I do not own the characters or copyright to Dirty 's Note: This chapter takes place one month after Johnny and Baby arrived at Kellermans. I am moving towards the last few chapters of my story. I hope everyone reading enjoys it. Nickibell
Baby's point of view: Baby's letter.
I cannot bring myself to tell Johnny, I have to go back to New York. I wish I could just stay here with him forever but, I have a few things I have to take care of. I have to finish up eleven classes; I had signed a contract with Julliard to do. After that I will try to come back to Kellermans and stay here with Johnny. If i can still do it. I am just so confused. I hope after I go back to New york everything falls into place and I can come back to my Johnny. I cannot bear to tell him, so now I sit here with a pen and paper to leave him a letter. I have to leave in the morning. I will make tonight more special than any other we have ever had. I hope he understands. I am going to tell Jamie about this later. She will understand more than anyone else ever would. I plan to ride back with Jamie. The last few weeks have been more than I could have ever dreamed of. I still get butterflies every time I see Johnny. He is my love, heart and soul. Things with the remodel have also been going well. Johnny had gotten his uncle to come and help and about twenty other guys he knew. Neil and Johnny are so proud of how they are going to turn this place around. Dam I need to write this letter before he gets back, time to quit thinking about the last month.
Baby sat there a few minutes and then she began to write. The letter she was writing is one of the hardest things she had to do in a long time. Soon all the words came to her and she began to write her heart and soul.
Dear Johnny,
I cannot bear to tell you this face to face. So I am writing you this letter. By the time this reaches you, I will be gone. Don't worry I will be back. I have to go back to New York for a month, maybe longer. I have some things at Julliard I need to take care of. I also need to pack up my apartment. I know you said Penny would do it but, I really need to be the one to. I need to go back and say goodbye to my old life, then I know for a 100% fact there will be no regrets. I hope you understand my love, why I cannot do this face to face. It would just be too hard and then I could not do what I need to. I promise to you I will come back. Johnny I need to tell you, ever since the first time I laid eyes on you I felt something for you. After that summer of 63 I knew that you were the one for me. Then in 1964 I walked away with a broken heart. If I had just listened to you, we might have never split up. This is something that has been weighing heavy on my mind. I should have had enough faith and trust in you to believe you, for that I can only say I am truly sorry. I know you said, you had the same dreams as I do but, I have to admit I am not willing to wait any longer for them. So I am going to New York and when I come back I want our future to start. I am not trying to force you into anything. I am not saying we have to get married and have children as soon as I return but, I want you to know how long and a time table of when it will happen for us. Johnny I am not trying to be mean, I just want to know when I wake up in the morning it is forever. You touch me in so many ways. You have made me complete. I love you more and more every day. Johnny, you are my heart, soul, my sun, moon and stars. Most of all the reason I get up in the morning. I will see you soon. Please do not be mad, and understand I have my reasons for this. I have to do this. I will explain the rest when I return.
Love you always and forever,
Baby
Baby laid the pen down on the table. Then she folded the letter up and put it in an envelope. She put in her purse till it would be time to leave it for Johnny. Baby laid on the bed a minute thinking to herself.
Baby's thoughts: I know I am doing the right thing. I just need to deal with things and have time to think. I know Johnny will understand, he has to know no matter what. he just has to. I am just a little scared that's all; I just need a little time that's all.
Baby actually for once in her life was a nervous. She was trying to run away and from what really was wrong. Now what was really bothering her happened a few weeks ago.
Flashback two weeks ago:
Johnny was so pleased Baby was staying at Kellerman's with him. Everything with the remodel was going great. Johnny's uncle sent a great crew to do the work and for really good place. His uncle was there too and that even made Johnny more only thing that bothered Johnny was; the fact Baby was being very distant. She was not herself at all but, Johnny just blew it off, that she was just nervous about her life changing. She would be ok; she was here with him. Johnny was so happy Baby's family had accepted him, gave them their blessing. Everything in his life was more perfect than it ever could be. Baby had been happy to spend time with her family. The family dinners, games and dances were wonderful. Lisa, Baby, Alisa and Marge had so much fun hanging out and having girl time. Neil, Johnny and Jake spent most of their time with the remodel, which was coming along marvelous. The new Kellermans was going to be the best vacation spot around. Everyone was a little sad it would be coming to an end soon. Marge, Jake and Alisa would be leaving soon. Jamie and Mark would be there to get Abbey. Everyone would go back to their lives, everyone but Baby. Baby really did not know if Kellermans was where she wanted to stay. She only agreed because, she did not want to lose Johnny. I mean she loved it there but, it was not the same anymore. The passion that it once had held there, between Johnny and her seemed to be slipping away. It was not the same after what happened in 1964 and it seemed to be tainted by things that took place that summer. That's when she decided she was going back to New York. She was going back to take care of some important business. She had to anyway to finish up her classes she had a contracted to do, she just was not sure she'd come back. Not because she didn't love Johnny or want to be with him. Because she was afraid she would screw things up somehow. Baby was still dealing with the fact she believed Penny over Johnny, when she should have trusted him to begin with. Baby put on a good front no one seen what was going on, not even Johnny. Baby was thinking of running away from her problems other than dealing with them.
