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In front of me I saw two girls crying and beside them two boys carrying the motionless body of an unconscious human girl. My eyes focused on the girl and my world crumpled. It was my girl. My human.

"Bella!"

2. In the shadows

Every time I leave, every time I leave

I keep coming back every time I leave

EPOV

It took me a few moments to hold on to the few coherent thoughts that were present in my mind through the panic that coursed through me.

Bella was here.

In Alaska.

She's hurt.

NO!

I started following her friends anxiously. I watched as they met a nurse and she led them to a room. Once I took one glance at her room number I ran back to my only savior. I didn't care who could see me. I didn't bother to see if I was running in a human pace or not. I just forced myself to leave so I could get her help.

I rushed through the corridors blindingly. My heart aching for both, seeing my love like this, and leaving her again. I couldn't stay away from her. Not when she was right there.

I pushed the doors open and rushed into the room. Carlisle took one glance of my face and paled. In a second he was by my side.

"Edward?" he whispered. I had no time to stand here with him and discuss this calmly, I needed something to be done.

"Come with me , please" and I was shocked to fined that my voice wasn't as panicked as I felt. It was pleading.

Carlisle didn't need to be told twice. He started walking back with m, putting a hand on my shoulder as if I needed support.

"What happened?" He asked concerned.

"Bella's here" I choked.

"What? How?" He whispered appalled. I could here the same shock in his head but I was too panicked to care about the how part.

In Alaska? He thought

I nodded. "She's comatose. I saw her friends carrying her in the hospital. Please, please could you examine her and tell me what happened?" I pleaded in one breath.

"Of course, where is she?"

"She's in room 122" We were already there. I stopped in front of the door, not sure what to do. Should I go in with him? Would she even want me to go in? or would she not want me to?

"Edward?" Carlisle whispered squeezing my shoulder.

I swallowed back the lump that was in my throat and choked, "you go in and examine her. I'll……be outside" and I walked away quickly before I could hear his pity. I walked swiftly out of the hospital and walked around the building.

Once I spotted it, I climbed the tree that was in front of it easily. I reached her window swiftly as I stood on one of the tree branches.

"Bella" I whispered strangled. She was laid on the white bed with her friends beside her. The one that I recognized to be Angela was crying and so was the other girl that looked unfamiliar to me.

I stared at both Carlisle and Bella. I watched as Carlisle approached her bed and reassured her friends that she would be fine. When he reached her motionless form, my breath caught in anxiety.

"Bella" Carlisle called softly as he touched his hand to her cheek. I envied him. I envied him for being able to be so close to her. I envied him for having the excuse of being a doctor to be there with her. I envied him for being able to touch her.

Her face fell to the side from that small gesture. My breathing stopped and the branch that was in my hand crashed.

Carlisle's eyebrows furrowed as he took her wrist in his hand. Checking her pulse. He pursed his lips.

Too slow, too weak. He thought disapprovingly.

A slow strangled voice came out of my throat. It was almost like a moan of pain. This can't be happening, this can't be happening. I kept saying in my head. She'll be ok, Carlisle will fix her. Bella always surprised me. She will, this time too and be as good as new.

Carlisle's eyes flashed to my face and I realized that the strangled sound was still erupting from my chest and throat.

Relax. Nothing to be afraid of. He thought to me.

I barely had the control to stop my moans but I couldn't follow his order. I just gritted my teeth and tried to appear patient.

He turned his attention back to Bella and reached into his pocket to get out a small bottle of ammonia, I guessed. He started moving the bottled inches away from her nose, but………she didn't react! Carlisle was wrong, there is something to be afraid of.

Carlisle's crease increased. He quickly reached and pressed the button that was on her bedside.

"I need a nurse here please, in room 122. It's Dr. Cullen" Carlisle said in a calm voice that maddened me. How could he be so calm when she was motionless in front of him??

My chest tightened and the lump grew in my throat as I fought to stay in my place.

"I'll be right there, Dr. Cullen" the cool voice answered.

Carlisle turned to her sobbing friends, "Can I rely on you for some help?"

They both nodded quickly, and basically threw them selves to Bella's side.

"I just need one of you to hold both her legs up and the other to lift her hips from the bed." He instructed.

They both wasted no time. Angela took Bella's hips and the other girl took her legs, as they slowly lifted about fifty percent of her body off the bed. Carlisle tilted Bella's head backward, allowing the blood to flow from her legs to her brain.

He kept the ammonia bottle under her nose with one hand and other hand holding the back of her neck so that her head was somehow hanging.

The room was shaking and I was confused. It took me a moment or two to realize that I was the one who was shaking with fear. I could hear the sobs breaking from my chest but I didn't try to control them. I just stared helplessly at the love of my life as they tried to wake her.

