Destiny

Chapter 7

"Yes" I murmured. "Yes, I see you as a brother. Is that so bad?"

"No" he said shaking his head as if trying to dislodge a bad thought.

"Then what's wrong? Don't you think we're close like that?" I was trying to keep my voice level and quiet. It was not a good time to create another scene but something's wrong with him, seriously wrong. It's so obvious he's losing it, what I have no idea what "it" is!

What has he possibly lost that's making him freak out like this?

His mum?

Why did I mention her? I should have known better than that. But how was I meant to know he'd read the notebook? It's his own fault, really.

"No," he said regaining his composure, smoothing over his features and controlling the rage that had lit up his eyes.

I knew it. He doesn't think we're that close. He must think I'm a total loser for even saying-

"We're much closer than that" a new kind of ferocity rekindled in his eyes, an urgency that I couldn't quite understand shook his hands and the sincerity of his feelings made me smile.

"Yes, we are. Friends are much closer than brothers and sister; best friends, even. Friends forever."

And just like that, the fire died; the urgency whooshed out of his mouth in a low hiss that sounded like "shit".

"Pardon?" I gasped, alarmed.

His eyes moved from my face back to his jotter. "Friends," he said, smiling. I couldn't see his eyes. They were closed in a serene mask that was covering up a storm I couldn't see or understand.

A storm I had somehow, without meaning to or even realising it, created.

Well isn't that just grand?

The girl is a total moron! You'd think that someone who had as good grades as she did would realise when someone is so obviously in love with her.

But that's typical Bella. She's so busy being all gooey and focused on Jacob; she's missing the pain she's causing Edward. And he's so busy being focused on her; he doesn't realise the pain he's causing me.

Well woop-dee-do.! Who said love triangles weren't fun? It's all wonderful and romantic for Bella; she's got Edward and Jacob to choose from but even though she's an idiot for choosing Jacob, at least Edward is eligible.

But even still, who do I have? Absolutely no one. I can paste Tanya Denali for Mr. Nobody all over my jotters when I'm itching to write Edward Cullen by my name.

Tanya Cullen.

Has a nice ring to it I think. But that's in a parallel universe. That's impossible.

That's not my destiny and the sooner I come to terms with that, the sooner I can move on.

Poor Edward though, he's well and truly stuck in the mud that some people call love.

Math's is finished and I'm still trying to figure out what had Edward so worked up. Him and Tanya are acting quiet which is really out of sorts. Oh well, they'll get over it, whatever it is...

But never mind them. Here comes Jacob.

"Happy anniversary" I smiled, determined to say it before he did.

"Ahh, she remembers," he crooned.

Edward made a noise in the back of his throat as Jacob ducked down to kiss me lightly on the lips. (we haven't had a proper first kiss yet, but it's bound to be soon) We both turned to stare at him but he was already stalking away. Tanya gave me a look that just didn't make sense. It seemed quite incredulous but it also looked like she was... angry with me?

She regarded me with the funny look for a moment before pivoting round and skipping to catch up with Edward. She linked arms with him and rested her head on his shoulder. He looked down at her and I could see a smile play across his face before they both disappeared around the corner.

Usually the three of us would link arms, three amigos, three musketeers, three parts of a whole.

But they were gone.

I felt something bubble up inside me and hot shivers shook my body beneath Jacobs hands.

"You cold?" he asked.

I nodded uncertainly as he wrapped his arms around me.

What was that feeling? I couldn't put a name on it, but it felt important...

Jealousy? No, it couldn't be. Why would I be jealous? Jealous of what? Jealous of who? Edward? Tanya? For what?

I was just being silly, allowing my thoughts to twist and writhe into something nonsensical.

I have Jacob. He is everything.

ooh, its getting exciting (i hope)

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