that."

"Just give her time Edward, but not too much, you give her too much time then she may just over think everything and just try to run away from everything. You need to fight for her. Force her to listen to you." She took a deep breath, "Edward, despite what she tells you, she does love you."

"How do you know, you haven't seen her for years?"

"I just know. She has always loved you, even when you were making her life hell; she still had feelings for you. It is really hard to just fall out of love with someone you have practically loved all your life. And for her to be hurting this badly, it is because she is fighting against those feelings." I just groaned and dropped my head back against the table.

"Don't worry about it. Everything will work out in the end. You just got to fight hard for the things you want, but even harder for the things you need."

"I hope your right." I looked at Kate and she gave me a small smile.

"Daddy?" I turned to see Alexis holding her Tinkerbell blanket in her hands rubbing her eyes.

"Hey toots!" I tried to sound as cheerful for her as I could.

She ran over to me her dirty blond curls bouncing as she ran over to me and reached out for me. I readily grabbed her and hugged her tightly.

"Brownies?" she looked up at me with her misty eyes so hopeful.

"Sure baby." I got up out of the chair and headed into the kitchen with Alexis. She has always loved to help bake things with any of us when we decided we wanted something good to it. Alexis had to be the one to pour the milk, pour the oil, crack the eggs and everything, just creating a giant mess because she would miss the bowl completely at times.

"Does she know?" I knew what Kate was talking about as she nodded towards Alexis.

"I tried to tell her. The farthest I got was to telling her that she wasn't Tanya's and now she thinks that I slept with some other girl and got them pregnant." I sighed deeply.

"When she finds out she is going to feel like an ass. I can grantee it." She laughed as I pulled out the coco and vanilla out of the cupboard.

I don't want her to feel like an ass for assuming what she did. I would probably assume the same thing if I was her. I just wish that she would actually let me talk and tell her the truth.

"Just remember Edward, you have to fight for her, even if you have to fight her to do it." Kate left to go finish the cleaning as Alexis and I made some brownies. We created a large mess making them just like I thought we would, but once they came out of the oven, you couldn't even tell the kind of disaster we went through to create them.

EPOV Flashback: Doomsday

It's been a week, a whole week since Bella started to avoid me. But it isn't only her - it's been everyone. All our friends have been trying to ignore me like I'm some fucking plague. I don't know what I did. I keep trying to talk to Bella, but she's going out of her way to avoid me.

I keep thinking it may have had something to do with that kiss between Tanya and me. In all honesty, I don't know what happened. I was out looking for Bella to apologize for what I had said earlier with Felix, when I ran into Tanya.

Once I asked her if she had seen Bella, she said she didn't know and then pulled me into her and towards the lockers. My manly side took control of me and I kissed her back, but once she started to kiss me even deeper I had pushed her away from me and told her to stay away from me. All she did was smile at me and said that I would be back soon. I still have no idea what she means by that.

I never want to do like that with Tanya again . The only one that I want is the one that's doing anything she can to shun me.

/&/

I end up finding Bella at her locker; she looks really upset and kind of sick. Her normal radiant pale skin now looks like a sickly gray color and her hair looks dull and matted, not the usually smooth and shiny it is. What's wrong? She's really starting to scare me.

Bella's pulling out some books and slams her locker shut. As she makes her way towards her next class I stop her.

"Bella!" She freezes where she is and turns to look at me. Her eyes are full of fear, but you know what she does – she simply turns back around and runs away from me as if I never said anything to her.

Seriously, what the hell has been her problem? She has been really pissing me off with her constant avoidance of me. All I want to know is what's wrong.

"Bella!" I run and grab her arm roughly turning her so that she'll look at me.

"Let me go Edward." She tries to pull her arm out of my grip but I won't let her go.

"No Bella, I need to talk to you." I look her dead in the eyes. I have no clue to what is written on my face or in my eyes at the moment, but whatever it is she doesn't want to see because she tries to look every other direction but at me.

"No, no we don't! I don't want anything to do with you! I never want to talk to you again, so leave me the FUCK alone, will you?!" She's never cursed at me before so it's shocking to hear something like this come out of her.

I loosen my grip on her and she pulls her arm out of it, running away from me as fast as she can. I don't know where she goes, but I notice Alice trailing behind her calling out her name while I stood there.

She doesn't want anything to do with me. Those words have never been so painful to me, even when my mother yelled them at me.

"Eddiekins!"

Oh great, god doesn't seem like he hasn't given me enough shit with having my best friend runaway from me, now he has to see it so fit to curse me with the presence with the dike of a man, Felix.

"Felix, what the fuck do you want?!" I turn and scold him.

"Wow man, someone has their panties in a twist," he mocks as I growl.

