Okay, okay, you can beat me with an ugly stick now.

Sorry this took so long to get out to you guys, but I have my reasons, but I am not really going to get into that, although I am hoping this chapter and next chapter make up for my long delay.

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Suggested songs to listen to:

Let the bodies hit the floor by drowning pool

Bombshell by Powerman 5000

Feel so numb and never gonna stop me by Rob Zombie

Liar liar The used

The howling by Within Temptation

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And also including this chapter's theme song. Those are the songs that I was listening to during the ass kicking scene. Oh yes, that is happening this chapter. YAY!

Thanks to my Beta Megsly.

Another special shout out to my wonderful ladies over at Twilighted! You guys, I just cant get enough of you. You really make my day. We have a lot of fun over there.

Anyways, read on, if you dare.

Chapter 21: Things couldn't get much worse

You had to have it all,
well have you had enough?
You greedy little bastard you…
will get what you deserve.
When all is said and done,
I will be the one to leave you in the misery and hate what you've become.

-Had enough by Breaking Benjamin


EPOV

"She's your sister?" Bell asked, stunned by my revelation. Hell, I was surprised by it as well. I couldn't believe that I actually built up enough courage to tell her what I've wanted to for so long.

"Yes, my sister," I confirmed.

"But…But…" Bella started to stammer and moved out of the vehicle she was stepping into. Both Emmett and Alice stayed where they were - Emmett in the driver's seat of the car, and Alice just standing outside of it, glancing back and forth between Bella and I. They both had come over the other day begging me to finally talk to Bella and tell her everything after I told them.

"I know, I know. It's a long story and if you stay I'll tell you all about it. I'll tell you everything and anything you want to know, just please don't leave me," I cried out to her, not caring how much I sounded like a five year old. I grabbed her hand and held it tightly in my own. "Forget everything I said at the park, everything. I don't want you leaving. Not again."

"Edward, you don't know how much that all….relieves me, but..."

"No, no - no 'buts.' Just let me please explain everything," I pleaded with her, squeezing her hand even tighter.

"I can't do it, Edward -I can't stay here. I need to spend some personal time with my mother. Clear my head of everything."

I completely understood where she was coming from. As much as I hated to admit it, but maybe leaving will ultimately - in the end - help her. Bella needed time to absorb everything, along with overcoming her own complications.

"Just promise me that you'll come back?" I sounded so grim and jaded. "There's so much we need to talk about, and I hate the fact that you're leaving before I can fully explain myself." There was so much that she really needed to hear from me - so much more than she can imagine.

"I'll come back when I'm ready to face everything again," she removed her hand from my own, surprising me when she didn't drop it and instead lifted my hand to her warm lips and pressed a small kiss on my knuckles.

"I don't know when that will be, but I'll eventually come back. God knows that for some reason I can't stay away from you no matter how badly I want to at times." Bella didn't say anything else as she got into the car while Emmett started it and they both started down the road. I watched from where I was as I caught her heartrending gaze from behind the windshield. As awful as this may sound, but it was good to know that this was hurting her as much as it was me.

"She does love you Edward." I heard the gravel crunching under Alice's feet as she approached me, both of us watching the car drive away. I had completely forgotten that she was there, but can you blame me? I had all of my attention focused elsewhere.

"I know, Allie - I know." I replied softly and gave her a small smile as she came over to me and gave me a hug. I knew Bella loved me. She practically came out and said it. I could only wish that she actually had said those three words that I was dying to hear, but then again, why didn't I just come out and say it.

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"Did you finally tell her?" Kate asked as soon as I entered the house. She had a big grin on her face and was holding her ever growing belly. She was a few months along and her advancing pregnancy was becoming very noticeable.

"Mmm…hmm…" I hummed and Kate immediately started to clap her hands.

"Hey man, what's she so giddy about?" Garrett made his way into the entry way to see what all the excitement was about.

Before I could even open my mouth Kate was already talking for me. "He finally told Bella!"

"Really? That's great man. It's about time but… why are you here? Shouldn't you two, you know, be celebrating or something?"

I let out a very uncomfortable laugh while rubbing the back of my neck.

"Yeah, Garrett's right. What the hell are you doing here?" Kate pressed on.

I gave her a very disgruntled look without really meaning to and I saw the look of realization dawn on her face. She knew what was coming as I started to shake my head.

"Edward, what happened?" Garrett asked.

"Daddy!" Alexis ran towards me out of the family room interrupting our tense conversation. She was holding her My Little Pony doll in one of her arms while the other was reached out towards me signaling for me to pick her up, which I gratefully granted. I was happy to have Alexis distract us and take us out of the tension for a moment.

