Author's note : Sorry for long update…

Chapter 4

Fuji wanted to hit his own head. Of course, he was here. The famous professional tennis player he should interviewed for his magazine was standing in front of him now. Fuji looked up to meet Tezuka's handsome face. Fuji couldn't help but thought that Tezuka grew more handsome years by years. Fuji shook his head. He should act normal and did his job. He had to brave and strong. He had to.

"Ah, Tezuka-san. Mind if I interview you for a moment?" Fuji asked politely. His lips performed a sweet yet a polite smile.

Tezuka looked at him longingly and didn't say anything. Tezuka's deep hazel eyes roamed Fuji's beautiful face. His eyes landed on Fuji's pale pink lips. So desirable and tasted like honey and apple. How much Tezuka missed Fuji's kiss? How much Tezuka wanted to sweep Fuji into his arms again? How much Tezuka wanted to say Sorry and I love You? How much Tezuka wanted to say that he needed Fuji in his life again? Even Tezuka didn't know the answers.

"Sure…" Finally Tezuka could say something. He turned around and walked to comfortable chair with Fuji behind him.

After sat down, Fuji opened his little notebook and began to interview Tezuka.

"Tezuka-san, do you have any relationship with Atobe Keigo? I hear that you two rival when you were still in junior high school. Is that true?"

"No, we're friends and he was not my rival. I do have rival but he's not Atobe" Tezuka said. His eyes kept looking at Fuji.

Fuji wrote Tezuka's answer in his notebook. He could feel Tezuka's eyes on him and it made him little uncomfortable.

"Oh really? You had rival, care to share who was he/she?"

"He is my close friend in junior high school and most beautiful and wonderful person I've ever met. His name is Fuji Syuusuke by the way.." Tezuka said. His hazel eyes bored into Fuji's blue ones. Their eyes locked fo a moment before Fuji broke the gaze.

"I see… next question Next month is France Open, right? Do you have any special practice or preparing?"

"No"

"Why not?"

"Because I have something to do that more important than that?" Tezuka said. Fuji opened his blue eyes.

"What is that? Isn't practice important for a tennis player?" He asked.

"I want to apologize to someone so important for me." Fuji opened his eyes in surprise. Tezuka's eyes bored into Fuji's eyes as he continued speaking.

'I think the sentence "you won't know that you have something until you lose it' is true. I had someone wonderful by my side but I hurt him and he left me. Now, I realize that he's so important to me and I need him so badly." He said.

Fuji broke his gaze and closed his book.

"That's all, Tezuka-san. Thank you" He said as he stood up. He turned around but Tezuka caught his wrist.

"Syusuke… please speak to me! Don't ignore me, please! I beg you.." Tezuka said softly. Fuji could hear sincere in his voice but his mind said to ignore and leave Tezuka so he wouldn't hurt again.

Fuji pulled his hand and walked away without say anything. Tezuka stared at Fuji sadly. He wanted to pull Fuji into his arms and ask for second chance. He wanted to return two years ago, when he realize that he needed Fuji the most and when Echizen said the he loved Momoshiro and not Tezuka. But he afraid. He afraid that when he came back, Fuji would never forgive hi and had move on. He scared Fuji wouldn't even look at him and ignore him. Now, he hd to face those nightmares He had to face Fuji walked away and didn't look back.

Tezuka thought about Atobe's advice. Maybe he was right. He need to talk to someone closer to Fuji. He knew who was she but would she help him? Well, at least he tried. Took a deep breath and took out his cell phone.

"Yumiko-san, can I talk to you, please?"

TBC

Author's note : there, the next chapter. Thank you for your reviews.