There was a knock on the door and when given the permission the door was opened. A blond, pale girl in white came in and once she saw Bella she came in quickly.

"Leena, I need cold water and a small towel now" Carlisle ordered. The blond nurse nodded and quickly ran out of the room. "You could release her now, thank you" Carlisle told the two girls.

I noticed that Bella's face was redder and I felt an unbelievable amount of relief as I watched her face move slowly. Gradually regaining her conscious. Carlisle put away the ammonia and reached to open the first two buttons in Bella's white blouse that was peeking out of the collar of her sweater.

Angela went to help him. She unzipped Bella's sweater and untied her scarf from around her neck.

Bella gave a weary moan and I almost fell off the tree, relief making my knees weak.

The nurse was back with a bowl filled with water and a small towel in it. She knew what to do. She walked to Bella's side and started touching her face with the cold wet towel. Helping her regain her consciousness.

Another breathy moan left Bella's lips as she tried to come back to us. Carlisle looked up at the nurse. "You may leave the water here and leave. Her friends will do it"

I don't know how Bella's reaction to me would be like, so better stay safe and keep out any strangers. Carlisle thought, making me envy him again for being able to think rationally in a moment like this.

The nurse told the two girls what to do and left quietly.

"Bella" Carlisle called again softly, "Bella"

Her eyes slowly started to flutter and then opened inch by inch. When lazy eyelids were high enough for her to see. She looked confused. Like she didn't know what was going on. And then so quickly that I didn't even have time to understand it. Horror broke through Bella's face as she saw Carlisle standing in front of her. She pushed herself with her hand o sit up right. But she swayed. Angela helped her as Carlisle remained in his place. Thinking it was best not to scare her by trying to help her.

"Carlisle?" she mouthed with absolutely no hint of voice.

He gave her a small smile and said, "How are you, Bella?"

She didn't answer. She just stared at him. She turned a little to look at Angela but she winced and her hand flung up to her head.

"Bella?" Carlisle asked warily. But again, she didn't answer him.

I didn't understand. Was she mad at my father? But if she was mad at my father then………I gulped…….What about me?

"Could you please exit the room for a moment so I could examine Bella?" Carlisle directed his words politely at her two friends and I hadn't noticed that Mike and Jacob were standing in the corner of the room with their faces in their hands.

Mike and Jacob nodded and started walking out of the room. When Angela and the other girl tried to leave, Bella visibly stiffened and her hands flew to hold both of her friends to her sides.

Carlisle gaped at her hands for a moment then shifted his gaze to meet hers. I could hear the hurt that filled his head as he asked her.

"Why do you need your friends to be here while I examine you?" Carlisle asked confused, "You're not……afraid of me, are you?"

Bella gulped and I paled. She was afraid of Carlisle?? No! this couldn't be happening. If she was afraid of Carlisle then she completely hated me. I cringed.

She shook her head slowly at Carlisle but even though she didn't speak, I could tell she was lying.

"She….just feels more……comfortable …when we're around" Angela tried to explain it in a better way.

But what was she trying to save? The hurt? The pain? The agony? Bella feared Carlisle. The last vampire on earth that could ever be feared. He was so peaceful and Bella was the best to know that.

I couldn't get away from the thought that dominated my head. You can never be better than Carlisle, if she's afraid of him and he didn't do anything to her but listen to what you said. She most definitely hated you and most probably feared you too.

What have I done?

Carlisle nodded slowly though he was not convinced, "Do you mind staying here for a while then?" Maybe she could remember that I'm safe, if she spent a while here. Then, maybe she could let me examine her. That wasn't a normal faint. I need to examine her to know what happened. But if she continues to refuse. Sighs. I'd just be forced to give her to another doctor. Carlisle thought gloomily.

Bella shook her head slowly. Carlisle nodded and smiled sadly at her, "Ok, then. You rest now, and I'll come by later" then he turned to leave the room.

I was panicking again, but this time not for fear if her life, but for the fear of mine. If she hated or feared me, it would burn my existence. It will kill me and torture me senseless. What could I do?

I missed her so badly and she was right in front of me. And I couldn't go to her. I couldn't embrace her in my arm and tell her everything was going to be okay. I couldn't do anything. All I could do was watch her, in the shadows of a tree, hoping that I could be strong enough and go to her, and tell her that I'm sorry, and beg for her to take me back. But I'd have to be really strong to be able to face her rejection, her fear, her disgust and I wasn't. So I decided to just observe her from the shadows. Nevertheless, I could see her now. Something I only dreamt about for the last four months. Maybe, one day, I could be strong enough to face her.

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