"Edward, I have something to tell you that, as far as I can tell, Bella hasn't told you yet."

"And what is that?" I feel myself begin to quake with anger. Why can't he leave me alone?

"Oh, she has told me a little something about you and your mom."

"What are you talking about?" I snap.

"Let me see how I should say this so it would make sense to someone who is the son of a crack- whore."

I feel my face fall and all the blood drain from it.

How does he know?

"That's right, I know about you and your druggie mother and how she left you at the park so you could rot. She didn't want you exactly like Bella doesn't want you now. You wanna know how I know this?" Felix taunts me, but I keep my face and body solid, refraining from showing anymore emotions for him.

"Well, Bella actually told me herself, of course she wouldn't tell me unless I did something for her. At first I wasn't so sure because of all the baggage she was carrying, but they are right when they say 'more cushion for the pushin.'"

I feel another tremor of anger run through my body.

This can't be true Bella would never do anything like that, especially with someone she knew I hated with a passion. Plus she told me that she would only do anything like that with one person she's truly in love with, I'm pretty positive that she's nowhere near in love with Felix. I always hope that it could be me one day in the future.

But then how does Felix know about my mom. Bella's the only one that really knows what happened. Not even Esme and Carlisle know the whole story.

It's always painful recalling the fact that my mother wants nothing to do with me. That she hates me so much that she had to get rid of me, and it hurts even more having Bella herself tell me she wants nothing to do with me. I love her so much, and her saying that to me feels like my skin being ripped off me. Why is it that the people I love never love me back?

"We all know that you love her too, hell even she knows, but she despises you. Why do you think that she told you that she wants nothing to do with you? No one dose and no one will after hearing that you are nothing but a crack baby. That explains why you're so god damn retarded." He spits at me and starts to laugh.

My hands are clenched in tight fists and I'm twitching in rage ready to pounce at him as I bite the side of my cheek drawing blood.

"I got to tell you though man, you really missed out. I was pretty surprised that she's as flexible as she is." He laughs a little harder.

"And between her calling out my name as she withered beneath me, she was also saying how much she hates you and how she wishes she never knew you. All you do is give her grief. I bet you enjoy having her around to give yourself a boost in self-esteem realizing that you found someone sadder than you."

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I pull back my fist and ram it into his face so hard that I can feel his nose break under it.

"You fucking basterd!" Felix yells at me holding his nose. I just turn and walk in search of Bella.

I find her in her third period class - which is about to start - sitting at her desk staring out the window looking as if she's been crying.

What does she have to be so upset about? She's the one that told Felix about my mother just so he would sleep with her.

"BELLA!" She turns to look at me with even more fear in her eyes than before. I'm so infuriated, and I'm sure that it showed.

She gets up out of her seat and yet again runs away from me out the back doors of the classroom - I run after her.

She's opening her rusty truck door, but before she has it opened it wide enough to get in, I slam it on her, almost smashing her fingers in the door.

"Edward, please, just please leave me alone." She begs me, and I see the tears coming, but not falling. I can tell she is trying hard to keep them held back.

"No Bella, I want to know. I want to know how you could do something like that!" I yell at her.

"What are you talking about? What could I do to you to make you so angry at me?"

"Are you going to stand here and act like you don't know what I'm talking about?!"

"Well obviously I am, since I have no fucking clue to why the hell you're so angry at me!" Her face is bright red with fury.

"God Bella, you're so full of it! I'm done with your shit. I'm done with you. You want nothing to do with me? Well fine because I don't want any god damn thing to do with you! You're nothing to me but a FAT FUCKING WHORE!!" I spit the last three words while shoving my finger in her face. She loses control of her tears as they begin to roll down her face, but I hold no sympathy for her right now. I can't. I'm too furious to care.

I notice Bella look around us and I can only assume that at some point we attracted a crowd of people, but I pay no attention to them.

Instead I storm away from Bella and out of the corner of my eye I notice Tanya leaning up against her mini cooper with a huge grin on her face.

I'm so angry and pissed off at Bella for everything that all I want to do was shove shit in her face and show her I don't care about her anymore, so I do the one thing I know would hurt her even more than she was.

Ignoring people's gazes, I walk right up to Tanya and push her up against the car shoving my tongue down her throat - which Tanya rather enjoys.

I open my eyes to see Bella in pieces as she gets into her truck and scrambles with her keys as she put it in the ignition. A part of me feels awful for doing all this and all I want to do was run over to her, hold her and tell her how sorry I was, that I didn't mean any of it, but the evil side of me won out and I stay where I am standing, with Tanya, as Bella drives off.

From this moment on I don't know what's going to happen. All I know is that nothing is ever going to be the same.

End Flashback


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