The day and night before Baby leaves:
Jamie and Mark had arrived to pick up Abbey. They would stay till morning. Everyone spent the day together talking, playing cards, swimming in the lake, Golfing and relaxing. It was like a big party. Soon it was time for dinner. Everyone sat down to eat the fabulous meal Marge had prepared. They all enjoyed the meal and thanked Marge for her good cooking. Marge, Jake and Alisa went to pack after dinner. Alisa told Baby she would see her later before she went sleep, so that they could talk. Johnny and Neil went back to the office, to finish up a few things. Johnny told Baby he would not be too late. Baby told him she needed to talk with Jamie anyway. He told her he would see her later and gave her a kiss.
Mark went to see if he could help Neil and Johnny. He Kissed Jamie and told her he would be back shortly. Lisa told Baby, she was tired and needed to put the kids to bed. Baby told her that was fine. Lisa said, yeah since you will be living here now, we will have plenty of time together. Sure Lisa we will, Baby replied. Soon it was just Baby and Jamie. Jamie told Baby, about her honeymoon. Baby loved hearing about it. After that Jamie took Abbey inside and put her to bed. After Abbey was asleep, Jamie came back outside to see Baby crying. Jamie asked Baby, what was wrong. Baby explained about going back to New York. She asked Jamie, if she could ride back with Mark and her. Jamie said, if that is what you want. I am your friend, I will support whatever you want, Jamie replied. That is want I need to do Jamie, I have a lot of things I need to sort out, and then I am sure I will come back. I love Johnny; I just need to come to terms with the things that are in the past. Like I told you I have to do this, Baby said in a sad voice. Jamie said, are you sure you're not running away. Why don't you just talk to Johnny about it? I am sure that you can work this out, Jamie replied. Baby handed the letter to Jamie and told her to read it. Jamie read the letter and then handed it back to Baby. This is how you are going to tell him; in a dam Dear John letter. Baby I know this is your choice but, in a letter? I know you might need your time but, what if it is too late for Johnny and you when you come back. Jamie said, in an angry voice. I did not tell you all of this for you to get mad; I have to do this my way. Jamie, Johnny will understand and if he doesn't than it was never meant to be, Baby told her with tears running down her face. Jamie told her, she thought she was running away. Baby said, I just have unfinished business, now let's drop it. OK baby, I guess I will see you in the morning, 5 am OK, Jamie replied. 5 am that's good for me, Baby said. Jamie went in to go to bed wondering, what the hell was wrong with Baby. Jamie was sure she would know more once they got to New York. Baby went on to the cabin to wait for Johnny. Baby lit some candles and put a record in the record player. Soon Johnny walked in wondering what Baby had planned. Baby walked over and turned the record on. The song Cry to me came on; that was their song, the one they first made love too. Baby was going to make this a night to remember.
Baby: Dance with me.
Johnny: What here?
Baby: Here.
Johnny: Baby this is just like our first time.
Baby: I know and I want it to feel like we are back in 1963.
Johnny: OK anything for you.
Baby walked over to Johnny and began to dance with him. They moved their hips back and forth, just like they had in 1963. Baby walked behind Johnny kissing his back and then grabbing his butt. Then moving back around to the front of him kissing him, with all the desire she held inside of her. Then Johnny slipped her shirt off and they went back to dirty dancing. You could see the flames of desire in every move they made. When they touched each other, it was if they were an explosion to add to the fiery passion they had unleashed. After the song ended Johnny picked Baby up and laid her on the bed. Then he began to slowly remove the rest of her clothes. Baby then took Johnny's off as well. He got on top of her slowly caressing her body in every way. Baby screamed aloud with the sound of pure pleasure. This time was different than any before, the passion that was going on was like none either of them ever knew existed. Baby, knew inside after tonight leaving Johnny tomorrow would be the hardest thing she would ever do. Tonight however would be a night of passion, desire, love and complete satisfaction, that it was and so much more. Baby laid there in Johnny's arms until he fell asleep. It was now 4am,so she would have to leave in an hour; she dreads that after the night they just had. She knew that his last memory with her would be amazing though; after what they had shared tonight.
Baby slipped out from under Johnny's arms without waking him. She went over to the closet and grabbed her bags. She sent them down long enough to place the letter on the nightstand beside the bed. She kissed Johnny on the check lightly, so she would not wake him and walked out the door. She had tears in her eyes but, she knew then she had to go. Really she was running but, to the unfinished business; she had to face back in New York.
Jamie and Mark were packing the car and Baby walked over to put her bags in the trunk. Alisa awoke to see Baby getting in the car. She ran out of the yelling Baby's name. Baby got out and went up to Alisa and told her she was leaving. Not to worry she would be back. Alisa told her ok; not understanding what was going on. Baby, Mark, Jamie and Abbey drove off. Baby cried most of the way back. When they arrived in New York four hours later; Mark dropped Baby at her apartment. Baby went inside and cried a while. Then it came to her what she had to do. What she had to do to make it back to Johnny. To make her dreams come true.
Johnny awoke at 8am to find Baby gone. He looked over at the nightstand and seen the envelope with his name on it. Johnny began to read the letter. All of a sudden tears filled his eyes. When he finished the letter he got up and decided to go tell her family what was going on. He now understood why Baby had made last night so special. He just knew he was now going to find her and fix whatever had gone wrong; he knew there was more to the story. He was going to bring her back to him no matter what it took. Johnny would not let her go so easy this time.
Johnny yelled out loud; why Baby, why the hell you are you doing this. I am going to show you we belong together if it kills me, I promise that now and forever.
Johnny then went and got dressed to go and tell everyone else what was going on. Hopefully someone would know what the hell was going on.
I have 3 more chapters left I am working on. Sorry for all the drama but, this just another part of the story. Leave comments bad or good. Thanks to everyone who is reading this. Enjoy Nickibell