10 Years Later 17 Years Old

I used to call Edward all the time and talk to him. But it got less and less. And I haven't talked to him in about 11 months. We used to talk to each other on the phone. Then we both got MySpace's, and he lost my number. Then my dad found out I had a MySpace and he told me to delete it I didn't though I just never went on it. I would have deleted it but I've never been too good with computers.

"Bella!" my mom called from downstairs. I was currently in my room listening to a CD it was my favorite band, it was Paramore. The song on right now was "Fences" it was my favorite song at the moment. "Coming Mom," I yelled. As I walked down the stairs I started humming "Fences" I think one of the reasons I love this song is because I can relate to it.

I'm sitting in a room

Made up of only big white walls

And in the halls there's people looking through

It's like she's being watched. Like me. The few friends that I have, are always asking me if I'm okay. It's because I'm sad a lot I rarely laugh, but I know why. Because he left. Edward Cullen. My best friend. My everything. And I believed—still believe—that we are soul mates. And I believe I will find him again.

"Yes, Mom?" I asked.

"Hey Sweetie, I just needed to ask you if your homework was done,"

Ugh, "Yeah, Mom it's all finished," And it better be right with all the time I spent on it.

"Okay, well dinner's almost ready," she told me.

"What are we having?"

"Lasagna," she replied, I liked lasagna, it's just I don't eat much, I don't do anything much."M'kay" I made my way upstairs. I had forgotten to hit pause on my CD player the song on right now was "We Are Broken" Oh no! I changed it quickly, now I love this song don't get me wrong, but I cry every time I hear it. I didn't want to get caught crying but the lyrics were playing again and again in my head:

I am outside, And I've been waiting for the sun, With my wide eyes, I've seen worlds that don't belong, My mouth is dry with words I cannot verbalize, Tell me why we live like this, Keep me safe inside,Your arms like towers, Tower over me, Yeah, Cause we are broken, What must we do to restore, Our innocence, And all the promise we adored Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole, Lock the doors, Cause I'd like to capture this voice, That came to me tonight, So everyone will have a choice, And under red lights,I'll show myself it wasn't forged We're at war, We live like this, Keep me safe inside, Your arms like towers, Tower over me, Cause we are broken, What must we do to restore, Our innocence, And all the promise we adored Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole, Tower over me, Tower over me...and I'll take the truth at any cost., Cause we are broken, What must we do to restore, Our innocence, And all the promise we adored Give us life again cause we just wanna be whole...
Just a few tears had escaped. I knew it was pathetic to let a song overpower me like that, but since Edward moved that's just how things were for me. I can't even watch romance movies. I can only watch action, humor, horror, the occasional science-fiction I leave the room whenever a part comes on that illustrates a couple. I cry myself to sleep every night. I haven't gone to a party since that one time Alice made me. I left in 15 minutes. My phone just rang. I expected to hear the Harry Potter theme song, instead I heard Shake It by Metro Station.

Shake shake shake shake shake it

I'll take you home if you don't leave me at the front door

Your body's cold but girl, we're getting so war—"WHAT ALICE?!"

"Bella?" an unfamiliar velvet voice came through the phone.

"Oh sorry, may I ask who's speaking," I asked.

"Yes you may, but I'm disappointed you don't even remember your best friend." OH MY GOD! Edward?! Edward Cullen?! Edward Anthony Cullen is calling me?! "EDWARD?!" I screamed, I was shocked, appalled but most importantly euphoric.

"Miss me?"he asked. God he didn't know how much—he wouldn't believe how much.

"So much Eddie," I told him, I hoped he didn't mind me calling him that still.

"Ah, I'm so sorry, I lost your number, but listen I've got to go soon"--Go? So soon?--"So I just wanted to tell you that I'm sending you something in the mail, okay, something I really want you to see, It'll be coming in a few days okay?" he told me. "Alright," I said, I sounded unsure because at the given moment I didn't have a clue what was going on so I just went with it. "Okay, well I'm so sorry but I've got to go Bella, bye," he murmured "Bye," I whispered. My voice sounded strange it sounded happy, but sad at the same time. It was because I was so happy he called, but he had to go so soon—too soon.

AN Ya like? Sorry I haven't updated I got my computer taken away for being a "smart mouth"!

~Alyssa