.A/N: See?? Another fast update!!! Yay me!!! You're reviews are AWESOMELY AWESOME!!! They make me want to hunt down Edward and copy him and paste him in every review reply I send. Maybe then I'd feel like I thanked you enough, even though I doubt it. So here's the chappy. Enjoy!

Recap:

I had faith in Damien to make Bella's resentment lessen, but I didn't have faith in myself to return her love. Could a dead heart break? It felt like mine just did.

"I won't lose all my faith Damien. I have faith in you"

10. Reunion and pain

I couldn't believe my eyes

When I saw you here

You looked so satisfied

That it made me feel

Like your daughter again

Thank you for making me heal

EPOV

Damien was able to work miracles on Bella, and she was now calmed down. He stroked her hair gently and wiped her tears away as he apologized again. I didn't know why he was apologizing. He didn't do anything. He didn't hurt her. He didn't leave her. He wasn't the cause of this.

"I'm sorry for shouting at you like that, I didn't m…." She started but Damien stopped her by covering her mouth with his hand.

He leaned down and looked straight in her eyes, "What did we say about that?" He said with a mock-glare.

She rolled her eyes.

"Damien is Bella's big fluffy teddy bear." He said imitating a child's voice, "You could do anything with teddy. Would you apologize if you shouted at teddy?"

She nodded quickly and it looked like she was smiling.

He chuckled, "then well pardon me but……you're insane." He said lifting his hand, "everybody knows that teddy doesn't mind people yelling at him. Especially annoying little girls like you" he chuckled again and nudged her shoulder.

She smiled.

"I do not know from where did you came from, I'm just glad you did" I whispered to him because I couldn't help it. I loved how he was able to make her smile every time she was feeling low.

Me too, he thought in a whisper. I saw him smile a little and that made me smile.

Edward? I heard Esme's thoughts call. I looked down and found Esme standing right under the tree I was on. She had her hair down like always, and she wore a black silk dress. It had a V cut and sleeveless. She of course looked beautiful. I smiled.

How are you?

"I'm…not bad" I answered.

Hold on.

"I'm doing my best" I sighed.

Should I go in now? I didn't miss the edge of excitement that was in her voice.

"Just a moment" I looked back at the window and whispered, "Damien, is it ok if Esme came in now?"

Let me check.

"Bella?" He said quietly.

"yeah?" She looked up at him.

"I can hear someone coming, and I'm guessing it's Esme, I can hear Carlisle calling her that" he lied casually, "Do you feel ready to meet her? Or would you like me to say you're asleep or something?"

"No!" She shouted almost instantly, "I mean yes….I mean I want to meet her" she stuttered in her shock.

There's your answer, but please warn Esme from mentioning you, she's had enough for one day. We'll try again tomorrow. I flinched but complied.

I nodded to her, "but don't mention me please" I whispered.

She stared at me for a moment then nodded. Damien? She asked Is he the other one you told me about?

I smiled, "yes but I was wrong"

She smiled and nodded. I'll see you later then.

I smiled back and watched as she went inside the hospital.

"I'll give you your privacy, then. If you need me just rub the lamp" He chuckled.

"Thanks" She seemed nervous but at lease not panicked.

Damien, in a motion to quick for her eyes to follow, in a second, was out of the window and sitting beside me.

"Mind if I join you?" He asked with a smile.

"Not at all. The branch is all yours" I smiled back.

"Thanks"

We both were both silent. Probably anxious to see Bella's reaction. Then we heard a soft knock knock.

Bella's heart rate hitched and her head snapped in the direction of the door. She swallowed loudly and whispered, "C…come in…n" in a shaky voice.

The door opened slowly and Esme appeared. She had the kindest smile on her loving face. She closed the door behind her.

"Bella" She said happily as she walked towards her bed. Bella followed every move Esme did with her eyes.

"E…Esme" Bella whispered in a thick voice. She looked almost like she was about to cry. Esme reached her and sat on the edge of her bed. She took both Bella's hands in hers and squeezed them.

"How are you dearest?" She whispered, "I missed you so much"

Bella just stared at her like she lost the ability to talk. I could see her eyes fill with tears as they stared at Esme.

"Poor thing" Damien whispered, "hasn't seen her own mother in four months"

This slammed me, "What?" I whispered, my head snapping in his direction.

He sighed, "Something happened between her and her mother. A fight or something. I don't know. But her mother never talked to her ever since. Like Bella wasn't her daughter" An edge of disgust in his voice as he explained.

I was to shocked to react, I just turned my head again to stare blankly at Bella who looked on the verge of tears.

Esme heard what Damien said and her heart clenched. I could hear how it pained her to know that.

Esme reached her hand and touched Bella's face softly. And once her hand made contact with Bella's skin, Bella shook and her sobs started escaping her. They sounded strangled and painful. She covered her mouth and nose with her hand as she kept staring at Esme. Her tears, now started spilling over.

Esme, at once, took Bella in her arms. Bella buried her face in the crook of Esme's neck and wrapped her arms around her back. Her hands fisted in Esme's gown tightly as she sobbed loudly. Esme kept stroking her hair and rubbing her back. Esme herself looked on the verge of tears. But she held back her own sobs to comfort Bella.