"Hey toots!"

"Here," she handed me her baby pony. What did she want me to do with it? Do a magic trick?

Figuring out that I had no clue what she wanted me to do Alexis pointed to the pony's head and said, "Kiss it."

I smiled at her silliness and leaned down giving the plastic doll a kiss on the forehead. I could see Kate out of the corner of my eye. She loved Alexis as if she was one of her own, but I could tell that she really wanted to know what happened.

"Hey Alexis! Guess what?" Kate asked with that high pitched tone you use with little kids to gain their attention.

"What?" Alexis asked, her brow creasing with a cute little line of confusion.

"Yo Gabba Gabba is on!"

"Gabba!" She squealed and started to squirm in my arms so I let her down. She bolted right out of my grasp as soon as her feet touched the ground and ran into the family room squealing. Kate just rolled her eyes at Garrett and me and followed Alexis to change the channel.

After looking at Alexis I could see why Alice and Emmett thought she was my daughter when they came over before. Alexis did look a lot like me, but then again, I looked a lot like my mother. Alexis' hair was similar in color to ours, a lighter shade of bronze but thick with light curls like Elizabeth's. The only thing I wasn't too sure about were her eyes; they weren't green like Elizabeth's or mine. Alexis' eyes changed colors often and I had a sickly feeling that she got those from her father, but I really didn't want to think about him.

Kate entered the room again joining Garrett and I back at the entryway, "Okay, I'm back, now tell me what happened."

"Kate-" Garrett tried to stop her.

"She---she left again." I told her quickly ignoring Garrett's actions. It would be useless to stop her from finding out what she wants to know, but as soon as I told her everything came back, flooding my mind with the events that just happened not even an hour ago. From when I forced her to listen to me, to that powerful kiss we shared, to almost fully confessing our love for each other, to the second she left me.

God I am so pitiful. Why do I have to have the emotions of a little girl at times?

"It's okay, Edward." I didn't even notice that Kate had come over and wrapped her arms around me rubbing my back. Even more, I didn't notice the tears that were falling down my face.

"Everything's going to be alright." Kate continued rubbing soothing circles on my back, trying to sound confident. She didn't know that everything was going to be alright, she just hoped it would be.

"Kate, how can anything be alright after everything I've done to her?"

"Edward, I told you she wasn't just going to accept it all. How could she?"

"I didn't expect her to accept it all, and I understand that it is going to take her time, but I just wanted her to stay so that we could actually talk like civilized people, rather than me holding her down so I can explain myself." I pulled away from Kate so and looked at her.

"Like you wouldn't enjoy pinning her down to a couch, or even a wall." Kate giggled softly trying to lighten up the conversation.

I couldn't help but smile a little bit through my lightly tear streaked face as I thought about that kiss Bella and I shared, again, but we went even further than we did when we were in the mud. At first I didn't think she would kiss me back, but she did. She did kiss me back, and once she did I never wanted to stop. I wanted so badly to toss her on that couch or even carry her upstairs if I had to, but nothing is ever that simple.

"Edward…" Kate had a slow smile spread across her face, "what did you do?"

"She told me that she loved me and I couldn't control myself anymore. I had such a powerful urge to show her that I actually loved her." I admitted.

"Really! Oh my god Edward! You should be happy about that at least. Now you know that she does care for you a lot."

"Wait Kate, she said she loved me. I don't know if she does anymore."

"Of course she does, otherwise this wouldn't hurt as much as it all has." Kate stated.

"Sorry to interrupt this wonderful moment, but Kate we have a doctor's appointment." Garrett interrupted.

Kate cast me a wide grin and nodded eagerly. "Oh yeah! I am so excited. I was finally able to convince Garrett to let us know the sex of the baby." She rubbed her belly enthusiastically as Garrett just shook his head. "I have to go pee before we go."

"By all means, don't let me stop you." Garrett laughed at his wife as she made her way towards the restroom.

"Good thing you did come by. Not that I don't love Alexis or anything, but I wasn't looking forward to taking her into a hospital." Garrett commented and I nodded my head at him in understanding.

"Bella will forgive you Edward." Garrett started after a moments of silence as I watched Alexis jump up and down and dancing in front of the TV. I could feel his eyes on the side of my head.

"I am not as confident that she will," was all I could say as I watched my baby sister play around the family room.

"She will. It's going to take time, Edward, like Kate said it will. Hell, you remember how long it to Kate to finally forgive you?"

I did remember. When I first showed up to their place with Garrett she kneed me in the balls.

