.A/N: Ok guys, first I apologize for taking so long but I am currently not at my place, I'm at one of my relative's. So my access on their computer is limited. I will do my best to keep updating. I also have finals next week so…..pray for me, please :) . And also thank you for the amazing reviews, they really made me smile when there was no hope for me to feel good. These last few days were so hard, so thank you for making them better, even if you didn't know it.

This chappy is dedicated to my grandmother "Nana Nabila" Who passed away a few days ago. She was the greatest most amazing person you could ever meet. She was kind, caring, sweet, and funny. I will always love you Nanna. May you rest in peace. And may you be as happy as you made us. You will always be in my heart. I love you Nanna.

Recap:

"I'm leg paralyzed"

Memories

I'm sorry for this

I'm sorry for that

I'm sorry for everything

That I made you lack

Jasper's POV

"Y…you have………l…leg paralysis?" I stammered while I gaped at her motionless legs that were under the cover. Bella was paralyzed?? I couldn't comprehend it. I couldn't believe it. I didn't want to believe it. My throat tightened and my eyes shifted to meet hers again. Her eyes were full of tears of pain and hurt. My throat flexed and I covered my face with my hands.

"I'm so sorry" I whispered. She knew not how sorry I was. I could never be able to tell anyone how horrid I felt. I was always afraid of hurting her when I realized she was Edward's soul mate. A part of me was relieved when they pulled me away from her that day on her birthday. But now…

"Jasper" She whispered and I felt her small hot hand on mine. It was only a small touch but I knew she was doing her best to pull my hands away from my face. So I let them fall. "It's not your fault. Whatever happens to me is neither your fault nor his. It's just how life is for me." And shrugged. I felt my heart squeeze with pain for her acceptance. How could she accept this? How could she sit there and soothe her torturer? How could she be so kind and caring? How could I have harmed something so pure?

I plastered a smile on my face and nodded. I didn't want her compassion, so I gave her what she wanted. Self forgiveness, or at least that's how it seemed to her. I could never forgive and forget what happened.

She sighed and relaxed back against the headboard, "So how's Alice?" I sensed how she wanted to change the subject so I went along. I sent her some more calming waves because she was feeling a little uncomfortable.

"She missed you so much. I started to think that she loves you more than she loves me. I have a tough competition" I joked and she laughed.

"Aw, don't be jealous. I'm sure she loves you more" She giggled but it was wrong. I felt how she forced that giggle. I felt how broken she was. She was hiding, she was doing her best to forget how hurt she was. I sighed internally.

"I know. At least I thought I did" trying to keep the light atmosphere.

I had felt Carlisle's presence before his footsteps or his knock.

"Come in" She said with the fakest smile I had ever laid eyes on. Carlisle opened the door and entered with his own sincere smile. When he saw her, he had to hold his smile from falling. He could see her pain clearly on her plastered features. I calmed him too.

He came next to Bella and took her hand. "How's my lovely daughter this morning?" he said kindly. I felt her mood shift once he said that. Her own happiness flooded through both of us. If I hadn't felt it, I would've never believed how happy she could feel from being called the word "daughter" by Carlisle.

I smiled and stopped my, now, unneeded calming waves.

"Better, thank you" She said.

"You're heart beats are getting more regular. That's a good sign." He approved. She just nodded, still happy from being called his daughter.

Carlisle noticed the small medicine jar that was beside her bed. He took it in his hand and his brows furrowed.

"Bella?" He whispered. He was cautious and confused.

She looked at him and once she spotted the medication in his hands, she gulped and held her breath. "y…yes?"

"Was this prescribed to you or did a friend recommend it?" He asked and I knew he was hoping that it would be a recommendation that made her take it.

"A…a friend recommended…i…it" She whispered.

"Lie" I said as I felt it. Her emotions were panicking, I couldn't calm them down.

