Already M-rated? Wow. I am surprised.

Warning: Violence, swearing, masturbation, masochism, fetish-ness, some yaoi of the non-KakuHida variety. That's still later.

Glasgow smile (plural Glasgow smiles)

A facial scar received from being cut on the edge of the mouth, resembling an extended smile.

BLOODY SMILE

Hidan wanted to always be able to smile, to keep his lips turned up. He wanted to always be able to smile, like she could.

He had smiled at her funeral, but her family and the priest yelled at him and kicked him out of the church. When he got home his mother asked why he wouldn't stop smiling at his friend's funeral.

Hidan told her it was a memorial.

She slapped him.

He kept smiling and she slapped him again, then went to get a drink. Hidan didn't really care too much, because it was rare his mother hit him.

He went to bed that night smiling.

When Hidan was 14 he got into a fairly brutal fight with some local older came at him with a knife but only managed to cut a notch in his ear that never grew back. Hidan on the other hand, unarmed, had managed to bite into a boy's hand so ferociously he tore some flesh away from the area between the boy's thumb and forefinger.

He smiled when the blood filled his mouth and the boys ran away calling him "Crazy motherfucker."

That was the first night Hidan ever slept on the street, not feeling like going home and explaining why his ear was disfigured and his lips were red with blood.

When Hidan was fifteen he got a boyfriend. He never had a girlfriend. Not that he didn't like or wasn't attracted to girl's, but he knew he would never meet any other girl who could smile like she could, so he figured Sai, the pale, dark-haired boy who always had a fake, plastered on smile was the next best thing. (Girls feared him anyway. They called him "crazy motherfucker.")

Sai was detached and aloof, and certainly didn't love Hidan. But that was alright. Because Hidan didn't love Sai.

Hidan also got into more fights at age fifteen, and he began to notice they were all ending in blood, never his. Though he did enjoy the taste of others blood filling his mouth, (so much it worried him sometimes,) he sometimes almost wished it ended in his blood.

So he started cutting himself during masturbation.

He decided if others wouldn't make him bleed, he would do it himself.

Once he put the knife in his mouth and considered slicing his cheeks, but didn't. Instead he just thought of his former neighbor and smiled.

(He was a "crazy motherfucker.")

END CHAPTER 1

My writing feels way too unfocused in this in my opinion.

Please tell me what you think though. No flames but I would greatly appreciate constructive criticism.

(Lol, HidaSai. And why are these chapters so short?)