That was such an exciting day let me tell you.

Kate didn't care what had happened to me even after Garrett had explained everything, or that I had a sister to take care of. She wasn't going to let me into the house until I was fully recovered from my addictions. Little did she know that at the time I was already going to rehab in Utah, where I found my mom, or more, where she really found me. I just left rehab for a week with Garrett to help explain to Kate what he was doing with newborn baby, and so he could convince her to let me stay with them when I got out of rehab.

"I still don't understand how you even could let me in your house especially after what happened, or how you could so easily forgive me when I still haven't fully forgiven myself. I was so sure you would actually cave in and listen to Kate," I admitted quietly.

"First of all, I am not such a push over. I don't give into everything that I Kate says." Garrett chided me, "secondly, you forget that I was there to witness everything that happened between you and your mother that day. Kate wasn't at the hospital to see that. She didn't see just how much your mother truly affected you. And thirdly, when are you going to understand that Felix and James are my cousins. I know them better than anyone else can, because I used to have to stay over there all the time back in elementary and middle school." Garrett paused for a minute apparently shivering at some bad memory before continuing on.

"That is seriously one fucked up family. James, Felix, my uncle - all of them are. Edward, everything that happened really wasn't your fault, trust me. It is all Felix's. All of it."

I had no clue to what the hell Garrett was trying to get at the moment. The only thing I could keep thinking was that of course all this was my fault. I played the largest role in all this. Without me, none of this would have happened.

"What are you talking about Garrett, how was the things I did to Bella Felix's fault? Not that I wouldn't love to blame him for everything, but he didn't do those things to her. I did. ME!" I was raising my voice at him, while he just sat their calming listening to me.

"I agree with you there Edward, and that is the thing that made Kate so resistant on letting you stay with us, but I convinced her that not everything was your fault." I was about to interrupt him again but he stopped me. "Let me finish before you interrupt."

I nodded my head and let him go on.

"A lot of people have always assumed that James is always the one coming up with schemes and shit, but that is not true. Felix has always been the brains of any operation that they do; James just does the dirty work. Whenever James was doing something, Felix was always behind it. I don't know what it is but Felix just has always had this way of manipulating people to do what he wants and control them. He just knows how to get under someone's skin so deep and cause them pain and misery. He becomes that itch you can never seem to scratch no matter how hard you try. The sad thing is that he didn't always used to be like the way he is now."

"Than what the hell happened?" I was so frustrated with all this.

"Everything went downhill when he was in middle school. That was when his mom left my uncle. No one knew why she did, she just left. It was then when we noticed Felix's mood shift. It was as if he decided to run right off a cliff straight down to hell and was dragging as many people as he could grab on to down with him. Unfortunately for you, he has seemed to hold onto you the tightest, and is not letting go."

"But why Bella? Why me?" I asked becoming so frustrated.

"That is something you are going to have to find out yourself, because I don't have the slightest clue to why you became such a big target to him." Garrett shrugged his shoulders.

"That is what I thought." I mumbled under my breath, "so are you sure that all this was because of Felix, and not just James?"

Garrett looked at me incredulously, "Edward, are you really that naive not to have notice the things that Felix did? The way he acted a lot of the time. Constantly taunting you and while trying to practically seduce Bella, while you hung around with James?"

"No, no, no…," I shook my head at him while looking down at the ground "I just wanted to make sure."

"Why…?" He asked skeptically.

I raised my eyes from gazing at the ground and looked at Garrett with them full of rage and fire like never before, "Just wanted to make sure that I was going to beat the living fuck out of the right guy."

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I felt like a creepy stalker as I waited out in my Volvo inside a darkened parking garage for Felix to come out the hospital doors. I didn't feel any better as I found myself checking the clock every ten minutes, the hour growing later and later. I was supposed to be at Emmett's right now. He told me something big was going to happen, but at this moment, nothing was more important than finally shoving my fist down Felix's throat.

I didn't know how I was going to do it, but I was going to make him talk one way or another. I was going to find out the truth. I was going to find out why he decided to play his sick games on Bella and I.

What kind of sick demented man must he be to treat us like his puppets in a show?

I had thought about it, and I was certain that I would have been fine if it was just me he screwed with, but it was Bella too. She was the innocent one in all this.

It's been over two months since Bella left. The only time I heard about her and how she was doing was through Emmett when he was with her, but since he came back home, I haven't heard very much at all.

I was really praying that right now everything was fine with her, and that she was getting better. The last thing I heard was that she was improving, but I would never know the truth until I finally see her again. Hopefully when or if she ever returned I could have the whole truth and maybe we can finally move past all this shit that had gotten in the way.