Carlisle looked at me then back to Bella, "Bella? You have epilepsy?" It came out as a question. Bella averted her gaze and stared at the wall opposite her bed. She didn't answer. She just kept staring ahead. She was going to break down and cry. I could feel it. I could also feel her desire to hide.

"You….you have seizures??" He whispered appalled.

Bella's eyes fell closed with her tears. She still didn't answer.

Carlisle's feelings started to get more horrified by the second. He stood up and his eyes examined her from head to toe, "Epilepsy….seizures….then…." he mumbled to himself and then his eyes fell on her stretched legs and stayed there.

"M…move your legs Bella" He whispered strangled. I knew he wasn't expecting a movement. I shook my head to him and his eyes widened.

"I can't" Bella barely whispered and I touched her hand. Her tears fell silently as Carlisle took all that in.

She opened her wet, pain-filled eyes and looked at Carlisle's shocked face. "Edward doesn't know" She croaked and he understood what that meant. That Edward shouldn't know.

Carlisle gulped and nodded slowly, "W…why didn't you tell me?" I could feel how hurt he was that she didn't trust him with something as big as this.

"I…I w…wasn't looking for your sympathy or compassion Carlisle. I didn't want you to consider me as your daughter just because you feel bad for me" She mumbled as she stared at her hand.

"No Bella, I've always considered you as my daughter. How could you think that way?" he whispered, "but that doesn't matter now. What matters is that you need to be cured. I'm no expert in these fields. Psychological diseases weren't my passion but I need to learn about them now" He mostly talked to himself.

Bella closed her eyes and sob escaped her, "There's no need for all that Carlisle. Nothing can be done"

"hush, so not say that. Could you just give me the number of your doctor. I need to be fully aware of your situation" He said quickly.

I felt her doubt but she wasn't shying away from the help. "Just as long as Edward is kept in the dark about this" She whispered firmly.

Carlisle took his time to think this through. He didn't want Edward hurt and in the same time he felt like this was too important to hide it from him. After a few moments of feeling his struggle he consented to her wish.

She gave him the number and he departed.

"Why did you tell him that it was a lie?" she asked once Carlisle was out.

"I promised that I wouldn't tell Edward. Not Carlisle. Besides, I don't trust and doctor apart from Carlisle. So whatever your doctor says, means nothing to me if wasn't confirmed by Carlisle." I said honestly. I left out the part where I felt that it was my duty to fix her since I was the one who broke her.

Damien's POV

After I had left Edward I went to my place. I needed some time to rest from all the drama. Edward and Bella's situation was……annoying. I mean, they both love each other, why do they have to complicate things??

I hated Edward at first. From the first moment Bella told me about him. But now, I realize that I've never been more mistaken in my life. Edward was a good guy and he deserved Bella, just like she deserved him. He just happens to think in an odd, half-crazy, too-sacrificing kind of way.

When I saw him, he looked familiar. I tried to remember where I had seen him before but couldn't. I've seen billions pf faces in my hundred years. But it was strange that my vampire memory couldn't recall him. But I jus shrugged it off.

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"momma, momma" a baby boy giggled as he rolled on the floor in his diaper.

A tall lady came and picked up the boy from the floor, as she laughed, "yes dear? I'm here" Her face was somewhat blurry and wasn't as clear as he boy's face or the surrounding furniture.

"Momma, pwetty. Momma, pwetty" The young boy chanted between his giggles, as he pulled a strand of her smooth hair.

I didn't understand what was going on. Was this a vision?

I stared at the baby boy in the woman's arms and gasped. The baby was me.

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What was that? A flashback? From my human life? When I was two?? But how?

I've spent years trying to remember anything. I tried to pull back the flashback, tried to see the woman's……I mean, my mother's face. My heart ached to do so. But I couldn't. She was so unclear. There was no hope of seeing her face. But even though I couldn't see her face, I felt the warmth of her presence. Her presence in my memory. That alone, was enough to make me smile in hell.

A/N: Ok so I'm starting to go back to the riddle. :D any ideas???

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