"I……I'm s…so……sorry" Bella whispered between her sobs. Her voice was muffled in Esme's hair.

"For what honey?" Esme asked softly.

Bella hugged her tighter and buried her face deeper as her sobs grew louder. "f…for never t…telling you…how…much you…mean to me" She said in voice so broken that it broke my own heart more. My heart was already clenched and I felt it in my throat.

"Oh Bella" Esme said her voice broke before she could compose it. She squeezed her tighter but made sure she didn't hurt her.

"I…love y…you so m…much, Esme" She sobbed, "And I…missed y…you so…badly"

And Bella's breathing started to hitch more. She was gasping now. This alarmed Esme.

"Bella, honey, calm down. I'm hear. I love you too" Esme said in alarm.

Uh-oh, she's remembering, Damien panicked. I looked at him and he had his brows furrowed as he stood up.

"Edward, please explain to your mother my rudeness later" and he was gone. He was back in the room, running to Bella. I just stared stunned as he whispered, "excuse me" to Esme and untangled Bella from Esme's embrace. Bella's eyes were unfocused and her face was a pure mask of panic.

Esme stood up to give Damien some space and covered her mouth with her hand as she saw how Bella looked. She was shaking with the urge to sob, but Esme wouldn't break down in front of Bella.

Damien crossed Bella's hands and held them in one hand as he laid her back on the bed.

"Bella" he said sharply, "Bella"

Bella was shaking and gasping. She didn't seem to hear him, she just stared wide eyed and her face looking more panicked by the second.

What was going on? I found myself panicking. "Is she having a seizure?" I asked Damien.

"She will" He answered quickly, and suddenly I found myself trying to reach her window, but something was holding me back. No, pulling me back. I looked behind me to find a pained faced Alice. Holding my shoulders tightly.

"You going in there now…" She whispered strangled, "won't do her any good" And the look in her eyes told me that she's seen it. So I looked back at Bella.

"I'm sorry" I choked to her.

Bella's gasps became louder, her chest heaving up and falling back down.

"Bella" Damien repeated, then looked at Esme who was shaking from head to toe. "Could you please give me that glass of water over there" He pointed at the table in the middle of the room with his chin.

Esme brought it immediately and held it out for him. Damien reached his free hand and wet his hand. He started touching his wet cold hand to Bella's face, willing her to regain her conscious.

"Bella, you're here, you're safe. Bella." He kept repeating in a sharp voice.

"I'm s…so…scared….Damien" She gasped.

Yes, she said my name. She's coming back. But I couldn't be relieved by his words. I felt the hand that was gripping me loosen her grip. Maybe she was weakened but I couldn't look at her. I couldn't look at anybody. I was sitting in my own self-made hell. I was shaking with pain and hurt that I couldn't go to her. You going to her now won't do her any good. The words repeated in my mind.

"Bella come back. Come back and all the fear will be gone. You're safe. What you're seeing isn't real. Bella" I didn't know how he stayed calm, or even stayed standing. She looked so scared. So vulnerable. And it was my fault.

He reached for the cup again and a very shaky hand pushed it closer to him. He wet his hand again and touched it to Bella's face.

Bella flinched from his wet touched and he sighed in relief when she did. Her irises moved suddenly. She looked around the room frantically, till her eyes rested on Esme. Her eyes grew wider then she flipped her gaze quickly to Damien. He released her hands slowly and touched her hair.

She squeezed her eyes close and covered her face with her hands.

"Don't cry" Damien whispered as he stroked her face. He looked at Esme and nodded to her to come to Bella. Esme, shakily, climbed on the bed beside Bella. She touched her arm and stroked it with her thumb.

Bella flipped slowly on her side and hugged Esme and buried her face in Esme's chest. Esme wrapped her arms around her and hushed her gently. Damien picked up her medicine and pulled out a pill. He emptied the cup of water that he put his hand in, in the vase and filled it with water again.

"Bella" He whispered. She lifted her tear-streaked face from Esme's chest and took the medicine from Damien without arguments.

She buried her head back in Esme's chest and hugged her tighter.

"The medicine will make her drowsy" He explained to Esme, "When she starts to get sleepy, please let her sleep" He said politely.

Esme nodded.

"I don't want to sleep" Bella whispered shakily.

"Bella, it won't do you any good if you fight it." Damien told her softly, "please don't"

"I'll come back tomorrow" Esme whispered, tucking her hair behind her ear.

Bella's head snapped up and the pain contoured on her face, "please stay. Please" She pleaded in a whisper.

"Ok, I'll stay" Esme said quickly wanting to calm her down. Esme kissed her forehead gently and Bella sighed in relief.

"Thank you" she whispered as she buried her face in Esme's chest. Esme tucked Bella's head under her chin and kept stroking her hair.

"Anything for you my daughter" She whispered.

I felt an arm wrap around my shoulder and I looked up to see Alice's tear filled eyes. She was shaking, and so was I.

"Alice, I feel so weak" I whispered to her and then I was falling.

A/N: Intense chappy! Poor Edward! Poor Bella! Poor Esme! Poor Alice! Poor me! I cried lol. Hope you liked it.

Love

Mai