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Recap:

"Bella…" Angela started

"Please Angela. Not now" I whispered. Enough pain for today. Enough!

Illusion?

What is that I hear?

It was too real, too near

An illusion, may it be

Or did my sanity finally flee?

EPOV

It was getting darker in the forest. The cold wind of the night caressed my face, carrying the scent of wet mud and mixed leaves. The scents mixed in the air creating a calming atmosphere. I was leaning against a tree as I watched twilight.

Twilight was when the sun touched the earth. A soft touch as it said it's goodbye. A short farewell till the next day dawns. You could see the orange and blue sky and you could see the dark earth. Two very different scenes, yet they were combined in one vision.

It was the same for me. I wanted Bella back and Damien was right. I should fight for her. And I will. But I didn't know how. How could I win her back? She doesn't even wish to see me. If she did she would have asked any of my brothers or sisters. She could've called me. But she did neither.

So here I am now. I have two choices. Either let her be. Let her go. Leave her to live her human life, grow up, love some one else. Get married, have children….forget about me. I cringed……That was my mind's opinion

Or I could try again. Show her that she could trust me again. Earn it again. Show her that I could make her happy again. Be her Edward and have her as my Bella again. I sighed hopefully……That was my heart's opinion.

So there it was. The twilight of my decision. Where my mind meets my heart. But my mind decided to bid my heart farewell, giving my heart another chance. Maybe, just maybe…I could fix things again.

I stood up and started running back to the hospital, with a new hope. A new mission. My mission was to win Bella back. Something that I would not rest till I have achieved.

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"Aw, Emily! You could be a little more gentle" Bella whined as Emily combed her hair. Her hair was wet and shiny. It dripped on her bed but Angela was trying to dry it from the water.

I smiled at the sight of her. She looked so beautiful with her hair clinging to her that way.

"Well, if you stopped moving your head it won't hurt you so much" Emily said hiding a smile. She kept assaulting her hair with a brush. Bella huffed.

"You know, I am perfectly capable of combing myself"

"Do you call what you do to your hair combing? Honey, when we're done with you, you'll look like a princess" To my astonishment, it was Alice who said this. Her voice came from the bathroom on the right of the room.

She came out, actually skipped out holding a small mirror and scissors. She seemed to sense my presence, she looked my way quickly and smiled. I did my best to smile back but I don't think it came out the appropriate way.

She hopped onto Bella's bed, "excuse me girls. She's all mine now"

Bella feigned a look of fear, "should I be afraid?"

"Definitely" Alice grinned wickedly and all the girls laughed, surprisingly I joined them. I settled more comfortably on the branch, preparing to be entertained.

Emily and Angela left Bella's bed and stood beside each other, inspecting. "What do you think, girls? Should we go for degradez, or uneven parted?" Alice mused cocking her head as she stared at Bella. Of course, for me, it was like she was speaking a foreign language. I had no idea, whatsoever, about female haircuts.

"oooh definitely uneven parted" Emily said jumping.

"oh and how about a side bang?" Angela suggested.

The three of them stared at her seriously, and Bella seemed to not understand a word they were saying.

"Definitely" the three of them said at once. Bella rolled her eyes. I smiled, that's my Bella.

"Look, do whatever you want just as long as you keep it long." She instructed.

"Show me a limit" Alice said.

Bella lifted her hand and looked down at her hair that was almost on her lap. She put her index finger just in the middle of her forearm. "No shorter than that"

"Cool with me" Alice shrugged.

At least she's not like before. She listens now.

I froze. It couldn't be. How could it have been….. No. I can not hear Bella's mind. But that certainly wasn't Angela, Emily, or Alice's mind. It was her! Her voice even. But how? Since when? I gaped at Bella with my mouth hanging open. I tried to push against the barrier of her mind like I have done a million times before. But I couldn't get past it. Then how come I……?

I shook my head violently. Was I imagining this? Was this an illusion? Was my mind trying to give me one of the things I craved?

I tried again to pass through her shield but there was no success. She was silent as always.

I ran my hand through my hair and blinked several times. Was I finally cracking? Did her love actually drove me to the point of madness I have feared?

I watched as Alice hovered over her and started clipping her hair from different sides that made no sense. But I was barely registering what was happening in front of me. I was lost in my own train of thought. My mind was racing. I tried again, and again, and again. Trying hopelessly to hear her again but there was nothing.

"What's going on?" I found myself whispering out loud to myself.

"Alice" Bella warned when Alice was nearing her limit.

She'd better not pass that. Again! I heard it again! I can't be mental…Can I?

"Don't worry" Alice mumbled.

I was losing my mind. I tuned out everyone around me and concentrated on nothing but Bella's hidden thoughts. My hands clenched into fists and my body stilled completely. Every ounce of my concentration was on her. I felt my body shake slightly from the effort but I didn't care. I had to mae sure, if I was really mental or if I could actually hear her.

"Almost done" Alice said as she moved to Bella's bang.

Finally

Aha! I heard it!

No illusion!

I did hear her, and I couldn't question it. It rang clear in my head. As clear as Debussy in the silence. But how? And why now?

"How thick do you want it?" Alice asked as she picked up some of Bella's hair for her bang.

"um not too thick" She mused. Alice nodded and started dividing her upper hair.

I was still too amazed to pay them any attention. I could hear her! Now I could know exactly how to make her happy and………

I felt ashamed for being happy over her inability to have any privacy. I shouldn't try again. I should leave her what she likes. I sighed, Couldn't I enjoy one thing, just one thing without any conflicts?? Was that too much to ask?

"Done" Alice squealed and she shoved the mirror in Bella's hands who held it in front her face. I couldn't see her yet. The mirror blocked her face from my view.

"Oh my God. Girls you're amazing. Thank you so much" Bella gasped.

"Show us!" Emily and Angela said excitedly.

Slowly Bella let the mirror down, revealing the most stunning thing I have ever seen. My mind went blank and I lost all coherency once I saw her.

I couldn't tell what made her look more beautiful but she certainly did. Her hair locks were cut in uneven lengths. The longest was the limit Bella gave. Some of the locks were too short that they weren't tangled with the rest of her hair, but standing out with a slight curl in the end. The bang was just above her eyelashes. Falling on one side of her face. It made her face look rounder and her eyes looked wider.

She looked statuesque. I was sure that if she were in my time, she wouldn't have needed a ball to find a husband. She would have had ever man in the country asking for her hand just by looking out of her window.

You can thank me later Alice thought proudly.

I couldn't concentrate enough to answer her, I was still lost in my sea of unintelligible thoughts.

Only one thing could break through my haze right now.

What would've Edward thought? She thought sadly and I saw her small wince.

My flinch wasn't small.

One disadvantage came from being able to get into her beautiful mind. Yes, I could know exactly what made her happy, and see exactly how happy she would be when I did it. But I could also see exactly how hurt she was. And I was too weak to handle that.

A/N: surprise surprise, Edward reads Bella's mind. How? Is that permanent? Will he find out about Bella? All that will be revealed…….yes, you said it. LATER lol. Hope I made up for last chappy.

Abby: I liked writing that part too lol. Thank you!

Love

Mai