It was starting to get dark and I really needed to go, but as soon as I was about to give up for the night and head to Emmett's, the devil himself walked right out of the hospital doors.

"So foot, are you ready? Because I am shoving you so far up Felix's ass that you will get stuck and I will drag him down to hell with me." I smirked at my own remark becoming really cocky at the thought of causing pain to Felix.

Felix was talking with a pretty woman with long black hair and dark chocolaty skin. I could tell by the way he was flirting with her and by the smile on his face that she was really taken by him, and that right there made me sick and disgusted. How could anyone fall for someone like him was beyond me.

Felix and the woman exchanged quick good-byes. She headed one way and Felix headed right in my direction, just like I was hoping.

I quickly jumped out of my car and ran up to him. He was too busy trying to shove his key into the door lock that he didn't even notice me as I ran up behind him and bashed his head against his shiny Audi and tossed him down to the ground. Felix landed flat on his back with his nose bleeding from where I had heaved his face into the side of his car.

"What the fuck!" Felix started cussing completely distorted and confused at what just happened. That was until he saw me, and as soon as I locked my eyes with his he knew exactly why I was here.

"It's about time Edward. I was starting to wonder if you were ever going to figure it all out and show up." He pushed himself up off the ground and dusted himself off. He finished cleaning himself by wiping his nose off with the back of his hand creating a giant smear of blood across it.

"I am not as stupid as you think I am Felix," I growled at him.

"Could've fooled me." He laughed at me, so I ran up to him punched him the gut and he keeled over holding tightly to his stomach.

I was in no mood to be fucked around with right now.

"You're not going to even fight fair are you Cullen? You are just going to be one of those people who won't let the other guy even throw in one punch." He slowly sat back up.

"There is no such thing as fair, Felix, you should know this. Life sucks, than you die."

"Fine, I guess I am going to have to do this the old fashioned way."

"And that would be?" I sneered at him.

Felix didn't say anything; he ran up to me as fast as he could and shoved me hard against his car. I could feel my body being sucked into the cold metal of the car from force of the push and the weight of our bodies.

Felix pinned me there for a minute using his shoulders as his fists rammed into my stomach over and over again. With each strike Felix made my stomach began to burn more and more until I couldn't take it anymore. I freed my arms and wrapped them tightly around his waist. Picking up his body and with as much strength as I could, I lifted him up off the ground and slammed him down to the ground with me on top of him.

Felix took his own fist and punched me squarely in the face causing me to stagger back off him. Just as I got my bearings, Felix popped his neck and ran at me yet again, but this time I was more than ready. He extended his arm out to hit me in the face and I dodged it by stretching my hand out and pushing his out of the way, pinning his arm between my ribs and upper arm. Using my free hand I punched him in the face a couple of times before bringing him down to the ground again. I pinned him there with my foot at his throat, confident that he wasn't going to get far.

"You think you're the shit don't you," Felix coughed, pushing his hands against my shoe trying to move it, but every time he pushed my foot away, I pushed it tighter against his neck. "You think that you can make everything that you did to Bella…just… vanish by…by beating the shit out of me?" He struggled for words. "I have something to tell you. All this, it isn't going to erase what you did. The things that you put her through back in high school. She is forever broken now. Bella is forever going to be so fucked up in the head, because of what you did."

I couldn't control myself anymore. I was so furious.

Fuck no, I was beyond furious.

I removed my foot and grabbed him tightly by the collar and dragged him up to his feet shoving him against a brick wall. "I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO HER! That was all you!!!!" I yelled into his face standing right over him. Even though I knew it wasn't true, I just wanted someone else to take the blame as well and if anyone deserved to share the blame with me, it was Felix.

"Ta ha, you fucking serious man? I was the one that stood up for her, while you were the one that did those things to her."

"Don't think I am so fucking stupid to still think that you were actually doing it all for her. What the hell was that all about?" I gripped him by the collar tighter and shoved my face right up into his, smelling the blood that was discharging out of his nose and mouth.

"Haha, so you finally figured out that I was the mastermind behind it all."

"I am not that fucking retarded. I have known for awhile it was you. Did you honestly think that I would for one second think that your brother would be that smart to pull all this shit off?!"

"Your right, he is kind of stupid, unless you shove money in his face, than he becomes a goddamn genesis." Felix gave me a wicked smile before spitting out some blood that was coming from within his mouth onto the cold concrete ground, but not without getting some of it on my shoe.

"What are you talking about?"

