EPOV
I clenched my fists and screamed "UH" and took off running out of the room.
How could she not want to have kids? How did she not want to bring little Bella's into this world. How? I want her to be able to have children. I want her to be with me. We can just go to a Sperm donation facility and have her artificially inseminated. I would raise the child as my own. I want her to be happy, I want her to be a parent. She would make a wonderful mother. Even if she had trouble getting pregnant, she could still try, for herself, for me.
I kept running for I do not know how long, or how far before I felt my cell phone vibrating in my pocket. I was pretty sure it was either Alice or Carlisle and I simply could not talk right now. I have to think, I just have to be alone.
I found my self in the meadow, Our meadow. I slowly walked over and went to lie down in the center of it.
I started reminiscing about the first time that I brought Bella to the meadow. That's when I first knew that she truly loved me. It was the day of our first kiss. And now she is in the hospital and is willing to give up her life, more than usual just to be with me.
I wanted her to become a mortal, like myself, but I wanted her to wait a few years. I wanted to marry her.. I wanted her to go to college, for at least a year. And then I wanted to find a way for her to be able to have a child. Ever since I had gotten to know Bella, I knew that one day she would make a terrific mother. She was so maternal, so loving, so trusting ,and so giving. How could she not be a good mother?
I was so lost in my thoughts that I hadn't even heard the thoughts that were approaching.
"Son." Carlisle said. "Bella really needs you by her side right now."
I sat up and slowly turned to look at him.
"Why wouldn't she want a family, Carlisle?"
"She loves you Edward, and she is willing to give up anything to be with you."
" She probably would even consider getting artificially inseminated. And I know that she loves me, but I think that there is something else going on with her. Have you realized how calmly she has taken everything in her life."
"I'm not sure what you mean Edward." he looked confused.
"Well, I have always brushed it off for the most part, like the event in Port Angeles, James, everything, But when she is showing hardly any emotion after losing her best friend, don't you think that would make her snap?"
"I don't know Edward, I never thought anyone could be that strong, perhaps we could get her into some counseling with Dr. Jerfard."
I nodded.
"Let's get back to the hospital so you can be with Bella."