Sorry for how long it took me to update. was very busy.

Hope you enjoy the next installement.

Destiny

Chapter 18

Unbelievable! Un-bloody-believable! Has the whole world gone fucking mad? It sure feels that way!

"What the hell do you think you're doing?" I hear myself yell. I think I'm having what's called an out of body experience, as if the total rage and disbelief just built up till it was enough to push my thoughts out of my body.

"I believe that I was kissing Jacob." Tanya said sharply. The smile she'd just given me had been wiped off her face and been replaced with a grimace that made me think Tanya hadn't enjoyed admitting her act out loud. Especially to me. It made me think it was an act of revenge. I clenched my fists and grit my teeth. What a shitty little bitch.

Jacob, who had turned to face me now, was eyeing me up warily. I wondered how I looked: Fierce? Angry? Murderous? I smiled at the last option: murderous. It was definitely how I felt.

But as soon as the images entered my head I got rid of them. I had to try and keep my cool, though I guess I'd already lost it anyway.

"I noticed you were kissing" I replied calmly- calm before the storm- "And I was wondering why?"

They both stared at me cautiously. They didn't answer. I attempted patience and composure for Bella's sake.

Tick tock. Tick tock.

Gone.

Time's up.

Any patience I had managed to muster in that brief micro-second had gone. Vanished. I felt myself come undone as I stepped out of my more composed self.

"Why?!" I roared. I was shaking, my nails dug into my palms but I ignored the stab of pain. It was irrelevant.

"Because," Tanya hissed, her eyes now slits, "I wanted to fell something! I wanted to feel loved. While you're spending all your time at Bella's bedside I'm here wishing she had just died so you could be as miserable as me!" As she spat the words out, her eyes widened. Her hand twitched as if she wanted to cram them back into her mouth and swallow them whole, but it was too late. She'd said them. She froze at the same time Jacob and I did. Her voice was reduced to a whisper as she gasped, "I... I didn't... she... sorry...I- I'm sorry."

Even Jacob stared at her with disgust and flinched away. So he had one moral fibre in his body. It still wasn't enough.

"You," I seethed, turning on him as Tanya stared at nothing and continued to spew inarticulate sentences that did nothing but make my hand twitch to slap her. "You were kissing Tanya the week after your girlfriend nearly died? Not only that, but you told her you saved her life! You lied to her! Give me one good reason not to rip you a part right here, right now!"

I honestly didn't think he could give me even a fraction of a good reason so I stalked towards him, preparing myself to hurt him on the outside even more than he had killed me on the inside. His eyes widened in fear and he looked as if he was about to tense himself for a fight but then his shoulders drooped and his head slumped forward and he muttered, "She dumped me."

I froze, attempting to squash the hope that had just escaped from the Pandora's box I'd locked it in for so long.

"She wha-?" I spluttered.

"She dumped me, ok?" He stated fiercely

"Ok? Of course it's bloody OK! It's fantastic! It's fucking brilliant!" I exclaimed. I was trying not to get ahead of myself. I still didn't know why she had dumped him. I was usually so good at controlling my emotions but the turbulence of them and the intensity of them as they hit me in waves were too much to reign in. I felt so torn: a part of me wanted to jump for joy while another part was still itching to punch Jacob. I felt very much inclined to give into the "punch Jacob" part which would trigger the "jump for joy" part but I somehow restrained myself. I wanted to hear why. I needed to know what Bella had finally realised that drove her to dump Jacob.

Jacob glared at me. His fear must have gone as soon as he saw my immediate anger fade away. "You think I'm a liar?" He asked.

"Absolutely." I answered, euphoria still clear on my face. I really couldn't muster the will power to catch the newly freed hope and lock it away again.

"You are too!" he accused as he jabbed his finger in my direction. "She thinks you don't swear at all. She totally admires you for it. She thinks it's because of your mum. You're a bigger liar than me. You've deceived her for years, you've made her look up to you while in actual fact you're just a worthless piece of shit who won't admit it!"

I just gaped at him. The joy I'd felt turned to anger as he rekindled my rage. The absolute ridiculousness of such an accusation is unbelievable. "How the hell does that make me a liar? I'm trying to be a better person for her sake. You just happen to bring out the worst in me! You're the one who spews lots of rubbish at her and told her you saved her life. I'm so happy she finally saw through your charade and broke up with you." I took a deep breath and fixed my glare on Tanya who had been watching the confrontation silently. "And you, no matter why Bella broke up with Jacob, you thought it was a good idea to pull him the next day? I was sorry I hurt you before but now I don't think I hurt you enough! You wished Bella had died? You actually wanted her dead just so that I would be miserable? You got that so wrong! I wouldn't be miserable. I would be dead too. Like Heathcliff and Cathy, or Romeo and Juliet, I couldn't live without her! You basically just said you wished I was dead!" I panted slightly as I finished, practically spitting my words at her. I took satisfaction from the tears that slowly built up in her eyes. She should be sorry. Her words had cut me to the core; she deserves pain for what she said!

Jacob wore a disgusted expression again and I knew it was a murky reflection of mine. The three of us were silent, just waiting for the next move when I saw Tanya's eyes flicker over and beyond my shoulder and I saw her make a quick resolution. It confused me, the sudden glint of determination made no sense.

And then she sprang at me, grabbed my face in her hands and smothered my lips with hers. She tasted of tears and longing but it was a bitter taste. It made me feel sick. It reminded me of every time I looked at Bella when she was with Jacob. Tanya tasted like my pain. I froze, and then tore her off me. She fell to the ground and burst into tears. I stared at her, dumbfounded.

And then I heard the voice I love most in the world, but it was twisted and strangled. "Edward? What's going on?"

Oh fuck!

Oh for petes sake, when will all the flipping drama end?

Find out by reading on (when i get around to updating)

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