"I paid him off to get close to you. To taunt you and make you do things to Bella, to make it so Bella would finally run away from you. Now, with Tanya, she was quite easy to pull on to my side, all she wanted was you. I got her to agree right away with my plan as soon as I mentioned that she could have you."

"What the fuck is your problem? Why did you do all of it?" Felix didn't say anything. He just stood there glaring at me.

"WHY DID YOU DO IT?!" I shoved him harder against the wall. I wanted my longing question answered and he wasn't giving it to me.

"Because it was your mother that fucking ripped my family apart!" He spat in my face, "She was the reason why my own mother left me!" I felt my face fall for a moment. Could he really be telling the truth? But then again, it does sound like something my mom would have done back then.

"How is that my fault?!" I shook him around a bit trying to get more answers out of him.

Felix was panting heavily, but it wasn't out of exhaustion, it was out of frustration and ferocity. He was avoiding my piercing gaze as much as possible. I could tell that he was trying to hide something that was lying within his eyes, but he wasn't going to show it, not even hint to what it was.

"God Damn it Felix!" I shook Felix even harder, my nails digging deeper through his shirt collar and into my skin. "TEL ME!!!"

"It has always been your fault! If you weren't born, your mother never turn to drugs like she did, she would've never meet my dad at that bar, she would've never ended up causing my mother to leave when she walked in on your mother and my father fucking each other up against a window! My mother wouldn't have left in the middle of the night as I watched her get into a cab through my bedroom window without even saying good bye to me. I was fucking eleven years old for Christ's sake." I could see Felix's eyes glisten as it caught the light of the street light and I slowly loosened my grip on him. I knew exactly how he felt to have someone you love just completely abandon you, but this still wasn't fully explaining why he decided to come back.

Felix took this moment and wrapped his arm around both of my than shoved his elbow into my face a couple of times. I wobbled backwards. I was so sure that Felix was going to come after me again, but he stood there, both of us waiting for something to happen.

"So…So…," I panted trying to gain all the air that I have missed out on. "You had all your fun back in high school, why the fuck did you come back and do this all again?"

"Don't act like you don't know why you little prick." Felix growled, finally lunging at me and kicking me in the shin, thus causing me to fall to the ground.

"Was it because I finally sent that mother fucker you call your father to jail!" I yelled up at him as I stood back up.

"That's exactly what it was in the beginning," he told me honestly. "I thought all of it was going to be much harder to do at first, not because I couldn't get Bella, but because at first I thought that she was still going to be that fat lard that I would have to flirt with again until I wanted to throw up, but I guess she did that enough for the both of us. I got to tell you, man, when I saw her in the hospital that day…" he let out a low whistle, "I couldn't wait to uncross those legs."

I could feel my nostrils flaring and I ran after Felix out of instinct, not thinking about what my next move really was, but it seemed that Felix already had. It was if he knew exactly what I was going to do. I went in for a round kick to his side and he used his forearms to block the blow. He wrapped his arms securely around my leg and using the side of his hip he pushed me down to the ground.

My head ended up hitting the ground first sending a jolt through my skull.

"Ha…ha…ha…She had turned into a fine bitch and would've made an amazing sex toy for me. Admit it, you wanted to fuck her from here to space as soon as you saw her again didn't you? God, who wouldn't?" Felix breathed a deep sigh as if he was thinking about it all in his head at that exact moment. It made my stomach churn.

"When I told James to follow her that night to the restaurant, he had told me I actually didn't have to pay him to do it like usual, because his reward was being able to fuck that fine piece of ass, but of course that didn't happen because you got in the way." He shoved his disgusting finger in my face that wanted to rip it off.

"SHUT THE FUCK UP!" I screamed at him I screamed at him as I launched myself back up to my feet, grabbing tightly onto him again and tossing him against the ground. "Don't ever talk about Bella that way again, you piece of shit! You have no right to treat her in anyway, especially like that. Your father got what he deserved."

"He didn't deserve anything! He was the only parent that I had left and you sent him to jail!" Felix cried out.

I wanted so badly to kill him at that moment. He didn't know shit evidently.

"Your father deserved to go to jail, he raped my mother!!"

AN: So this chapter was actually supposed to be a whole a lot longer, but I decided to break it up in half because if I gave you the whole other chapter with this one, it may have taken a while to read, and there would be a whole lot of shit that happens at once, but you will love the next chapter. Trust me.

Now I am crossing my fingers that I can get the next chapter out sooner, considering a lot of it has already been written, but I have finals coming up so all my teachers are tossing shit loads of projects at me to get done.